Fanny - Fanny
I sit down to give you an undeniable proof of my considering your desires as indispensable orders.
undeniable - unbestreitbar
indispensable - unverzichtbar; ausnahmlos, grundsätzlich, unabdingbar
Ungracious then as the task may be, I shall recall to view those scandalous stages of my life, out of which I emerged, at length, to the enjoyment of every blessing in the power of love, health and fortune to bestow; whilst yet in the flower of youth, and not too late to employ the leisure afforded me by great ease and affluence, to cultivate an understanding, naturally not a despicable one, and which had, even amidst the whirl of loose pleasures I had been tossed in, exerted more observation on the characters and manners of the world than what is common to those of my unhappy profession, who, looking on all though or reflection as their capital enemy, keep it at as great a distance as they can, or destroy it without mercy.
ungracious - ungnädig
scandalous - skandalös
enjoyment - Genuss, Vergnügen
bestow - verstauen, einlagern, unterbringen, schenken, verleihen
affluence - Überfluss, Reichtum, Wohlstand
despicable - verachtenswert, gemein, niederträchtig, verabscheuungswürdig
amidst - inmitten von
whirl - wirbeln, lschnell, Wirbeln, Wirbel, Trubel, Durcheinander
Hating, as I mortally do, all long unnecessary prefaces, I shall give you good quarter in this, and use no farther apology, than to prepare you for seeing the loose part of my life, written with the same liberty that I led it.
mortally - tödlich; sterbliche
prefaces - Vorworte; Vorwort
Truth! stark, naked truth, is the word; and I will not so much as take the pains to bestow the strip of a gauze wrapper on it, but paint situations such as they actually rose to me in nature, careless of violating those laws of decency that were never made for such unreserved intimacies as ours; and you have too much sense, too much knowledge of the originals, to sniff prudishly and out of character at the pictures of them.
gauze - Gaze, Mullbinde
decency - Anstand
unreserved - ohne Vorbehalt
intimacies - Intimitäten; Intimität
sniff - schnüffeln, züngeln (for reptiles)
prudishly - zimperliche
The greatest men, those of the first and most leading taste, will not scruple adorning their private closets with nudities, though, in compliance with vulgar prejudices, they may not think them decent decorations of the staircase, or salon.
scruple - Skrupel
adorning - schmücken, zieren, verzieren
closets - Schränke; Schrank, Wandschrank, Kammer, Abstellkammer, Ankleide
nudities - Nacktheit
vulgar - vulgär, unfein, ungebildet, unanständig
staircase - Treppe
salon - Salon, Halle, Saal, Schönheitssalon
This, and enough, premised, I go souse into my personal history. My maiden name was Frances Hill. I was born at a small village near Liverpool, in Lancashire, of parents extremely poor, and, I piously believe, extremely honest.
souse - eintauchen
maiden - Jungfrau
Liverpool - Liverpool, Liverpool
piously - fromm, fromme
My father, who had received a maim on his limbs, that disabled him from following the more laborious branches of country drudgery, got, by making nets, a scanty subsistence, which was not much enlarged by my mother's keeping a little day-school for the girls in her neighborhood. They had had several children; but none lived to any age except myself, who had received from nature a constitution perfectly healthy.
maim - verstümmeln, verschandeln
laborious - mühsam
drudgery - Plackerei
scanty - spärlich; dürftig, kärglich, knapp
subsistence - Auskommen, Lebensunterhalt
enlarged - vergrößert; vergrößern
neighborhood - Nachbarschaft, Umgebung, Kiez, Viertel
My poor mother had divided her time so entirely between her scholars and her little domestic cares, that she had spared very little to my instruction, having, from her own innocence from all ill, no hint or thought of guarding me against any.
innocence - Unschuld; Harmlosigkeit
I was now entering on my fifteenth year, when the worst of ills befell me in the loss of my fond, tender parents, who were both carried off by the small-pox, within a few days of each other; my father dying first, and thereby by hastening the death of my mother: so that I was now left an unhappy friendless orphan (for my father's coming to settle there, was accidental, he being originally a Kentisrman). That cruel distemper which had proved so fatal to them, had indeed seized me, but with such mild and favourable symptoms, that I was presently out of danger, and what then I did not know the value of, was entirely unmarked I skip over here an account of the natural grief and affliction which I felt on this melancholy occasion.
Fifteenth - fünfzehnte
befell - geschah; befallen, zustoßen, hereinbrechen, widerfahren
pox - Pocken
dying - (to die) sterben, umkommen; (dye) (to die) sterben, umkommen
hastening - eilig; hasten, beeilen
friendless - freundlos
orphan - Waisenkind; Waise
accidental - versehentlich, zufällig, Zufall, Versehen
distemper - Staupe
unmarked - unmarkiert
affliction - Bedrängnis; Leiden, Behinderung
melancholy - Melancholie, Schwermut, Wehmut
A little time, and the giddiness of that age, dissipated too soon my reflections on that irreparable loss; but nothing contributed more to reconcile me to it, than the notions that were immediately put into my head, of going to London, and looking out for a service, in which I was promised all assistance and advice from one Esther Davis, a young woman that had beer down to see her friends, and who, after the stay of a few days, was returned to her place.
giddiness - Schwindelgefühle; Schwindel, Leichtsinn
dissipated - verpufft; zerstreuen, zerteilen, verscheuchen, lösen, abbauen
irreparable - irreparabel
reconcile - versöhnen
Esther - Esther, Esther, Ester, Esther
Nor did Esther Davis a little comfort and inspirit me to venture with her, by piquing my childish curiosity with the fine sights that were to be seen in London: the Tombs, the Lions, the King, the Royal Family, the fine Plays and Operas, and, in short, all the diversions which fell within her sphere of life to come at; the detail of all which perfectly turned the little head of me.
inspirit - beleben
piquing - Pikieren; reizen
childish - kindgerecht; kindisch
tombs - Gräber; Grabmal
diversions - Ablenkungen; Ablenkung, Ablenkungsmanöver
Nor can I remember, without laughing, the innocent admiration, not without a spice of envy, with which we poor girls, whose church-going clothes did not rise above dowlas shifts and stuff gowns, beplaced with silver: all which we imagined grew in London, and entered for a great deal into my determination of trying to come in for my share of them.
admiration - Bewunderung
envy - Neid; beneiden
church-going - (church-going) Kirchgang
beplaced - platziert werden
The idea however of having the company of a towns-woman with her, was the trivial, and all the motives that engaged Esther to take charge of me during my journey to town, where she told me, after the manner and style, "as how several maids out of the country had made themselves and all their kind for ever: that by preserving their virtue, some had taken so with their masters, that they had married them, and kept them coaches, and lived vastly grand and happy; and some, may-hap, came to be Duchesses; luck was all, and why not I, as well as another?"; with other almanacs to this purpose, which set me a tip-toe to begin this promising journey, and to leave a place which, though my native one, contained no relations that I had reason to regret, and was grown insupportable to me, from the change of the tenderest usage into a cold air of charity, with which I was entertained, even at the only friend's house that I had the least expectation of care and protection from.
trivial - unbedeutend, bedeutungslos, belanglos, geringfügig, trivial
maids - Dienstmädchen; Mädchen
vastly - erheblich, ungeheuer
hap - Zufall
duchesses - Herzoginnen; Herzogin, Herzogin
almanacs - Almanache; Almanach
insupportable - untragbar
She was, however, so just to me, as to manage the turning into money the little matters that remained to me after the debts and burial charges were allowed for, and, at my departure, put my whole fortune into my hands; which consisted of a very slender wardrobe, packed up in a very portable box, and eight guineas, with seventeen shillings in silver, stowed in a spring-pouch, which was a greater treasure than I ever had seen together, and which I could not conceive there was a possibility of running out; and indeed, I was so entirely taken up with the joy of seeing myself mistress of such an immence sum, that I gave very little attention to a world of good advice which was given me with it.
slender - schlank
wardrobe - Garderobe, Kleiderschrank
Portable - portabel, tragbar
guineas - Guinea
shillings - Schillinge; Schilling, alte britische Münze im Wert von 5 Pence
stowed - verstaut; packen (verstauen)
pouch - Beutel
Mistress - Frau, Meisterin, Herrscherin, Mätresse, Liebhaberin, Domina
She took indeed great care that we were not overrated, or imposed on, as well as of managing as frugally as possible; expensiveness was not her vice.
overrated - überbewertet; überbewerten
frugally - sparsam; genügsame, mäßig
expensiveness - Teuerheit, Kostspieligkeit, Teuerung
It was pretty late in a summer evening when we reached the town, in our slow conveyance, though drawn by six at length. As we passed through the greatest streets that led to our inn, the noise, of the coaches, the hurry, the crowds of foot passengers, in short, the new scenery of the shops and houses, at once pleased and amazed me.
Conveyance - Beförderung; Transport, Übertragung, Transportmittel
Inn - Gasthaus; Herberge
scenery - Landschaften; Landschaft; Kulisse
Whilst I stood thus stupid and mute, which she doubtless attributed to nothing more than a concern at parting, this idea procured me perhaps a slight alleviation of it, in the following harangue: "That now we were got safe to London, and that she was obliged to go to her place, she advised me by all means to get into one as soon as possible; that I need not fear getting one; there were more places than parish-churches; that she advised me to go to an intelligence office; that if she heard of any thing stirring, she would find me out and let me know; that in the meantime, I should take a private lodging, and acquaint her where to send to me; that she wished me good luck, and hoped I should always have the grace to keep myself honest, and not bringing a disgrace on my parentage.
mute - stumm; sprachlos; abdämpfen, dämpfen
doubtless - zweifelsfrei, zweifellos
procured - beschafft; beschaffen, erwerben, besorgen, aufbringen
alleviation - Erleichterung, Linderung, Milderung
harangue - eine Ansprache; Moralpredigt, Tirade, Schmährede, Sermon
lodging - Unterbringung; Unterkunft; (lodge); Lodge; Loge; Biberburg; feststecken
acquaint - kennen; vertraut machen; in Kenntnis setzen
disgrace - Ungnade, Schande, Schmach
parentage - Abstammung, Herkunft
With this; she took her leave of me, and left me, as it were, on my own hands, full as lightly as I had been put into hers.
lightly - leichtfertig; leicht
One of the waiters coming in, added yet more to my uncertainty, by asking me, in a short way, if I called for anything? to which I replied innocently: "No." But I wished him to tell me where I might get a lodging for that night. He said he would go and speak to his mistress, who accordingly came, and told me drily, without entering in the least into the distress she saw me in, that I might have a bed for a shilling, and that, as she supposed I had some friends in town (there I fetched a deep sigh in vain!
innocently - unschuldig
drily - trocken
shilling - Schilling
fetched - geholt; holen, einfangen, abrufen, apportieren
vain - eitel; unnützlich
, I might provide for myself in the morning.
It is incredible what trifling consolations the human mind will seize in its greatest afflictions. The assurance of nothing more than a bed to lie on that night, calmed my agonies; and being ashamed to acquaint the mistress of the inn that I had no friends to apply to in town, I proposed to myself to proceed, the very next morning, to an intelligence office, to which I was furnished with written directions on the back of a ballad, Esther had given me.
trifling - unbedeutend; Leichtfertigkeit
consolations - Trostpflaster; Trost, Trostpreis
afflictions - Bedrängnisse; Leiden
agonies - Qualen; Agonie, Qual, Pein, Qual, Todeskampf, Freudenausbruch
furnished - eingerichtet; möblieren, einrichten, ausrüsten
ballad - Ballade
There I counted on getting information of any place that such a country girl as I might be fit for, and where I could get into any sort of being, before my little stock should be consumed; and as to a character, Esther had often repeated to me, that I might depend on her managing me one; nor, however affected I was at her leaving me thus, did I entirely cease to rely on her, as I began to think, good-naturedly, that her procedure was all in course, and that is was only my ignorance of life that had made me take it in the light I at first did.
be fit - geeignet sein
often repeated - vielmalig
naturedly - naturgemäß
Accordingly, the next morning I dressed myself as clean and as neat as my rustic wardrobe would permit me; and having left my box, with special recommendation, with the landlady, I ventured out by myself, and without any more difficulty than can be supposed of a young country girl, barely fifteen, and to whom every sign or shop was a gazing trap, I got to the wished for intelligence office.
rustic - rustikal
landlady - Vermieterin, Hauswirtin
It was kept by an elderly woman, who sat at the receipt of custom, with a book before her in great form and order, and several scrolls made out, of directions for places.
scrolls - Schriftrollen; Schriftrolle, Rolle, Buchrolle, Volute
I made up then to this important personage, without lifting up my eyes or observing any of the people round me, who were attending there on the same errand as myself, and dropping her curtsies nine deep, just made a shift to stammer out my business to her.
personage - Persönlichkeit
errand - Besorgungen; Besorgung, Auftrag
curtsies - Knicksen; Knicks, Verbeugung
stammer - stammeln, stottern, Stottern
Madam heard me out, with all the gravity and brow of a petty minister of State, and seeing at one glance over my figure what I was, made me no answer, but to ask me the preliminary shilling, on receipt of which she told me places for women too slight built for hard work: but that she would look over her book, and see what was to be done for me, desiring me to stay a little, till she had dispatched some other customers.
madam - gnädige Frau; Frau, Fräulein ''(traditionally
brow - Stirn; Braue, Augenbraue
petty - gering, geringfügig, klein, kleinlich
dispatched - abgefertigt; verschicken, versenden, beeilen, besiegen
customers - Kunden; Kunde, Abnehmer, Käufer
On this I drew back a little, most heartily mortified at a declaration which carried with it a killing uncertainly, that my circumstances could not well endure.
heartily - von Herzen; herzlich
mortified - gedemütigt; abtöten, töten, abtöten
uncertainly - unsicher
Presently, assuming more courage, and seeking some diversion from my uneasy thoughts, I ventured to lift up my head a little, and sent my eyes on a course round the room, where they met full tilt with those of a lady (for such my extreme innocence pronounced her) sitting in a corner of the room, dressed in a velvet mantle (in the midst of summer), with her bonnet off; squat, fat, red-faced, and at least fifty.
diversion - Ablenkung, Ablenkungsmanöver, Unterhaltung
uneasy - Unbehagen; besorgt, unangenehm, unsicher
thoughts - Gedanken; Gedanke
tilt - neigen; Schärfedehnung, Höchstleistung
velvet - Samt
mantle - Mantel, Hülle, Umhüllung, Glühstrumpf, Hirnrinde
bonnet - Haube; Motorhaube
squat - hocken, kauern; Achsdruckentlastung
"Sweet-heart, do you want a place?
"Yes, and please you," (with a curtsey down to the ground).
curtsey - einen Knicks machen; Knicks; knicksen
Madam was, however, so well pleased with her bargain that fearing I presume, lest better advice or some accident might occasion my slipping through her fingers, she would officiously take me in a coach to my inn, where, calling herself for my box, it was, I being present, delivered without the least scruple or explanation as to where I was going.
officiously - aufdringlich
This being over, she bid the coachman drive to a shop in St.
coachman - Kutscher
Paul's Churchyard, where she bought a pair of gloves, which she gave me, and thence renewed her directions to the coachman to drive to her house in --- street, who accordingly landed us at the door, after I had been cheered up and entertained by the way with the most plausible flams, without one syllable from which I could conclude anything but that I was, by the greatest luck, fallen into the hands of kindest mistress, not to say friend, that the vast world could afford; and accordingly I entered her doors with most complete confidence and exultation, promising, myself that, as soon as I could be a little settled, I would acquaint Esther Davis with my rare good fortune.
Paul - Paulus, Paul
churchyard - Kirchhof; Friedhof
thence - von dort aus; daher
cheered up - aufgeheitert
most plausible - glaubhafteste
syllable - Silbe
exultation - Jubel
You may be sure the good opinion of my place was not lessened by the appearance of a very handsome back parlor, into which I was led and which seemed to me magnificently furnished, who had never seen better rooms than the ordinary ones in inns upon the road.
lessened - vermindert; verringern, vermindern, nachlassen, herabsetzen
handsome - gut aussehend; hübsch, stattlich, gutaussehend, ansehnlich
parlor - Saloon; Wohnzimmer, Salon, Empfangszimmer, Sprechzimmer
magnificently - prächtig
Inns - Gasthöfe; Herberge
There were two gilt pier-glasses, and a buffet, on which a few pieces of plate, set out to the most shew, dazzled, and altogether persuaded me that I must be got into a very reputable family.
gilt - vergoldet, vergoldete, vergolden; (gild) vergoldet, vergoldete
pier - Seebrücke, Anlegestelle, Kai, Brückenpfeiler
buffet - Puff, Buffet, Schlag; hin und herwerfen
shew - zeigen
dazzled - geblendet; blenden, verblüffen, faszinieren, bezaubern, betören
reputable - seriös
Here my mistress first began her part, with telling me that I must have good spirits, and learn to be free with her; that she had not taken me to be a common servant, to do domestic drudgery, but to be a kind of companion to her; and that if I would be a good girl, she would do more than twenty mothers for me; to all which I answered only by the profoundest and the awkwardest curtsies, and a few monosyllables, such as "'yes!
monosyllables - einsilbig; Einsilbler, Einsilber, , Monosyllabum
no! to be sure!"
Presently my mistress touched the bell, and in came a strapping maid-servant, who had let us in. "Here, Martha," said Mrs. Brown, "I have just hired this young woman to look after my linen; so step up and show her her chamber; and I charge you to use her with as much respect as you would myself, for I have taken a prodigious liking to her, and I do not know what I shall do for her."
strapping - Umreifung; drall (Mädchen), stramm (Kind)
maid - Dienstmädchen; Mädchen; Stubenmädchen
linen - Wäsche; Leinen; Heimtextilien
prodigious - erstaunlich; ungeheuer, gewaltig, verwunderlich
Martha, who was an arch-jade, and, being used to this decoy, had her cue perfect, made me a kind of half curtsy, and asked me to walk up with her; and accordingly showed me a neat room, two pair of stairs backwards, in which there was a handsome bed, where Martha told me I was to lie with a young gentlewoman, a cousin of my mistress, who she was sure would be vastly good to me. Then she ran out into such affected encomiums on her good mistress! her sweet mistress! and how happy I was to light upon her!
arch - Bogen
jade - Jade
decoy - Lockvogel, Köder, ködern, locken
curtsy - einen Knicks machen; Knicks, Verbeugung
gentlewoman - eine Dame; vornehme Dame
and that I could not have bespoke a better; with other the like gross stuff, such as would itself have started suspicions in any but such an unpractised simpleton, who was perfectly new to life, and who took every word she said in the very sense she laid out for me to take it; but she readily saw what a penetration she had to deal with, and measured me very rightly in her manner of whistling to me, so as to make me pleased with my cage, and blind to the wires.
bespoke - Maßgeschneidert; besprechen, diskutieren, mitteilen
unpractised - ungeübt
simpleton - Einfaltspinsel, Simpel, Naivling
penetration - Durchdringung; Penetration
rightly - zurecht, zu Recht, richtig
whistling - (whistle) pfeifen; (whistle); Pfeife, Trillerpfeife, Flöte
cage - Käfig
Here I underwent a second survey, which ended in the full approbation of Mrs. Phoebe Ayres, the name of my tutoress elect, to whose care and instruction I was affectionately recommended.
approbation - Zustimmung, Genehmigung, Billigung
tutoress - Nachhilfelehrerin
affectionately - zärtlich
Dinner was now set on table, and in pursuance of treating me as a companion, Mrs. Brown, with a tone to cut off all dispute, soon over-ruled my most humble and most confused protestations against sitting down with her Ladyship, which my very short breeding just suggested to me could not be right, or in the order of things.
pursuance - Verfolgung
most confused - konfuseste
ladyship - Ladyschaft; erman: die#German
At table, the conversation was chiefly kept up by the two madams and carried on in double meaning expressions, interrupted every now and then by kind assurances to me, all tending to confirm and fix my satisfaction with my present condition: augment it they could not, so very a novice was I then.
chiefly - hauptsächlich
madams - Madam
augment - Augmentieren; vergrößern, erhöhen, vermehren, wachsen, zunehmen
novice - Neuling; Novize
It was here agreed that I should keep myself up and out of sight for a few days, till such clothes could be procured for me as were fit for the character I was to appear in, of my mistress's companion, observing withal, that on the first impressions of my figure much might depend; and, as they rightly judged, the prospect of exchanging my country clothes for London finery, made the clause of confinement digest perfectly well with me.
withal - mit
finery - Prachtstücke; Putz, Glanz, Aufputz
confinement - Eingeschlossenheit; Gefangenschaft
But the truth was, Mrs. Brown did not care that I should be seen or talked to by any, either of her customers, or her Does (as they called the girls provided for them), till she secured a good market for my maidenhead, which I had at least all the appearances of having brought into her Ladyship's service.
maidenhead - Jungfräulichkeit
No sooner then was this precious substitute of my mistress laid down, but she, who was never out of her way when any occasion of lewdness presented itself, turned to me, embraced and kissed me with great eagerness.
lewdness - Unzüchtigkeit; Anzüglichkeit
eagerness - Ungeduld; Eifer
This was new, this was odd; but imputing it to nothing but pure kindness, which, for ought I knew, it might be the London way to express in that manner, I was determined not to be behind-hand with her, and returned her the kiss and embrace, with all the fervour that perfect innocence knew.
imputing - zuschreiben, anrechnen, zurechnen, in Betracht ziehen
kindness - Freundlichkeit; Liebenswürdigkeit
fervour - Inbrunst; Glut; Eifer
Encouraged by this, her hands became extremely free, and wandered over my whole body, with touches, squeezes, pressures, that rather warmed and surprised me with their novelty, than they either shocked or alarmed me.
novelty - Neuheit, Neuartigkeit, neues Produkt, Krimskrams
The flattering praises she intermingled with these invasions, contributed also not a little to bribe my passiveness; and, knowing no ill, I feared none, especially from one who had prevented all doubts of her womanhood, by conducting my hands to a pair of breasts that hung loosely down, in a size and volume that full sufficiently distinguished her sex, to me at least, who had never made any other comparison.
flattering - Schmeichelhaft; schmeicheln
intermingled - vermengt; vermischen
bribe - Bestechungsgeld, Schmiergeld, bestechen, schmieren, kaufen
passiveness - Passivitäten
womanhood - Weiblichkeit, Fraulichkeit, Frausein, alle Frauen
loosely - locker
I lay then all tame and passive as she could wish, whilst her freedom raised no other emotion but those of a strange, and, till then, unfelt pleasure. Every part of me was open and exposed to the licentious courses of her hands, which, like a lambent fire, ran over my whole body, and thawed all coldness as they went.
tame - zahm, friedlich
unfelt - ungefühlt
licentious - unzüchtig
lambent - züngelnd, leckend
thawed - aufgetaut; tauen, schmelzen, auftauen, entspannen, Schmelze
coldness - Kälte
But, not contented with these outer posts, she now attempts the main spot, and began to twitch, to insinuate, and at length to force an introduction of a finger into the quick itself, in such a manner, that had she not proceeded by insensible gradations that inflamed me beyond the power of modesty to oppose its resistance to their progress, I should have jumped out of bed and cried for help against such strange assaults.
contented with - begnügte
twitch - zucken; zupfen
insinuate - andeuten, unterstellen, insinuieren, einschmeicheln
insensible - unempfindlich
gradations - Abstufungen; Abstufung
inflamed - entzündet; anzünden, entflammen, anregen, aufregen, erzürnen
modesty - Bescheidenheit; Sittsamkeit
Instead of which, her lascivious touches had lighted up a new fire that wantoned through all my veins, but fixed with violence in that center appointed them by nature, where the first strange hands were now busied in feeling, squeezing, compressing the lips, then opening them again, with a finger between, till an "Oh!" expressed her hurting me, where the narrowness of the unbroken passage refused it entrance to any depth.
lascivious - lasziv
lighted up - aufgeleuchtet
wantoned - gewollt; wild, unkontrolliert, unbeherrscht, unberechenbar
center - Zentrum, Mitte, Mittelpunkt
compressing - komprimieren; Kompresse, Umschlag [med.]
narrowness - Engstirnigkeit; Enge, Beschränktheit
unbroken - ungebrochen
refused - abgelehnt; Müll; abweisen, verweigern, abschlagen, ablehnen
In the meantime, the extension of my limbs, languid stretching, sighs, short heavings, all conspired to as-ure that experienced wanton that I was more pleased than offended at her proceedings, which she seasoned with repeated kisses and exclamations, such as "Oh!
languid - träge; schwach
heavings - Schwingen; hebend, hochhebend
conspired - konspiriert; verschören
wanton - mutwillig; wild, unkontrolliert, unbeherrscht, unberechenbar
more pleased - zufriedenere
exclamations - Ausrufe; Ausruf, Exklamation
what a charming creature thou art! What a happy man will he be that first makes a woman of you! Oh! that I were a man for your sake!" with the like broken expressions, interrupted by kisses as fierce and salacious as ever I received from the other sex.
thou - du
salacious - Anzüglichkeiten
For my part, I was transported, confused, and out of myself; feelings so new were too much for me. My heated and alarmed senses were in a tumult that robbed me of all liberty of thought; tears of pleasure gushed from my eyes, and somewhat assuaged the fire that raged all over me.
feelings - Gefühle; Gefühl, Eindruck
tumult - Aufruhr; Tumult, Krach, Lärm, lautes Stimmengewirr
gushed - sprudelte; Schwall, Flut, strömen, herausquellen, schwärmen
assuaged - beschwichtigt; lindern, mildern, abschwächen, besänftigen
Phoebe, herself, the hackneyed, thorough-bred Phoebe, to whom all modes and devices of pleasure were known and familiar, found, it seems, in this exercise her those arbitrary tastes, for which there is no accounting. Not that she hated men, or did not even prefer them to her own sex; but when she met with such occasions as this was, a satiety of enjoyments in the common road, perhaps, too a great secret bias, inclined her to make the most of pleasure, wherever she could find it, without distinction of sexes.
hackneyed - abgedroschen; Lohnarbeiter
satiety - Sattheit, Sättigung, Befriedigung
enjoyments - Genuss, Vergnügen
In this view, now well assured that she had, by her touches, sufficiently inflamed me for her purpose, she rolled down the bed clothes gently, and I saw myself stretched naked, my shift being turned up to my neck, whilst I had no power or sense to oppose it. Even my growing blushes expressed more desire than modesty, whilst the candle, left (to be sure not undesignedly) burning, threw a full light on my whole body.
gently - sanft
blushes - errötet; Schamröte; erröten, sich schämen
undesignedly - unbeabsichtigt
"No!" says Phoebe, "you must not, my sweet girl, think to hide all these treasures from me. My sight must be feasted as my touch. I must devour with my eyes this springing bosom. Suffer me to kiss it. I have not seen it enough. Let me kiss it once more. What firm, smooth, white flesh is here! How delicately shaped! Then this delicious down! Oh! let me view the small, dear, tender cleft! This is too much, I cannot bear it! I must! I must!" Here she took my hand, and in a transport carried it where you will easily guess. But what a difference in the state of the same thing! A spreading thicket of bushy curls marked the full grown, complete woman. Then the cavity to which she guided my hand easily received it; and as soon as she felt it within her, she moved herself to and fro, with so rapid a friction, that I presently withdrew it, wet and clammy, when instantly Phoebe grew more composed, after two or three sighs, and heart-fetched Oh's! and giving me a kiss that seemed to exhale her soul through her lips, she replaced the bed-clothes over us. What pleasure she had found I will not say; but this I know, that the first sparks of kindling nature, the first ideas of pollution, were caught by me that night; and that the acquaintance and communication with the bad of our sex, is often as fatal to innocence as all the seductions of the other.
feasted - geschlemmt; Fest, Festgelage; feiern
devour - verschlingen, fressen, herunterschlingen, zerstören
bosom - Busen, Brust, der Busenfreund (bosom buddy)
delicately - zart
cleft - gespalten; zerklüftet, Kluft, Riss, kleben
thicket - Dickicht, Gebüsch, Gestrüpp, Buschwerk
bushy - buschig
curls - Locken; Locke
cavity - Hohlraum, Gravur, Aushöhlung, Loch, Höhle
friction - Reibung, Reiberei, Friktion
clammy - klamm
exhale - ausatmen
kindling - Anzünden; Anmachholz, Anzündholz
acquaintance - Bekanntschaft, Umgang, Bekannter, Bekannte
seductions - Verführungen; Verführung
But to go on. When Phoebe was restored to that calm, which I was far from the enjoyment of myself, she artfully sounded me on all the points necessary to govern the designs of my virtuous mistress on me, and by my answers, drawn from pure undissembled nature, she had no reason but to promise herself all imaginable success, so far as it depended on my ignorance, easiness and warmth of constitution.
artfully - listige, kunstvoll
virtuous - züchtig, tugendhaft, tugendsam
undissembled - unzerlegt
imaginable - vorstellbar
easiness - Leichtigkeit
After a sufficient length of dialogue, my bedfellow left me to my rest, and I fell asleep, through pure weariness, from the violent emotions I had been led into, when nature which had been too warmly stirred and fermented to subside without allaying by some means or other relieved me by one of those luscious dreams, the transports of which are scarce inferior to those of waking real action.
bedfellow - Bettgenosse, Bettgenossin
weariness - Müdigkeit
warmly - herzlich
fermented - vergoren; gären, stören, anstacheln, Gärmittel
subside - einsinken; abklingen, nachlassen, abschwellen
allaying - lindernd, beschwichtigend; (allay); beruhigen, dämpfen
luscious - üppig; köstlich, lecker, süß und saftig, sinnlich, verführerisch
scarce - rar; spärlich
inferior - untergeordnet, nachgeordnet, unterlegen, tiefer, minderwertig
In the morning I awoke about ten, perfectly gay and refreshed. Phoebe was up before me, and asked me in the kindest manner how I did, how I had rested, and if I was ready for breakfast? carefully, at the same time, avoiding to increase the confusion she saw I was in, at looking her in the face, by any hint of the night's bed scene. I told her if she pleased I would get up, and begin any work she would be pleased to set me about.
awoke - erwacht; munter, wach; erwachen, aufwachen
refreshed - erfrischt; erfrischen, erquicken, auffrischen, aktualisieren
She smiled; presently the maid brought in the tea equipage, and I just huddled my clothes on, when in waddled my mistress. I expected no less than to be told of, if not chid for, my late rising, when I was most agreeably disappointed by her compliments on my pure and fresh looks. I was "a bud of beauty" (this was her style), "and how vastly all the fine men would admire me!" to all which my answers did not, I can assure you, wrong my breeding; they were as simple and silly as they could wish, and, no doubt, flattered them infinitely more than had they proved me enlightened by education and a knowledge of the world.
equipage - Ausrüstung; Equipage
huddled - zusammengedrängt; wirrer Haufen
waddled - gewatschelt; watschelnder, watscheln
chid - getadelt, gescholten; (chide); schelten
agreeably - zustimmen; angenehm
compliments - Komplimente; Kompliment
bud - Knospe, Knospen treiben
flattered - geschmeichelt; schmeicheln
infinitely - unendlich
enlightened - aufgeklärt; aufklären
We breakfasted, and the tea things were scarce removed, when in were brought two bundles of linen and wearing apparel: in short, all the necessaries for rigging me out, as they termed it, completely.
bundles - Bündel
apparel - Kleidung
rigging - Takelage; (rig) Takelage
Imagine to yourself, Madam, how my little coquet heart fluttered with joy at the sight of a white lutestring, flowered with silver, scoured indeed, but passed on me for spick and span new, a Brussels lace cap, braited shoes, and the rest in proportion, all second-hand finery, and procured instantly for the occasion, by the diligence and industry of the good Mrs.
coquet - kokettieren
fluttered - geflattert; flattern, wedeln
lutestring - Lautestring
scoured - durchforstet; reinigen, umherstreifen
Brussels - Brüssel
lace - schnüren, Spitze (Gewebe)
braited - geflochten
diligence - Sorgfalt; Fleiß, Eifer
Brown, who had already a chapman for me in the house, before whom my charms were to pass in review; for he had not only, in course, insisted on a previous sight of the premises, but also on immediate surrendering to him, in case of his agreeing for me; concluding very wisely, that such a place as I was in, was of the hottest to trust the keeping of such a perishable commodity in, as a maidenhead.
wisely - weise
perishable - verderblich, leichtverderblich, Vergängliches, Verderbliches
The care of dressing and tricking me out for the market, was then left to Phoebe, who acquitted herself, if not well, at least perfectly to the satisfaction of everything but my impatience of seeing myself dressed.
acquitted - freigesprochen; freisprechen, für unschuldig erklären, befreien
Impatience - Ungeduld
When it was over, and I viewed myself in the glass, I was no doubt, too natural, too artless, to hide my childish joy at the change: a change, in the real truth, for much the worse, since I must have much better become the neat easy simplicity of my rustic dress than the awkward, untoward, tawdry finery that I could not conceal my strangeness to.
artless - kunstlos; schlicht, natürlich
simplicity - Einfachheit
untoward - Unerwünscht
tawdry - kitschig, geschmacklos, flitterhaft, bunt
strangeness - Seltsamkeit; Fremdartigkeit, Fremdheit
Phoebe's compliments, however, in which her own share in dressing me was not forgot, did not a little confirm me in the first notions I had ever entertained concerning my person; which, be it said without vanity, was then tolerable to justify a taste for me, and of which it may not be out of place here to sketch you an unflattered picture.
vanity - Vergänglichkeit; Eitelkeit; Leere
tolerable - erträglich
unflattered - ungeschminkt
After some little time most agreebly spent before the glass, in scarce self-admiration, since my new dress had by much the greatest share in it, I was sent for down to the parlour, where the old lady saluted me, and wished me joy of my new clothes, which she was not ashamed to say, fitted me as if I had worn nothing but the finest all my life-time; but what was it she could not see me silly enough to swallow?
agreebly - einverstanden
parlour - Wohnzimmer, Stube; Sprechzimmer
saluted - gegrüßt; Salut, salutieren
At the same time, she presented me to another cousin of her own creation, an elderly gentleman, who got up, at my entry into the room, and on my dropping a curtsy to him, saluted me, and seemed a little affronted that I had only presented my cheek to him: a mistake, which, if one, he immediately corrected, by gluing his lips to mine, with an ardour which his figure had not at all disposed me to thank him for: his figure, I say, than which nothing could be more shocking or detestable: for ugly and disagreeable were terms too gentle to convey a just idea of it.
affronted - brüskiert; beleidigen, Affront
gluing - Klebstoff, Leim, Kleber, leimen, kleben
ardour - Eifer; Begeisterung, Ăśberschwang, Hitze
more shocking - anstößigere
detestable - verabscheuungswürdig
disagreeable - unangenehm, unsympathisch
Imagine to yourself, a man rather past threescore, short and ill-made, with a yellow cadaverous hue, great goggle eyes, that stared as if he was strangled; an out-mouth from two more properly tusks than teeth, livid lips, and breath like a Jake's: then he had a peculiar ghastliness in his grin, that made him perfectly frightful, if not dangerous to women with child; yet, made as he was thus in mock of man, he was so blind to his own staring deformities, as to think himself born to please, and that no woman could see him with impunity: in consequence of which idea, he had lavished great sums on such wretches as could gain upon themselves to pretend love to his person, whilst to those who had not art or patience to dissemble the horror it inspired, he behaved even brutally.
threescore - sechzig
cadaverous - leichenhaft
hue - Farbe, Tönung, Geschrei, Farbton
goggle - Brillengläser; glotzen
strangled - erdrosselt; strangulieren, erwürgen
tusks - Stoßzähne; Hauer, Stoßzahn, Fangzahn eines Ebers
livid - blau; blass vor Wut, wütend, fuchsteufelswild
Jake - Jockel
ghastliness - Grausamkeit
frightful - schrecklich
Mock - Spott; Nachahmung, Imitation, Parodie, Veralberung, Prototyp
deformities - Deformierungen; Missbildung
impunity - Straflosigkeit, Straffreiheit, Straflosigkeit
lavished - freigiebig, verschwenderisch, überreich, üppig, verschleudern
wretches - Schufte; das Wesen
dissemble - verbergen; vortäuschen, verhehlen, anmerken lassen
brutally - brutal
Impotence, more than necessity, made him seek in variety, the provocative that was wanting to raise him to the pitch of enjoyment, which he too often saw himself baulked of, by the failure of his powers: and this always threw him into a fit of rage, which he wreaked, as far as he durst, on the innocent objects of his fit of momentary desire.
impotence - Machtlosigkeit; Impotenz, Zeugungsunfähigkeit
provocative - provokativ; provokant
baulked - zurückgeschreckt; Hindernis, Hemmnis, Hauptbalken
wreaked - auslöste; auslassen, treiben
momentary - Momentan
This then was the master to which my conscientious benefactress, who had long been his purveyor in this way, had doomed me, and sent for me down purposely for his examination.
conscientious - Gewissenhaft
benefactress - Wohltäterin
purveyor - Anbieter; Lieferant
doomed - dem Untergang geweiht; Bann, Urteil
purposely - absichtlich
Accordingly she made me stand up before him, turned me round, unpinned my handkerchief, remarked to him the rise and fall, the turn and whiteness of a bosom just beginning to fill; then made me walk, and took even a handle from the rusticity of my charms: in short, she omitted no point of jockeyship; to which he only answered by gracious nods of approbation, whilst he looked goats and monkeys at me: for I sometimes stole a corner glance at him, and encountering his fiery, eager stare, looked another way from pure horror and affright, which he, characteristically, attributed to nothing more than maiden modesty, or at least the affectation of it.
unpinned - nicht angeheftet; losheften
handkerchief - Taschentuch
whiteness - Weiße, Weißheit, Weißsein
rusticity - Ländlichkeit
omitted - ausgelassen; weglassen, auslassen
gracious - gnädig, gütig
goats - Ziegen; Ziege, Geiß, Bock
fiery - feurig, Feuer
affright - erschrecken
characteristically - charakteristisch
affectation - Affektiertheit; Geschraubtheit
Mother Brown had in the meantime agreed the terms with this loquorice old goat, which I afterwards understood were to be fifty guineas peremptory, for the liberty of attempting me, and a hundred more at the complete gratification of his desires, in the triumph over my virginity: and as for me, I was to be left entirely at the discretion of his liking and generosity.
goat - Ziege, Geiß, Bock
peremptory - zwingend
gratification - Befriedigung
virginity - Jungfräulichkeit, Virginität
generosity - Großzügigkeit, Generosität, Großmut, Freizügigkeit, Edelmut
This unrighteous contract being thus settled, he was so eager to be put in possession, that he insisted on being introduced to drink tea with me that afternoon, when we were to be left alone; nor would he hearken to the procuress's remonstrances, that I was not sufficiently prepared, and ripened for such an attack; that I was too green and untamed, having been scarce twenty-four hours in the house: it is the character of lust to be impatient, and his vanity arming him against any supposition of other than the common resistance of a maid on those occasions, made him reject all proposals of a delay, and my dreadful trial was thus fixed, unknown to me, for that very evening.
unrighteous - ungerecht
hearken - zuhören; horchen, hören, lauschen
procuress - Zuhälterin; Kupplerin
remonstrances - Gegenargumente; Protest, Einspruch, Beschwerde
ripened - gereift; reifen, ausreifen
lust - Wollust, Begehren, Verlangen, Freude
supposition - Vermutung; Annahme, Supposition, Annehmen
dreadful - furchtbar, schrecklich
Thus they kept me pretty long at table, and about six in the evening, after I had retired to my apartment, and the tea board was set, enters my venerable mistress, followed close by that satyr, who came in grinning in a way peculiar to him, and by his odious presence, confirmed me in all the sentiments of detestation which his first appearance had given birth to.
venerable - ehrwürdig, geschätzt, respektabel, verehrenswert
satyr - Satyr
odious - abscheulich, scheußlich, abstoßend, widerlich
detestation - Verabscheuung, Abscheu
He sat down fronting me, and all tea time kept ogling me in a manner that gave me the utmost pain and confusion, all the mark of which he still explained to be my bashfulness, and not being used to see company.
ogling - liebäugelnd; (ogle); liebäugeln
utmost - äußerst, höchst, Äußerstes, Möglichstes
bashfulness - Schüchternheit; Scham
Tea over, the commoding old lady pleady urgent business (which indeed was true) to go out, and earnestly desired me to entertain her cousin kindly till she came back, both for my own sake and her; and then, with a "Pray, sir, be very good, be very tender to the sweet child," she went out of the room, leaving me staring, with my mouth open, and unprepared by the suddenness of her departure, to oppose it.
commoding - kommodieren
pleady - Bitte
earnestly - ernsthaft
suddenness - Plötzlichkeit
We were now alone; and on that idea a sudden fit of trembling seized me. I was so afraid, without a precise notion of why, and what I had to fear, that I sat on the settee, by the fire side, motionless and petrified, without life or spirit, not knowing how to look or how to stir.
trembling - Zittern, Beben; (tremble); zittern; Zittern
settee - Sofabett; Sitzbank, Sofa
motionless - unbeweglich, reglos, bewegungslos
Petrified - Versteinert; versteinern, versteinern, erstarren
But long I was not suffered to remain in this state of stupefaction: the monster squatted down by me on the settee, and without farther ceremony or preamble, flings his arms about my neck, and drawing me pretty forcibly towards him, obliged me to receive, in spite of my struggles to disengage from him, his pestilential kisses, which quite overcame me. Finding me then next to senseless, and unresisting, he tears off my neck handkerchief, and laid all open there, to his eyes and hands: still I endured all without flinching, till emboldened by my sufferance and silence, for I had not the power to speak or cry out, he attempted to lay me down on the settee, and I felt his hand on the lower part of my naked thighs, which were crossed, and which he endeavoured to unlock.
stupefaction - Verblödung; Benommenheit, Schock, Betäubung, Bestürzung
squatted - hockte; hocken, kauern; Achsdruckentlastung
preamble - Präambel
flings - Seitensprünge; Affäre (Liebesaffäre)
forcibly - gewaltsame, gewaltsam
disengage - auskuppeln; ausklinken, aushaken, entkuppeln
pestilential - pestilentiell
senseless - empfindungslos, ohne Gefühl, ohnmächtig, bewusstlos
unresisting - widerstandslos
flinching - zusammenzucken; zurückweichen
emboldened - ermutigt; ermutigen, fetten, fett setzen
sufferance - Duldung
thighs - Oberschenkel
unlock - aufschließen, entriegeln, entsperren (screen, Device, PC
Oh then! I was roused out of my passive endurance, and springing from him with an activity he was not prepared for, threw myself at his feet, and begged him, in the most moving tone, not to be rude, and that he would not hurt me. "Hurt you, my dear?" says the brute, "I intend you no harm. Has not the old lady told you that I love you? that I shall do handsomely by you?"
roused - geweckt; wachrufen, wecken
endurance - Ausdauer
brute - Tier, brutaler Kerl, brutal, Vieh
handsomely - gut aussehend; hübsch, hübsche
"She has indeed, sir," said I, "but I cannot love you, indeed I cannot! pray let me alone! yes! I will love you dearly if you will let me alone and go away." But I was talking to the wind, for whether my tears, my attitude, or the disorder of my dress proved fresh incentives, or whether he was now under the dominion of desires he could not bridle, but snorting and foaming with lust and rage, he renews his attack, seizes me, and again attempts to extend and fix me on the settee: in which he succeeded so far as to lay me along, and even to toss my petticoats over my head, and lay my thighs bare, which I obstinately kept close, nor could he, though he attempted with his knee to force them open, effect it so as to stand fair for being master of the main avenue; he was unbuttoned, both waistcoat and breeches, yet I only felt the weight of his body upon me, whilst I lay struggling with indignation, and dying with terrors; but he stopped all of a sudden, and got off, panting, blowing, cursing, and repeating "old and ugly!
wind - aufspulen, rollen, blasen, aufwickeln, abspulen
dominion - Herrschaft, Oberherrschaft, Vorherrschaft, Herrschaftsgebiet
bridle - Zaumzeug, Zaum, aufzäumen, Zaumzeug anlegen, zügeln
snorting - Schnüffeln; schnauben, prusten; (snort); Schnauben; schnupfen
foaming - schaumig, schäumend; (foam); Schaum; Schaumgummi; schäumen
petticoats - Petticoat, Unterrock
obstinately - hartnäckig
avenue - Allee
unbuttoned - aufgeknöpft; aufknöpfen
waistcoat - Weste
breeches - Reithosen; Schwanzschraube
indignation - Empörung, Entrüstung
panting - hechelnd; hecheln, keucheln
cursing - Fluchen; verwünschend; (curs) Fluchen; verwünschend
for so I had very naturally called him in the heat of my defence.
The brute had, it seems, as I afterwards understood, brought on, by his eagerness and struggle, the ultimate period of his hot fit of lust, which his power was too short-lived to carry him through the full execution of; of which my thighs and linen received the effusion.
effusion - Erguss
Yet, plain as Mrs.
Brown's views were now come out, I had not the heart, or spirit to open my eyes to them: still I could not part with my dependence on that beldam, so much did I think myself hers, soul and body: or rather, I sought to deceive myself with the continuation of my good opinion of her, and choose to wait the worst at her hands, sooner than be turned out to starve in the streets, without a penny of money or a friend to apply to these fears were my folly.
beldam - Ahnfrau
deceive - betrügen, täuschen
continuation - Fortsetzung
folly - Wahnsinn; Torheit, Narrheit, Dummheit, Tollheit
While this confusion of ideas was passing in my head, and I sat pensively by the fire, with my eyes brimming with tears, my neck still bare, and my cap fallen off in the struggle, so that my hair was in the disorder you may guess, the villain's lust began, I suppose, to be again in flow, at the sight of all that bloom of youth which presented itself to his view, a bloom yet unenjoyed, and of course not yet indifferent to him.
pensively - nachdenklich
brimming - überfüllt; übersprudeln; Rand
villain - Schurke, Gauner, Halunke, Bösewicht, am
bloom - blühen; Blüte, Blütenpracht, Duft
unenjoyed - ungenießbar
indifferent - gleichgültig
After some pause, he asked me with a tone of voice mightily softer, whether I would make it up with him before the old lady returned, and all should be well; he would restore me to his affections, at the same time offering to kiss me and feel my breasts.
mightily - mächtig
But now my extreme aversion, my fears, my indignation, all acting upon me, gave me a spirit not natural to me, so that breaking loose from him, I ran to the bell and rang it, with such violence and effect as to bring up the maid to know what was the matter, or whether the gentleman wanted anything; and before he could proceed to greater extremities, she bounced into the room, and seeing me stretched on the floor, my hair all dishevelled, my nose gushing out blood, which did not a little tragedize the scene, and my odious persecutor still intent of pushing his brutal point, unmoved by all my cries and distress, she was herself confounded and did not know what to do.
aversion - Abneigung, Vorbehalt, Widerwillen, Aversion
extremities - Extremitäten; Extremität, äußerstes Ende
dishevelled - zerzaust; in Unordnung bringen, herumschmeißen, verwirren
gushing - überschwänglich; Schwall, Flut, strömen, herausquellen
tragedize - tragisch machen
persecutor - Verfolger
unmoved - ungerührt, unbewegt
confounded - verwirrt; verwirren, verschlimmern, verschlechtern, besiegen
As much, however, as Martha might be prepared and hardened to transactions of this sort, all womanhood must have been out of her heart could she have seen this unmoved. Besides that, on the face of things, she imagined that matters had gone greater lengths than they really had, and that the courtesy of the house had been actually consummated on me, and flung: me into the condition I was in: in this notion she instantly took my part, and advised the gentleman to go down and leave me to recover myself, and "that all would be soon over with me; that when Mrs.
hardened - abgehärtet; härten, verhärten, abhärten
consummated - vollzogen; perfekt, vollkommen, vollendet, unübertrefflich
flung - geschleudert; Affäre (Liebesaffäre)
Brown and Phoebe, who were gone out, were returned, they would take order for everything to his satisfaction; that nothing would be lost by a little patience with the poor tender thing; that for her part she was frightened; she could not tell what to say to such doings; but that she would stay by me till my mistress came home." As the wench said all this in a resolute tone, and the monster himself began to perceive that things would not mend by his staying, he took his hat and went out of the room murmuring and pitting his brows like an old ape, so that I was delivered from the horrors of his detestable presence.
doings - tun, tuend
wench - Weibsstück; Magd, Mädchen
resolute - entschieden, entschlossen, resolut
mend - reparieren, flicken
murmuring - murmelnd, raunend; (murmur); Rauschen, Murmeln, Gemurmel
brows - Augenbrauen; Brauen; (brow) Augenbrauen; Brauen
ape - nachäffen, Affe
Such too, and so cruel was my fate, that I dreaded the sight of Mrs. Brown, as if I had been the criminal, and she the person injured; a mistake which you will not think so strange, on distinguishing that neither virtue nor principles had the least share in the defence I had made, but only the particular aversion I had conceived against this first brutal and frightful invader of my tender innocence.
dreaded - gefürchtet; schaudern, grauen, gruseln, grausen
invader - Eindringling, Eroberer, Erobererin
I passed then the time till Mrs. Brown came home, under all the agitations of fear and despair that may easily be guessed.
agitations - Aufregungen; Aufwühlung, Agitation
despair - verzweifeln; Verzweiflung
About eleven at night my two ladies came home, and having received rather a favourable account from Martha, who had run down to let them in, for Mr. Crofts (that was the name of my brute) was gone out of the house, after waiting till he had tired his patience for Mrs.
Brown's return, they came thundering up stairs, and seeing me pale, my face bloody, and all the marks of the most thorough dejection, they employed themselves more to comfort and re-inspirit me than in making me the reproaches I was weak enough to fear, I who had so many juster and stronger to retort upon them.
thundering - donnernd; (thunder); Donner; Donnern
bloody - blutig, blutbefleckt
most thorough - gründlichste
dejection - Kotentleerung, Niedergeschlagenheit
reproaches - Vorwürfe; Vorwurf, Schande, vorwerfen
retort - Retorte; erwidern (scharf)
Brown withdrawn, Phoebe came presently to bed to me, and what with the answers she drew from me, what with her own method of palpably satisfying herself, she soon discovered that I had been more frightened than hurt; upon which I suppose, being herself seized with sleep, and reserving her lectures and instructions till the next morning, she left me, properly speaking, to my unrest; for, later tossing and turning the greatest part of the night, and tormenting myself with the falsest notions and apprehensions of things, I fell, through mere fatigue into a kind of delirious doze, out of which I waked late in the morning, in a violent fever: a circumstance which was extremely critical to reprieve me, at least for a time, from the attacks of a wretch, infinitely more terrible to me than death itself.
palpably - spürbar; fühlbar, augenfällige
more frightened - verängstigtere
seized with - befallen
unrest - Unruhe
tormenting - gequält; schikanierend, peinigend; (torment); Qual; quälen
apprehensions - Befürchtungen; Greifen
fatigue - Müdigkeit, Ermüdung, Schlappheit, Überdruss
delirious - im Delirium
doze - dösen; Halbschlaf
reprieve - Begnadigung, Strafaufschub, Galgenfrist, Gnadenfrist
wretch - Unglückliche; das Wesen
more terrible - furchtbarere
Youth is soon raised, and a few days were sufficient to conquer the fury of my fever: but, what contributed most to my perfect recovery and to my reconciliation with life, was the timely news that Mr.
fury - Wut; Furie
reconciliation - Aussöhnung, Schlichtung, Versöhnung, Wiederaussöhnung
Crofts, who was a merchant of considerable dealings, was arrested at the King's suit, for nearly forty thousand pounds, on account of his driving a certain contraband trade, and that his affairs were so desperate, that even were it in his inclination, it would not be in his power to renew his designs upon me: for he was instantly thrown into a prison, which it was not likely he would get out of in haste.
dealings - Geschäfte; handelnd
contraband - Schmuggelware, Kontrebande
inclination - Neigung
haste - Eile, Hast
Mrs. Brown, who had touched his fifty guineas, advanced to so little purpose, and lost all hopes of the remaining hundred, began to look upon my treatment of him with a more favourable eye; and as they had observed my temper to be perfectly tractable and conformable to their views, all the girls that composed her flock were suffered to visit me, and had their cue to dispose me, by their conversation, to a perfect resignation of myself to Mrs.
more favourable - günstigere
temper - Gereiztheit, Laune, Temperament, Anlassen, Ausheizen
tractable - lenkbar
conformable - anpassungsfähig
flock - Schwarm; (to flock together) sich rotten, sich zusammenrotten
Accordingly they were let in upon me, and all that frolic and thoughtless gaiety in which those giddy creatures consume either leisure, made me envy a condition of which I only saw the fair side; insomuch, that the being one of them became even my ambition: a disposition which they all carefully cultivated; and I wanted now nothing but to restore my health, that I might be able to undergo the ceremony of the initiation.
frolic - herumtollen; scherzen; Scherz
thoughtless - gedankenlos; rücksichtslos
gaiety - Fröhlichkeit; Frohsinn, Glücklichsein
giddy - schwindlig; schwindelig; schwindelerregend; aufgedreht
insomuch - insoweit
disposition - Neigung, Gesinnung, Hang, Veranlagung, Einteilung
initiation - Einweihung; Initiation, Initiierung
In the meantime, I was so thoroughly, as they call it, brought over, so tame to their whistle, that, had my cage door been set open, I had no idea that I ought to fly anywhere, sooner than stay where I was; nor had I the least sense of regretting my condition, but waited very quietly for whatever Mrs.
whistle - Pfeife, Trillerpfeife, Flöte, Pfeifen, Pfiff
Brown should order concerning me; who on her side, by herself and her agents, took more than the necessary precautions to lull and lay asleep all just reflections on my destiny.
precautions - Vorsichtsmaßnahmen; Vorsorge, Vorsichtsmaßnahme
lull - Flaute; Windstille
destiny - das Schicksal; Los, Geschick, Schicksal
Preachments of morality over the left shoulder; a life of joy painted in the gayest colours; caresses, promises, indulgent treatment; nothing, in short, was wanting to domesticate me entirely and to prevent my going out anywhere to get better advice. Alas! I dreamed of no such thing.
caresses - Liebkosungen; Liebkosung, Umarmung, Streicheln
indulgent - Nachsichtig
domesticate - domestizieren
Alas - leider [Gottes]; (ala) leider [Gottes]
Hitherto I had been indebted only to the girls of the house for the corruption of my innocence: their luscious talk, in which modesty was far from respected, their description of their engagements with men, had given me a tolerable insight into the nature and mysteries of their profession, at the same time that they highly provoked an itch of florid warm-spirited blood through every vein: but above all, my bed fellow Phoebe, whose pupil I more immediately was, exerted her talents in giving me the first tinctures of pleasure: whilst nature, now warmed and wantoned with discoveries so interesting, piqued a curiosity which Phoebe artfully whetted, and leading me from question to question of her own suggestion, explained to me all the mysteries of Venus.
hitherto - bis zum jetzigen Zeitpunkt, bis jetzt, bis zu diesem Zeitpunkt
indebted - verschuldet
itch - jucken, Juckreiz
tinctures - Tinkturen; Tinktur, Tinktur
piqued - pikiert; reizen
whetted - erregt; wetzen
Venus - Venus, Venus
But I could not long remain in such a house as that, without being an eye-witness of more than I could conceive from her descriptions.
One day, about twelve at noon, being thoroughly recovered of my fever, I happened to be in Mrs. Brown's dark closet, where I had not been half an hour, resting upon the maid's bed, before I heard a rustling in the bed-chamber, separated from the closet only by two sash doors, before the glasses of which were drawn two yellow damask curtains, but not so close as to exclude the full view of the room from any person in the closet.
closet - Kleiderschrank; Schrank, Wandschrank, Kammer, Abstellkammer
resting upon - basierend
rustling - (rustle) rascheln; (rustle); Rascheln, Rauschen, Knistern
sash - Schieberahmen, Schärpe
damask - Damast, Damastgewebe
I instantly crept softly and posted myself so, that seeing everything minutely, I could not myself be seen; and who should come in but the venerable mother Abbess herself! handed in by a tall, brawny young Horse-grenadiers, moulded in the Hercules style: in fine, the choice of the most experienced dame, in those affairs, in all London.
softly - sachte; leise
minutely - minutiös
Abbess - Äbtissin, Priorin, Oberin
handed in - eingereicht
brawny - muskulös, muskelbepackt
Grenadiers - Grenadiere; Granatier, Granatierer, Grenadier
moulded - geformt; Heizform, Form; Gussform, Gießform, Moder; formen
Hercules - Herkules, Herkules
Dame - Dame
Oh! how still and hush did I keep at my stand, lest any noise should baulk my curiosity, or bring Madam into the closet!
Hush - Pst; verstummen, still werden, zum Schweigen bringen, Stille
baulk - zögern; Hindernis, Hemmnis, Hauptbalken
But I had not much reason to fear either, for she was entirely taken up with her present great concern, that she had no sense of attention to spare to anything else.
Droll was it to see that clumsy fat figure of her's flop down on the foot of the bed, opposite to the closet door so that I had a full front view of all her charms.
droll - komisch; drollig
clumsy - tollpatschig, ungeschickt, unbeholfen, schwerfällig
Flop - versagen; Pleite, Reinfall, Versager
front view - Vorderansicht
Her paramour sat down by her: he seemed to be a man of very few words, and a great stomach; for proceeding instantly to essentials, he gave her some hearty smacks, and thrusting his hands into her breasts, disengaged them from her stays, in scorn of whose confinement they broke loose, and sagged down, navel-low at least. A more enormous pair did my eyes never behold, nor of a worse colour, flagging, soft, and most lovingly contiguous: yet such as they were, this great beef-eater seemed to paw them with a most unenviable lust, seeking in vain to confine or cover one of them with a hand scarce less than a shoulder of mutton.
paramour - Geliebte, Geliebter, Liebhaber, Liebhaberin
hearty - herzlich, herzhaft, deftig
smacks - Ohrfeigen; riechen nach, schmecken nach; Geschmack, Knall
thrusting - schubsen; stoßend, Stichwaffe, drängend; (thrust); Stoß, Stich
disengaged - losgelöst; ausklinken, aushaken, entkuppeln
scorn - verachten; verschmähen; verspotten; Verachtung
sagged - durchhängen; Senkung; absinken (Kurve), sacken
navel - Bauchnabel
more enormous - enormere
behold - betrachten, sehen, schauen, anschauen
lovingly - liebevoll, lieb, liebende
contiguous - zusammenhängend
eater - Esser
paw - Tatze, Pfote, Pranke
unenviable - nicht zu beneiden
mutton - Schaffleisch, Hammel, Hammelfleisch, Schöpsenfleisch
After toying with them thus some time, as if they had been worth it, he laid her down pretty briskly, and canting up her petticoats, made barely a mask of them to her broad red face, that blushed with nothing but brandy.
briskly - zügig; forsch
canting - kippt; scheinheilig, heuchelnd
blushed - errötet; Schamröte; erröten, sich schämen
brandy - Kognak, Brandy, Weinbrand, Branntwein, Kurzer
As he stood on one side, unbuttoning his waistcoat and breeches, her fat brawny thighs hung down, and the whole greasy landscape lay fairly open to my view; a wide open mouthed gap, overshaded with a grizzly bush, seemed held out like a beggar's wallet for its provision.
unbuttoning - aufknöpfen
greasy - schmierig, rutschig, fettig
grizzly - Graubär, gräulich
beggar - Bettler, Bettlerin
wallet - Portemonnaie, Portmonee; Brieftasche; Geldbeutel; Geldbörse
But I soon had my eyes called off by a more striking object that entirely engrossed them.
engrossed - vertieft; beschlagnahmen, beanspruchen
Prepared then, and disposed as I was by the discourse of my companions, and Phoebe's minute detail of everything, no wonder that such a sight gave the last dying blow to my native innocence.
After which, my senses recovered coolness enough to observe the rest of the transaction between this happy pair.
coolness - Kühle
The young fellow had just dismounted, when the old lady immediately sprung up, with all the vigour of youth, derived, no doubt, from her late refreshment; and making him sit down, began in her turn to kiss him, to pat and pinch his cheeks, and play with his hair: all which he received with an air of indifference and coolness that showed him to be much altered from what he was when he first went on to the breach.
dismounted - Abgesessen; abnehmen, absteigen
vigour - Vitalität; Ausdruckskraft, Energie, Leidenschaftlichkeit
refreshment - Erfrischung
pinch - kneifen, zwicken, schnappen, erwischen, Messerspitze, Prise
indifference - Gleichgültigkeit
I admired then, upon a fresh account, and with a nicer survey, the texture of that capital part of man: the flaming red head as it stood uncapt, the whiteness of the shaft, and the shrub growth of curling hair that embrowned the foots of it, the roundish bag that dangled down from it, all exacted my eager attention, and renewed my flame.
uncapt - ungefangen
shaft - Welle; Schaft; Strahl; Schacht; hereinlegen, übervorteilen
shrub - Busch, Strauch, Staude
curling - Curling; (curl); Locke
roundish - rundlich
dangled - baumelte; baumeln
But, as the main affair was now at the point the industrious dame had laboured to bring it to, she was not in the humour to put off the payment of her pains, but laying herself down, drew him gently upon her, and thus they finished, in the same manner as before, the old last act.
industrious - fleißig
last act - Schlussakt
As soon as I heard them go down-stairs, I stole up softly to my own room, out of which I had luckily not been missed; there I began to breathe more free, and to give a loose to those warm emotions which the sight of such an encounter had raised in me, I laid me down on the bed, stretched myself out, joining and ardently wishing, and requiring any means to divert or allay the rekindled rage and tumult of my desires, which all pointed strongly to their pole: man. I felt about the bed as if I sought for something that I grasped in my waking dream, and not finding it, could have cried for vexation; every part of me plowing with simulated fires.
luckily - glücklicherweise, auf glückliche Weise, mit Glück, zum Glück
ardently - inbrünstig; feurige, heiß
allay - beschwichtigen; beruhigen, dämpfen, erleichtern, lindern
rekindled - neu entfacht; wiederentfachen, wiederentfachen
vexation - Verärgerung; Ärger, Störung, Irritation, Ärgernis
plowing - pflügen; Pflug
At length, I resorted to the only present remedy, that of vain attempts at digitation, where the small-ness of the theatre did not yet afford room enough for action, and where the pain my fingers gave me, in striving for admission, though they procured me a slight satisfaction for the present, started an apprehension which I could not be easy till I had communicated to Phoebe and received her explanations upon it.
apprehension - Befürchtungen; Greifen, Ergreifen, Fassen, Anfassen
The opportunity, however, did not offer till next morning, for Phoebe did not come to bed till long after I was gone to sleep. As soon then as we were both awake, it was but in course to bring our ly-a-bed chat to hand, on the subject of my uneasiness: to which a recital of the love scene I had thus, by chance, been spectatress of, served for a preface.
awake - munter, wach; erwachen, aufwachen
ly - Ich liebe dich!
uneasiness - Unbehagen
recital - Vortrag; Erwägungsgrund
love scene - Liebesszene
spectatress - Zuschauerin
preface - Vorwort, Vorrede
Phoebe could not hear it to the end without more than one interruption by peals of laughter, and my ingenuous way of relating matters did not a little heighten the joke to her.
interruption - Unterbrechung
peals - läuten; Geläut
ingenuous - unschuldig
But, on her sounding me how the sight had affected me, without mincing or hiding the pleasurable emotions it had inspired me with, I told her at the same time that one remark had perplexed me, and that very considerably. "Aye!" says she, "what was that?" "Why," replied I, "having very curiously and attentively compared the size of that enormous machine, which did not appear, at least to my fearful imagination, less than my wrist, and at least three of my hand-fuls long, to that of the tender small part of me which was framed to receive it, I could not conceive its being possible to afford it entrance without dying, perhaps in the greatest pain, since she well knew that even a finger thrust in there hurt me beyond bearing.
mincing - Faschieren; zerhackend, affektiert; (mince); Hackfleisch
pleasurable - vergnüglich
perplexed - perplex; verwirren
Aye - gewiss, Ja-Stimme
curiously - neugierige
attentively - aufmerksam zuhören; aufmerksam
fearful - furchtbar; furchtsam, ängstlich, verängstigt
thrust - Stoß, Stich, Vorstoß, Schub, Schubkraft
As to my mistress's and yours, I can very plainly distinguish the different dimensions of them from mine, palpable to the touch, and visible to the eye; so that, in short, great as the promised pleasure may be, I am afraid of the pain of the experiment."
plainly - klar und deutlich; klar
palpable - spürbar; greifbar
On this she asked me if I knew Polly Phillips? "Undoubterly," says I, "the fair girl which was so tender of me when I was sick, and has been, as you told me, but two months in the house." "The same," says Phoebe. "You must know then, she is kept by a young Genoes merchant, whom his uncle, who is immensely rich, and whose darling he is, on a pretex of settling some accounts, but in reality to humour his inclinations for travelling, and seeing the world. He met casually with this Polly once in company, and taking a likning to her, makes it worth her while to keep entirely to him.
immensely - immens
darling - Liebling, Schatz, Schätzchen
inclinations - Neigungen; Neigung, Neigung
casually - beiläufig; gelegentlich
He comes to her here twice or thrice a week, and she receives him in the light closet up one pair of stairs, where he enjoys her in a taste, I suppose, peculiar to the heat, or perhaps the caprices of his own country, I say no more, but to-morrow being his day, you shall see what passes between them, from a place only known to your mistress and myself."
thrice - dreimal
caprices - Kapriolen; Laune
morrow - morgen; Morgen
You may be sure, in the ply I was now taking, I had no objection to the proposal, and was rather a tip-toe for its accomplishments.
ply - Windung (Technik), Strähne, Kordlage; handhaben, betreiben
At five in the evening next day, Phoebe, punctual to her promise, came to me as I sat alone in my own room, and beckoned me to follow her.
punctual - pünktlich
beckoned - winkte; heranwinken, herbeiwinken, winken, zuwinken, einladen
The young gentleman was the first person I saw, with his back directly towards me, looking at a print. Polly was not yet come: in less than a minute though, the door opened, and she came in; and at the noise the door made he turned about, and come to meet her, with an air of the greatest tenderness and satisfaction.
turned about - kehrtgemacht
tenderness - Zärtlichkeit
After saluting her, he led her to a coach that fronted us, where they both sat down, and the young Genoes helped her to a glass of wine, with some Naples biscuits on a salver.
saluting - Salut, salutieren
Naples - Neapel
salver - Salve; Tablett
Presently, when they had exchanged a few kisses, and questions in broken English on one side, he began to unbutton, and, in fine, stript unto his shirt.
unbutton - aufknöpfen
unto - zu
As if this had been the signal agreed on for pulling off all their clothes, a scheme which the heat of the season perfectly favoured, Polly began to draw her pins, and as she had no stays to unlace, she was in a trice, with her gallant's officious assistance, undressed to all but her shift.
unlace - aufschnüren
trice - im Nu
gallant - Galan (galanter Mann), galant, Verehrer
officious - aufdringlich
undressed - unbekleidet; erman: sich ausziehen, ausziehen
The young Italian (still in his shirt) stood gazing and transported at the sight of beauties that might have fired a dying hermit; his eager eyes devoured her, as she shifted attitudes at his discretion: neither were his hands excluded their share of the high feast, but wandered, on the hunt of pleasure, over every part and inch of her body, so qualified to afford the most exquisite sense of it.
Hermit - Einsiedler, Eremit, Klausner
devoured - verschlungen; verschlingen, fressen, schlingen
feast - Festessen; Fest, Festgelage; feiern
most exquisite - auserlesenste
In the mean time time, one could not help observing the swell of his shirt before, that bolstered out, and pointed out the condition of things behind the curtain: but he soon removed it, by slipping his shirt over his head; and now, as to nakedness, they had nothing to reproach one another.
swell - anschwellen; Schwellen
bolstered - gestärkt; Polster
nakedness - Nacktheit
reproach - Vorwürfe; Vorwurf; Schande; vorwerfen
The young gentleman, by Phoebe's guess, was about two and twenty; tall and well limbed. His body was finely formed, and of a most vigorous make, square shouldered, and broad chested: his face was not remarkable any way, but for a nose inclining to the Roman, eyes large, black, and sparkling, and a ruddiness in his cheeks that was the more a grace; for his complexion was of the brownest, not of that dusky dun colour which excludes, the idea of freshness, but of that clear, olive gloss, which glowing with life, dazzles perhaps less than fairness, and yet pleases more, when it pleases at all. His hair being too short to tie fell no lower than his neck, in short easy curls; and he had a few sprigs about his paps, that garnished his chest in a style of strength and manliness. Then his grand movement, which seemed to rise out of a thicket of curling hair, that spread from the root all over his thighs and belly up to the navel, stood stiff and upright, but of a size to frighten me, by sympathy for the small tender part which was the object of its fury, and which now lay exposed to my fairest view; for he had, immediately on stoppings off his shirt, gently pushed her down on the couch, which stood conveniently to break her willing fall.
finely - fein
most vigorous - energischste
chested - mit Brustkorb; (chest) Kiste, Brustkasten, Brust, Koffer
inclining - geneigt; sich neigend, neigend; (incline); neigen; Neigung
Roman - Römer; röm. römisch, römisch
sparkling - glitzernd, funkelnd, prickelnd, sprudelnd; (sparkle); glitzernd
ruddiness - Rötlichkeit; Röte
complexion - Teint, Gesichtsfarbe
dusky - düster
dun - mahnen
freshness - Frische
olive - Oliven; Olive, olivfarben, olivfarbig
gloss - Glanz; Glosse, Glasur (Metall), Fußnote
glowing - glühen, abstrahlen, leuchten, Glühen
dazzles - blendet; blenden, verblüffen, faszinieren, bezaubern, betören
sprigs - Zweige; Zweiglein
paps - Kinderbrei, Brei
garnished - garniert; verzieren, verzieren, garnieren, Garnierung
manliness - Männlichkeit, Mannhaftigkeit
belly - Bauch, Magen
upright - aufrecht; hochkant
stoppings - Stopps; anhaltend, Abbruch (Sport), haltend
couch - Liege
Her thighs were spread out to their utmost extention, and discovered between them the mark of the sex, the red-centered cleft of flesh, whose lips vermillioning inwards, expressed a small ruby line in sweet miniature, such as Guide's touch or colouring: could never attain to the life or delicacy of.
extention - Verlängerung
centered - zentriert; Zentrum
vermillioning - Zinnober
inwards - innere, innen
ruby - Stein (einer Uhr), rubinrot, Rubin
miniature - Miniatur, mittelalterliche Buchmalerei
delicacy - Feinheit, Zartheit, Delikatesse, Leckerbissen, Köstlichkeit
Phoebe, at this, gave me a gentle jog, to prepare me for a whisper question: "Whether I thought my little maiden-head was much less?" But my attention was too much engrossed, too much inwrapped with all I saw, to be able to give her any answer.
jog - Joggen
By this time the young gentelman had changed her posture from lying breadth to length-wise on the coach: but her thighs were still spread, and the mark lay fair for him, who now kneeling between them, displayed to us a side view of that fierce erect machine of his, which threatened no less than splitting the tender victim, who lay smiling at the uplifted stroke, nor seemed to decline it. He looked upon his weapon himself with some pleasure, and guiding it with his hand to the inviting; slit, drew aside the lips, and lodged it (after some thrusts, which Polly seemed even to assist) about half way; but there it stuck, I suppose from its growing thickness: he draws it again, and just wetting it with spittle, re-enters, and with ease sheathed it now up to the hilt, at which Polly gave a deep sigh, which was quite another tone than one of pain; he thrusts, she heaves, at first gently, and in a regular cadence; but presently the transport began to be too violent to observe any order or measure; their motions were too rapid, their kisses too fierce'and fervent for nature to support such fury long: both seemed to me out of themselves: their eyes darted fires: "Oh!
posture - Körperhaltung; Haltung
breadth - Weite; Breite
kneeling - kniend, hinkniend; (kneel); knien
side view - Seitenansicht
uplifted - Erhöht; hochheben, erheben
slit - Nut, Schlitz, Spalt, Schamritze
lodged - hinterlegt; Lodge, Loge, Loge, Biberburg, feststecken
thrusts - Schübe; Stoß, Stoß, Stich, Vorstoß, Schub, Schubkraft, Druck
thickness - Dicke
spittle - Spucke; Speichel
sheathed - ummantelt; Futteral
hilt - Griff
heaves - hebt; heben, hieven, werfen, wuchten, schleudern
cadence - Rhythmus, Kadenz, Tonfall, Gleichschritt, Pedaltakt
fervent - inbrünstig; glühend; glühend (1; 2); checkinbrünstig (1
darted - geworfen; Pfeil, Satz
oh! I can't bear it. It is too much. I die. I am going," were Polly's expressions of extasy: his joys were more silent: but soon broken murmurs, sighs heart-fetched, and at length a dispatching thrust, as if he would have forced himself up her body, and then the motionless languor of all his limbs, all shewed that the die-away moment was come upon him; which she gave signs of joining with by, the wild throwing of her hands about, closing her eyes, and giving a deep sob, in which she seemed to expire in an agony of bliss.
murmurs - murmelt; Rauschen
dispatching - Abfertigung; verschicken, versenden, beeilen, besiegen
languor - Trägheit; Mattigkeit, Schwäche
die-away - (die-away) verklingen, abebben, ausklingen
sob - schluchzen; Huso
agony - Qualen; Agonie, Qual, Pein, Todeskampf, Freudenausbruch
bliss - Glückseligkeit, Glück
When he had finished his stroke, and got from off her, she lay still without the least motion, breathless, as it should seem, with pleasure.
breathless - atemlos
He replaced her again breadth-wise on the couch, unable to sit up, with her thighs open, between which I could observe a kind of white liquid, like froth, hanging about the outward lips of that recently opened wound, which now glowed with a deeper red. Presently she gets up, and throwing her arms round him, seemed far undelighted with the trial he had put her to, to judge, at least by the fondness with which she eyed, and hung upon him.
froth - Schaum; aufschäumen
hanging about - herumdrückend
outward - nach außen; äußerlich, auswärts
glowed - geglüht; glühen, abstrahlen, leuchten, Glühen
undelighted - unglücklich
fondness - Zärtlichkeit, Vorliebe
For my part, I will not pretend to describe what I felt over me during this scene; but from that instant, adieu all fears of what man can do unto me! they were now changed into such ardent desires, such ungovernable longings, that I could have by the sleeve, and offered him the bauble, which I now imagined the loss of would be a gain I could not too soon procure myself.
adieu - Adieu
ardent - leidenschaftlich; feurig
ungovernable - unregierbar
longings - Sehnsüchte; sehnsüchtig, Sehnsucht, sehnend
sleeve - Ärmel; Hülse, Schutzhülle, Tülle, Köcher
offered - angeboten; offerieren, anbieten, bieten, zeigen; Antrag
bauble - Modeschmuck, Schnickschnack, Christbaumkugel
procure - beschaffen, erwerben, besorgen, aufbringen
Phoebe, who had more experience, and to whom such sights were not so new, could not however, be unmoved at so warm a scene; and drawing me away softly from the peeping hole, for fear of being overheard, guided me as the door as possible, all passive and obedient to her least signals.
peeping - spähen; (peep hole) Schauloch; (to peep through) durchgucken
overheard - mitgehört; zufällig mit anhören
obedient - gehorsam, folgsam
Here was no room either to sit or lie, but making me stand with my back towards the door, she lifted up my petticoats, and with her busy fingers fell to visit and explore that part of me, where I was perfectly sick and ready to die with desire; that the bare touch of her finger, in that critical place, had the effect of a fire to a train, and her hand instantly made her sensible to what a pitch I was wound up, and melted by the sight she had thus procured me.
Satisfied then with her success, in allaying a heat that would have made me impatient of seeing the continuation of the transactions between our amourous couple, she brought me again to the crevice, so favourable to our curiosity.
amourous - amourös
crevice - Spalt, Spalte, Felsspalt
We had certainly been but a few instants away from it, and yet on our return we saw everything in good forwardness for recommencing the tender hostilities.
forwardness - Voraussicht; Frühreife
recommencing - wieder aufnehmen; wieder beginnen
The young foreigner was sitting down, fronting us, on the coach, with Polly upon one knee, who had her arms round his neck, whilst the extreme whiteness of her skin was not undelightfully contrasted by the smooth glossy brown of her lover's.
glossy - glänzend
lover - Geliebte, Liebhaber, Liebhaberin
But who could count the fierce, unnumbered kisses given and taken? In which I could often discover their mouths were double tongued, and seemed to favour the mutual insertion with the greatest gust and delight.
unnumbered - nicht nummeriert
gust - Böe; Windstoß, Bö
In the meantime, his red-headed champion, that had so lately fled the pit, quelled and abashed, was now recovered to the top of his condition, perked and crested up between Polly's thighs, who was not wanting, on her part, to coax and keep it in good humour, stroking it, with her head down, and receiving even its velvet tip between the lips of not its proper mouth: whether it was to render it more glib and easy of entrance, I could not tell; but it had such an effect, that the young gentleman seemed by his eyes, that sparkled with more excited lustre, and his inflamed countenance, to receive increase of pleasure.
quelled - unterdrückt; unterdrücken
abashed - beschämt; beschämen
perked - aufgeregt; munter werden
crested - gekrönt; Gipfel, Kamm, Haube, Krone, Helmzier, Zimir
coax - schmeicheln, gut zureden; Koaxialkabel
glib - schlagfertig, wortgewandt
sparkled - funkelte; funkeln
lustre - Kronleuchter, Glanz, Glanzton
countenance - Antlitz, Gesichtsausdruck, Miene, Unterstützung, Fassung
He got up, and taking Polly in his arms, embraced her, and said something too softly for me to hear, leading her withal to the foot of the couch, and taking delight to slap her thighs and posteriors with that stiff sinew of his, which hit them with a spring that he gave it with his hand, and made them resound again, but her about as much as he meant to hurt her, for she seemed to have as frolic a taste as himself.
posteriors - Hinterteile; hinterer, rück-
sinew - Sehne
resound - erklingen; widerhallen
But guess my surprise, when I saw the lazy young rogue lie down on his back, and gently pull down Polly upon him, who giving way to his humour, stradled, and with her hands conducted her blind favourite to the right place; and following her impulse, ran directly upon the flaming point of this weapon of pleasure, which she staked herself upon, up pierced, and infixed to the extremest hair breadth of it: thus she sat on him a few instants, enjoying and relishing her situation, whilst he toyed with her provoking breasts.
rogue - Schurke; Lümmel, Strolch, Vagabund, Landstreicher, checkSchelm
stradled - gespreizt
impulse - Anstoß; Impuls, Triebkraft, Drang, innerer Antrieb, Kraftstoß
pierced - gepierct; lochen, durchbohren
infixed - Infix
relishing - Genießen; Aroma
Sometimes she would stoop to meet his kiss: but presently the sting of pleasure spurred them up to fiercer action; then began the storm of heaves, which, from the undermost combatant, were thrust at the same time, he crossing his hands over her, and drawing her home to him with a sweet violence: the inverted strokes of anvil over hammer soon brought on the critical period, in which all the signs of a close conspiring extasy informed us of the point they were at.
stoop - Buckel, sich beugen
sting - stechen; Stachel, brennender Schmerz, Stich; schmerzlich treffen
spurred - beflügelt; anspornen, ankurbeln (Wirtsch.), beflügeln; Ansporn
undermost - unterste
combatant - Kämpfer, Kämpferin, Bekämpfer, Bekämpferin
thrust at - stoßen (nach)
inverted - invertiert; umkehren, invertieren
anvil - Amboss
hammer - Hammer; Schlagstück, Hahn, Schlaghebel, tMalleus
conspiring - eine Verschwörung; verschören
For me, I could bear to see no more; I was so overcome, so inflamed at the second part of the same play, that, mad to an intolerable degree, I hugged, I clasped Phoebe, as if she had wherewithal to relieve me.
intolerable - unerträglich
hugged - umarmt; Umarmung, umarmen
clasped - umklammert; Spange, Klammer, Schnalle, Griff, greifen
wherewithal - das nötige Kleingeld; Mittel, Geldmittel, Mittel und Wege
Pleased however with, and pitying the taking she could feel me in, she drew towards the door, and opening it softly as she could, we both got off undiscovered, and reconducted me to my own room, where, unable to keep my legs, in the agitation I was in, I instantly threw myself down on the bed, where I lay transported, though ashamed at what I felt.
undiscovered - unentdeckt
reconducted - rekonstruiert
agitation - Aufregung; Aufwühlung, Agitation
Phoebe lay down by me, and asked me archly, "if, now that I had seen the enemy, and fully considered him, I was still afraid of him? or did I think I could come to a close engagement with him?" To all which, not a word on my side; I sighed, and could scarcely breathe. She takes hold of my hand, and having rolled up her own petticoats, forced it half strivingly, towards those parts, where, now grown more knowing, I missed the main object of my wishes; and finding not even the shadow of what I wanted, where every thing was so fiat, or so hollow, in the vexation I was in at it. I should have withdrawn my hand, but for fear of disobliging her.
archly - verschmitzt, schlau
scarcely - knapp, kaum, wohl nicht, gerade erst
strivingly - strebsam
more knowing - wissendere
fiat - Anordnung, Befehl, Erlass, Vorschrift
Abandoning it then entirely to her management, she made use of it as she thought proper, to procure herself rather the shadow than the substance of any pleasure. For my part, I now pined for more solid food, and promised tacitly to myself that I would not be put off much longer with this foolery of woman to woman, of Mrs. Brown did not soon provide me with the essential specific. In short, I had all the air of not being able to wait the arrival of my lord B--, though he was now expected in a very fews days: nor did I wait for him, for love itself took charge of the disposal of me, in spite of interest, or gross lust.
tacitly - stillschweigend, stilles
foolery - Dummheit
It was now two days after the closet scene, that I got up about six in the morning, and leaving my bedfellow fast asleep, stole down, with no other thought than of taking a little fresh air in a small garden, which our back parlour opened into, and from which my confinement debarred me, at the times company came to my house; but now sleep and silence reigned all over it.
debarred - Ausgeschlossen; ausschließen
But when I drew nearer, to view the sleeping estray, heavens! what a sight! No! term of years, no turn of fortune could ever eraze the lightninglike impression his form made on me. Yes! dearest object of my earliest passion, I command for ever the remembrance of thy first appearance to my ravished eyes, it calls thee up, present; and I see thee now.
lightninglike - blitzartig
remembrance - Erinnern; Erinnerung
thy - deine; dein
ravished - geschändet; entführen, rauben, entzücken
thee - dich, dir
I told him then, in a tone set by love itself, that for reasons I had not time to explain to him. I could not stay with him, and might even ever see him again, with a sigh at these words, which broke from the bottom of my heart.
My conqueror, who, as he afterwards told me, had been struck with my appearance, and liked me as much as he could think of liking any one in my supposed way of life, asked me briskly at once, if I would be kept by him, and that he would take a lodging for me directly, and relieve me from any engagements he presumed I might be under to the house.
Conqueror - Eroberer, Erobererin, Bezwinger, Bezwingerin
Rash, sudden, undigested, even dangerous as this offer might be from a perfect stranger, and that stranger a giddy boy, the prodigious love I was struck with for him, had put a charm into every objection: I not resisting, and blinded me to every objection; I could, at that instant, have died for him: think if I could resist an invitation to live with him! Thus my heart, beating strong to the proposal, dictated my answer, after scarce a minute's pause, that I would accept of his offer, and make my escape to him in what way he pleased, and that I would be entirely at his disposal, let it be good or bad.
rash - Hautausschlag, voreilig, Ausschlag
undigested - unverdaut
perfect stranger - hergelaufene
I have often since wondered that so great an easiness did not disgust him, or make me too cheap in his eyes, but my fate had so appointed it, that in his fears of the hazzard of the town, he had been some time looking out for a girl to take into keeping, and my person happening to hit his fancy, it was by one of those miracles reserved to love, that we struck the bargain in the instant, which we sealed by an exchange of kisses, that the hopes of a more uninterrupted enjoyment engaged him to content himself with.
disgust - Abscheu; ekeln; Ekel
uninterrupted - ohne Unterbrechung; ununterbrochen
content - Inhalt; (to be content with) sich mit etwas begnügen
Never, however, did dear youth carry in his head more wherewith to justify the turning of a girl's head, and making her set all consequences at defiance, for the sake of following a gallant.
wherewith - womit
defiance - Trotzigkeit; Trotz, Auflehnung, Widerstand, offener Ungehorsam
Our little plan was, that I should get out about seven the next morning (which I could readily promise, as I knew where to get the key of the street door) and he would wait at the end of the street with a coach to convey me safe off; after which, we would send, and clear any debt incurred by my stay at Mrs. Brown's, who, he only judged, in gross, might not care to part with one, he thought, so fit to draw custom to the house.
I then just hinted to him not to mention in the house his having seen such a person as me, for reasons I would explain to him more at leisure.
And then, for fear of miscarrying, by being seen together, I tore myself from him with a bleeding heart, and stole up softly to my room, where I found Phoebe still fast asleep, and hurrying off my few clothes, lay down by her, with a mixture of joy and anxiety, that may be easier conceived than expressed.
miscarrying - Fehlgeburten; eine Fehlgeburt haben, misslingen
tore - gerissen; (to tear) zerreißen, reißen
The risks of Mrs. Brown's discovering my purpose, of disappointments, misery, ruin, all vanished before this new-kindled flame. The seeing, the touching, the being, if but for a night, with this idol of my fond virgin heart, appeared to me a happiness above the purchase of my liberty or life. He might use me ill, let him: he was the master, happy, too happy, even to receive death at so dear a hand.
kindled - entfacht; anzünden
idol - Idol, Götze
Virgin - Jungfrau; jungfräulich; nativ
To this purpose were the reflections of the whole day, of which every minute seemed to me a little eternity. How often did I visit the clock! nay, was tempted to advance the tedious hand, as if that would have advanced the time with it! Had those of the house had the least observations on me, they must have remarked something extraordinary from the discomposure I could not help betraying; especially when at dinner mention was made of the charmingest youth having been there, and stayed breakfast.
eternity - Ewigkeit
Nay - Nein; oder sogar
tedious - ermüdend, langweilig, langwierig, lästig
discomposure - Verwirrung; Aufregung
charmingest - charmantesten; charmant
"Oh! he was such a beauty!... I should have died for him!... they would pull caps for him!..." and the like fooleries; which, however, was throwing oil on a fire I was sorely put to it to smother the blaze of.
fooleries - Dummheiten; Dummheit
sorely - schwer; schlimm
smother - erdrücken; ersticken
blaze - lodern; Lohe, Brand, Großbrand, brenne, Glut
I got to the street door, the key whereof was always laid on the chair by our bed side, in trust with Phoebe, who having not the least suspicion of my entertaining any design to go from them (nor, indeed, had I, but the day before), made no reserve or concealment of it from me. I opened the door with great ease; love, that emboldened, protected me too: and now, got safe into the street, I saw my new guardian angel waiting at a coach door, ready open.
whereof - wovon
concealment - Verheimlichung; Verborgenheit, Geborgenheit
guardian - Wächter, Wache, Vormund, Erziehungsberechtigter
How I got to him I know not: I suppose I flew; but I was in the coach in a trice, and he by the side of me, with his arms clasped round me, and giving me the kiss of welcome. The coachman had his orders, and drove to them.
My eyes were instantly filled with tears, but tears of the most delicious delight; to find myself in the arms of that beauteous youth, was a rapture that my little hear swam in; past or future were equally out of the question with me; the present was as much as all my powers of life were sufficient to bear the transport of, without fainting. Nor were the most tender embraces, the most soothing expressions wanting on his side, to assure me of his love, and of never giving me cause to repent the bold step I had taken, in throwing myself thus entirely upon his honour and generosity.
most delicious - appetitlichstem
beauteous - wunderschön
rapture - Entrückung; Ekstase, Taumel, Verzückung, Entzücken
Fainting - Ohnmacht; (faint); Ohnmacht
most tender - zarteste
soothing - erleichternd, lindernd, beruhigend; (sooth); Wahrheit
repent - bereuen
But, alas! this was no merit in me, for I was drove to it by a passion too impetuous for me to resist, and, I did what I did, because I could not help it.
impetuous - ungestüm
In an instant, for time was now annihilated with me, we were landed at a public house in Chelsea, hospitably commodious for the reception of duet parties of pleasure, where a breakfast of chocolate was prepared for us.
annihilated - ausgelöscht; vernichten
public house - Schankwirtschaft
hospitably - gastfreundlich
commodious - geräumig
duet - Duett
An old jolly stager, who kept it, and understood life perfectly well, breakfasted with us, and leering archly at me, gave us both joy, and said, "we were well paired, i'faith! that a great many gentlemen and ladies used his house, but he had never seen a handsomer couple... he was sure I was a fresh piece... I looked so country, so innocent!
jolly - fröhlich; vergnügt, lustig
stager - (stag) Hirsch; (stag); Hirsch, Hirschbock, Rothirsch, Fohlen
leering - lüstern; (leer) lüstern
handsomer - Schöner; hübsch, stattlich, gutaussehend, ansehnlich, schmuck
well my spouse was a lucky man!..." all which, common landlord's cant, not only pleased and soothed me, but helped to diver my confusion at being with my new sovereign, whom, the minute approached, I began to fear to be alone with: a timidity which true love had a greater share in than even maiden bashful-ness.
cant - nicht; kippen, verkanten
soothed - besänftigt; Wahrheit
sovereign - souverän
timidity - Schüchternheit; Furchtsamkeit
bashful - schüchtern, verlegen, scheu
I wished, I doated, I could have died for him; and yet, I know not how, or why I dreaded the point which had been the object of my fiercest wishes; my pulses beat fears, amidst a flush of the warmest desires.
flush - Wasserspülung, Wallung, Schwall; spülen, ausspülen; rot werden
This struggle of the passions, however, this conflict betwixt modesty and lovesick longings, made me burst again into tears; which he took, as he had done before, only for the remains of concern and emotion at the suddenness of my change of condition, in committing myself to his care; and, in consequence of that idea, did and said all that he thought would most comfort and re-inspirit me.
betwixt - Dazwischen; zwischen
lovesick - Liebeskummer
Charles had just slipped the bolt of the door, and running, caught me in his arms, and lifting me from the ground, with his lips glued to mine, bore me trembling, panting, dying with soft fears and tender wishes, to the bed; where his impatience would not suffer him to undress me, more than just unpinning my handkerchief and gowns, and unlacing my stays.
Charles - Karl
bolt - Riegel, Ballen, Blitz, Bolzen; durchgehen (Pferd), sausen
glued - geklebt; Klebstoff, Leim, Kleber, leimen, kleben
undress - erman: sich ausziehen
unpinning - Entpinning; losheften
unlacing - aufschnüren
Being now too high wound up to bear a delay, he unbuttoned, and drawing out the engine of love assaults, drove it currently, as at a ready made breach... Then! then! for the first time, did I feel that stiff horn-hard gristle, battering against the tender part; but imagine to yourself his surprise, when he found, after several vigorous pushes, which hurt me extremely, that he made not the least impression.
gristle - Knorpel
battering - verprügelt; zerschlagen, ich/er/sie stieß ab, schlagen
vigorous - kräftig, stark, energisch, lebhaft
I complained, but tenderly complained: "I could not bear it... indeed he hurt me!...
tenderly - zärtlich, zart, lieb
Still he thought no more, than that being so young, the largeness of his machine (for few men could dispute size with him) made all the difficulty; and that possibly I had not been enjoyed by any so advantageously made in that part as himself: for still, that my virgin flower was yet un-cropped, never entered into his head, and he would have thought it idling with time and words, to have questioned me upon it.
largeness - Großzügigkeit; Größe
advantageously - vorteilhaft
un - VN, UN, UNO
idling - faulenzend, Leerlauf; (idle) faulenzend, Leerlauf
He tried again, still no admittance, still no penetration; but he had hurt me yet more, while my extreme love made me bear extreme pain, almost without a groan. At length, after repeated fruitless trials, he lay down panting by me, kissed my falling tears, and asked me tenderly "what was the meaning of so much complaining?
admittance - Scheinleitwert, Zutritt, Eintritt
groan - Stöhnen; Seufzen, Ächzen, Knarren
fruitless - erfolglos; fruchtlos, unfruchtbar, ergebnislos, resultatlos
and if I had not borne it better from other than I did from him?" I answered, with a simplicity framed to persuade, that he was the first mam that ever served me so. Truth is powerful, and it is not always that we do not believe what we eagerly wish.
Mam - Mama; Mam
eagerly - eifrig
Charles, already disposed by the evidence, of his senses to think my pretences to virginity not entirely apocryphal, smothers me with kisses, begs me, in the-name of love, to have a little patience, and that he wilt be as tender of hurting me as he would be of himself..
pretences - Vortäuschungen; Vorwand
apocryphal - apokryph
smothers - erstickt; ersticken
wilt - verwelken; welken
Alas! it was enough I knew his pleasure to submit joyfully to him, whatever pain I foresaw it would cost, me.
joyfully - freudig
foresaw - vorhersehen, voraussehen
He now resumes his attempts in more form: first, he put one of the pillows under me, to give the blank of his aim a more favourable elevation, and another Under my head, in ease of it; then spreading my thighs, and placing himself standing betwen them, made them rest upon his; applying then the point of his machine to the slit, into which he sought entrance, it was so small, he could scarce assure himself of its being rightly pointed. He looks, he feels, and satisfies himself: there driving on with fury, its prodigious stiffness, thus impacted, wedgelike, breaks the union of those parts, and gained him just the insertion of the tip of it, lip deep; which being sensible of, he improved his advantage, and following well his stroke, in a straight line, forcibly deepens his penetration; but put me to such intolerable pain, from the separation of the sides of that soft passage by a hard thick body, I could have screamed out; but, as I was unwilling to alarm the house, I held in my breath, and crammed my petticoat, which was; turned up over my face, into my mouth, and bit it through in the agony.
pillows - Kopfkissen
elevation - Höhenlage; Hebung, Erheben, Anhebung, Anheben
betwen - dazwischen
rest upon - basieren
stiffness - Steifheit; Erstarrung, Starre, Steife, Steifigkeit
wedgelike - keilförmig
deepens - vertieft; aushölen, vertiefen, zunehmen, vergrößern, vergrößern
crammed - vollgestopft; stopfen, vollpacken, mästen, vollstopfen, büffeln
petticoat - Petticoat; Unterrock
At length, the tender texture of that tract giving way to such fierce tearing and rending, he pierced something further into me: and now, outrageous and no longer his own master, but borne headlong away by the fury and over-mettle of that member, now exerting itself with a kind of native rage, he breaks in, carries all before him, and one violent merciless lunge, sent it, imbrued, and reeking with virgin blood, up to the very hilt in me... Then! then all my resolution deserted me: I screamed out, and fainted away with the sharpness of the pain; and, as he told me afterwards, on his drawing out, when emission was over with him, my thighs were instantly all in a stream of blood, that flowed from the wounded torn passage.
tract - Traktat; Gebiet, Teil
rending - zerreißen
headlong - kopflos; mit dem Kopf zuerst; kopfüber; Hals über Kopf
mettle - Ebenbürtig; Mut, Eifer, Enthusiasmus, Stamina, Feurigkeit
merciless - unbarmherzig
lunge - Longieren; Ausfall; Ausfallschritt; losstürzen, ausfallen
imbrued - durchdrungen; baden
reeking - stinken; Gestank, Rauch
fainted - in Ohnmacht gefallen; leise, schwach, undeutlich
sharpness - Schärfe; Schärfe, Bildschärfe
When I recovered my senses, I found myself undressed and a-bed, in the arms of the sweet relenting murderer of my virginity, who hung mourning tenderly over me, and holding in his hand a cordial, which, coming from the still dear author of so much pain, I could not refuse; my eyes, however, moistened with tears, and languishingly turned upon him, seemed to reproach him with his cruelty, and ask him, if such were the rewards of love.
relenting - Einlenken; nachgebend, mitleidig werdend; (relent); nachgeben
murderer - Mörder, Mörderin
mourning - trauern; Trauer; Trauerkleidung
cordial - herzlich; Sirup; Likör
refuse - Müll; abweisen, verweigern, abschlagen, ablehnen
moistened - befeuchtet; anfeuchten, befeuchten, feucht werden
languishingly - schmachtend
cruelty - Grausamkeit, Quälerei
But Charles, to whom I was now infinitely endeared by his complete triumph over a maidenhead, where he so little expected to find one, in tenderness to that pain which he had put me to, in procuring himself the height of pleasure, smothered his exultation, and employed himself with so much sweetness, so much warmth, to sooth, to caress, and comfort me in my soft complainings, which breathed, indeed, more love than resentment, that I presently drowned all sense of pain in the pleasure of seeing him, of thinking that I belonged to him: he who was now the absolute disposer of my happiness, and, in one word, my fate.
endeared - geliebt; teuer machen
procuring - beschaffen, erwerben, besorgen, aufbringen, verschaffen
smothered - erdrückt; ersticken
sweetness - Süßigkeit; Süße
sooth - beruhigen; Wahrheit
caress - Liebkosung, Umarmung, Streicheln, liebkosen
complainings - Beanstandungen; beschweren
resentment - Ressentiments; Ressentiment, Abneigung, Missgunst, Ärger
disposer - Entsorger
After dinner, and everything but the wine was taken away, Charles very impudently asks a leave, he might read the grant of in my eyes, to come to bed to me, and accordingly falls to undressing; which I could not see the progress of without strange emotions of fear and pleasure.
impudently - frech
undressing - entkleidende, auskleidend
He is now in bed with me the first time, and in broad day; but when thrusting up his own shirt and my shift, he laid his naked glowing body to mine... oh insupportable delight! oh! superhuman rapture!
superhuman - übermenschlich
what pain could stand before a pleasure so transporting? I felt no more the smart of my wounds below; but, curling round him like the tendril of a vine, as if I feared any part of him should be untouched or unpressed by me, I returned his strenuous embraces and kisses with a fervour and gust only known to true love, and which mere lust never rise to.
tendril - Rankenwerk; Ranke
vine - Rebe; Kletterpflanze, Ranke
untouched - unangetastet
unpressed - ungepresst
strenuous - anstrengend
Nor was it till after a few enjoyments had numbed and blunted the sense of the smart, and given me to feel the titillating inspersion of balsamic sweets, drew from me the delicious return, and brought down all my passion, that I arrived at excess of pleasure through excess of pain. But, when successive engagements had broke and inured me, I began to enter into the true unalloyed relish of that pleasure of pleasures, when the warm gush darts through all the ravished inwards; what floods of bliss!
numbed - taub, benommen, betäubt, gefühllos, starr, gefühllos
blunted - schonungslos, offen, ungehobelt, sehr deutlich; abstumpfen
titillating - Kitzelnd; anregen, erregen
balsamic - Balsamico
Inured - Geheilt; abhärten, an (etwas) gewöhnen, gewöhnen
unalloyed - ungetrübt
relish - genüsslich; Aroma, Geschmack, Genuß, Qualität
gush - sprudeln; Schwall, Flut, strömen, herausquellen, schwärmen
darts - Pfeil, Satz
what melting transports! what agonies of delight! too fierce, too mighty for nature to sustain?... well has she therefore, no doubt provided the relief of a delicious momentary dissolution, the approaches of which are intimated by a dear delirium, a sweet thrill, on the point of emitting those liquid sweets, in which enjoyment itself is drowned, when one gives the languishing stretch out, and die at the discharge.
mighty - gewaltig, mächtig
dissolution - Auflösung
delirium - Delirium, Fieberphantasie, Taumel
thrill - Aufregung; Nervenkitzel; erregen, erschauern, durchdringen
emitting - emittieren, aussenden
is drowned - ertrinkt
languishing - schmachtend, ermattend; (languish); ermatten, erschlaffen
How often, when the rage and tumult of my senses had subsided, after the melting flow, have I, in a tender meditation, asked myself cooly the question, if it was in nature for any of its creatures to be so happy as I was? Or, what were all fears of the consequence, put in the scale of one night's enjoyment, of any thing so transcendently the taste of my eyes and heart, as that delicious, fond, matchless youth.
subsided - nachgelassen; einsinken, abklingen, nachlassen, abschwellen
cooly - kühl; kaltlächelnd
transcendently - transzendent
matchless - unnachahmlich, unvergleichlich
Thus we spent the whole afternoon, till supper time in a continued circle of love delights, kissing, turtle-billing, toying, and all the rest of the feast. At length, supper was served in, before which Charles had, for I do not know what reason, slipped his clothes on; and sitting down by the bed side, we made table and tablecloth of the bed and sheets, whilst he suffered nobody to attend or serve but himself.
supper - Abendbrot; Abendessen
Turtle - Schildkröte
tablecloth - Tischdecke, Tischtuch
He ate with a very good appetite, and seemed charmed to see me eat. For my part, I was so transported with the comparison of the delights I now swam in, with the insipidity of all my past scenes of life, that I thought them sufficiently cheap, at even the price of my ruin, or the risk of their not lasting. The present possession was all my little head could find room for.
insipidity - Fadheit; Geschmacklosigkeit
We lay together that night, when, after playing repeated prizes of pleasure, nature, overspent and satisfied, gave us up to the arms of sleep: those of my dear youth encircled me, the consciousness of which made even that sleep more delicious.
overspent - zu viel Geld ausgegeben; sich verausgaben an
encircled - eingekreist; umzingeln, einfassen
more delicious - appetitlichere
It was then broad day. I was sitting up in the bed, the clothes of which were all tossed, or rolled off, by the unquietness of our motions, from the sultry heat of the weather; nor could I refuse myself a pleasure that solicited me so irresistibly, as this fair occasion of feasting my sight with all those treasures of youthful beauty I had enjoyed, and which lay now almost entirely naked, his shirt being trussed up in a perfect wisp, which the warmth of the season and room made me easy about the consequence of.
unquietness - Unruhe
sultry - schwül; drückend, heiß, sexy
solicited - angefordert; anfordern, bedrängen, erbitten, nachsuchen, werben
irresistibly - unwiderstehlich
feasting - schlemmend, ergötzend; (feast) schlemmend, ergötzend
youthful - jugendlich, jung
trussed - gefesselt; Bruchband
wisp - Haarbüschel, Strohbündel, Wisch, Strähne
I hung over him enamoured indeed! and devoured all his naked charms with only two eyes, when I could have wished them at least an hundred for the fuller enjoyment of the gaze.
enamoured - verliebt machen
Oh! could I paint his figure as I see it now, still present to my transported imagination! a whole length of an all perfect manly beauty in full view. Think of a face without a fault, glowing with all the opening bloom and verdant freshness of an age, in which beauty is of either sex, and which the first down over his upper lip scarce began to distinguish.
manly - männlich
verdant - grün; üppig, grünend, frisch, unerfahren, grün hinter den Ohren
The parting of the double ruby pout of his lips seemed to exhale an air sweeter and purer than what it drew in: ah! what violence did it not cost me to refrain the so tempted kiss!
pout - schmollen
refrain - zurückhalten; Refrain, Kehrreim
Then a neck exquisitely turned, graved behind and on the sides with fais hair, playing freely in natural ringlets, connected his head to a body of the most perfect form, and of the most vigorous contexture, in which all the strength of manhood was concealed, and softened to appearance by the delicacy of his complexion, the smoothness of his skin, and the plumpness of his flesh.
exquisitely - exquisit
ringlets - Ringellocken; Haarlocke
contexture - Kontext
manhood - Menschentum, Menschsein, Menschheit, Männlichkeit, Mannsein
softened - erweicht; aufweichen, weichen, aufweichen, weichen
smoothness - Glattheit; Glätte
plumpness - Plumpheit
The platform of his snow white bosom, that was laid out in a manly proportion, presented, on the vermilion summit of each pap, the idea of a rose about to blow.
vermilion - Zinnoberrot; Zinnober
pap - Kinderbrei, Brei
His thighs, finely fashioned, and with a florid glossy roundness, gradually tapering away to the knees, seemed pillars worthy to support that beauteous frame at the bottom of which I could not, without some remains of terror, some tender emotions too, fix my eyes on that terrible machine, which had, not long before, with such fury broke into, torn, and almost ruined those soft, tender parts of mine, that had not yet done smarting with the effects of its rage; but behold it now!
roundness - Rundheit
tapering - Zuspitzung, zuspitzend, Verjüngung; (taper) Zuspitzung
pillars - Pfeilern; Pfeiler, Säule
crest fallen, reclining its half-caped vermilion head over one of his thighs, quiet, pliant, and to all appearances incapable of the mischiefs and cruelty it had committed. Then the beautiful growth of the hair, in short and soft curls round its roots, its whiteness, branched veins, the supple softness of the shaft, as it lay foreshortened, rolled and shrunk up into a squat thickness, languid, and borne up from between his thighs, by its globular appendage, that wondrous treasure bag of nature's sweets, which revelled round, and pursed up in the only wrinkles that are known to please, perfected the prospect, and altogether formed the most interesting moving picture in nature, and surely infinitely superior to those nudities furnished by the painters, statuaries, or any art, which are purchased at immense prices; whilst the sight of them in actual life is scarce sovereignly tasted by any but the few whom nature has endowed with a fire of imagination, warmly pointed by a truth of judgment to the spring-head, the originals of beauty, of nature's unequalled composition, above all the imitations of art, or the reach of wealth to pay their price.
crest - Wappen; Gipfel; Kamm, Haube, Krone, Helmzier, Zimir
reclining - zurücklehnen, hinlegen, anlehnen
pliant - biegsamen, schmiegsam
all appearances - allem Anschein nach
incapable - nicht fähig; unfähig
mischiefs - Unfug, Unheil
supple - geschmeidig
softness - Weichheit
foreshortened - verkürzt; perspektivisch zeichnen
globular - kugelförmig
appendage - Anhängsel; Extremität, Körperglied, Gliedmaße, Auswuchs
wondrous - wunderbar, wundersam, erstaunlich, verwunderlich, bemerkenswert
revelled - geschwelgt; feiern, ausgelassen sein
pursed - geschnürt; Geldbörse, Geldbeutel, Börse, Beutel, Portemonnaie
wrinkles - Falten; sich runzeln, runzlig (runzelig) werden, knittern
statuaries - Statuten; Bildhauer, Bildhauerkunst
actual life - tatsächliche Nutzungsdauer
sovereignly - souverän
endowed - dotiert; ausstatten
judgment - Urteil; Urteilsvermögen; Beurteilung; Richtspruch
unequalled - unvergleichlich
imitations - Nachahmungen; Imitation, Nachahmung, Kopie, Imitat
But every thing must have an end. A motion made by this angelic youth, in the listlessness of goingoff sleep, replaced his shirt and the bed clothes in a posture that shut up that treasury from longer view.
listlessness - Trägheit; Lustlosigkeit
goingoff - weggehen
treasury - Schatzkammer
I lay down then, and carrying my hands to that part of me in which the objects just seen had begun to raise a mutiny, that prevailed over the smart of them, my fingers now opened themselves an easy passage; but long I had not time to consider the wide difference there, between the maid and the now finished woman, before Charles waked, and turning towards me, kindly enquired how I had rested? and, scarce giving me time to answer, imprinted on my lips one of his burning rapture kisses, which darted a flame to my heart, that from thence radiated to every part of me; and presently, as if he had proudly meant revenge for the survey I had smuggled of all his naked beauties, he spurns off the bed clothes, and trussing up my shift as high as it would go, took his turn to feast his eyes on all the gifts nature had bestowed on my person; his busy hands, too, ranged intemperately over every part of me. The delicious austerity and hardness of my yet unripe budding breasts, the whiteness and firmness of my flesh, the freshness and regularity of my features, the harmony of my limbs, all seemed to confirm him in his satisfaction with his bargain; but when curious to explore the havock he had made in the centre of his over fierce attack, he not only directed his hands there, but with a pillow put under, placed me favourably for his wanton purpose of inspection.
mutiny - Meuterei
imprinted - eingeprägt; Erscheinungsvermerk, Abdruck, Gepräge; aufdrücken
radiated - ausgestrahlt; strahlen, ausstrahlen
proudly - stolze, stolz
smuggled - geschmuggelt; schmuggeln, schmuggeln
spurns - verschmäht; verschmähen, abweisen, verachten, treten
trussing - Dachstuhl; bindend; (truss); Bruchband; Fachwerkträger
bestowed - verliehen; verstauen, einlagern, unterbringen, schenken
intemperately - unmäßig
austerity - Sparsamkeit; Einschränkung, Härte, Strenge, Austerität
hardness - Härte
unripe - nicht reif; unreif
budding - angehend, aufkeimend, im Erblühen
firmness - Stärke, Festigkeit
regularity - Regelmäßigkeit
pillow - Kopfkissen, Kissen; Ruhekissen
favourably - günstig
Then, who can express the fire his eyes glistened, his hands glowed with! whilst sighs of pleasure, and tender broken exclamations, were all the praises he could utter. By this time his machine, stiffly risen at me, gave me to see it in its highest state and bravery. He feels it himself, seems pleased at its condition, and, smiling loves and graces, seizes one of my hands, and carries it, with gentle compulsion, to this pride of nature, and its richest master piece.
glistened - glitzerte; glitzern, glänzen, gleißen
utter - Äußerlich; äußerst
stiffly - steif, kräftig
bravery - Tapferkeit
compulsion - Zwang, Zwangneurose
But now this visit of my soft, warm hand, in those so sensible parts, had put every thing into such ungovernable fury, disdaining all further preluding, and taking advantage of my commodious posture, he made the storm fall where I scarce patiently expected, and where he was sure to lay it: presently, then, I felt the stiff intersection betwen the yielding, divided lips of the wound, now open for life; where the narrowness no longer put me to intolerable pain, and afforded my lover no more difficulty than what heightened his pleasure, in the strict embrace of that tender, warm sheath, round the instrument it was so delicately adjusted to, and which now cased home, so gorged me with pleasure, that it perfectly suffocated me and took away my breath; then the killing thrusts!
disdaining - Verachtung, Geringschätzung (disrespect)
preluding - einleitend; Präludium
patiently - geduldig
intersection - Kreuzung, Straßenkreuzung, Schnittpunkt, Durchschnitt
sheath - Scheide; Futteral
gorged - gefressen; Schlucht, Kehle; ich/er/sie fräße, fressen
suffocated - erstickt; ersticken, ersticken, würgen, ersticken
the unnumbered kisses! every one of which was a joy inexpressible; and that joy lost in a crowd of yet greater blisses! But this was a disorder too violent in nature to last long: the vessels, so stirred and intensely heated, soon boiled over, and for that time put out the fire; meanwhile all this dalliance and disport had so far consumed the morning, that it became a kind of necessity to lay breakfast and dinner into one.
inexpressible - unaussprechlich
blisses - Glücksgefühle; Glückseligkeit, Glück
intensely - intensiv
boiled over - übergekocht
dalliance - Liebesspiel, Flirt, Tändelei, Trödelei, Zeitverschwendung
In our calmer intervals Charles gave the following account of himself, every tittle of which was true. He was the only son of a father, who, having a small post in the revenue, rather overlived his income, and had given this young gentleman a very slender education: no profession had he bred him up to, but designed to provide for him in the army, by purchasing him an ensign's commission, that is to say, provided he could raise the money, or procure it by interest, either of which clauses was rather to be wished than hoped for by him. On no better a plan, however, had his improvident father suffered this youth, a youth of great promise, to run up to the age of manhood, or near it at least, in next to idleness; and had, besides, taken no sort of pains to give him even the common premonitions against the vices of the town, and the dangers of all sorts which wait the unexperienced and unwary in it. He lived at home, and at discretion with his father, who himself kept a mistress; and for the rest, provided Charles did not ask him for money, he was indolently kind to him: he might lie out when he pleased, any excuse would serve, and even his reprimands were so slight, that they carried with them rather an air of connivance at the fault, than any serious control or constraint.
tittle - Titel; Pünktchen
ensign - Fähnrich; Fahne
improvident - unvorsichtig
idleness - Untätigkeit, Stillstand, Müßiggang, Trägheit
premonitions - Vorahnungen; Vorahnung
unexperienced - unerfahren
unwary - unbedarft, unachtsam, unvorsichtig
at discretion - nach Belieben
indolently - indolent
reprimands - Verwarnungen; Zurechtweisung, Maßregelung, Rüffel, Verweis
connivance - Duldung; heimliches Einverständnis
But, to supply his calls for money, Charles, whose mother was dead, had, by her side, a grandmother, who doated upon him. She had a considerable annuity to live on, and very regularly parted with every shilling she could spare, to this darling of her's, to the no little heart-burn of his father; who was vexed, not that she, by this means, fed his son's extravagance, but that she preferred Charles to himself; and we shall too soon see what a fatal turn such a mercenary jealousy could operate on the breast of a father.
annuity - Leibrente; Annuität, Rente
vexed - verärgert; ärgern, verärgern, reizen, irritieren, beunruhigen
fed - abgefütterte, gefüttert; (feed) abgefütterte, gefüttert
extravagance - Extravaganz; Ăśberspanntheit
mercenary - Söldner, Söldnerin, Mietsoldat, käuflich, gewinnsüchtig
jealousy - Eifersucht, Missgunst, Neid
Charles was, however, by the means of his grandmother's lavish fondness, very sufficiently enabled to keep a mistress, so easily contented as my love made me; and my good fortune, for such I must ever call it, threw me in his way, in the manner above related, just as he was on the look-out for one.
lavish - freigiebig, verschwenderisch, überreich, üppig, verschleudern
contented - Zufrieden; (to be content with) sich mit etwas begnügen
After dinner, which we ate a-bed in most voluptuous disorder, Charles got up, and taking a passionate leave of me for a few hours, went to town, where concerting matters with a young sharp lawyer, they went together to my late venerable mistress's, from whence I had, but the day before, made my elopement, and with whom he was determined to settle accounts, in a manner that should cut off all after reckonings from that quarter.
most voluptuous - wollüstigste
went together - (go together) zusammen gehen, zusammengehen [alt]
whence - woher; von daher
elopement - Durchbrennen; Davonschleichen, Fortstehlen, Fortlaufen
reckonings - Berechnungen; Abrechnung
Accordingly they went; but by the way, the Templar, his friend, on thinking over Charles's information, saw reason to give their visit another turn, and, instead of offering satisfaction, to demand it.
Templar - Templer
On being let in, the girls of the house flocked round Charles, whom they knew, and from the earlyness of my escape, and their perfect ignorance of his ever having so much as seen me, not having the least suspicion of his being accessory to my flight, they were, in their way, making up to him; and as to his companion, they took him probably for a fresh cully.
flocked - geflockt; (to flock together) sich rotten, sich zusammenrotten
earlyness - Frühzeitigkeit
accessory - Zubehörsatz, zusätzlich, Zusatz
But the Templar soon checked their forwardness, by enquiring for the old lady, with whom he said, with a grave-like countenance, that he had some business to settle.
Madam was immediately sent for down, and the ladies being desired to clear the room, the lawyer asked her, severely, if she did know, or had not decoyed, under pretence of hiring as a servant, a young girl, just come out of the country, called Frances or Fanny Hill, describing me withal as particularly as he could from Charlie's description.
decoyed - Geködert; Lockvogel, Köder, Lockvogel, ködern, locken
pretence - Vortäuschung; Vorwand
It is peculiar to vice to tremble at the enquiries of justice; and Mrs. Brown, whose conscience was not entirely clear upon my account, as knowing as she was of the town as hackneyed as she was in bluffing through all the dangers of her vocation, could not help being alarmed at the questions, especially when he went on to talk of a Justice of peace, Newgate, the Old Bailey, indictments for keeping a disorderly house, pillory, carting, and the whole process of that nature. She, who, it is likely, imagined I had lodged an information against her house, looked extremely blank, and began to make a thousand protestations and excuses.
tremble - zittern; Zittern
bluffing - Bluffen; täuschen; Bluff
vocation - Berufung; Beruf
Bailey - Außenhof
disorderly - unordentlich
pillory - Pranger, Schandpfahl, an den Pranger stellen
carting - fahren; Pferdewagen, Wagen, Karren
However, to abridge, they brought away triumphantly my box of things, which, had she not ben under an awe, she might have disputed with them; and not only that, but a clearance and discharge of any demands on the house, at the expense of no more than a bowl of arrack-punch, the treat of which, together with the choice of the house conveniences, was offered and not accepted. Charles all the time acted the chance companion of the lawyer, who had brought him there, as he knew the house, and appeared in no wise interested in the issue; but he had the collateral pleasure of hearing all that I told him verified, as far as the bawd's fears would give her leave to enter into my history, which, if one may guess by the composition she so readily came into, were not small.
abridge - abkürzen; verkürzen
triumphantly - triumphierend
awe - Ehrfurcht; Staunen; einschüchtern
clearance - Freigabe, Erlaubnis, Ausverkauf
arrack - Arrak
collateral - Sicherheiten; nebeneinanderliegend, benachbart, Neben-, Bei-
bawd - Puffmutter; Kupplerin
Phoebe, my kind tutoress Phoebe, was at the time gone out, perhaps in search of me, or their cooked-up story had not, it is probable, passed smoothly.
smoothly - reibungslos; ruhig, weich
Long, however, I did not suffer: the sight of him over-paid me; and the soft reproach I had prepared for him, expired before it reached my lips.
I was still a-bed, yet unable to use my legs otherwise than awkwardly, and Charles flew to me, catches me in his arms, raised and extending mine to meet his dear embrace, and gives me an account, interrupted by many a sweet parenthesis of kisses, of the success of his measures.
awkwardly - unbeholfen, ungeschickt, umständlich, tapsig
parenthesis - Klammern; Parenthese, Einschub, runde Klammer
I could not help laughing at the fright of the old woman had been put into, which my ignorance, and indeed my want of innocence, had far from prepared me from bespeaking.
fright - erschrecken; Angst, Schreck, Schrecken
bespeaking - zu sprechen; besprechen, diskutieren, mitteilen, vorbestellen
She had, it seems, apprehended that I fled the shelter to some relation I had recollected in town, on my dislike of their ways and proceedings towards me, and that this application came from thence; for, as Charles had rightly judged, not one neighbour had, at that still hour, seen the circumstance of my escape into the coach, or, at least, noticed him; neither had any in the house, the least hint of suspicion of my having spoken to him, much less of my having clapt up such a sudden bargain with a perfect stranger, thus the greatest improbability is not always what we should most mistrust.
apprehended - verhaftet; begreifen, verstehen, fangen, festnehmen
recollected - erinnerte; sich erinnern an
improbability - Unwahrscheinlichkeit
mistrust - Misstrauen
We supped with all the gaiety of two young giddy creatures at the top of their desires; and as I had given up to Charles the whole charge of my future happiness, I thought of nothing beyond the exquisite pleasure of possessing him.
supped - gegessen; Was ist los?; schlürfen
exquisite - exquisit, köstlich, auserlesen
He came to bed in due time; and this second night, the pain being pretty well over, I tasted, in full draught, all the transports of perfect enjoyment: I swam, I bathed in bliss, till both fell asleep, through the natural consequences of satisfied desires, and appeased flames; nor did we wake but to renewed raptures.
draught - Tiefgang; Spielstein
appeased - beschwichtigt; besänftigen, friedlich stimmen, beschwichtigen
raptures - Ekstase, Taumel, Verzückung, Entzücken
Thus, making the most of love, and life did we stay in this lodging in Chelsea about ten days; in which time Charles took care to give his excursions from home a favourable gloss, and to keep his footing with his fond indulgent grand-mother, from whom he drew constant and sufficient supplies for the charge I was to him, and which was very trifling, in comparison with his former less regular course of pleasure.
excursions - Ausflüge; Ausflug, Exkursion, Abschweifung, Exkurs, Digression
Charles removed me then to a private ready furnished lodging in D...
street, St. James's, where he paid half a guinea a week for two rooms and a closet on the second floor, which he had been some time looking out for, and was more convenient for the frequency of his visits, than where he had at first placed me, in a house, which I cannot say but I left with regret, as it was infinitely endeared to me by the first possession of my Charles, and the circumstance of losing, there, that jewel, which can never be twice lost. The landlord, however, had no reason to complain of any thing, but of a procedure in Charles too liberal not to make him regret the loss of us.
James - Jakobus, Jakobus, Jakob
guinea - Guinea
jewel - Edelstein, Juwel, Schmuckstück, Kleinod
Arrived at our new lodging, I remember I thought them extremely fine, though ordinary enough, even at that price; but, had it been a dungeon that Charles had brought me to, his presence would have made a little Versailles.
dungeon - Verlies, Kerker, Donjon
The landlady, Mrs. Jones, waited on us to our apartment, and with great volubility of tongue, explained to us all its conveniences: "that her own maid should wait on us... that the best of quality had lodged at her house... that her first floor was let to a foreign secretary of an embassy, and his lady... that I looked like a very good natured lady..
volubility - Flüchtigkeit
good natured - gutartig
" At the word lady, I blushed out of flattered vanity: this was strong for a girl of my condition; for though Charles had the precaution of dressing me in a less tawdry flaunting style than were the clothes I escaped to him in, and of passing me for his wife, that she had secretly married, and kept private (the old story) on account of his friends, I dare swear this appeared extremely apocryphal to a woman who knew the town so well as she did; but that was the least of her concern: it was impossible to be less scruple-ridden than she was; and the advantage of letting her rooms being her sole object, the truth itself would have far from scandalized her, or broke her bargain.
precaution - Vorsorge; Vorsichtsmaßnahme
flaunting - protzen, offen zeigen, zur Schau stellen, prunken
secretly - heimlich, insgeheim
scandalized - skandalisiert; anecken
A sketch of her picture, and personal history, will dispose you to account for the part she is to act in my concern.
She was about forty six years old, tall, meagre, red-haired, with one of those trivial ordinary faces you meet with every where, and go about unheeded and un-mentioned.
meagre - notdürftig (knapp, spärlich); karg (Einkommen, Mahl), mager
haired - behaart
unheeded - ungehört
In her youth she had been kept by a gentleman, who, dying, left her forty pounds a year during her life, in consideration of a daughter he had by her: which daughter, at the age of seventeen, she sold, for not a very considerable sum neither, to a gentleman who was going on envoy abroad, and took his purchase with him, where he used her with the utmost tenderness, and it is thought, was secretly married to her: but had constantly made a point of her not keeping up the least correspondence with a mother base enough to make a market of her own flesh and blood. However, as she had not nature, nor, indeed, any passion but that of money, this gave her no further uneasiness, then, as she thereby lost a handle of squeezing pres-sents, or other after-advantages, out of the bargain. Indifferent then, by nature of constitution, to every other pleasure but that of increasing the lump, by any means whatever, she commenced a kind of private procuress, for which she was not amiss fitted, by her grave decent appearance, and sometimes did a job in the match-making way; in short, there was, nothing that appeared to her under the shape of gain, that she would not have undertaken. She knew most of the ways of the town, having not only herself been upon, but kept up constant intelligences in promoting a harmony between the two sexes, in private pawn-broking, and other profitable secrets. She rented the house she lived in, and made the most of it, by letting it out in lodgings; though she was worth, at least, near three or four thousand pounds, she would not allow herself even the necessaries, of life, and pinned her subsistence entirely on what she could squeeze out of her lodgers.
envoy - Gesandter, Gesandte
pres - (pre) vor...; (pre) (pre) vor..
lump - Klumpen, Kloß, Stück (Würfelzucker )
amiss - nicht in Ordnung; schlecht, fehlend, verkehrt
Pawn - verpfänden; Bauer (Schach), Pfand
broking - Makeln
lodgings - Unterbringung; Unterkunft
lodgers - Untermieter, Mieter
When she saw such a young pair come under her roof, her immediate notions, doubtless, were how she should make the most money of us, by every means that money might be made, and which, she rightly judged, our situations and inexperience would soon beget her occasions of.
inexperience - Unerfahrenheit
beget - erzeugen, fortpflanzen
In this hopeful sanctuary, and under the clutches of this harpy, did we pitch our residence.
sanctuary - Zufluchtsort; Zuflucht, Herberge, Asyl
clutches - kuppeln; Vogelgelege; Kupplung (Auto), Gelege
harpy - Harpyie; Drachen
It will not be might material to you, or very pleasant to me, to enter into a detail of all the petty cut-throat ways and means with which she used to fleece us; all which Charles indolently chose to bear with, rather than take the trouble of removing, the difference of expense being scarce attended to by a young gentleman who had no ideas of stint, or even economy, and a raw country girl who knew nothing of the matter.
fleece - Vlies; Fell; Fleece; Fleecejacke; abziehen, ausnehmen, betrügen
stint - Strandläufer (Tier), Pensum; beschränken, knausern
As to the men I saw at those places, or at any other, they suffered so much in the comparison my eyes made of them with my all-perfect Adonis, that I had not the infidelity even of one wandering thought to reproach myself with upon his account. He was the universe to me, and all that was not him, was nothing to me.
Adonis - Adonis, Adonis, Adonis
infidelity - Untreue
My country accent, and the rusticity of my gait, manners, and deportment, began now sensibly to wear off: so quick was my observation, and so efficacious my desire of growing every day worthier of his heart.
gait - Gang, Gangart (eines Pferdes)
deportment - Aufführung, Benehmen, Haltung
sensibly - vernünftig
efficacious - Wirksam
As to money, though, he brought me constantly all he received, it was with difficulty he even got me to give it room in my bureau; and what clothes I had, he could prevail on me to accept of on no other foot, than that of pleasing him by the greater neatness in my dress, beyond which I had no ambition.
bureau - Büro; Sekretär, Schreibtisch, Kommode
neatness - Ordentlichkeit; Nettigkeit, Reinlichkeit
I could have made a pleasure of the greatest toil, and worked my fingers to the bone, with joy, to have supported him: guess, then, if I could harbour any idea of being burthensome to him, and this disinterested turn in me was so unaffected, so much the dictate of my heart, that Charles could not but feel it: and if he did not love me as much as I did him (which was the constant and only matter of sweet contention between us), he managed so, at least, as to give me the satisfaction of believing it impossible for man to be more tender, more true, more faithful than he was.
toil - Mühe; schuften, sich plagen, sich quälen, roboten
burthensome - lästig
disinterested - desinteressiert; Desinteresse
unaffected - unbeeinflusst; ungekünstelt, unberührt
more tender - zartere
more faithful - treuere
Our landlady, Mrs. Jones, came frequently up to my apartment, from whence I never stirred on any pretext without Charles; nor was it long before she wormed out, without much art, the secret of our having cheated the church of a ceremony, and, in course, of the terms we lived together upon; a circumstance which far from displeased her, considering the designs she had upon me, and which, alas! she will have too soon, room to carry into execution.
pretext - Vorwand, Deckmantel, fadenscheinige Begründung, Ausrede
displeased - unzufrieden; missfallen
But in the meantime, her own experience of life let her see, that any attempt, however indirect or disguised, to divert or break, at least presently, so strong a cement of hearts as ours was, could only end in losing two lodgers, of whom she had made very competent advantages, if either of us came to smoke her commission, for a commission she had from one of her customers, either to debauch, or get me away from my keeper at any rate.
disguised - getarnt; Verkleidung, Tarnung, verstellen
cement - Zement; Zementleim, Zementmörtel, Zementmasse
debauch - Ausschweifung
keeper - Hüter; Wächter, Hüter, Torwart, Tormann
But the barbarity of my fate soon saved her the task of disuniting us.
barbarity - Barbarei
disuniting - trennend; trennen
I had now been eleven months with this life of my life, which had passed in one continued rapid stream of delight: but nothing so violent was ever made to last. I was about three months gone with a child by him, a circumstances would have added to his tenderness, had he ever left me room to believe it could receive an addition, when the mortal, the unexpected blow of separation fell upon us. I shall gallop post-over the particulars, which I shudder yet to think of, and cannot; to this instant, reconcile myself how, or by what means I could out-live it.
mortal - sterblich; tödlich; Sterblicher, Sterbliche
gallop - Galopp; galoppieren
shudder - erschaudern; Schauder; (wohliger) Schauder; schaudern; zittern
Two live-long days had I lingered through without hearing from him, I who breathed, who existed but in him, and had never yet seen twenty-four hours pass without seeing or hearing from him. The third day my impatience was so strong, my alarms had been so severe, that I perfectly sickened with them; and being unable to support the shock longer, I sunk upon the bed, and ringing for Mrs. Jones, who had far from comforted me under my anxieties, she came up, and I had scarce breath and spirit enough to find words to beg of her, if she would save my life, to fall upon some means of finding out, instantly, what was become of its only prop and comfort.
sickened - erkrankt; erkranken
ringing - klingeln; kraftvoll, klar; (ring) klingeln; kraftvoll, klar
prop - Stütze
She pitied me in a way that rather sharpened my affliction than suspended it, and went out upon this commission.
sharpened - geschärft; schärfen
For she had but to go to Charles's house, who lived but an easy distance, in one of the streets that run into Covent Garden. There she went into a public house, and from thence sent for a mid servant, whose name I had given her, as the properest to inform her.
mid - mittler
The maid readily came, and as readily, when Mrs. Jones enquired of her what had become of Mr. Charles, or whether he was gone out of town, acquainted her with the disposal of her master's son, which, the very day after, was no secret to the servants.
acquainted - kennengelernt; vertraut machen, in Kenntnis setzen
Such sure measures had he taken, for the most cruel punishment of his child for having more interest with his grandmother than he had, though he made use of a pretence, plausible enough, to get rid of him in this secret abrupt manner, for fear her fondness should have interposed a bar to his leaving England, and proceeding on a voyage he had concerted for him; which pretext was, that it was indispensably necessary to secure a considerable inheritance that devolved to him by the death of a rich merchant (his own brother) at one of the factories in the South Seas, of which he had lately received advice, together with a copy of the will.
plausible - plausibel, glaubhaft
abrupt - abrupt, jäh, schroff, steil
interposed - zwischengeschaltet; zwischenschalten, dazwischenstellen
indispensably - unverzichtbar
inheritance - Vererbung; Erbschaft; Erbe, Erbteil
devolved - dezentralisiert; übertragen
Thus was the idol of my soul torn from me, and forced on a long voyage, without taking leave of one friend, or receiving one line of comfort, except a dry explanation and instructions, from his father, how to proceed when he should arrive at his destined port, enclosing, withal, some letters of recommendation to a factor there: all these particulars I did not learn minutely till some time after.
destined - bestimmt; bestimmen, vorbestimmen
enclosing - beifügen, einschliessen
The maid, at the same time, added, that she was sure this usage of her sweet young master would be the death of his grand-mamma, as indeed it proved true; for the old lady, on hearing it, did not survive the news a whole month, and as her fortune consisted in an annuity, out of which she had laid up no reserves, she left nothing worth mentioning to her so fatally envied darling, but absolutely refused to see his father before she died.
mamma - die Mama
fatally - tödlich; verhängnisvoll, schlimm
envied - beneidet; Neid, beneiden
Jones returned, and I observed her looks, they seemed so unconcerned, and even nearest to pleased, that I half flattered myself she was going to set my tortured heart at ease, by bringing me good news; but this, indeed, was a cruel delusion of hope: the barbarian, with all the coolness imaginable, stabs me to the heart, in telling me, succinctly, that he was sent away, at least, on a four years'voyage (here she stretched maliciously), and that I could not expect, in reason, ever to see him again: and all this with such pregnant circumstances, that I could not escape giving them credit, as they were, indeed, too true!
unconcerned - unbesorgt; Unbekümmertheit, Sorglosigkeit
delusion - Täuschung, Irreführung, Wahn, Wahnvorstellung
barbarian - barbarisch; Barbar, Barbarin
succinctly - kurz und bündig; prägnante
maliciously - böswillig
She had hardly finished her report before I fainted away, and after several successive fits, all the while wild and senseless, I miscarried of the dear pledge of my Charles's love; but the wretched never die when it is fittest they should die, and women are hard-lived! to a proverb.
miscarried - eine Fehlgeburt; eine Fehlgeburt haben, misslingen
wretched - unglücklich; sehr schlecht, miserabel, wertlos
proverb - Sprichwort, Denkspruch, Redensart; Proverb
The cruel and interested care taken to recover me, saved an odious life: which, instead of the happiness and joys it had overflower in, all of a sudden presented no view before me of any thing but the depth of misery, horror, and the sharpest affliction.
overflower - Überblume
Thus I lay six weeks, in the struggles of youth and constitution, against the friendly efforts of death, which I constantly invoked to my relief and deliverance, but which proved too weak for my wish. I recovered at length, but into a state of stupefaction and despair, that threatened me with the loss of my senses, and a mad house.
deliverance - Auslieferung, Abgabe, Erlösung, Befreiung
Time, however, that great comforter in ordinary, began to assuage the violence of my suffering, and to-numb my feeling of them. My health returned to me, though I still retained an air of grief, dejection, and languor, which taking off from the ruddiness of my country complexion, rendered it rather more delicate and affecting.
comforter - Trostspender; Tröster; Bettdecke, Plumeau, Plümo
assuage - lindern, mildern, abschwächen, besänftigen, beschwichtigen
numb - taub, benommen, betäubt, gefühllos
more delicate - zierlichere
The landlady had all this while officiously provided, and seen that I wanted for nothing: and as soon as she saw me retrieved into a condition of answering her purpose, one day, after we had dined together, she congratulated me on my recovery, the merit of which she took entirely to herself, and all this by way of introduction to a most terrible, and scurvy epilogue: "You are now," says she, "Miss Fanny, tolerably well, and you are very welcome to stay in these lodgings as; long as you please! you see I have asked you for nothing this long time, but truly I have a call to make up a sum of money, which must be answered." And, with that, presents me with a bill of arrears for rent, diet, apothecaries'charges, nurse, etc.
dined - zu Abend gegessen; Lärm, Getöse; dröhnen
most terrible - furchtbarste
scurvy - Skorbut, Scharbock
Epilogue - Epilog, Nachwort
tolerably - erträglich
arrears - Rückstände; Rückstand, Zahlungsrückstand
etc - usw
sum total twenty-three pounds, seventeen and six-pence: towards discharging of which I had not in the world (which she well knew) more than seven guineas, left by chance, of my dear Charles's common stock, with me. At the same time, she desired me to tell her what course I would take for payment. I burst out into a flood of tears, and told her my condition: that I would sell what few clothes I had, and that, for the rest, would pay her as soon as possible. But my distress, being favourable to her view, only stiffened her the more.
stiffened - Versteift; aussteifen, versteifen, verstärken, ertüchtigen
She told me, very cooly, that "she was indeed sorry for my misfortunes, but that she must do herself justice, though it would go to the very heart of her to send such a tender young creature to prison...." At the word "prison!" every drop of my blood chilled, and my fright acted so strongly upon me, that, turning as pale and faint as a criminal at the first sight of his place of execution, I was on the point of swooning. My landlady, who wanted only to terrify me to a certain point, and not to throw me into a state of body inconsistent with her designs upon it, began to sooth me again, and told me, in a tone composed to more pity and gentleness, that "it would be my own fault, if she was forced to proceed to such extremities; but she believed there was a friend to be found in the world, who would make up matters to both our satisfactions, and that she would bring him to drink tea with us that very afternoon, when she hoped we would come to a right understanding in our affairs.
misfortunes - Unglücke; Pech
chilled - gekühlt; Mutlosigkeit, Frostgefühl
faint - leise, schwach, undeutlich, ohnmächtig werden
swooning - in Ohnmacht fallend, schwindend; (swoon) in Ohnmacht fallend
inconsistent - inkonsistent
gentleness - Sanftheit; Sanftmut
To all this, not a word of answer; I sat mute, confounded, terrified.
Mrs. Jones, however, judging rightly that it was time to strike while the impressions were so strong upon me, left me to myself and to all the terrors of an imagination, wounded to death by the idea of going to prison, and, from a principle of self-preservation, snatching at every glimpse of redemption from it.
snatching - Schnappen; klauen, stehlen, Reißen
redemption - Erlösung; Loskauf
In this situation I sat near half an hour, swallowed up in grief and despair, when my landlady came in, and observing a death-like dejection in my countenance, still in pursuance of her plan, put on a false pity, and bidding me be of good heart: "Things," she said, "would be but my own friend"; and closed with telling me "she had brought a very honourable gentleman to drink tea with me, who would give me the best advice how to get rid of all my troubles.
honourable - ehrenhaft
Upon which, without waiting for a reply, she goes out, and returns with this very honourable gentleman, whose very honourable procuress she had been, on this, as well as other occasions.
The gentleman, on his entering the room, made me a very civil bow, which I had scarce strength, or presence of mind enough to return a curtsey to; when the landlady, taking upon her to do all the honours of the first interview (for I had never, that I remember, seen the gentleman before), sets a chair for him, another for herself.
bow - verbeugen; Verneigung (vor), Verbeugung; Bogen, Bug (Schiff)
All this while not a word on either side; a stupid stare was all the face I could put on this strange visit.
The tea was made, and the landlady, unwilling, I suppose, to lose any time, observing my silence and shyness before this entire stranger: "Come, Miss Fanny," says she, in a coarse familiar style, and tone of authority, "hold up your head, child, and do not let sorrow spoil that pretty face of yours.
shyness - Schüchternheit, Scheu, Scheuheit
coarse - grob, grobkörnig, derb, primitiv
sorrow - Kummer, Traurigkeit, Trauer, Sorge
What! sorrows are only for a time; come, be free, here is a worthy gentleman who has heard of your misfortunes, and is willing to serve you; you must be better acquainted with him, do not you now stand upon your punctilios, and this and that, but make your market while you may."
sorrows - Kummer, Traurigkeit, Trauer, Sorge, Kümmernis, Leiden
punctilios - Punkt
At this so delicate, and eloquent harangue, the gentleman, who saw I loooked frighted and amazed, and, indeed, incapable of answering, took her up for breaking things in so abrupt a manner, as rather to shock than incline me to an acceptance of the good he intended me then, addressing himself to me, told me "he was perfectly acquainted with my whole story, and every circumstance of my distress which he owned was a cruel plunge for one of my youth and beauty to fall into.... that he had long taken a liking to my person, for which he appealed to Mrs. Jones, there present; but finding me so deeply engaged to another, he had lost all hopes of succeeding, till he had heard the sudden reverse of fortune that had happened to me, on which he had given particular orders to my landlady to see that I should want for nothing; and that, had he not been forced abroad to the Hague, on affairs he could not refuse himself to, he would himself have attended me during my sickness;.
eloquent - wortgewandt
loooked - gelockt
frighted - verängstigt; Angst, Schreck, Schrecken
incline - neigen; Neigung, Anstieg, Gefälle
sickness - Krankheit; Übelkeit
. that on his return, which was the day before, he had, on learning my recovery, desired my landlady's good offices to introduce him to me, and was as angry, at least, as I was shocked, at the manner in which she had conducted herself towards obtaining him that happiness; but, that to show me how much he disdained her procedure, and how far he was from taking any ungenerous advantage of my situation, and from exacting any security for my gratitude, he would before my face, that instant, discharge my debt entirely to my landlady, and give me her receipt in full; after which I should be at liberty either to reject or grant his suit, as he was much above putting any force upon my inclinations."
disdained - verschmäht; Verachtung, Geringschätzung (disrespect)
ungenerous - knauserig
gratitude - Dankbarkeit
Whilst he was exposing his sentiments to me, I ventured just to look up to him, and observed his figure, which was that of a very well-looking gentleman, well made, of about forty, dressed in a suit of plain clothes, with a large diamond ring on one of his fingers, the lustre of which played in my eyes as he waved his hand in talking, and raised my notions of his importance.
plain clothes - Zivilkleidung
ring - Ring, Kreis
In short, he might pass for what is commonly called a comely black man, with an air of distinction natural to his birth and condition.
comely - anmutig; hübsch, ansehnlich
To all his speeches, however, I answered only in tears that flower plentifully to my relief, and choking up my voice, excused me from speaking, very luckily, for I should not have known what to say.
plentifully - ausgiebig
choking - erwürgen, erdrosseln, ersticken, überwältigen
excused me - (excuse me) Entschuldigen Sie bitte!
Still I continued in a state of stupidity, or melancholic despair, as my spirits could not yet recover from the violent shocks that they had received; and the accommodating landlady had actually left the room, and me alone with this strange gentleman, before I had observed it, and then I observed it without alarm, for I was now lifeless, and indifferent to every thing.
stupidity - Dummheit
melancholic - melancholisch, schwermütig
lifeless - leblos
The gentleman, however, no novice in affairs of this sort, drew near me; and, under the pretence of comforting me, first with his handkerchief dried my tears as they ran down my cheeks: presently he ventured to kiss me on my part, neither resistance nor compliance. I sat stock still; and now looking on myself as bought by the payment that had been transacted before me.
stock still - stockstill
transacted - abgewickelt; abwickeln
Had any one, but a few instants before, told me that I should have ever known any man but Charles, I would have spit in his face or had I been offered infinitely a greater sum of money than that I saw paid for me, I had spurned the proposal in cold blood. But our virtues and our vices depend too much on our circumstances; unexpectedly beset as I was, betrayed by a mind weakened by a long severe affliction, and stunned with the terrors of a goal, my defeat will appear the more excusable, since I certainly was not present at, or a party in any sense to it.
spit - speien, brutzeln, knistern (Feuer), spucken; Bratspieß
spurned - verschmäht; verschmähen, abweisen, verachten, treten
unexpectedly - unerwartet, unerwarteterweise
beset - bedrängt; befallen, bedrängen
excusable - entschuldbar
However, as the first enjoyment is decisive, and he was now over the bar, I thought I had no longer a right to refuse the caresses of one that had got that advantage over me, no matter how obtained; conforming myself then to this maxim, I considered myself as so much in his power, that I endured his kisses and embraces without affecting struggles or anger; not that he, as yet, gave me any pleasure, or prevailed over the aversion of my soul, to give myself up to any sensation of that sort; what I suffered, I suffered out of a kind of gratitude, and as a matter of course what had passed.
caresses - Liebkosungen; (care for) sich akk um jemanden/etwas kümmern
conforming - konform; entsprechen, passen, entsprechen, gerecht werden
maxim - Maxime; Grundsatz, Sprichwort, Lebensweisheit
He was, however, so regardful as not to attempt the renewal of those extremities which had thrown me, just before, into such violent agitations; but, now secure of possession, contented himself with bringing me to temper by degrees, and waiting at the hand of time for those fruits of generosity and courtship, which he since often reproached himself with having gathered much too green, when, yielding to the inability to resist him, and overborne by desires, he had wreaked his passion on a mere lifeless, spiritless body, dead to all purpose of joy, since taking none, it ought to be supposed incapable of giving any.
regardful - rücksichtsvoll
renewal - Erneuerung
by degrees - nach und nach
courtship - Umwerbung; Brautwerbung, Freien, Liebeswerben
reproached - Vorwürfe; Vorwurf, Schande, vorwerfen
overborne - überholt; überwältigen
spiritless - lustlos, geistlos
all purpose - Universal
This is, however, certain; my heart never thoroughly forgave him the manner in which I had fallen to him, although, in point of interest, I had fallen to him, I had reason to be pleased that he found, in my person, wherewithal to keep him from leaving me as easily as he had had me.
The evening was, in the mean time, so far advanced, that the maid came in to lay the cloth for supper, when I understood, with joy, that my landlady, whose sight was present poison to me, was not to be with us.
Presently a neat and elegant supper was introduced, and a bottle of Burgundy, with the other necessaries, were set on a dumb-waiter.
Burgundy - Bordeauxrot, Weinrot, Burgunderrot
The maid quitting the room, the gentleman insisted, with a tender warmth, that I should sit up in the elbow chair by the fire, and see him eat, if I could not be prevailed on to eat myself. I obeyed with a heart full or affliction, at the comparison it made between those delicious tete-a-tetes with my very dear youth, and this forced situation, this new awkward scene, imposed and obtruded on me a cruel necessity.
obtruded - aufgedrängt; aufdrängen
At supper, after a great many arguments used to comfort and reconcile me to my fate, he told me that his name was H..., brother to the Earl of L....
earl - Graf
and that having, by the suggestions of my landlady, been led to see me, he had found me perfectly to his taste, and given her a commission to procure me at any rate, and that at length he had succeeded, as much to his satisfaction as he passionately wished it might be to mine adding, withal, some flattering assurances, that I should have no cause to repent my knowledge of him.
passionately - leidenschaftlich
I had now got down at least half a partridge, and three or four glasses of wine, which he compelled me to drink by way of restoring nature, but whether there was any thing extraordinary put into the wine, or whether there wanted no more to revive the natural warmth of my constitution, and give fire to the old train, I began no longer to look with that constraint, not to say disguise, on Mr.
partridge - Rebhuhn
disguise - Verkleidung; Tarnung; verstellen
H...., which I had hitherto done but, withal, there was not the least grain of love mixed with this softening of my sentiments: any other man would have been just the same to me as Mr. H..., that stood in the same circumstances, and had done for me, and with me, what he had done.
softening - Erweichung; weich werdend, aufweichend; (soften); aufweichen
There are not, on earth at least, eternal griefs; mine were, if not at an end, at least suspended: my heart, which had been so long overloaded with anguish and vexation, began to dilate and open to the last gleam of diversion or amusement. I wept a little, and my tears relieved me; I sighed, and my sighs seemed to lighten me of a load that oppressed me; my countenance grew, if not cheerful, at least more composed and free.
overloaded - überladen, überlasten, überlasten, überladen, überladen
anguish - Ängste; Pein, Angst, Qual
dilate - ausdehnen; dilatieren, weiten, vergrößern, erweitern
gleam - Schimmer; durchschimmern, glänzen
amusement - Belustigung; Amüsement
wept - geweint; weinen
lighten - aufhellen; erleuchten, erhellen
oppressed - unterdrückt; unterdrücken
Mr. H..., who had watched, perhaps brought on this change, knew too well not to seize it: he thrust the table imperceptibly from between us, and bringing his chair to face me, he soon began, after preparing me by all the endearments of assurance and protestations, to lay hold of my hands, to kiss me, and once more to make free with my bosom, which, being at full liberty from the disorder of a loose dishabile, now panted and throbbed, less with indignation than with fear and bashfulness, at being used so familiarly by still a stranger. But he soon gave me greater occasion to exclaim, by stooping down and slipping his hands above my garters; thence he strove to regain the pass, which he had before found so open, and unguarded; but now he could not unlock the twist of my thighs; I gently complained, and begged him to let me alone; told him I was not well.
imperceptibly - unmerklich
endearments - Zärtlichkeiten; Zärtlichkeit
dishabile - untauglich
panted - keuchte; keuchen, hecheln, schnaufen (i. S. v. keuchen)
throbbed - geklopft; klopfen, schlagen, pochen, klopfen, pulsieren, Pochen
familiarly - Vertraut
exclaim - ausrufen
stooping - Bücken; Buckel, sich beugen
garters - Strumpfbänder; Strumpfband
However, he saw there was more form and ceremony in my resistance, than good earnest; he made his conditions for desisting from pursuing his point, that I should be put instantly to bed, whilst he gave certain orders to the landlady, and that he would return in an hour, when he hoped to find me more reconciled to his passion for me, than I seemed at present. I neither assented nor denied, but my air and manner of receiving his proposal, gave him to see that I did not think myself enough my own mistress to refuse it.
desisting - aufgeben; aufhören
reconciled - versöhnt; versöhnen
assented - zugestimmt; zustimmen, behaupten
The maid, as soon as I was lain down, took the candle away, and wishing me a good night, went out of the room, and shut the door after her.
She had hardly time to get down stairs, before Mr. H.... opened my room door softly, and came in, now undressed, in his night-gown and cap, with two lighted wax candles, and bolting the door, gave me, though I expected him, some sort of alarm. He came a tip-toe to the bed side, and saying with a gentle whisper: "Pray, my dear, do not be startled.
wax - das Wachs
bolting - Abhauen; verriegelnd, abriegelnd; (bolt) Abhauen; verriegelnd
startled - erschrocken; aufschrecken, scheuen, erschrecken
. I will be very tender and kind to you." He then hurried off his clothes, and leaped into bed, having given me openings enough, whilst he was stripping, to observe his brawny structure, strong made limbs, and rough shaggy breast.
openings - Eröffnungen; Erschließung; aufklappend, Ă–ffnung, Eröffnung
shaggy - zottelig, zottig, zottelhaarig, struppig
The bed shook again when it received this new load. He lay on the outside, where he kept the candles burning, no doubt for the satisfaction of every sense, for as soon as he had kissed me, he rolled down the bed clothes, and seemed transported with the view of all my person at full length, which he covered with a profusion of kisses, sparing no part of me.
profusion - Überfluss, Überfülle, Verschwendung, Vergeudung
Then, being on his knees between my thighs, he drew up his shirt, and bared all his hairy thighs, and stiff staring truncheon, red top, and rooted into a thicket of curls, which covered his belly to the novel, and gave it the air of a flesh brush; and soon I feel it joining close to mine, when he had drove the nail up to the head, and left no partition but the intermediate hair on both sides.
hairy - behaart, haarig, pelzartig
truncheon - Knüppel; Schlagstock
nail up - vernageln
partition - Partition, Zerlegung, Klasseneinteilung
what an immense difference did I feel between this impression of a pleasure merely animal, and struck out of the collision of the sexes, by a passive bodily effect, from that sweet fury, that rage of active delight which crowns the enjoyments of a mutual love passion, where two hearts, tenderly and truly united, club to exalt the joy, and give it a spirit and soul that bids defiance to that end which mere momentary desires generally terminate in, when they die of a surfeit of satisfaction!
bodily - körperlich, Körper
exalt - erheben; ehren; erhöhen
surfeit - Überfluss; Übermaß; Übersättigung; überfüttern, vollstopfen
whom no distinctions of that sort seemed to distract, scarce gave himself or me breathing time from the last encounter, but, as if he had tasked himself to prove that the appearances of his vigour were no signs hung out in vain, in a few minutes he was in a condition for renewing the onset; to which, preluding with a storm of kisses, he drove the same course as before, with unbated fervour; and thus, in repeated engagements, kept me constantly in exercise, till dawn of morning, in all which time he made me fully sensible of the virtues of his firm texture of limbs, his square shoulders, broad chest, compact hard muscles, in short a system of manliness, that might pass for no bad image of our ancient sturdy barons, whose race is now so thoroughly refined and frittered away into the more delicate and modern built frame of our pap-nerved softlings, who are as pale, as pretty, and almost as masculine as their sisters.
breathing time - Atempause
onset - Ausbruch; Angriff, Ansturm, checkAnschlag, Anzeichen
unbated - ungebremst
compact - zusammengedrängt
sturdy - solide; robust; stabil
barons - Barone; Baron, Freiherr
refined - verfeinert; verfeinern
frittered away - verplemperte
softlings - Weichlinge
masculine - männlich, maskulin, Maskulinum; maskulines Genus
Mr. H..., content, however, with having the day break upon his triumph, resigned me up to the refreshment of a rest we both wanted, and we soon dropped into a profound sleep.
Though he was some time awake before me, yet he did not offer to disturb a repose he had given me so much occasion for; but on my first stirring, which was not till past ten o'clock, I was obliged to endure one more trial of his manhood.
repose - ruhen
About eleven, in came Mrs. Jones, with two basins of the richest soup, which her experience in these matters had moved her to prepare. I pass over the fulsome compliments, the cant of the decent procuress, with which she saluted us both; but though my blood rose at the sight of her, I supprest my emotions, and gave all my concerne to reflections on what would be the consequence of this new engagement.
basins - Becken
fulsome - überschwänglich; taktlos, geschmacklos, übereifrig, übertrieben
concerne - betreffen
But Mr. H...
, who penetrated my uneasiness, did not suffer me to languish under it, and acquainted me, that having taken a solid sincere affection to me, he would begin by giving me one leading mark of it, in removing me out of a house which must, for many reasons, be irksome and disagreeable to me, into convenient lodgings, where he would take all imaginable care of me; and desiring not to have any explanations with my landlady, or be impatient till he returned, he dressed and went out, having left me a purse with two and twenty guineas in it, being all he had about him, as he express it, to keep my pocket still further supplied.
penetrated - durchdrungen; eindringen, penetrieren, penetrieren
languish - ermatten, erschlaffen, siechen, schmachten, sehnen
irksome - lästig; belastend, verdrießlich, ermüdend
purse - Handtasche; Geldbörse, Geldbeutel
As soon as he was gone, I felt the usual consequence of the first launch into vice (for my love attachment to Charles never appeared to me in that light). I was instantly borne away down the stream without making back to the shore. My dreadful necessities, my gratitude, and above all, to say the plain truth, the dissipation and diversion I began to find in this new acquaintance, from the black corroding thoughts my heart had been a prey to, ever since the absence of my dear Charles, concurred to stun all my contrary reflections.
dissipation - Ausschüttung; Zerstreuung, Zersplitterung, Zerteilung, Auflösung
corroding - zerfressen, korrodieren, rosten
concurred - zugestimmt; übereinstimmen, zustimmen, übereinstimmen
If I now thought of my first, my only charmer, it was still with the tenderness and regret of the fondest love, embittered with the consciousness that I was no longer worthy of him. I could have begged my bread with him all over the world, but wretch that I was! I had neither the virtue or courage requisite not to outlive my separation from him.
charmer - Charmeur, Charmeurin
embittered - verbittert; verbittern; jdn. verbittern; etw. verschlimmern
requisite - erforderlich, notwendig, Erfordernis, Voraussetzung
outlive - überleben
Yet, had not my heart been thus preengaged, Mr. H... might probably have been the sole master of it; but the place was full, and the force of conjectures alone had made him the possessor of my person; the charms of which had, by the bye, been his sole object and passion, and were, of course, no foundation for a love either very delicate or very durable.
preengaged - vorverpflichtet
conjectures - Vermutungen; Vermutung, Verdacht, Mutmaßung, Vermutung
possessor - Besitzer, Inhaber
durable - strapazierfähig, haltbar, dauerhaft
He did not return till six in the evening', to take me away to my new lodgings; and my moveables being soon packed, and conveyed into a hackney coach, it cost me but little regret to take my leave of a landlady whom I thought I had so much reason not to be over pleased with; and as for her part, she made no other difference to my staying or going, but what that of the profit created.
hackney - Lohnarbeiter
We soon got to the house appointed for me, which was that of a plain tradesman, who, on the score of interest, was entirely at Mr. H...'s devotion, and who let him the first floor, very genteelly furnished, for two guineas a week, of which I was instated mistress, with a maid to attend me.
tradesman - Handwerker, Facharbeiter, gelernter Arbeiter
devotion - Hingebung, Hingabe, Zuneigung, Zuwendung
genteelly - vornehmlich; vornehme
instated - eingeleitet; einsetzen
He stayed with me that evening, and we had a supper from a neighbouring tavern, after which, and a gay glass or two, the maid put me to bed. Mr. H.... soon followed, and notwithstanding the fatigues of the preceding night, I found no quarter nor remission from him: he piquet himself, as he told me, on doing the honours of my new apartment.
tavern - Gasthaus, Schankwirtschaft, Taverne
notwithstanding - ungeachtet dessen
fatigues - Müdigkeit, Ermüdung, Schlappheit, Überdruss, Erschöpfung
remission - Erlass; Gebührenbefreiung, Vergebung, Abnahme
The morning being pretty well advanced, we got to breakfast; and the ice now broke, my heart, no longer engrossed by love, began to take ease, and to please itself with such trifles Mr. H....'s liberal liking led him to make his court to the usual vanity of our sex.
trifles - Lappalien; Trifle
Silks, laces: ear rings, pearl necklace, gold watch, in sort, all the trinkets and articles of dress were lavishly heaped upon me; the sence of which, if it did not create returns of love, forced a kind of grateful fondness, something like love: a distinction which it would be spoiling the pleasure of nine tenths of the keepers in the town to make, and is, I suppose, the very good reason why so few of them ever do make it.
laces - Schnürsenkel; schnüren, Spitze (Gewebe)
ear rings - Ohrringe
pearl - Perle
necklace - Halskette, Collier, Halsband
trinkets - Schmuckstücke; Schmuck, Schmuckstück
lavishly - verschwenderisch, freigebig
heaped - gehäuft; Menschenmenge, Masse, Haufen, Haufe, Heap, Haufen
sence - Sinn
tenths - Zehntel; zehnte
keepers - Hüter, Wächter, Hüter, Torwart, Tormann
I was now established the kept mistress in form, well lodged, with a very sufficient allowance, and lighted up with all the lustre of dress.
Mr. H.... continued kind and tender to me; yet, with all this, I was far from happy: for, besides my regrets for my dear youth, which, though often suspended or diverted, still returned upon me in certain melancholic moments with redoubled violence, I wanted more society, more dissipation.
redoubled - verdoppelt; verdoppeln
As to Mr. H.... he was so much my superior in every sense, that I felt it too much to the disadvantage of the gratitude I owed him. Thus he gained my esteem, though he could not raise my taste; I was qualified for no sort of conversation with him, except one sort, and that is a satisfaction which leaves tiresome intervals, if not filled up by love, or other amusements.
esteem - Achtung, Ansehen, Wertschätzung, schätzen
tiresome - lästig
amusements - Vergnügungen; Amüsement
Mr. H...., so experienced, so learned in the ways of women, numbers of whom had passed through his hands, doubtless, soon perceived this uneasiness, and, without approving, or liking me the better for it, had the complaisance to indulge me.
complaisance - Wohlwollen; Gefälligkeit
He made suppers at my lodging, where he brought several companions of his pleasures, with their mistresses; and by this means I got into a circle of acquaintance, that soon stripped me of all the remains of bashfulness and modesty which might be yet left of my country education, and were, to a just taste, perhaps, the greatest of my charms.
suppers - Abendbrot; Abendessen
mistresses - Mätressen; Frau, Meisterin, Herrscherin, Mätresse, Liebhaberin
We visited one another in form, and mimicked, as near as we could, all the miseries, the follies, and impertinencies of the women in quality, in the round of which they trifle away their time, without it ever entering their little heads, that on earth there cannot subsist any thing more silly, more flat, more insipid and worthless, than, generally considered, their system of life is: they ought to treat the men as their tyrants, indeed!
mimicked - nachgeahmt; nachahmen, nachäffen
follies - Verrücktheiten; Torheit, Narrheit, Dummheit, Tollheit, Aberwitz
trifle - eine Lappalie; Trifle; Kleinigkeit, ein bisschen, ein wenig
subsist - bestehen; fortdauern
insipid - geschmacklos
worthless - wertlos, nutzlos, nichtsnutzig
tyrants - Tyrannen; Tyrann, Tyrannin, Tyrann, Tyrannin, Tyrann, de
were they to condemn them to it.
I had now lived near seven months with Mr. H.... when one day returning to my lodgings, from a visit in the neighbourhood, where I used to stay longer, I found the street door open, and the maid of the house standing at it, talking with some of her acquaintance, so that I came in without knocking and, as I passed by, she told me Mr. H.... was above. I slept up stairs into my own bed-chamber, with no other thought than of pulling off my hat etc., and then to wait upon him in the dining room, into which my bed-chamber had a door, as is common enough.
wait upon - jdm. seine Aufwartung machen
dining - Essen; Lärm, Getöse; dröhnen
Whilst I was untying my hat strings, I fancied I heard my maid Hannah's voice and a sort of tustle, which raised my curiosity; I stole softly to the door, where a knot in the wood had been slipped out, and afforded a very commanding peep-hole to the scene then in agitation, the actors of which had been to earnestly employed to hear my opening my own door, from the landing place of the stairs, into my bedchamber.
untying - aufbinden; losbinden, losmachen, aufklären, auflösen
tustle - drängeln
knot - Knoten, Knäuel
peep - piepsen; (peep hole) Schauloch; (to peep through) durchgucken
bedchamber - Schlafgemach
The first sight that struck me was Mr. H.... pulling and hauling this coarse country strammel towards a couch that stood in a corner of the dining-room; to which the girl made only a sort of awkward holdening resistance, crying out so loud, that I, who listened at the door, could scarce hear her: "Pray Sir, don't.., let me alone... I am not for your turn... You cannot, sure, demean yourself with such a poor body as I... Lord! Sir, my mistress may come home... I must not indeed... I will cry out..." All of which did not hinder her from insensibly suffering herself to be brought to the foot of the couch, upon which a push of no mighty violence served to give her a very easy fall, and my gentleman having got up his hands to the strong hold of her Virtue, she, no doubt, thought it was time to give up the argument, and that all further defense would be vain: and he, throwing her petticoats over her face, which was now as red as scarlet, discovered a pair of stout, plump, substantial thighs, and tolerably white; he mounted them round his haps, and coming out with his drawn weapon, stuck it in the cloven sport, where he seemed to find a less difficult entrance than perhaps he had flattered himself with (for, by the way, this blouse had left her place in the country, for a bastard), and, indeed, all his motions shewed he was lodged pretty much at large.
hauling - ziehen, schleppen, transportieren, befödern
dining - Essen; speisen
demean - erniedrigen
hinder - behindern, aufhalten, hindern; (hind) behindern, aufhalten
defense - Verteidigung, Wehr
scarlet - Scharlachrot, Scharlach
stout - beleibt
plump - prall werden, prall machen; drall, vollschlank, mollig
haps - Zufall
cloven - geklammert; gespaltet, gespalten, kleben
blouse - Bluse
bastard - Bastard, Bastardin, Bankert, Mistkerl
After he had done, his Deare gets up, drops her petticoats down, and smooths her apron and handkerchief. Mr. H.... looked a little silly, and taking out some money, gave it her, with an air indifferent enough, bidding her be a good girl, and say nothing.
Deare - entmutigen
apron - Schürze; Vorfeld; Fußsack
Had I loved this man, it was not in nature for me to have had patience to see the whole scene through: I should have broke in and played the jealous princess with a vengeance. But that was not the case: my pride alone was hurt, my heart not, and I could easier win upon myself to see how far he would go, till I had no uncertainty upon my conscience.
jealous - eifersüchtig; eifrig, eifernd, neidisch
vengeance - Rache, Vergeltung
The least delicate of all affairs of this sort being now over, I retired softly into my closet, where I began to consider what I should do. My first scheme naturally, was to rush in and upbraid them; this, indeed, flattered my present emotions and vexations, as it would have given immediate vent to them; but, on second thoughts, not being so clear as to the consequence to be apprehended from such a step, I began my discovery still a safer season, when dissembly my discovery till a safer season, when Mr. H.... should have perfected the settlement he had made overtures to me of, and which I was not to think such a violent explanation, as I was indeed not equal to the management of, could possibly forward, and might destroy. On the other hand, the provocation seemed too gross, too flagrant not to give me some thoughts of revenge; the very start of which idea restored me to perfect composure; and delighted as I was with the confused plan of it in my head, I was easily mistress enough of myself to support the part of ignorance I had prescribed to myself; and as all this circle of reflections was instantly over, I stole a tip-toe to the passage door, and opening it with a noise, passed for having that moment come home; and after a short pause, as if to pull off my things, I opened the door into the dining room, where I fund the dowdy blowing the fire, and my faithful shepherd walking about the room, and wistling, as cool and unconcerned as if nothing had happened.
upbraid - Vorwürfe machen; schimpfen
vexations - Ärgernisse; Ärger, Störung, Irritation, Ärgernis
vent - Entlüftung; entlüften
dissembly - Demontage
overtures - Ouvertüren; Angebot
provocation - Provokation
flagrant - schamlos, eklatant (Widerspruch), abscheulich
composure - Gelassenheit, Fassung, Haltung, innere Ruhe
dowdy - unansehnlich; schäbig, unelegant, abgetragen
faithful - treu
shepherd - Schafhirte; Schäfer, Schafhirt, q
wistling - pfeifend
I think, however, he had not much to brag of having out-dissembled me: for I kept up, nobly, the character of our sex for art, and went up to him with the same open air of frankness as I had ever received him. He stayed but a little while, made some excuse for not being able to stay the evening with me, and went out.
Brag - angeben, prahlen
dissembled - zerlegt; verbergen, vortäuschen, verbergen, verhehlen
nobly - großmütig, edel
frankness - Offenheit
As for the wench, she was now spoiled, at least for my servant; and scarce eight and forty hours were gone round, before her insolence, on what had passed betwen Mr. H.... and her, gave me so fair an occasion to turn her away, at a minute's warning, that, not to have done it would have been the wonder; so that he could neither disapprove it nor find in it the least reason to suspect my original motive. What became of her afterwards, I know not; but generous as Mr.
gone round - umgangen
insolence - Unverfrorenheit, Frechheit, Unverschämtheit, Dreistigkeit
disapprove - missbilligen
H.... was, he undoubtedly made her amends: though, I dare answer, that he kept up no further commerce with her of that sort; as his stooping to such a coarse morsel, was only a sudden sally of lust, on seeing a wholesome looking, buxom country wench, and no more strange than hunger, or even a whimsical appetite's making a fling meal of neck-beef, for change of diet.
morsel - ein Häppchen; Happen
sally - aufbrechen
wholesome - gesund, heilsam, gesundheitsfördernd, gesundheitsförderlich
buxom - drall, vollbusig
more strange - merkwürdigere
whimsical - launenhaft, spielerisch, launisch, schrullig
fling - Seitensprung; Affäre (Liebesaffäre)
Had I considered this escapade of Mr. H.... in no more than that light and contented myself with turning away the wench, I had thought and acted right; but, flushed as I was with imaginary wrongs, I should have held Mr. H... to have been cheaply off, if I had not pushed my revenge farther, and repaid him, as exactly as could for the soul of me, in the same coin.
escapade - Eskapade, Abenteuer, Streich
flushed - gespült; Wasserspülung, Wallung, Schwall; spülen
cheaply - billig
repaid - zurückgezahlt; zurückbezahlen
Nor was this worthy act of justice long delayed: I had it too much at heart. Mr. H...
had, about a fortnight before, taken into his service a tenant's son, just come out the country, a very handsome young lad, scarce turned of nineteen, fresh as a rose, well sharped and clear limbed: in short, a very good excuse for any woman's liking, even though revenge had been out of the question; any woman, I say, who was disprejudiced, and that wit and spirit enough to prefer a point of pleasure to a point of pride.
fortnight - vierzehn Tage; vierzehn Tag age, zwei Wochen
disprejudiced - unvoreingenommen
Mr. H... had clapped a livery upon him; and his chief employ was, after being shewn my lodgings, to bring and carry letters or messages between his master and me; and as the situation of all kept ladies is not the fittest to inspire respect, even to the meanest of mankind, and, perhaps, less of it from the most ignorant, I could not help observing that this lad, who was, I suppose, acquainted with my relation to his master by his fellow servants, used to eye me in that bashful confused way, more expressive, more moving and readier caught at by our sex, than any other declarations whatever: my figure had, it seems, struck him, and modest and innocent as he was, he did not himself know that the pleasure he took in looking at me was love, or desire; but his eyes, naturally wanton, and now inflamed with passion, spoke a great deal more than he durst have imagined they did. Hitherto, indeed, I had only taken notice of the comeliness of the youth, but without the least design: my pride alone would have guarded me from a thought that way, had not Mr. H.
clapped - geklatscht; Tripper, Beifall; klatschen
livery - Tracht, Kleid
mankind - die Menschheit; Menschheit, Menschengeschlecht, Mann
ignorant - unwissend; ignorant
more expressive - ausdrucksfähigere
comeliness - Angemessenheit; Anmut
..'s condescension with my maid, where there was not half the temptation, in point of person, set me a dangerous example; but now I began to look on this stripling as every way a delicious instrument of my designed retaliation upon Mr. H.... of an obligation for which I should have made a conscience to die in his debt.
condescension - Herablassung, Kondeszendenz
temptation - Versuchung, Verführung
stripling - Streifenhörnchen; Jüngling
retaliation - Vergeltung
When I saw him thus moved, and fired for my purpose, I inflamed him yet more, by asking him several leading questions, such as: "Had he a mistress?... was she prettier than me?... could he love such a one as I was?..." and the like; to all which the blushing simpleton answered to my wish, in a strain of perfect nature, perfect undebauched innocence, but with all the awkwardness and simplicity of country breeding.
blushing - errötend; (blush) errötend
undebauched - unverdorben
awkwardness - Unbeholfenheit, Umständlichkeit, Ungeschicklichkeit, Plumpheit
When I thought I had sufficiently ripened him for the laudable point I had in view, one day that I expected him at a particular hour, I took care to have the coast clear for the reception I designed him; and, as I laid it, he came to the dining room door, tapped at it, and, in my bidding him come in; he did so, and shut the door after him. I desired him, then, to bolt it on the inside, pretending it would not otherwise keep shut.
laudable - lobenswert, löblich
keep shut - zuhalten
I was then lying at length upon that very couch, the scene of Mr. H....'s polite joys, in an undress, which was with all the art of negligence flowing loose, and in a most tempting disorder: no stays, no hoop..., no incumbrance whatever.
negligence - Fahrlässigkeit
most tempting - verleitendste
Hoop - Reifen
incumbrance - Belastung
On the other hand, he stood at a little distance, that gave me a full view of a fine featured, shapely, healthy country lad, breathing the sweets of fresh blooming youth; his hair, which was of a perfect shining black, played to his face in natural side curls, and was set out with a smart tuck-up behind; new buckskin breechs, that, clipping close, shewed the shape of a plump, well made thigh; white stockings, garter-laced livery, shoulder knot, altogether composed a figure of pure flesh and blood, and appeared under no disgrace from the lowness of a dress, to which a certain spruce neatness seems peculiarly fitted.
shapely - wohlgeformt
blooming - blühen; Blüte, Blütenpracht, Duft
tuck-up - (tuck-up) zurückstreifen
buckskin - Hirschleder
breechs - Verschlüsse
thigh - Oberschenkel
stockings - Strümpfe; Strumpf
Garter - Strumpfband
laced - geschnürt; schnüren, Spitze (Gewebe)
lowness - Niedergeschlagenheit; Tiefe
spruce - Fichte; Fichtenholz
peculiarly - eigentümlich
I bid him come towards me, and give me his letter, at the same time throwing down, carelessly, a book I had in my hands. He coloured, and came within reach of delivering me the letter, which he held out, awkwardly enough, for me to take, with his eyes rivetted on my bosom, which was, through the designed disorder of my handkerchief, sufficiently bare, and rather than hid.
throwing down - hinwerfend
carelessly - unachtsam
rivetted - genietet; Niet, vernieten, nieten, Aufmerksamkeit richten auf
I, smiling in his face, took the letter, and immediately catching hold of his shirt sleeve, drew him towards me, blushing, and almost trembling; for surely his extreme bashfulness, and utter inexperience called for, at least, all the advances to encourage him: his body was now conveniently inclined toward me, and just softly chucking his beardless chin, I asked him: "If he was afraid of a lady?..." and with that took, and carrying his hands to my breasts, I press it tenderly to them.
toward - zu, in Richtung, nach, auf
chucking - Werfen; Spannfutter, Ansaugvorrichtung; erbrechen, einspannen
beardless - bartlos, ohne Bart
chin - Kinn
They were now finely furnished, and raised in flesh, so that, panting with desire, they rose and fell, in quick heaves, under his touch: at this, the boy's eyes began to lighten with all the fires of inflamed nature, and his cheeks flushed with a deep scarlet: tongue-tied with joy, rapture, and bashfulness, he could not speak, but then his looks, his emotion, sufficiently satisfied me that my train had taken, and that I had no disappointment to fear.
My lips, which I threw in his way, so that he could not escape kissing them, fixed, fired, and emboldened him: and now, glancing my eyes towards that part of his dress which covered the essential object of enjoyment, I plainly discovered the swell and commotion there; and as I was now too far advanced to stop in so fair a way, and was indeed no longer able to contain myself, or wait the slower progress of his maiden bash-fulness (for such it seemed, and really was), I stole my hands upon his thighs, down one of which I could both see and feel a stiff hard body, confined by his breeches, that my fingers could discover no end to. Curious then, and eager to unfold so alarming a mystery, playing, as it were, with his buttons, which were bursting ripe from the active force within, those of his waistband and fore-flap flew open at a touch, when out IT started; and now, disengaged from the shirt, I saw, with wonder and surprise, what? not the play thing of a boy, not the weapon of a man, but a Maypole, of so enormous a standard, that had proportions been observed, it must have belonged to a young giant.
commotion - Aufruhr; Aufregung; Spektakel, Theater, Zirkus, Aufstand
Bash - schlagen, hauen; Schlag
fulness - Fülle
ripe - reif
waistband - Bund, Taillenbund, Hosenbund
fore - vorn
flap - Klappe, klappen, Patte (an einer Tasche); Hosenklappe
Maypole - Maibaum
Yet I could not, without pleasure, behold, and even venture to feel, such a length, such a breadth of animated ivory! perfectly well turned and fashioned, the proud stiffness of which distented its skin, whose smooth polish and velvet softness might vie with that of the most delicate of our sex, and whose exquisite whiteness was not a little set off by a sprout of black curling hair round the root: through the jetty springs of which the fair skin shewed as in a fine evening you may have remarked the clear light through the branchwork of distant trees over-topping the summit of a hill: then the broad of blueish-casted incarnate of the head, and blue serpentines of its veins, altogether composed the most striking assemblage of figure and colours in nature. In short, it stood an object of terror and delight.
animated - animiert; lebendig, beseelt, bewegt, lebhaft, belebt, beleben
ivory - Elfenbein, Elfenbeinfarbe, elfenbeinern, Elfenbein-
distented - verfremdet
polish - Politur; polnisch; Polnisch
vie - wetteifern, konkurrieren
most delicate - zierlichste
sprout - sprießen; Schössling
jetty - Steg; Pier, Landungsbrücke
branchwork - Zweigwerk
blueish - bläulich
casted - gegossen; Kaste
incarnate - fleischgeworden; verkörpern; leibhaftig, in Menschengestalt
serpentines - Serpentinen; gewunden, Serpentine
assemblage - Sammlung, Menge, Versammlung
But it was now of the latest to deliberate, for, by this time, the young fellow, over heated with the present objects, and too high metled to be longer curbed in by that modesty and awe which had hitherto restrained him, ventured, under the stronger impulse, and instructive promptership of nature alone, to slip his hands, trembling with eager impetuous desires, under my petticoats; and seeing, I suppose, nothing extremely severe in my looks, to stop or dash him, he feels out, and seizes, gently, the center spot of his ardours. Oh then! the fiery touch of his lingers determines me, and my fears melting away before the glowing intolerable heat, my thighs disclose of themselves, and yield all liberty to his hand: and now, a favourable movement giving my petticoats a toss, the avenue lay too fair, too open to be missed.
curbed - gebremst; Beschränkung, Zurückhaltung, Zwang, Einschränkung
restrained - zurückhaltend; zurückhalten
instructive - lehrreich
promptership - Souffleurschaft
Dash - Bindestrich, Gedankenstrich, Querstrich, Spurt, Sprint
ardours - Begeisterung, Ăśberschwang, Hitze
melting away - zerrinnend
He is now upon me: I had placed myself with a jerk under him, as commodious and open as possible to his attempts, which were untoward enough, for his machine, meeting with no inlet, bore and battered stiffly against me in random pushes, now above, now below, now beside his point; till, burning with impatience from its irritating touches, I guided gently, with my hand, this furious fescue to where my young novice was now to be taught his first lesson of pleasure. Thus he nicked, at length, the warm and insufficient orifice; but he was made to find no breach impracticable, and mine, though so often entered, was still far from wide enough to take him easily in.
jerk - Trottel; Zuckung, Satz, Reflex, ruckweise; Wichser; erschüttern
inlet - Ansaugung, Einlass, Eingang
battered - ramponiert; zerschlagen, ich/er/sie stieß ab, schlagen
irritating - irritierend; reizen, irritieren, ärgern
fescue - Schwingel, Schwingelgras
nicked - eingekerbt; Kerbe; einschneiden
orifice - Blende; Öffnung
impracticable - undurchführbar
By my direction, however, the head of his unwieldy machine was so critically pointed, that, feeling him fore-right against the tender opening, a favourable motion from me met his timely thrust, by which the lips of it, strenuously dilated, gave way to his thus assisted impetuosity, so that we might both feel that he had gained a lodgment. Pursuing then his point, he soon, by violent, and, to me, most painful piercing thrusts, wedges himself at length so far in, as to be now tolerably secure of his entrance: here he stuck, and I now felt such a mixture of pleasure and pain, as there is no giving a definition of. I dreaded alike his splitting me farther up, or his withdrawing; I could not bear either to keep or part with him. The sense of pain, however, prevailing, from his prodigious size and stiffness, acting upon me in those continued rapid thrusts, with which he furiously pursued his penetration, made me cry out gently: "Oh, my dear, you hurt me!
unwieldy - unhandlich, schwerfällig, sperrig, klobig
strenuously - mit Nachdruck; anstrengende, tüchtig
dilated - geweitet; dilatieren, weiten, vergrößern, erweitern, dehnen
impetuosity - Ungezügeltheit; Unvorsichtigkeit, Heftigkeit, Ungestüm
lodgment - Einreichung
piercing - Piercing; durchdringend, stechend, beißend
wedges - verkeilen, festklemmen, mit einem Keil spalten; keilen
furiously - wütend, heftig
This was enough to check the tender respectful boy even in his mid-career; and he immediately drew out the sweet cause of my complaint, whilst his eyes eloquently expressed, at once, his grief for hurting me, and his reluctance at dislodging from quarters, of which the warmth and closeness had given him a gust of pleasure, that he was now desire mad to satisfy, and yet too much a novice not to be afraid of my withholding his relief, on account of the pain he had put me to.
respectful - respektvoll
eloquently - wortgewandt
reluctance - Widerstreben, Widerwillen, Widerwille, Zögern, Zaudern
dislodging - verlagern; herauslösen; außer Position bringen
closeness - Nähe
withholding - Vorenthaltung; Quellensteuer; (withhold); zurückhalten
But I was, myself, far from being pleased with his having too much regarded my tender exclaims; for now, more fired with the object before me, as it still stood with the fiercest erection, unbonneted, and displayed its broad vermilion head, I first gave the youth a re-encouraging kiss, which he repaid me with a fervour that seemed at once to thank me, and bribe my further compliance; and soon replaced myself in a posture to receive, at all risk, the renewed invasion, which he did not delay an instant: for, being presently remounted, I once more felt the smooth hard gristle forcing an entrance, which he achieved rather easier than before. Pained, however, as I was, with his efforts of gaining a complete admission, which he was so regardful as to manage by gentle degrees, I took care not to complain.
exclaims - ausruft; ausrufen
erection - Errichtung; Erektion
remounted - ummontiert; wieder einhängen
In the mean time, the soft strait passage gradually loosens, yields, and, stretched to its utmost bearing, by the stick, thick, indriven engine, sensible, at once, to the ravishing pleasure of the feel and the pain of the distension, let him in about half way, when all the most nervous activity he now exerted, to further his penetration, gained him not an inch of his purpose: for, whilst he hesitated there, the crisis of pleasure overtook him, and the close compressure of the warm surrounding flow drew from him the ecstatic gush, even before mine was ready to meet it, kept up by the pain I had endured in the course of the engagement, from the insufferable size of his weapon, though it was not as yet in above half its length.
Strait - Meerenge, Straße
loosens - lockert sich; lösen, lockern
indriven - angetrieben
ravishing - hinreißend; entführen, rauben, entzücken
distension - Aufblähung; Dehnung
most nervous - nervöseste
overtook - überholt; überholen, aufholen, überholen
compressure - Kompression
ecstatic - ekstatisch
insufferable - unerträglich
I expected then, but without wishing it, that he would draw, but was pleasingly disappointed: for he was not to be let off so. The well breathed youth, hot-mettled, and flush with genial juices, was now fairly in for making me know my driver. As soon, then, as he had made a short pause, waking, as it were, out of the trance of pleasure (in which every sense seemed lost for a while, whilst, with his eyes shut, and short quick breathings, he had yielded down his maiden tribute), he still kept his post, yet unsated with enjoyment, and solacing in these so new delights; till his stiffness, which had scarce perceptibly remitted, being thoroughly recovered to him, who had not once unsheathed, he proceeded afresh to cleave and open to himself an entire entry into me, which was not a little made easy to him by the balsamic injection, with: which he had just plentifully moistened the whole internals of the passage. Redoubling, then, the active energy of his thrusts, favoured by the fervid appetency of my motions, the soft oiled wards can no longer stand so effectual a picklock, but yield, and open him an entrance. And now, with conspiring nature, and my industry, strong to aid him, he pierces, penetrates, and at length, winning his way inch by inch, gets entirely in, and finally, a home made thrust sheaths it up to the guard; on the information of which, from the close jointure of our bodies (insomuch that the hair on both sides perfectly interweaved and incircled together), the eyes of the transported youth sparkled with more joyous fires, and all his looks and motions acknowledged excess of pleasure, which I now began to share, for I felt him in my very vitals!
pleasingly - Erfreulich; angenehme
genial - großartig
trance - Trance
breathings - Atemzüge; Atmen
unsated - ungesättigt
solacing - Trost spenden; Trost, Trost, trösten
perceptibly - spürbar
remitted - überwiesen; annullieren, überweisen (per Post), zurückschicken
unsheathed - ungeschützt; Ernst machen
afresh - von neuem; neu, wieder
cleave - spalten
redoubling - Verdoppelung; verdoppeln
fervid - glühende
appetency - Begierde
effectual - wirkungsvoll
picklock - Dietrich
pierces - durchbohrt; lochen, durchbohren
penetrates - durchdringt; eindringen, penetrieren, penetrieren
home made - hausbacken
sheaths - Hüllen; Futteral
interweaved - miteinander verwoben; verweben, verflechten, durchweben
incircled - eingekreist
joyous - freudig
I was quite sick with delight! stirred beyond bearing with its furious agitations within me, and gorged and crammed, even to a surfeit. Thus I lay gasping, panting under him, till his broken breathings, faultering accents, eyes twinkling with humid fires, lunges more furious, and an increased stiffness, gave me to hail the approaches of the second period: it came... and the sweet youth, overpowered with the ecstasy, died away in my arms, melting a flood that shot in genial warmth into the innermost recesses of my body; every conduit of which, dedicated to that pleasure, was on flow to mix with it. Thus we continued for some instants, lost, breathless, senseless of every thing, and in every part but those favourite ones of nature, in which all that we enjoyed of life and sensation was now totally concentered.
gasping - keuchend; (gasp); keuchen; japsen, prusten, Atemzug, Luftholen
faultering - fehlerhaft
twinkling - Funkeln; kurzer Augenblick
humid - feucht
lunges - Ausfallschritte; Ausfall, Ausfallschritt, losstürzen, ausfallen
more furious - grimmigere
overpowered - übermächtig; überwältigen, übermannen
ecstasy - Ekstase; Ecstasy, Teile, Pillen
innermost - innersten; innerst
recesses - Pausen; Vertiefung, Winkel, Aushöhlung, qualifier
conduit - Kanal, Leitung, Leitungsrohr
When our mutual trance was a little over, and the young fellow had withdrawn that delicious stretcher, with which he had most plentifully drowned all thoughts of revenge, in the sense of actual pleasure, the widened wounded passage refunded a stream of pearly liquids, which flowed down my thighs, mixed with streaks of blood, the marks of the ravage of that monstrous machine of his, which had now triumphed over a kind of second maidenhead.
refunded - zurückerstattet; erstatten, zurückerstatten, Erstattung
pearly - perlend; perlenartig, himmlisch
streaks - Schliere, Später Ginsterspanner, schlieren, flitzen
ravage - verwüsten, zerstören, Verwüstung
monstrous - ungeheuerlich, monströs, grotesk, monsterhaft, monsterartig
I stole, however, my handkerchief to those parts, and wiped them as dry as I could, whilst he was re-adjusting and buttoning up.
buttoning up - zuknöpfend
I made him sit down by me, and as he had gathered courage from such extreme intimacy, he gave me an aftercourse of pleasure, in a natural burst of tender gratitude and joy, at the new scenes of bliss I had opened to him: scenes positively new, as he had never before had the least acquaintance with that mysterious mark, the cloven stamp of female distinction, though nobody better qualified than he to penetrate into its deepest recesses, or do it nobler justice.
intimacy - Intimität
aftercourse - nach dem Kurs
positively - positiv
penetrate - durchdringen; eindringen, penetrieren
But when, by certain motions, certain unquietness of his hands, that wandered not without design, I found he languished for satisfying a curiosity, natural enough, to view and handle those parts which attract and concenter the warmest force of imagination, charmed, as I was, to have any occasion of obliging and humouring his young desires, I suffered him to proceed as he pleased, without check or control, to the satisfaction of them.
languished - geschmachtet; ermatten, erschlaffen, siechen, schmachten
concenter - konzentrierter
Easily, then, reading in my eyes the full permission of myself to all his wishes, he scarce pleased himself more than me; when, having insinuated his hand under my petticoat and shift, he presently removed those bars to the sight, by slily lifting them upwards, under favour of a thousand kisses, which he thought, perhaps, necessary to divert my attention from what he was about. All my drapery being now rolled up to my waist, I threw myself into such a posture upon the couch, as gave up to him, in full view, the whole region of delight, and all the luxurious landscape around it.
insinuated - angedeutet; andeuten, unterstellen, insinuieren, einschmeicheln
slily - schlampig; schlau
drapery - Drapierung; Vorhang
waist - Taille; Rumpf
luxurious - luxuriös
The transported youth devoured every thing with his eyes, and tried, with his fingers, to lay more open to his sight the secrets of that dark and delicious deep: he opens the folding lips, the softness of which, yielding entry to any thing of a hard body, close round it, and oppose the sight; and feeling further, meets with, and wonder at, a soft fleshy excrescence, which, limber and relaxed after the late enjoyment, now grew, under the touch and examination of his fiery fingers, more and more stiff and considerable, till the titillating ardours of that so sensible part made me sigh, as if he had hurt me; on which he withdrew his curious probing fingers, asking me pardon, as it were, in a kiss that rather increased the flame there.
fleshy - fleischig
excrescence - Auswüchse; Wucherung [med.]
limber - gelenkig; locker, biegsam
Novelty ever makes the strongest impressions, and in pleasures, especially; no wonder then, that he was swallowed up in raptures of admiration of things so interesting by their nature, and now seen and handled for the first time. On my part, I was richly overpaid for the pleasure I gave him, in that of examining the power of those objects thus abandoned to him, naked and free to his loosest wish, over the artless, natural stripling: his eyes streaming fire, his cheeks glowing with a florid red, his fervid frequent sighs, whilst his hands convulsively squeezed, opened, pressed together again the lips and sides of that deep flesh wound, or gently twitched the over-growing moss; and all proclaimed the excess, the riot of joys, in having his wantonness thus humoured.
richly - reich; wohlhabend
overpaid - überbezahlt; überbezahlen
convulsively - krampfhafte
flesh wound - Fleischwunde
twitched - gezuckt; zupfen
moss - Moos; bemoosen
wantonness - Lüsternheit; Ausgelassenheit, Unbeherrschtheit
But he did not long abuse my patience, for the objects before him had now put him by all his, and, coming out with that formidable machine of his, he lets the fury loose, and pointing it directly to the pouting-lip mouth, that bid him sweet defiance in dumb shew, squeezes in his head, and, driving with refreshed rage, breaks in, and plugs up the whole passage of that soft pleasure-conduit pipe, where he makes all shake again, and put, once more, all within me into such an uproar, as nothing could still, but a fresh inundation from the very engine of those flames, as well as from all the springs with which nature floats that reservoir of joy, when risen to its floodmark.
formidable - Beeindruckend; respekteinflößend, furchteinflößend
pouting - schmollene, aufgeworfen, schmollend; (pout) schmollene
uproar - Aufruhr
inundation - Überschwemmung, Überflutung
reservoir - Reservoir; Stausee
floodmark - Hochwasserzeichen
Giddy and intoxicated as I was with such satiating draughts of pleasure, I still lay on the couch, supinely stretched out, in a delicious languor diffused over all my limbs, hugging myself for being thus revenged to my heart's content, and that in a manner so precisely alike, and on the identical spot in which I had received the supposed injury. No reflections on the consequences ever once perplexed me, nor did I make myself one single reproach for having, by this step, completely entered myself into a profession more decried than disused.
intoxicated - berauscht; berauschen, vergiften, berauschen
satiating - sättigend; sättigen, übersättigen
draughts - Luftzug; Spielstein
supinely - auf dem Rücken liegend
diffused - verbreiten, diffundieren, sich vermischen; diffus (Licht)
hugging - Umarmung, umarmen
decried - abgelehnt; herabsetzen, schlechtmachen, in Verruf bringen
disused - stillgelegt; Nichtgebrauch, Nichtnutzung
I should have held it ingratitude to the pleasure I had received, to have repented of it; and since I was now over the bar, I thought, by plunging head and ears into the stream I was hurried away by, to drown all sense of shame or reflection.
ingratitude - Undankbarkeit; Undank
repented - bereut; bereuen
Whilst I was thus making these laudable dispositions, and whispering to myself a kind of tacit vow of incontinency, enters Mr. H... The consciousness of what I had been doing deepened yet the glowing of my cheeks, flushed with the warmth of the late action, which, joined to the piquant air of my dishabile, drew from Mr. H.... a compliment on my looks, which he was proceeding to bask the sincerity of with proofs, and that with so brisk an action, as made me tremble for fear of a discovery from the condition those parts were left in from their late severe handling: the orifice dilated and inflamed, the lips swollen with their uncommon distension, the ringlets pressed down, crushed and uncurled with the over flowing moisture that had wet everything round it; in short, the different feel and state of things would hardly have passed upon one of Mr.
dispositions - Veranlagungen; Neigung, Gesinnung, Hang, Veranlagung
tacit - stillschweigend, impliziert, unausgesprochen
incontinency - Inkontinenz
deepened - vertieft; aushölen, vertiefen, zunehmen, vergrößern, vergrößern
piquant - pikant
compliment - Kompliment, Lob, Anerkennung, Achtungsbezeugung
bask - genießen
sincerity - Aufrichtigkeit, Ehrlichkeit
brisk - lebhaft, rege, vital, anregend
swollen - geschwollen; Schwellen
uncommon - ungebräuchlich; ungewöhnlich
pressed down - herabgedrückt
uncurled - entrollt; entkräuseln
moisture - Feuchtigkeit, Nässe
H.....'s nicety and experience unaccounted for but by the real cause. But here the woman saved me: I pretended a violent disorder of my head, and a feverish heat, that indisposed me too much to receive his embraces. He gave in to this, and good naturedly desisted. Soon after, an old lady coming in made a third, very apropos for the confusion I was in, and Mr. H...., after bidding me take care of myself, and recommending me to my repose, left me much at ease and relieved by his absence.
nicety - Nettigkeit; Feinheit
unaccounted - unerklärt
feverish heat - Fieberhitze
indisposed - unpässlich; untauglich machen
desisted - aufgegeben; aufhören
In the close of the evening, I took care to have prepared for me a warm bath of aromatik and sweet herbs; in which having fully laved and solaced myself, I came out voluptuously refreshed in body and spirit.
laved - laviert; waschen
solaced - getröstet; Trost, Trost, trösten
voluptuously - lüstern
The next morning waking pretty early, after a night's perfect rest and composure, it was not without some dread and uneasiness that I thought of what innovation that tender soft system of mine might have sustained, from the shock of a machine so sized for its destruction.
dread - schaudern, grauen, gruseln, grausen
Struck with this apprehension, I scarce dared to carry my hand thither, to inform myself of the state and posture of things.
thither - dorthin, dahin
But I was soon agreeably cured of my fears.
Finding then every thing in due tone and order, I remember my fears, only to make a jest of them to myself. And now, palpably mistress of any size of man, and triumphing in my double achievement of pleasure and revenge, I abandoned myself entirely to the ideas of all the delight I had swam in. I lay stretching out, glowingly alive all over, and tossing with burning impatience for the renewal of joys that had sinned but in a sweet excess; nor did I lose my longing, for about ten in the morning, according to expectation, Will, my new humble sweetheart, came with a message from his master, Mr. H.
jest - scherzen
glowingly - glühende
sweetheart - Schätzchen; Schatz, herzensguter Mensch, Seele von Mensch
.., to know how I did. I had taken care to send my maid on an errand into the city, that I was sure would take up time enough; and, from the people of the house, I had nothing to fear, as they were plain good sort of folks, and wise enough to mind no more other people's business than they could well help.
All dispositions then made, not forgetting that of lying in bed to receive him, when he was entered the door of my bed chamber, a latch, that I governed by a wire, descended and secured it.
latch - einrasten; Riegel, Sperre, Klinke
I could not but observe that my young minion was as much spruced out as could be expected from one in his condition: a desire of pleasing that could not be indifferent to me, since it proved that I pleased him; which, I assure you, was now a point I was not above having in view.
minion - Ergebener, Untergebener, Lakai, Günstling, Kolonel, Colonel
spruced - herausgeputzt; Fichte, Fichtenholz
His hair trimly dressed, clean linen, and, above all, a hale, ruddy, wholesome country look, made him out as pretty a piece of woman's meat as you could see, and I should have thought any one much out of taste, that could not have made a hearty meal of such a morsel as nature seemed to have designed for the highest diet of pleasure.
trimly - gepflegt
hale - gesund, rüstig
ruddy - rot, rötlich, verdammt, verflixt
And why should I here suppress the delight I received from this amiable creature, in remarking each artless look, each motion of pure indissembled nature, betrayed by his wanton eyes; or shewing, transparently, the glow and suffusion of blood through his fresh, clear skin, whilst even his stury rustic pressure wanted not their peculiar charm? Oh! but, say you, this was a young fellow of too low a rank of life to deserve so great a display. May be so: but was my condition, strictly considered, one jot more exalted? or, had I really been much above him, did not his capacity of giving such exquisite pleasure sufficiently raise and enoble him, to me, at least? Let who would, for me cherish, respect, and reward the painter's, the statuary's, the musician's art, in proportion to the delight taken in them: but at my age, and with my taste for pleasure, a taste strongly constitutional to me, the talent of pleasing, with which nature has endowed a handsome person, formed to me the greatest of all merits; compared to which, the vulgar prejudices in favour of titles, dignities, honours, and the like, held a very low rank indeed.
amiable - liebenswürdig, liebenswert, gutmütig
indissembled - unzerlegt
glow - glühen; abstrahlen; leuchten; Glühen
suffusion - Überziehen, Durchziehen, Durchtränken, Benetzen
jot - kritzeln; schnell hinschreiben
exalted - erhaben; ehren, erhöhen
enoble - veredeln
cherish - hegen; wertschätzen
statuary - Bildhauerei; Bildhauer, Bildhauerkunst
Nor perhaps would the beauties of the body be so much affected to be held cheap, were they, in their nature, to be bought and delivered. But for me, whose natural philosophy all resided in the favourite center of sense, and who was ruled by its powerful instinct in taking pleasure by its right handle, I could scarce have made a choice more to my purpose.
Mr. H....'s loftier qualifications of birth, fortune and sense, laid me under a sort of subjection and constraint, that were far from making harmony in the concert of love; nor had he, perhaps, thought me worth softening that superiority to; but, with this lad, I was more on the level which love delights in.
loftier - erhabener; hoch, qualifier
subjection - Unterwerfung
superiority - Überlegenheit
We may say what we please, but those we can be the easiest and freest with, are ever those we like, not to say love the best.
With this stripling, all whose art of love was the action of it, I could, without check of awe or restraint, give a loose to jay, and execute every scheme of dalliance my fond fancy might put me on, in which he was, in every sense, a most exquisite companion.
jay - Eichelhäher; Tölpel
And now my great pleasure lay in humouring all the petulances, all the wanton frolic of a raw novice just fledged, and keen on the burning scent of his game, but unbroken to the sport: and, to carry on the figure, who could better read the wood than he, or stand fairer for the heart of the hunt?
petulances - Petulanzen; Gereiztheit, Launenhaftigkeit, Launigkeit
fledged - flügge; erwachsen werden
scent - Geruch, Duft, Parfüm, Parfum, Fährte, Geruch (1, 3)
He advanced then to my bed side, and whilst he faultered out his message, I could observe his colour rise, and his eyes lighten with joy, in seeing me in a situation as favourable to his loosest wishes, as if he had bespoke the play.
faultered - fehlerhaft
I smiled, and put out my hand towards him, which he kneeled down to (a politeness taught him by love alone, that great master of it) and greedily kissed. After exchanging a few confused questions and answers, I asked him if he would come to bed to me, for the little time I could venture to detain him. This was just asking a person, dying with hunger, to feast upon the dish on earth the most to his palate.
kneeled down - hingekniet
politeness - Höflichkeit
greedily - gierig
palate - Gaumen
Accordingly, without further reflection, his clothes were off in an instant; when, blushing still more at this new liberty, he got under the bed clothes I held up to receive him, and was now in bed with a woman for the first time in his life.
Here began the usual tender preliminaries, as delicious, perhaps, as the crowning act of enjoyment itself; which they often beget an impatience of, that makes pleasure destructive of itself, by hurrying on the final period, and closing that scene of bliss, in which the actors are generally too well pleased with their parts, not to wish them an eternity of duration.
When we had sufficiently graduated our advances towards the main point, by toying, kissing, clipping, feeling my breasts, now round and plump, feeling that part of me I might call a furnace mouth, from the prodigious intense heat his fiery touches had rekindled there, my young sportsman, emboldened by the very freedom he could wish, wontonly takes my hand, and carries it to that enormous machine of his, that stood with a stiffness!
furnace - Ofen, Hochofen, Schmelzofen, Heizung
sportsman - Sportler, Athlet
a hardness! an upward bend of erection! and which, together with it bottom dependence, the inestimable bulse of ladies jewels, formed a grand showout of goods indeed! Then its dimensions, mocking either grasp or span, almost renewed my terrors.
upward - nach oben; ansteigend, aufwärts
inestimable - unschätzbar
jewels - Juwelen; Edelstein, Juwel
showout - ausstellen
mocking - spöttisch; (moc) spöttisch
I could not conceive how, or by what means I could take, or put such a bulk out of sight. I stroked it gently, on which the mutinous rogue seemed to swell, and gather a new degree of fierceness and insolence; so that finding it grew not to be trifled with any longer, I prepared for rubbers in good earnest.
mutinous - meutern
fierceness - Grimmigkeit; Grimm, Wildheit
trifled - getrickst; Trifle
Slipping then a pillow under me, that I might give him the fairest play, I guided officiously with my hand this furious battering ram, whose ruby head, presenting nearest the resemblance of a heart, I applied to its proper mark, which lay as finely elevated as we could wish; my hips being borne up, and my thighs at their utmost extension, the gleamy warmth that shot from it, made him feel that he was at the mouth of the indraught, and driving fore right, the powerfully divided lips of that pleasure-thirsty channel received him. He hesitated a little; then, settled well in the passage, he makes his way up the straights of it, with a difficulty nothing more than pleasing, widening as he went so as to distend and smooth each soft furrow: our pleasure increasing deliciously, in proportion to our points of mutual touch increased in that so vital part of me which I had now taken him, all indriven, and completely sheathed; and which, crammed as it was, stretched splitting ripe, gave it so gratefully straight an accommodation! so strict a fold! a suction so fierce! that gave and took unutterable delight. We had now reached the closest point of union; but when he beckened to come on the fiercer, as if I had ben actuated by a fear of losing him, in the height of my fury, I twist my legs round his naked loins, the flesh of which, so firm, so springy to the touch, quivered again under the pressure; and now I had him every way encircled and begirt; and having drawn him home to me, I kept him fast there, as if I had sought to unite bodies with him at that point. This bred a pause of action, a pleasure stop, whilst that delicate glutton, my nether mouth, as full as it could hold, kept palating, with exquisite relish, the morsel that so deliciously ingorged it. But nature could not long endure a pleasure that it so highly provoked without satisfying it: pursuing then its darling end, the battery recommenced with redoubled exertion; nor lay I inactive on my side, but encountering him with all the impetuosity of motion I was mistress of, the downy cloth of our meeting mount was now of real use to break the violence of the tilt; and soon, indeed! the highwrought agitation, the sweet urgency of this to-and-fro friction, raised the titillation on me to its height; so that finding myself on the point of going, and loath to leave the tender partner of my joys behind me, I employed all the forwarding motions and arts my experience suggested to me, to promote his keeping me company to our journey's end.
ram - RAM
resemblance - Ähnlichkeit
gleamy - leuchtend; glänzend
indraught - verzweifelt
powerfully - kraftvoll
distend - aufblähen; ausweiten, dehnen, ausdehnen
furrow - Furche
deliciously - köstlich
sheathed - ummantelt; in die Scheide stecken, ummanteln, umhüllen
gratefully - dankbar
suction - Saugen; Saugwirkung; lutschen
unutterable - unaussprechlich
beckened - gelockt
actuated - betätigt; in Gang setzen, aktivieren, antreiben, anstacheln
loins - Lenden; Lende, Rippenstück
springy - federnd; elastisch
quivered - gezittert; zittern
glutton - Vielfraß, Nimmersatt, Völler, Unersättlicher, Unersättliche
nether - Unter.., unter
palating - schmecken
ingorged - ingoriert
recommenced - wiederaufgenommen; wieder beginnen
exertion - Anstrengung, Kraftanstrengung, Anspannung, Ausübung
inactive - untätig
downy - flaumig
highwrought - Hochwassersituation
urgency - Dringlichkeit
titillation - Erregung, Kitzel
loath - verabscheuen; abgeneigt
I not only then tightened the pleasure-girth round my restless inmate, by a secret spring of friction and compression that obeys the will in those parts, but stole my hand softly to that store bag of nature's prime sweets, which is so pleasingly attached to its conduit pipe, from which we receive them; there feeling, and most gently indeed, squeezing those tender globular reservoirs, the magic touch took instant effect, quickened, and brought on upon the spur the symptoms of that sweet agony, the melting moment of dissolution, when pleasure dies by pleasure, and the mysterious engine of it overcomes the titillation it has raised in those parts, by plying them with the stream of a warm liquid, that in itself the highest of all titillations, and which they thirstily express and draw in like the hot natured leach, which, to cool itself, tenaciously extracts all the moisture within its sphere of execution. Chiming then to me, with exquisite consent, as I melted away, his oily balsamic injection, mixing deliciously with the sluices in flow from me, sheathed and blunted all the stings of pleasure, whilst a voluptuous languor possest, and still maintained us motionless, and fast locked in one another's arms. Alas! that these delights should be no longer-lived; for now the point of pleasure, unedged by enjoyment, and all the brisk sensations flattened upon us, resigned us up to the cool cares of insipid life. Disengaging myself then from his embrace, I made him sensible of the reasons there were for his present leaving me; on which, though reluctantly, he put on his clothes, with as little expedition, however, as he could help, wantonly interrupting himself, between whiles, with kisses, touches and embraces I could not refuse myself to. Yet he happily returned to his master before he was missed; but, at taking leave, I forced him (for he had sentiments enough to refuse it) to receive money enough to buy a silver watch, that great article of subaltern finery, which he at length accepted of, as a remembrance he was carefully to preserve of my affections.
girth - Sattelgurt; Umfang
restless - unruhig; ruhelos, rastlos, checkunruhig
compression - Kompression, Komprimierung
reservoirs - Stauseen; Reservoir
quickened - beflügelt; beschleunigen
spur - anspornen, ankurbeln (Wirtsch.), beflügeln; Ansporn
plying - verhandeln; Windung (Technik), Strähne, Kordlage; handhaben
titillations - Erregung, Kitzel
thirstily - durstig, durstige
leach - auslaugen; laugen
tenaciously - hartnäckig
chiming - Ton; läuten
melted away - zerrann
oily - ölig; ölhaltig
sluices - Schleuse, Schleusentor
stings - sticht; Stachel, brennender Schmerz, Stich; schmerzlich treffen
voluptuous - üppig
possest - besessen
flattened - abgeflacht; plätten, flachmachen, planieren, plattmachen
disengaging - auskuppeln; ausklinken, aushaken, entkuppeln
reluctantly - widerstrebend
wantonly - mutwillig
subaltern - Subaltern, Subalternoffizier
As love never had, so now revenge had no longer any share in my commerce in this handsome youth. The sole pleasures of enjoyment were now the link I held to him by: for though nature had done such great maters for him in his outward form, and especially in that superb piece of furniture she had so liberally enriched him with; though he was thus qualified to give the senses their richest feast, still there was something more wanting to create in me, and constitute the passion of love. Yet Will had very good qualities too: gentle, tractable, and, above all, grateful; silentious, even to a fault: he spoke, at any time, very little, but made it up emphatically with action; and, to do him justice, he never gave me the least reason to complain, either of any tendency to encroach upon me for the liberties I allowed him, or of his indiscretion in blabbing them.
outward form - Erscheinungsform
liberally - freizügig
silentious - schweigsam
emphatically - mit Nachdruck
encroach - widerrechtlich eindringen; widerrechtlich vordringen
indiscretion - Indiskretion
blabbing - ausplaudernd, schwatzend, ausplappernd; (blab) ausplaudernd
There is, then, a fatality in love, or have loved him I must; for he was really a treasure, a bit for the Bonne Bouche of a duchess; and, to say the truth, my liking for him was so extreme, that it was distinguishing very nicely to deny that I loved him.
fatality - Todesfall; Verhängnis
Duchess - Herzogin
nicely - nett; gut
My happiness, however, with him did not last long, but found an end from my own imprudent neglect. After having taken even superfluous precautions against a discovery, our success in repeated meetings emboldened me to omit the barely necessary ones. About a month after our first intercourse, one fatal morning (the season Mr. H.... rarely or never visited me in) I was in my closet, where my toilet stood, in nothing but my shift, a bed gown and under petticoat. Will was with me, and both ever too well disposed to baulk an opportunity. For my part, a whim, a wanton toy had just taken me, and I had challenged my man to execute it on the spot, who hesitated not to comply with my humour: I was set in the arm chair, my shift and petticoat up, my thighs wide spread and mounted over the arms of the chair, presenting the fairest mark to Will's drawn weapon, which he stood in act to plunge into me, when, having neglected to secure the chamber door, and that of the closet standing a-jar, Mr.
imprudent - unvorsichtig; unklug, unbedacht
superfluous - überflüssig
meetings - Versammlung, Treffen, Sitzung
omit - weglassen, auslassen
intercourse - Beziehungen, Umgang, Verkehr, Geschlechtsverkehr
whim - Laune
arm chair - Sessel
jar - Topf, Krug, Glasgefäß
H.... stole in upon us, before either of us was aware, and saw us precisely in these convicting attitudes.
I gave a great scream, and dropped my petticoat: the thunder-struck lad stood trembling and pale, waiting his sentence of death. Mr. H.... looked sometimes at one, sometimes at the other, with a mixture of indignation and scorn; and, without saying a word, spun upon his heel and went out.
thunder - Donner; Donnern
As confused as I was, I heard him very distinctly turn the key, and lock the chamber door upon us, so that there was no escape but through the dining room, where he himself was walking about with distempered strides, stamping in a great chafe, and doubtless debating what he would do with us.
distinctly - deutlich
distempered - unzufrieden; Staupe
strides - schritte; schreiten
chafe - scheuern; Reibungswärme; Schürfwunde, Verschleiß, Abnutzung
In the mean time, poor William was frightened out of his senses, and, as much need as I had of spirits myself, I was obliged to employ them all to keep his a little up. The misfortune I had now brought upon him, endeared him the more to me, and I could have joyfully suffered any punishment he had not shared in.
William - Wilhelm
misfortune - Pech, Ungemach, Unglück, Unfall, Unheil
I watered, plentifully, with my tears, the face of the frightened youth, who sat, not having strength to stand, as cold and as lifeless as a statue.
Presently Mr. H.... comes in to us again, and made us go before him into the dining room, trembling and dreading the issue, Mr. H.....
dreading - schaudern, grauen, gruseln, grausen
sat down on a chair whilst we stood like criminals under examination; and, beginning with me, asked me, with an even firm tone of voice, neither soft nor severe, but cruelly indifferent, what I could say for myself, for having abused him in so unworthy a manner, with his own servant too, and how he had deserved this of me?
cruelly - grausam
unworthy - unwürdig
Without adding to the guilt of my infidelity, that of an audacious defence of it, in the old style of a common kept miss, my answer was modest, and often interrupted by my tears, in substance as follows: "That I never had a single thought of wronging him" (which was true), "till I had seen him taking the last liberties with my servant wench" (here he coloured prodigiously), "and that my resentment at that, which I was over-awed from giving vent to by complaints, or explanations with him, had driven me to a course that I did not pretend to justify; but that as to the young man, he was entirely faultless; for that, in the view of making him the instrument of my revenge, I had down right seduced him to what he had done; and therefore hoped, whatever he determined about me, he would distinguish between the guilty and the innocent; and that; for the rest, I was entirely at his mercy.
audacious - kühn
prodigiously - erstaunlich
awed - ehrfürchtig; Ehrfurcht, Staunen
faultless - einwandfrei; fehlerfrei
seduced - verführt; verführen, verführen, verleiten
Mr. H.... on hearing what I said, hung his head a little; but instantly recovering himself, he said to me, as near as I can retain, to the following purpose:
"Madam, I owe shame to myself, and confess you have fairly turned the tables upon me. It is not with one of your cast of breeding and sentiments, that I allow you so much reason on your side, as great difference of the provocations: be it sufficient that I should enter into a discussion of the very to have changed my resolution, in consideration of what you reproach me with; and I own, too, that your clearing that rascal there, is fair and honest in you.
provocations - Provokationen; Provokation
rascal - Schlingel; Gauner, Strolch, Bösewicht, Schurke, Bengel
Renew with you I cannot: the affront is too gross. I give you a week's warning to get out of these lodgings; whatever I have given you, remains to you; and as I never intend to see you more, the landlord will pay you fifty pieces on my account, with which, and every debt paid, I hope you will own I do not leave you in a worse condition than what I took you up in, or that you deserve of me. Blame yourself only that it is no better."
affront - beleidigen; Affront
Then, without giving me time to reply, he addressed himself to the young fellow:
"For you, spark, I shall, for your father's sake, take care of you: the town is no place for such an easy fool as thou art; and to-morrow you shall set out, under the charge of one of my men, well recommended, in my name, to your father, not to let you return and be spoil'd here."
At these words he went out, after my vainly attempting to stop him, by throwing myself at his feet. He shook me off, though he seemed greatly moved too, and took Will away with him, who, I dare swear, thought himself very cheaply off.
vainly - vergeblich
As for poor Will, he was immediately sent down to the country to his father, who was an easy farmer, where he was not four months before an inn-keepers'buxom young widow, with a very good stock, both in money and trade, fancied, and perhaps pre-acquainted with his secret excellencies, married him: and I am sure there was, at least, one good foundation for their living happily together.
pre - vor..
excellencies - Exzellenzen; Exzellenz
Though I should have been charmed to see him before he went, such measures were taken, by Mr. H....'s orders, that it was impossible; otherwise I should certainly have endeavoured to detain him in town, and would have spared neither offers nor expense to have procured myself the satisfaction of keeping him with me.
offers - Angebote; offerieren, anbieten, bieten, zeigen; Antrag, Offerte
He had such powerful holds upon my inclinations as were not easily to be shaken off, or replaced; as to my heart, it was quite out of the question: glad, however, I was from my soul, that nothing worse, and as things turned out, nothing better could have happened to him.
shaken off - abgeschüttelt
As to Mr. H...
though views of conveniency made me, at first, exert myself to regain his affection, I was giddy and thoughtless enough to be much easier reconciled to my failure than I ought to have been; but as I never had loved him, and his leaving me gave me a sort of liberty that I had often longed for, I was soon comforted; and flattering myself, that the stock of youth and beauty I was going to trade with, could hardly fail of procuring me a maintenance, I saw myself under the necessity of trying my fortune with them, rather, with pleasure and gaiety, than with the least idea of despondency.
conveniency - Bequemlichkeit
despondency - Verzagtheit, Mutlosigkeit, Niedergeschlagenheit
In the mean time, several of my acquaintances among the sisterhood, who had soon got wind of my misfortune, flocked to insult me with their malicious consolations. Most of them had long envied me the affluence and splendour I had been maintained in; and though there was scarce one of them that did not at least deserve to be in my case, and would probably, sooner or later, come to it, it was equally easy to remark, even in their affected pity, their secret pleasure at seeing me thus discarded, and their secret grief that it was no worse with me.
acquaintances - Bekanntschaft, Umgang, Bekannter, Bekannte
sisterhood - Schwesterschaft; Schwesternschaft, Frauenorden
malicious - bösartig
splendour - Pracht; Brillanz
Unaccountable malice of the human heart! and which is not confined to the class of life they were of.
unaccountable - nicht rechenschaftspflichtig
malice - Boshaftigkeit, Böse, Bosheit, Bösartigkeit
But as the time approached for me to come to some resolution how to dispose of myself, and I was considering, round where to shift my quarters to, Mrs. Cole, a middle aged discreet sort of woman, who had been brought into my acquaintance by one of the misses that visited me, upon learning my situation, came to offer her cordial advice and service to me; and as I had always taken to her more than to any of my female acquaintances, I listened the easier to her proposals. And, as it happened, I could not have put myself into worse, or into better hands in all London: into worse, because keeping a house of conveniency, there were no lengths in lewdness she would not advise me to go, in compliance with her customers; no schemes, or pleasure, or even unbounded debauchery, she did not take even a delight in promoting: into a better, because nobody having had more experience of the wicked part of the town than she had, was fitter to advise and guard one against the worst dangers of our profession; and what was rare to be met with in those of her's, she contented herself with a moderate living profit upon her industry and good offices, and had nothing of their greedy rapacious turn.
discreet - diskret
unbounded - unbegrenzt
debauchery - Ausschweifungen; Ausschweifung, Schwelgerei, Verkommenheit
wicked - verrucht; böse; (wick) verrucht; böse
greedy - gierig, habgierig, habsüchtig, gefräßig
rapacious - räuberisch
She was really too a gentlewoman born and bred, but through a train of accidents reduced to this course, which she pursued, partly through necessity, partly through choice, as never woman delighted more in encouraging a brisk circulation of the trade, for the sake of the trade itself, or better understood all the mysteries and refinements of it, than she did; so that she was consummately at the top of her profession, and dealt only with customers of distinction: to answer the demands of whom she kept a competent number of her daughters in constant recruit (so she called those whom their youth and personal charms recommended to her adoption and management: several of whom, by her means, and through her tuition and instructions, succeeded very well in the world).
refinements - Verfeinerungen; Verbesserung, Veredelung, Veredeln
consummately - voll und ganz
This useful gentlewoman upon whose protection I now threw myself, having her reasons of state, respecting Mr. H...
, for not appearing too much in the thing herself, sent a friend of her's, on the day appointed for my removal, to conduct me to my new lodgings at a brush-maker's in E-- street, Covent Garden, the very next door to her own house, where she had no conveniences to lodge me herself: lodgings that, by having been for several successions tenanted by ladies of pleasures, the landlord of them was familiarized to their ways; and provided the rent was paid, every thing else was as easy and commodious as one could desire.
Maker - Schöpfer; Macher, Hersteller, Fabrikant
Lodge - Lodge; Loge; Biberburg; feststecken, festklemmen, beherbergen
familiarized - vertraut gemacht; sich bekanntmachen
The fifty guineas promised me by Mr. H...., at his parting with me, having been duly paid me, all my clothes and moveables chested up, which were at least of two hundred pounds value, I had them conveyed into a coach, where I soon followed them, after taking a civil leave of the landlord and his family, with whom I had never lived in a degree of familiarity enough to regret the removal; but still, the very circumstance of its being a removal, drew tears from me.
duly - gebührend, ordnungsgemäß, pünktlich
familiarity - Vertrautheit
I left, too, a letter of thanks for Mr. H...., from whom I concluded myself, as I really was, irretrievably separated.
irretrievably - unwiederbringlich
My maid I had discharged the day before, not only because I had her of Mr. H...., but that I suspected her of having some how or other been the occasion of his discovering me, in revenge, perhaps, for my not having trusted her with him.
in revenge - aus Rache (für)
We soon got to my lodgings, which, though not so handsomely furnished, nor so showy as those I left, were to the full as convenient, and at half price, though on the first floor. My trunks were safely landed, and stowed in my apartments, where my neighbour, and now gouvernante, Mrs.
showy - protzig, auffällig, schreiend, grell
trunks - Stamm, Baumstamm, Koffer, Truhe, Schrankkoffer, Schiffskoffer
safely - sicher
Cole, was ready with my landlord to receive me, to whom she took care to set me out in the most favourable light, that of one from whom there was the clearest reason to expect the regular payment of his rent: all the cardinal virtues attributed to me, would not have had half the weight of that recommendation alone.
most favourable - günstigst, günstigste
cardinal - grundsätzlich; kardinalrot; Grundzahl, Kardinalzahl, Kardinal
I was now settled in lodgings of my own, abandoned to my own conduct, and turned loose upon the town, to sink or swim, as I could manage with the current of it; and what were the consequences, together with the number of adventures which befell me in the exercise of my new profession, will compose the mater of another letter: for surely it is high time to put a period! to this.
Yours, etc., etc., etc.
THE END OF THE FIRST LETTER
If I have delayed the sequel of my history, it has been purely to allow myself a little breathing time not without some hopes, that, instead of pressing me to a continuation, you would have acquitted me of the task of pursuing a confession, in the course of which my self-esteem has so many wounds to sustain.
sequel - Fortsetzung, Folge
I imagined, indeed, that you would have been cloyed and tired with uniformity of adventures and expressions, inseparable from a subject of this sort, whose bottom, or groundwork being, in the nature of things eternally one and the same, whatever variety of forms and modes the situations are susceptible of, there is no escaping a repetition of near the same images, the same figures, the same expressions, with this further inconvenience added to the disgust it creates, that the words Joys, Ardours, Transports, Extasies and the rest of those pathetic terms so congenial to, so received in the Practice of Pleasure, flatten and lose much of their due spirit and energy by the frequency they indispensably recur with, in a narrative of which that Practice professedly composes the whole basis.
cloyed - beschäftigt; anwidern
uniformity - Einheitlichkeit, Uniformität
inseparable - untrennbar, unteilbar, unzertrennlich
groundwork - Vorarbeiten; Grundlage
eternally - auf ewig
susceptible - anfällig, beeindruckbar, empfänglich, empfindlich
repetition - Wiederholung, Wdh(lg). Wiederholung
inconvenience - Unannehmlichkeit; lästig sein, stören
pathetic - erbärmlich
congenial - sympathisch; gleichgesinnt, wesensgleich, wesensverwandt
flatten - abflachen; plätten, flachmachen, planieren, plattmachen
recur - wiederkehren
professedly - erklärtermaßen
I must therefore trust to the candour of your judgment, for your allowing for the disadvantage I am necessarily under in that respect; and to your imagination and sensibility, the pleasing taks of repairing it, by their supplements, where my descriptions flag or fail: the one will readily place the pictures I present before your eyes; the other give life to the colours where they are dull, or worn with too frequent handling.
candour - Offenheit, Aufrichtigkeit
sensibility - Sensibilität, Empfindlichkeit, Empfindungsvermögen
Resuming now where I broke off in my last, I am in my way to remark to you, that it was late in the evening before I arrived at my lodgings, and Mrs. Cole, after helping me to range and secure my things, spent the whole evening with me in my apartment, where we supped together, in giving me the best advice and instruction with regard to the new stage of my profession I was now to enter upon; and passing thus from a private devotee to pleasure into a public one, to become a more general good, with all the advantages requisite to put my person out to use, either for interest or pleasure, or both. "But then," she observed, "as I was a kind of new face upon the town, that is, was an established rule and myster of trade, for me to pass for a maid and dispose of myself as such on the first good occasion, without prejudice, however, to such diversions as I might have a mind to in the interim; for that nobody could be a greater enemy than she was to the losing of time. That she would, in the mean time, do her best to find out a proper person, and would undertake to manage this nice point for me, if I would accept of her aid and advice to such good purpose, that, in the loss of a fictitious maidenhead, I should reap all the advantages of a native one.
devotee - Bewunderer, Enthusiast, Fan, Anhänger
fictitious - fiktiv
reap - erlangen;einheimsen, ernten
As too great a delicacy of sentiments did not extremely belong to my character at that time, I confess, against myself, that I perhaps too readily closed with a proposal which my candor and ingenuity gave me some repugnance to: but not enough to contradict the intention of one to whom I had now thoroughly abandoned the direction of all my steps. For Mrs. Cole had, I do not know how unless by one of those unaccountable invincible sympathies that, nevertheless, from the strongest links, especially of female friendship, won and got entire possession of me. On her side, she pretended that a strict resemblance, she fancied she saw in me, to an only daughter whom she had lost at my age, was the first motive of her taking to me so affectionately as she did. It might be so: there exist a slender motives of attachment, that, gathering force from habit and liking, have proved often more solid and durable than those founded on much stronger reasons; but this I know, that though I had no other acquaintance with her, than seeing her at my lodgings, when I lived with Mr. H.
candor - Offenheit; Aufrichtigkeit, Freimut, Redlichkeit, Ehrlichkeit
ingenuity - Erfindungsreichtum; Einfallsreichtum, Findigkeit, Raffinesse
repugnance - Abneigung, Widerwille
contradict - widersprechen
invincible - unbesiegbar
., where she had made errands to sell me some millinery ware, she had by degrees insinuated herself so far into my confidence, that I threw myself blindly into her hands, and came, at length, to regard, love, and obey her implicitly; and, to do her justice, I never experienced at her hands other than a sincerity of tenderness, and care for my interest, hardly heard of in those of her profession. We parted that night, after having settled a perfect unreserved agreement; and the next morning Mrs. Cole came, and took me with her to her house for the first time.
errands - Besorgungen; Besorgung, Auftrag, Besorgung
millinery - Hutgeschäft, Modewaren, Modewarengeschäft, Boutique, Hutmacherei
blindly - blindlings
implicitly - stillschweigend
Here, at the first sight of things, I found every thing breathe an air of decency, modesty and order.
In the outer parlour, or rather shop, sat three young women, rather demurely employed on millinery work, which was the cover of a traffic in more precious commodities; but three beautifuller creatures could hardly be seen. Two of them were extremely fair, the eldest not above nineteen; and the third, much about that age, was a piquant brunette, whose black sparking eyes, and perfect harmony of features and shape, left her nothing to envy in her fairer companions. Their dress too had the more design in it, the less it appeared to have, being in a taste of uniform correct neatness, and elegant simplicity. These were the girls that composed the small domestic flock, which my governess trained up with surprising order and management, considering the giddy wildness of young girls once got upon the loose.
demurely - züchtig
beautifuller - Schöner
brunette - brünett; Brünette
governess - Hauslehrerin, Erzieherin, Gouvernante
wildness - Wildheit, Wildsein, Ungezähmtheit
But then she never continued any in her house, whom, after a due noviciate, she found un-tractable, or unwilling to comply with the rules of it. Thus she had insensibly formed a little family of love, in which the members found so sensibly their account, in a rare alliance of pleasure and interest, and of a necessary outward decency, with unbounded secret liberty, that Mrs. Cole, who had picked them as much for their temper as their beauty, governed them with ease to herself and them too.
The sameness of our sex, age, profession, and views, soon creased as unreserved a freedom and intimacy as if we had been for years acquainted. They took and shewed me the house, their respective apartments, which were furnished with every article of convenience and luxury; and above all, a spacious drawing-room, where a select revelling band usually met, in general parties of pleasure; the girls supping with their sparks, and acting their wanton pranks with unbounded licentiousness; whilst a defiance of awe, modesty or jealousy were their standing rules, by which, according to the principles of their society, whatever pleasure was lost on the side of sentiment, was abundantly made up to the senses in the poignancy of variety, and the charms of ease and luxury.
sameness - Gleichheit, Gleichartigkeit, Gleichförmigkeit
creased - zerknittert; Falte, Bügelfalte
spacious - geräumig; weiträumig
revelling - schwelgen; schwelgerisch; (revel) schwelgen; schwelgerisch
supping - Essen; Was ist los?; schlürfen
pranks - Streiche; Streich, Schabernack, veralbern, veräppeln
licentiousness - Zügellosigkeit, Freizügigkeit, Unzüchtigkeit
abundantly - im Überfluss; reichlich
poignancy - Ergreifend; Schärfe, Schmerzlichkeit
The authors and supporters of this secret institution would, in the height of their humour, style themselves the restorers of the golden age and its simplicity of pleasures, before their innocence became so unjustly branded with the names of guilt and shame.
supporters - Unterstützer, Unterstützerin, Anhänger, Anhängerin
restorers - Restauratoren; Restaurator
unjustly - zu Unrecht; ungerecht
As soon then as the evening began, and the shew of a shop was shut, the academy opened; the mask of mock-modesty was completely taken off, and all the girls delivered over to their respective calls of pleasure or interest with their men: and none of that sex was promiscuously admitted, but only such as Mrs. Cole was previously satisfied with their character and discretion.
promiscuously - promiskuitiv
In short, this was the safest, politest, and, at the same time, the most thorough house of accommodation in town: every thing being conducted so, that decency made no intrenchment upon the most libertine pleasures; in the practice of which, too, the choice familiars of the house had found the secret so rare and difficult, of reconciling even all the refinements of taste and delicacy, with the most gross and determinate gratifications of sensuality.
intrenchment - Verschanzung
libertine - Wüstling
reconciling - Versöhnung; versöhnen
determinate - determiniert; begrenzt, bestimmt, festgelegt
gratifications - Befriedigungen; Befriedigung
sensuality - Sinnlichkeit
After having consumed the morning in the dear endearments and instructions of my new acquaintance, we went to dinner, when Mrs. Cole, presiding at the head of her club, gave me the first idea of her management and address, in inspiring these girls with so sensible a love and respect for her. There was no stiffness, no reserve, no airs of pique, or little jealousies, but all was unaffectedly gay, cheerful and easy.
pique - reizen
jealousies - Eifersucht, Missgunst, Mißgunst, Neid, Missgunst
unaffectedly - unbeeinflusst
After dinner, Mrs. Cole, seconded by the young ladies, acquainted me that there was a chapter to be held that night in form, for the ceremony of my reception into the sisterhood; and in which, with all due reserve to my maidenhead, that was to be occasionally cooked up for the first proper chapman. I was to undergo a ceremonial of initiation they were sure I should not be displeased with.
ceremonial - feierlich; zeremoniell
Embarked as I was, and moreover captivated with the charms of my new companions, I was too much prejudiced in favour of any proposal they could make, to as much as hesitate an assent; which, therefore, readily giving in the style of a carte blanche, I received fresh kisses of compliment from them all, in approval of my docility and good nature.
captivated - gefesselt; bestechen, bezaubern, entzücken, faszinieren, fesseln
assent - zustimmen, behaupten
docility - Fügsamkeit; Gelehrigkeit
good nature - Gutartigkeit
Now I was "a sweet girl... I came into things with a good grace... I was not affectedly coy... I should be the pride of the house," and the like.
affectedly - affektiert
coy - schüchtern
This point thus adjusted, the young women left Mrs. Cole to talk and concert matters with me, when she explained to me, that "I should be introduced that very evening, to four of her best friends, one of whom she had, according to the custom of the house, favoured with the preference of engaging me in the first party of pleasure;" assuring me, at the same time, "that they were all young gentlemen agreeable in their persons, and unexceptionable in every respect; that united, and holding together by the band of common pleasures, they composed the chief support of her house, and made very liberal presents to the girls that pleased and humoured them, so that they were, properly speaking, the founders and patrons of this little seraglio.
agreeable - angenehm; verträglich, liebenswürdig, gefällig
unexceptionable - untadelig
seraglio - Serail
Not but that she had, at proper seasons, other customers to deal with, whom she stood less upon punctilio with, than with these; for instance, it was not on one of them she could attempt to pass me for a maid; they were not only too knowing, too much town-bred to bite at such a bait, but they were such generous benefactors to her, that it would be unpardonable to think of it."
punctilio - Punkt
bait - Köder, Luder, Fischköder
benefactors - Wohltäter, Wohltäterin, Benefaktor
unpardonable - unverzeihlich
Amidst all the flutter and emotion which this promise of pleasure, for such I conceived it, stirred up in me, I preserved so much of the woman, as to feign just reluctance enough to make some merit, of sacrificing it to the influence of my patroness, whom I likewise, still in character, reminded of it perhaps being right for me to go home and dress, in favour of my first impressions.
flutter - flattern; wedeln
feign - vorgeben, vortäuschen, vormachen, fingieren, ausdenken
patroness - Schirmherrin; Gönnerin
Cole, in opposition to this, assured me, "that the gentlemen I should be presented to were, by their rank and taste of things, infinitely superior to the being touched with any glare of dress or ornaments, such slick women rather confound and overlay than set off their beauty with; that these veteran voluptuaries knew better than not to hold them in the highest contempt: they with whom the pure native charms alone could pass current, and who would at any time leave a sallow, washy, painted duchess on her own hands, for a ruddy, healthy firm fleshed country maid; and as for my part, that nature had done enough for me, to set me above owing the least favour to art;" concluding withal, that for the instant occasion, there was no dress like an undress.
glare - Blendung; entrüstetes Starren; missbilligend anstarren
ornaments - Ornamente; Verzierung, musikalische Verzierung
slick - raffiniert; schlüpfrige Art, glattweg, poliert, schlau
Confound - verwirren; verschlimmern, verschlechtern, besiegen, verfluchen
overlay - überlagern, einblenden; Overlay
sallow - blass; farblos, blässlich, fahl, Salweide, bleich
washy - wässrig
I thought my governess too good a judge of these matters, not to be easily overruled by her: after which she went on preaching very pathetically the doctrine of passive obedience and non-resistance to all those arbitrary tastes of pleasure, which are by some styled the refinements, and by others the depravations of it; between whom it was not the business of a simple girl, who was to profit by pleasing, to decide, but to conform to.
overruled - überstimmt; überstimmen, verwerfen
pathetically - erbärmlich
obedience - Gehorsam, Folgsamkeit, Gehorsamkeit
non - nicht..
depravations - Verwerfungen; Verworfenheit
conform - anpassen; entsprechen, passen, gerecht werden, genügen
Whilst I was edifying by these wholesome lessons, tea was brought in, and the young ladies, returning, joined company with us.
edifying - erbaulich; bestärken, erbauen, edifizieren
After a great deal of mixed chat, frolic and humour, one of them, observing that there would be a good deal of time on and before the assembly hour, proposed that each girl should entertain the company with that critical period of her personal history, in which she first exchanged the maiden state for womanhood.
The proposal was approved, with only one restriction of Mrs. Cole, that she, on account of her age, and I, on account of my titular maidenhead, should be excused, at least till I had undergone the forms of the house. This obtained me a dispensation, and the promotress of this amusement was desired to begin.
titular - Titel
dispensation - Dispens
promotress - Werberin
Her name was Emily; a girl fair to excess, and whose limbs were, if possible, too well made, since their plump fulness was rather to the prejudice of that delicate slimness required by the nicer judges of beauty; her eyes were blue, and streamed inexpressible sweetness, and nothing could be prettier than her mouth and lips, which closed over a range of the evenest and whitest teeth. Thus she began:
slimness - Schlankheit
"Neither my extraction, nor the most critical adventure of my life, is sublime enough to impeach me of any vanity in the advancement of the proposal you have approved of. My father and mother were, and for aught I know, are still, farmers in the country, not above forty miles from town: their barbarity to me, in favour of a son, on whom alone they vouchsafed to bestow their tenderness, had a thousand times determined me to fly their house, and throw myself on the wide world; but, at length, an accident forced me on this desperate attempt at the age of fifteen. I had broken a chinabowl, the pride and idol of both their hearts; and as an unmerciful beating was the least I had to depend on at their hands, in the silliness of these tender years, I left the house, and, at all adventures, took the road to London. How my loss was resented I do not know, for till this instant I have not heard a syllable about them. My whole stock was two broad pieces of my godmother's, a few shillings, silver shoe-buckles and a silver thimble. Thus equipped, with no more clothes than the ordinary ones I had on my back, and frightened at every foot or noise I heard behind me, I hurried on; and I dare sweare, walked a dozen miles before I stopped, through mere weariness and fatigue.
extraction - Extraktion; erman: t-needed
sublime - sublimierens, erhaben
impeach - verhindern; anklagen; in Verruf bringen, schlechtmachen
advancement - Förderung; Fortschritt; Erbvorbezug
aught - etwas
farmers - Bauern; Landwirt, Landwirtin; qualifier
vouchsafed - verbürgt; gewähren
unmerciful - unbarmherzig
silliness - Dummheit, Albernheit
resented - verübelt; zurückgesandt; verübeln, übelnehmen
Godmother - Patin, Patentante, Taufpatin, Gotte
buckles - zuschnallen; Delle, Schnalle, Spange
thimble - Fingerhut; ein Fingerhut voll; Aufnahmedose, Becher, Buchse
sweare - schwören
At length I sat down on a style, wept bitterly, and yet was still rather under increased impressions of fear on the account of my escape; which made me dread, worse than death, the going back to my unnatural parents. Refreshed by this little repose, and relieved by my tears, I was proceeding onward, when I was overtaken by a sturdy country lad, who was going to London to see what he could do for himself there, and, like me, had given his friends the slip. He could not be above seventeen, was ruddy, well featured enough, with uncombed flaxen hair, a little flapped hat, kersey frock, yarn stockings, in short, a perfect plough boy. I saw him come whistling behind me, with a bundle tied to the end of a stick, his travelling equipage. We walked by one another for some time without speaking; at length we joined company, and agreed to keep together till we got to our journey's end; what his designs or ideas were, I know not: the innocence of mine I can solemnly protest.
bitterly - verbittert; bitterlich
unnatural parents - Rabeneltern
onward - vorwärts
overtaken - überholt; überholen, aufholen, überholen
uncombed - ungekämmt
flaxen - flachsen; flachsfarben
flapped - geflattert; Klappe, klappen
kersey - Trikot; Kersey
frock - Kleid, Kutte
yarn - Garn; Tau
plough - Pflug; pflügen; ficken
bundle - Bündel
solemnly - feierlich, festlich, ernst
"As night drew on, it became us to look out for some inn or shelter; to which perplexity another was added, and that was, what we should say for ourselves, if we were questioned. After some puzzle, the young fellow started a proposal, which I thought the finest that could be; and what was that? why, that we should pass for husband and wife: I never dreamed of consequences. We came presently, after having agreed on this notable experience, to one of those hedge accommodations for foot passengers, at the door of which stood an old crazy beldam, who seeing us trudge by, invited us to lodge there. Glad of any cover, we went in, and my fellow traveller, taking all upon him, called for what the house afforded, and we supped together as man and wife; which, considering our figures and ages, could not have passed on any one but such as any thing could pass on. But when bed-time came on, we had neither of us the courage to contradict our first account of ourselves; and what was extremely pleasant, the young lad seemed as perplexed as I was how to evade lying together, which was so natural for the state we had pretended to. Whilst we were in this quandary, the landlady takes the candles, and lights us to our apartment, through a long yard, at the end of which it stood, separate from the body of the house.
perplexity - Verwirrung; Perplexität
hedge - Hecke
trudge - stapfen; schleppen
bed-time - (bed-time) Schlafenszeit
evade - ausweichen; meiden; sich entziehen
quandary - Zwickmühle, Verlegenheit, Dilemma, verfahrene Situation
Thus we suffered ourselves to be conducted, without saying a word in opposition to it; and there, in a wretched room, with a bed answerable, we were left to pass the night together, as a thing quite of course. For my part, I was so incredibly innocent, as not even to think much more harm of going into bed with the young man, than with one of our dairy wenches; nor had he, perhaps, any other notions than those of innocence, till such a fair occasion put them into his head.
answerable - verantworten
wenches - Weiber; Magd, Mädchen
"Before either of us undressed, however, he put out the candle; and the bitterness of the weather made it a kind of necessity for me to go into bed: slipping then my clothes off, I crept under the bedclothes, where I found the young stripling already nestled, and the touch of his warm flesh rather pleased than alarmed me. I was indeed too much disturbed with the novelty of my condition to be able to sleep; but then I had not the least thought of harm. But oh! how powerful are the instincts of nature! how little is there wanting to set them in action! The young man, sliding his arm under my body, drew me gently towards him, as if to keep himself and me warmer; and the heat I felt from joining our breasts, kindled another that I had hitherto never felt, and was, even then, a stranger to the nature of. Emboldened, I suppose, by my easiness, he ventured to kiss me, and I insensibly returned it; without knowing the consequence of returning it: for, on this encouragement, he slipped his hand all down from my breast to that part of me where the sense of feeling is so exquisitely critical, as I then experienced by its instant taking fire upon the touch, and glowing with a strange tickling heat: there he pleased himself and me, by feeling, till growing a little too bold with me, he hurt me, and made me complain.
bitterness - Bitterkeit, Bitternis
bedclothes - Bettwaren; Bettwäsche, Bettzeug
nestled - eingebettet; es sich gemütlich machen, anschmiegen
tickling - kitzelnd; (tickle); Kitzeln
Then he took my hand, which he guided, not unwillingly on my side, between the twist of his closed thighs, which were extremely warm; there he lodged and pressed it, till raising it by degrees, he made me feel the proud distinction of his sex from mine. I was frightened at the novelty, and drew back my hand; yet, pressed and spurred on by sensations of a strange pleasure, I could not help asking him what that was for? He told me he would shew me if I would let him; and without waiting for my answer, which he prevented by stopping my mouth with kisses I was far from disrelishing, he got upon me, and inserting one of his thighs between mine, opened them so as to make way for himself, and fixed me to his purpose; whilst I was so much out of my usual sense, so subdued by the present power of a new one, that, between far and desire, I lay utter passive, till the piercing pain rouzed and made me cry out. But it was too late: he was too firm fixed in the saddle for me to compass flinging him, with all the struggles I could use, some of which only served to further his point, and at length an irresistible thrust murdered at once my maidenhead, and almost me. I now lay a bleeding witness of the necessity imposed on our sex, to gather the first honey off the thorns.
unwillingly - unfreiwillig
spurred on - gestachelt
subdued - gedämpft; unter Kontrolle bringen, unterwerfen, unterwerfen
rouzed - aufgewühlt
saddle - satteln; Sattel, Sattelfläche [math.]; Reitsattel
compass - Kompass
flinging - Schleudern; Affäre (Liebesaffäre)
irresistible - unwiderstehlich
honey - Schatz; Honig
thorns - Dornen; Dorn, Dorn
"But the pleasure rising as the pain subsided, I was soon reconciled to fresh trials, and before morning, nothing on earth could be dearer to me than this rifler of my virgin sweets: he was every thing to me now.
"How we agreed to join fortunes: how we came up to town together, where we lived some time, till necessity-parted us, and drove me into this course of life, to which I had been long ago bettered and torn to pieces before I came to this age, as much through my easiness, as through inclination, had it not been for my finding refuge in this house: these are all circumstances which pass the mark I proposed, so that here my narrative ends."
In the order of our sitting, it was Harriet's turn to go on. Amongst all the beauties of our sex, that I had before, or have since seen, few indeed were the forms that could dispute excellence with her's; it was not delicate, but delicacy itself incarnate, such was the symmetry of her small but exactly fashioned limbs. Her complexion, fair as it was, appeared yet more fair, from the effect of two black eyes, the brilliancy of which gave her face more vivacity than belonged to the colour of it, which was only defended from paleness, by a sweetly pleasing blush in her cheeks, that grew fainter and fainter, till at length it died away insensibly into the overbearing white.
amongst - zwischen, unter
symmetry - Symmetrie
brilliancy - Brillanz; Scharfsinn, Glanz, Genialität
vivacity - Lebendigkeit
paleness - Blässe, Blassheit, Bleichheit, Farblosigkeit
sweetly - süß
blush - Schamröte; erröten, sich schämen
fainter - schwächer; (faint) schwach, matt
overbearing - überheblich; überwältigen
Then her miniature features joined to finish the extreme sweetness of it, which was not belied by that of a temper turned to indolence, languor, and the pleasures of love. Pressed to subscribe her contingent, she smiled, blushed a little, and thus complied with our desires:
belied - belogen; lügen; etw. falsch darstellen, über etw. hinwegtäuschen
indolence - Indolenz
subscribe - abonnieren
contingent - Anteil, Kontingent, Truppenkontingent, möglich
"My father was neither better nor worse than a miller near the city of York; and both he and my mother dying whilst I was an infant, I fell under the care of a widow and childless aunt, housekeeper to my lord N..., at his seat in the county of...
miller - Mueller, Müller
York - York
childless - kinderlos
housekeeper - Haushälterin; Hausfrau; (hired) Haushälterin; (hired) Haushälter
where she brought me up with all imaginable tenderness. I was not seventeen, as I am not now eighteen, before I had, on account of my person purely (for fortune I had notoriously none), several advantageous proposals; but whether nature was slow in making me sensible in her favourite passion, or that I had not seen any of the other sex who had stirred up the least emotion or curiosity to be better acquainted with it, I had, till that age, preserved a perfect innocence, even of thought: whilst my fears of I did not now well know what, made me no more desirous of marrying than of dying. My aunt, good woman, favoured my timorousness, which she loooked on as childish affection, that her own experience might probably assure her would wear off in time, and gave my suitors proper answers for me.
notoriously - notorisch
advantageous - vorteilhaft
more desirous - begehrlichere
timorousness - Furchtsamkeiten
suitors - Freier, Liebeswerber
"The family had not been down at that seat for years, so that it was neglected, and committed entirely to my aunt, and two old domestics to take care of it. Thus I had the full range of a spacious lonely house and gardens, situated at about half a mile distance from any other habitation, except, perhaps, a straggling cottage or so.
habitation - Wohnsitz; Wohnen; Behausung
straggling - Nachzügler; umherstreifend; (straggle); abweichen, abschweifen
"Here, in tranquillity and innocence, I grew up without any memorable accident, till one fatal day I had, as I had often done before, left my aunt asleep, and secure for some hours, after dinner; and resorting to a kind of ancient summer house, at some distance from the house, I carried my work with me, and sat over a rivulet, which its door and window faced upon. Here I fell into a gentle breathing slumber, which stole upon my senses, as they fainted under the excessive heat of the season at that hour; a cane couch, with my work basked for a pillow, were all the conveniences of my short repose; for I was soon awaked and alarmed by a flounce, and noise of splashing in the water.
tranquillity - Gelassenheit; Ruhe, Stille
fatal day - Unglückstag
summer house - Gartenhaus
rivulet - Rinnsal; Flüsschen, Bächlein
slumber - Halbschlaf, Schlummer, Schläfchen, schlummern, dösen, träumen
cane - Schilfrohr; Rohr; Rohrstock; Blindenstock, weisser Langstock
basked - gesonnt; genießen
awaked - geweckt; munter, wach; erwachen, aufwachen
flounce - zappeln; stolzieren
splashing - anspritzend, platschend
I got up to see what was the matter; and what indeed should it be but the son of a neighbouring gentleman, as I afterwards found (for I had never seen him before), who had strayed that way with his gun, and heated by his sport, and the sultriness of the day, had been tempted by the freshness of the clear stream; so that presently stripping, he jumped into it on the other side, which bordered on a wood, some trees whereof, inclined down to the water, formed a pleasing shady recess, commodious to undress and leave his clothes under.
strayed - verirrt; Streuverlust; abirren, vagabundieren, streunen, irren
sultriness - Schwüle
shady - schattig; schattenspendend, Schatten, zwielichtig
recess - Pause; Vertiefung, Winkel, Aushöhlung
"My first emotions at the sight of this youth, naked in the water, were, with all imaginable respect to truth, those of surprise and fear; and, in course, I should immediately have run out, had not my modesty, fatally for itself, interposed the objection of the door and window being so situated, that it was scarce possible to get out, and make my way along the bank to the house, without his seeing me: which I could not bear the thought of, so much ashamed and confounded was I at having seen him.
Condemned then to stay till his departure should release me, I was greatly embarrassed how to dispose of myself: I kept some time betwixt terror and modesty, even from looking through the window, which being an old fashioned casement, without any light behind me, could hardly betray any one's being there to him from within; then the door was so secure, that without violence, or my own consent, there was no opening it from without.
casement - Fensterflügel, Drehflügel
"But as I snatched a look, the first gleam that struck me, was in general the dewy lustre of the whitest skin imaginable, which the sun playing upon made the reflection of it perfectly beamy. His face, in the confusion I was in, I could not well distinguish the lineamints of, any farther than that there was a great deal of youth and freshness in it. The frolic and various play of all his fine polished limbs, as they appeared above the surface, in the course of his swimming or wantoning with the water, amused and insensibly delighted me; sometimes he lay motionless, on his back, waterborne, and dragging after him a fine head of hair, that, floating, swept the stream in a bush of black curls. Then the overflowing water would make a separation between his breast and glossy white belly; at the bottom of which I could not escape observing so remarkable a distinction, as a black mossy tuft, out of which appeared to emerge a round, softish, limber, white something, that played every way, with ever the least motion or whirling eddy.
snatched - geschnappt; klauen, stehlen, Reißen
dewy - taufrisch; frisch, taufeucht
beamy - strahlend
polished - poliert; polnisch, Polnisch
wantoning - wollen; wild, unkontrolliert, unbeherrscht, unberechenbar
amused - amüsiert; amüsieren, vergnügen, belustigen, erheitern
waterborne - auf dem Wasser
overflowing - überschwemmt; überlaufend
mossy - moosig
tuft - Büschel, Tuff
softish - weichlich
whirling - wirbelnd; (whirl) strudeln, wirbeln; (whirl); wirbeln, lschnell
eddy - Strudel
I cannot say but that part chiefly, by a kind of natural instinct, attracted, detained, captivated my attention: it was out of the power of all my modesty to command my eye away from it; and seeing nothing so very dreadful in its appearance, I insensibly looked away all my fears: but as fast as they gave way, new desires and strange wishes took place, and I melted as I gazed. The fire of nature, that had so long lain dormant or concealed, began to break out, and made me feel my sex for the first time. He had now changed his posture, and swam prone on his belly, striking out with his legs and arms; finer modeled than which could not have been cast, whilst his floating locks played over a neck and shoulders whose whiteness they delightfully set off. Then the luxuriant swell of flesh that rose from the small of his back, and terminates its double cope at where the thighs are set off, perfectly dazzled one with its watery glistening gloss.
dormant - schlafend, inaktiv
prone - in Bauchlage; schräg; anfällig, geneigt
delightfully - entzückend
luxuriant - üppig, geil
watery - wässrig
glistening - glitzern, glänzen, gleißen
"By this time I was so affected by this inward involution of sentiments, so softened by this sight, that now, betrayed into a sudden transition from extreme fears to extreme desires, I found these last so strong upon me, the heat of the weather too perhaps conspiring to exalt their rage, that nature almost fainted under them. Not that I so much as knew precisely what was wanting to me: my only thought was, that so sweet a creature, as this youth seemed to me, could only make me happy; but then, the little likelihood there was of compassing an acquaintance with him, or perhaps of ever seeing him again, dashed my desires, and turned them into torments. I was still gazing, with all the powers of my sight, on this bewitching object, when, in an instant, down he went. I had heard of such things as a cramp seizing on even the best swimmers, and occasioning their being drowned; and imagining this so sudden eclipse to be owing to it, the inconceivable fondness this unknown lad had given birth to, distracted me with the most killing terrors; insomuch, that my concern giving the wings, I flew to the door, opened it, ran down to the canal, guided thither by the madness of my fears for him, and the intense desire of being an instrument to save him, though I was ignorant how, or by what means to effect it: but was it for fears, and a passion so sudden as mine, to reason! All this took up scarce the space of a few moments. I had then just life enough to reach the green borders of the waterpiece, where wildly looking round for the young man, and missing him still, my fright and concern sunk me down in a deep swoon, which must have lasted me some time; for I did not come to myself, till I was roused out of it by a sense of pain that pierced me to the vitals, and awaked me to the the most surprising circumstance of finding myself not only in the arms of this very young gentleman I had been so solicitous to save; but taken at such an advantage in my unresisting condition, that he had actually completed his entrance into me so far, that weakened as I was by all the preceding conflicts of mind I had suffered, and struck dumb by the violence of my surprise, I had neither the power to cry out, nor the strength to disengage myself from his strenuous embraces, before, urging his point, he had forced his way and completely triumphed over my virginity, as he might now as well see by the streams of blood that followed his drawing out, as he had felt by the difficulties he had met with consummating his penetration.
inward - innere; innen
involution - Rückentwicklung; Involution
compassing - (compass) Kompass; (compass) (compass) Kompass
dashed - gestrichelt; Bindestrich, Gedankenstrich, Querstrich, Strich
torments - Qualen; Qual, quälen, peinigen
bewitching - verzaubert; verhexen
cramp - Krämpfe; Krampf; krampfen
swimmers - Schwimmer, Schwimmerin
eclipse - Finsternis, Eklipse
inconceivable - unvorstellbar
madness - Wahnsinn, Verrücktheit, Tollheit
waterpiece - Wasserstück
wildly - wild
swoon - in Ohnmacht fallen; Ohnmacht, schwinden
solicitous - fürsorglich
consummating - perfekt, vollkommen, vollendet, unübertrefflich, völlig
But the sight of the blood, and the sense of my condition, had (as he told me afterwards), since the ungovernable rage of his passion was somewhat appeased, now wrought so far on him, that at all risks, even of the worst consequences, he could not find in his heart to leave me, and make off, which he might easily have done. I still lay all discomposed in bleeding ruin, palpitating, speechless, unable to get off, and frightened, and fluttering like a poor wounded partridge, and ready to faint away again at the sense of what had befallen me. The young gentleman was by me, kneeling, kissing my hand, and with tears in his eyes, beseeching me to forgive him, and offering all the reparation in his power. It is certain that could I, at the instant of regaining my senses, have called out, or taken the bloodiest revenge, I would not be stuck at it; the violation was attended too with such aggravating circumstances, though he was ignorant of them, since it was to my concern for the preservation of his life, that I owed my ruin.
make off - sich aus dem Staub machen;davonmachen
discomposed - verwirrt; aufregen
palpitating - Herzklopfen; unregelmäßig schlagen, pochen, klopfen
speechless - sprachlos, fassungslos, stumm
fluttering - Flatterhaft; flattern, wedeln
befallen - befallen, zustoßen, hereinbrechen, widerfahren
beseeching - anflehend; (to beseech) ersuchen, anflehen
reparation - Reparation, Entschädigung, Wiedergutmachung, Reparatur
bloodiest - blutigsten; blutig, blutbefleckt
aggravating circumstances - erschwerende Umstände
"But how quick is the shift of passions from one extreme to another! and how little are they acquainted with the human heart who dispute it! I could not see this amiable criminal, so suddenly the first object of my love, and as suddenly of my just hate, on his knees, bedewing my hands with his tears, without relenting. He was still stark-naked, but my modesty had been already too much wounded, in essentials, to be so much shocked as I should have otherwise been with appearances only; in short, my anger ebbed so fast, and the tide of love returned so strong upon me, that I felt it a point of my own happiness to forgive him. The reproaches I made him were murmured in so soft a tone, my eyes met his with such glances, expressing more languor than resentment, that he could not but presume his forgiveness was at no desperate distance; but still he would not quit his posture of submission, till I had pronounced his pardon in form; which after the most fervent entreaties, protestations, and promises, I had not the power to withhold.
stark-naked - (stark-naked) splitterfasernackt, splitternackt
ebbed - verebbt; Ebbe, ebben, abebben
murmured - gemurmelt; Rauschen
forgiveness - Verzeihung, Vergebung, Versöhnlichkeit, Nachsicht
entreaties - Bitten; Flehen
withhold - zurückhalten, einbehalten, vorenthalten
On which, with the utmost marks of a fear of again offending, he ventured to kiss my lips, which I neither declined nor resented: but on my mild expostulation with him upon the barbarity of his treatment, he explained the mystery of my ruin, if not entirely to the clearance, at least much to the alleviation of his guilt, in the eyes of a judge so partial in his favour as I was grown.
expostulation - Aufforderung
"It seems that the circumstance of his going down, or sinking, which in my extreme ignorance I had mistaken for something very fatal, was no other than a trick of diving, which I had not ever heard, or at least attended o, the mention of: and he was so long-breathed at it, that in the few moments in which I ran out to save him, he had not yet emerged, before I fell into the swoon, in which, as he rose, seeing me extended on the bank, his first idea was, that some young woman was upon some design of frolic or diversion with him, for he knew I could not have fallen asleep there without his having seen me before: agreebly to which notion he had ventured to approach, and finding me without sign of life, and still perplexed as he was what to think of the adventure, he took me in his arms at all hazards, and carried me into the summer-house, of which he observed the door open: there he laid me down on the couch, and tried, as he protested in good faith, by several means to bring me to myself again, till fired, as he said, beyond all bearing by the sight and touch of several parts of me, which were unguardedly exposed to him, he could no longer govern his passion; and the less, as he was not quite sure that his first idea of this swoon being a feint, was not the very truth of the case; seduced then by this flattering notion, and overcome by the present, as he styled them, super-human temptations, combined with the solitude and seeming security of the attempt, he was not enough his own master not to make it. Leaving me then just only whilst he fastened the door, he returned with redoubled eagerness to his prey: when, finding me still entranced, he ventured to place me as he pleased, whilst I felt, no more than the dead, what he was about, till the pain he put me to roused me just in time enough to be witness of a triumph I was not able to defeat, and now scarce regretted: for as he talked, the tone of his voice sounded, methought, so sweetly in my ears, the sensible nearness of so new and interesting an object to me, wrought so powerfully upon me, that, in the rising perception of things in a new and pleasing light, I lost all sense of the past injury.
unguardedly - unbewacht
feint - eine Finte; Finte, Verstellung
temptations - Versuchungen; Versuchung, Verführung, Versuchung
solitude - Einsamkeit, Alleinsein
Methought - Ich dachte; mich dünken
nearness - Nähe
The young gentleman soon discerned the symptoms of a reconciliation in my softened looks, and hastening to receive the seal of it from my lips, pressed them tenderly to pass his pardon in the return of a kiss so melting fiery, that the impression of it being carried to my heart, and thence to my new discovered sphere of Venus, I was melted into a softness that could refuse him nothing. When now he managed his caresses and endearments so artfully, as to insinuate the most soothing consolations for the past pain and the most pleasing expectations of future pleasure, but whilst mere modesty kept my eyes from seeing his and rather declined them, I had a glimpse of that instrument of mischief which was now, obviously even to me, who had scarce had snatches of a comparative observation of it, resuming its capacity to renew it, and grew greatly alarming with its increase of size, as he bore it no doubt designedly, hard and stiff against one of my hands carelessly dropt; but then he employed such tender prefacing, such winning progressions, that my returning passion of desire being now so strongly prompted by the engaging circumstances of the sight and incendiary touch of his naked glowing beauties, I yield at length at the force of the present impressions, and he obtained of my tacit blushing consent all the gratifications of pleasure left in the power of my poor person to bestow, after he had cropt its richest flower, during my suspension of life, and abilities to guard it. Here, according to the rule laid down, I should stop; but I am so much in notion, that I could not if I would. I shall only add, however, that I got home without the least discovery, or suspicion of what had happened. I met my young ravisher several times after, whom I now passionately loved and who, though not of age to claim a small but independent fortune, would have married me; but as the accident that prevented it, and its consequences, which threw me on the public, contain matters too moving and serious to introduce at present, I cut short here."
discerned - wahrgenommen; erkennen, wahrnehmen, bemerken, feststellen
hastening to - zueilend
most pleasing - gefälligste
mischief - Unfug, Unheil, Querulantentum
snatches - Fetzen; klauen, stehlen, Reißen
designedly - absichtlich
dropt - ertrunken
prefacing - Vorwort
progressions - Verläufe; Fortschreiten
incendiary - Brand
cropt - gecropt
ravisher - Verführer
Louisa, the brunette whom I mentioned at first, now took her turn to treat the company with her history.
I have already hinted to you the graces of her person, than which nothing could be more exquisitely touching; I repeat touching, as a just distinction from striking, which is ever a less lasting effect, and more generally belongs to the fair complexions; but leaving that decision to every one's taste, I proceed to give you Louisa's narrative as follows:
complexions - Teints; Teint, Gesichtsfarbe
"According to practical maxims of life, I ought to boast of my birth, since I owe it to pure love, without marriage; but this I know, it was scarce possible to inherit a stronger propensity to that cause of my being than I did. I was the rare production of the first essay of a journeyman cabinet-maker, on his master's maid: the consequence of which was a big belly, and the loss of a place. He was not in circumstances to do much for her; and yet, after all this blemish, she found means, after she had dropt her burthen, and disposed of me to a poor relation in the country, to repair it by marrying a pastry-cook here in London, in thriving business; on whom she soon, under favour of the complete ascendant he had given her over him, passed me for a child she had by her first husband. I had, on that footing, been taken home, and was not six years old when this father-in-law died, and left my mother in tolerable circumstances, and without any children by him. As to my natural father, he had betaken himself to the sea; where, when the truth of things came out, I was told that he died, not immensely rich you may think, since he was no more than a common sailor. As I grew up, under the eyes of my mother, who kept on the business, I could not but see, in her severe watchfulness, the marks of a slip, which she did not care should be hereditary; but we no more choose our passions than our features or complexions, and the bent of mine was so strong to the forbidden pleasure, that it got the better, at length, of all her care and precaution.
maxims - Maximen; Grundsatz, Sprichwort, Lebensweisheit
propensity - Neigung, Tendenz
journeyman - Geselle, Wandergeselle
blemish - Makel, Schönheitsfehler
burthen - Bürde
pastry - Backwerk; Gebäckteig
ascendant - Aszendent; Vorfahr
betaken - aufgegeben; begeben sich
watchfulness - Wachsamkeit
hereditary - vererbt
I was scarce twelve years old, before that part which she wanted so much to keep out of harm's way, made me feel its impatience to be taken notice of, and come into play; already had it put forth the signs of forwardness in the sprout of a soft down over it, which had often fluttered, and I might also say, grown under my constant touch and visitation, so pleased was I with what I took to be a kind of title to womanhood, that state I pined to be entered of, for the pleasures I conceived were annexed to it; and now the growing importance of that part to me, and the new sensations in it, demolished at once all my girlish play-things and amusements. Nature now pointed me strongly to more solid diversions, while all the stings of desire settled so fiercely in that little centre of them, that I could not mistake the spot I wanted a playfellow in.
visitation - Besuche; Umgangsrecht
annexed - annektiert; annektieren, anfügen; Anhang
demolished - demoliert; abreißen, niederreißen
girlish - mädchenhaft;Mädchen...
fiercely - heftig, wütend
playfellow - Spielgefährte, Spielkamerad
"I now shunned all company in which there was no hopes of coming at the object of my longings, and used to shut myself up, to indulge in solitude some tender meditation on the pleasure I strongly perceived the overture of, in feeling and examining what nature assured me must be the chosen avenue, the gates for unknown bliss to enter at, that I panted after.
shunned - gemieden; aus dem Weg gehen, ausweichen, meiden, scheuen
overture - Angebot, Annäherungsversuch, Offerte, Ouvertüre
"But these meditations only increased my disorder, and blew the fire that consumed me. I was yet worse when, yielding at length to the insupportable irritations of the little fairy charm that tormented me, I seized it with my fingers, teazing it to no end. Sometimes, in the furious excitations of desire, I threw myself on the bed, spread my thighs abroad, and lay as it were expecting the longed-for relief, till finding my illusion, I shut and squeezed them together again, burning and fretting. In short, this develish thing, with its impetuous girds and itching fires, led me such a life, that I could neither, night or day, be at peace with it or myself.
irritations - Irritationen; Ärger, Irritation, Verärgerung, Irritation
fairy - Fee, Elfe, Feenwesen, Naturgeister
tormented - gequält; Qual, quälen, peinigen
teazing - Teetrinken
excitations - Erregungen; Erregung, Anregung, Erregung
fretting - beunruhigt; sich grämen
develish - sich weiterentwickeln
itching - juckend, Jucken, Juckreiz; (itch) juckend, Jucken, Juckreiz
In time, however, I thought I had gained a prodigious prize, when figuring to myself that my fingers were something of the shape of what I pined for, I worked my way in with one of them with great agitation and delight; yet not without pain too did I deflower myself as far as it could reach; proceeding with such a fury of passion, in this solitary and last shift of pleasure, as extended me at length breathless on the bed in an amorous melting trance.
deflower - deflorieren, entjungfern
solitary - einsam, einzeln
amorous - amourös
"But frequency of use dulling the sensation, I soon began to perceive that this work was but a paultry shallow expedient, that went but a little way to relieve me, and rather raised more flame than its dry and insignificant titillation could rightly appease.
expedient - zweckmäßig; angebracht, opportun, hilfreich, passend
insignificant - unbedeutend
appease - besänftigen, friedlich stimmen, beschwichtigen
"As soon as she was gone, I told the maid I would go up and lie down on our lodger's bed, mine not being made, with a charge to her at the same time not to disturb me, as it was only rest I wanted. This injunction probably proved of eminent service to me. As soon as I was got into the bedchamber, I unlaced my stays, and threw myself on the outside of the bedclothes, in all the loosest undress. Here I gave myself up to the old insipid privy shifts of my self-viewing, self-touching self-enjoying, in fine, to all the means of self knowledge I could devise, in search of the pleasure that fled before me, and tantalized with that unknown something that was out of my reach; thus all only served to enflame myself, and to provoke violently my desires, whilst the one thing needful to their satisfaction was not at hand, and I could have bit my finger for representing it so ill. After then wearying and fatiguing myself with grasping shadows, whilst that most sensible part of me disdained to content itself with less than realities, the strong yearnings, the urgent struggles of nature towards the melting relief, and the extreme self-agitations I had used to come at it, had wearied and thrown me into a kind of unquiet sleep: for, if I tossed and threw about my limbs in proportion to the distraction of my dreams, as I had reason to believe I did, a bystander could not have helped seeing all for love. And one there was it seems; for waking out of my very short slumber, I found my hand locked in that of a young man, who was.
lodger - Untermieter, Mieter
injunction - Unterlassungsanordnung; Verfügung, Verfügen, Anordnen
unlaced - ungeschnürt; aufschnüren
Privy - Geheimsache; geheim; eingeweiht
self knowledge - Selbsterkenntnisse , Selbsterkenntnis
tantalized - gequält; quälen, hinhalten (mit), peinigen, aufreizen
enflame - entflammen
violently - gewaltsam; gewalttätig
needful - nötig, das Nötige, notwendig
wearying - Ermüdend; müde, müde
fatiguing - Ermüdend; Müdigkeit, Ermüdung, Schlappheit, Überdruss
wearied - müde, müde
unquiet - unruhig; laut
Distraction - Ablenkung, Ablenkungsmanöver, Störung, Zerstreuung, Wahnsinn
bystander - Unbeteiligte; Zuschauer, Schaulustiger
kneeling at my bed-side, and begging my pardon for his boldness: but that being a son to the lady to whom, this bed-chamber, he knew, belonged, he had slipped by the servant of the shop, as he supposed, unperceived, when finding me asleep, his first ideas were to withdraw; but that he had been fixed and detained there by a power he could better account for, than resist.
boldness - Kühnheit; Verwegenheit, Dreistigkeit, Mut
unperceived - unbemerkt
"What shall I say? my emotions of fear and surprise were instantly subdued by those of the pleasure I bespoke in great presence of mind from the turn this adventure might take. He seemed to me no other than a pitying angel, dropt out of the clouds: for he was young and perfectly handsome, which was more than even I had asked for, man, in general, being all that my utmost desires had pointed at. I thought then I could not put too much encouragement into my eyes and voice; I regretted no leading advances; no matter for his after-opinion of my forwardness, so it might bring him to the point of answering my pressing demands of present case; it was not now with his thoughts but his actions that my business immediately lay. I raised then my head, and told him, in a soft tone, that tended to prescribe the same key to him, that his mamma was gone out and would not return till late at night: which I thought no bad hint; but as it proved, I had nothing of a novice to deal with. The impressions I had made on him from the discoveries I had betrayed of my person in the disordered motions of it, during his view of me asleep, had, as he afterwards told me, so fixed and charmingly prepared him, that, had I known his dispositions, I had more to hope from his violence, than to fear from his respect; and even less than the extreme tenderness which I threw into my voice and eyes, would have served to encourage him to make the most of the opportunity. Finding then that his kisses, imprinted on my hand, were taken as tamely as he could wish, he rose to my lips; and glewing his to them, made me so faint with overcoming joy and pleasure, that I fell back, and he with me, in course, on the bed, upon which I had, by insensibly shifting from the side to near the middle, invitingly, made room for him. He is now lain down by me, and the minutes being too precious to consume in ultimate ceremony, or dalliance, my youth proceeds immediately to those extremities, which all my looks, humming and palpitations, had assured him he might attempt without the fear of a repulse: those rogues the men, read us admirably on these occasions. I lay then at length panting for the imminent attack, with wishes far beyond my fears, and for which it was scarce possible for a girl, barely thirteen, but tall and well grown, to have better dispositions. He threw up my petticoat and shift, whilst my thighs were, by an instinct of nature, unfolded to their best; and my desires had so thoroughly destroyed all modesty in me, that even their being now naked and all laid open to him, was part of the prelude that pleasure deepened my blushes at, more than same. But when his hand, and touches, naturally attracted to their center, made me feel all their wantonness and warmth in, and round it, oh!
charmingly - reizend, charmant, anmutig
tamely - zahm
invitingly - einladend
humming - Brummen; (to hum) summen, murmeln; (hum); Summen
palpitations - Herzklopfen
repulse - abwehren; zurückschlagen, abweisen
rogues - Schurken; Schurke, Lümmel, Strolch, Vagabund, Landstreicher
admirably - bewundernswert
laid open - freigelegt
Prelude - Präludium, Vorspiel
how immensely different a sense of things, did I perceive there, than when under my own insipid handling! And now his waistcoat was unbuttoned, and the confinement of the breeches burst through, when out started to view the amazing, pleasing object of all my wishes, all my dreams, all my love, the king member indeed! I gazed at, I devoured it, at length and breadth, with my eyes intently directed to it, till his; getting upon me, and placing between my thighs, took from me the enjoyment of its sight, to give me a far more grateful one, in its touch, in that part where its touch is so exquisitely affecting. Applying it then to the minute opening, for such at that age it certainly was, I met with too much good will, I felt with too great a rapture of pleasure the first insertion of it, to heed much the pain that followed: I thought nothing too dear to pay for this the richest treat of the sense; so that, split up, torn, bleeding, mangled I was still superiorly pleased, and hugged the author of all this delicious ruin. But when, soon after, he made his second attack, sore as every thing was, the smart was soon put away by the sovereign cordial; all my soft complainings were silenced, and the pain melting fast away into pleasure. I abandoned myself over to all its transports, and gave it the full possession of my whole body and soul; for now all thought was at an end with me; I lived in what I felt only. And who could describe those feelings, those agitations, yet exalted by the charm of their novelty and surprise? when that part of me which had so hungered for the dear morsel that now so delightfully crammed, forced all my vital sensations to fix their home there, during the stay of my beloved guest; who too soon paid me for his hearty welcome, in a dissolvent, richer far than that I have heard of some queen treating her paramour with, in liquified pearl, and ravishingly poured into me, where, now myself too much melted to give it a dry reception, I hailed it with the warmest confluence on my side, amidst all those ecstatic raptures, not unfamiliar I presume to this good company. Thus, however, I arrived at the very top of all my wishes, by an accident unexpected indeed, but not so wonderful; for this young gentleman was just arrived in town from college, and came familiarly to his mother at her apartment, where he had once before been, though, by mere chance. I had not seen him: so that we knew one another by hearing only; and finding me stretched on his mother's bed, he readily concluded from her description, who it was. The rest you know.
intently - angespannt, aufmerksam, konzentriert
more grateful - erkenntlichere
felt with - mitgefühlt
heed - beachtet; beherzigen, beachten
mangled - verstümmelt; zerfleischen, verstümmeln
superiorly - überragend
sore - sauer; weh, wund, schmerzend, schmerzhaft
full possession - Vollbesitz
dissolvent - Lösungsmittel
ravishingly - hinreißend
confluence - Zusammenfluss
unfamiliar - ungewohnt
"This affair had however no ruinous consequences, the young gentleman escaping then, and many more times undiscovered. But the warmth of my constitution, that made the pleasures of love a kind of necessary of life to me, having betrayed me into indiscretions fatal to my private fortune, I fell at length to the public; from which, it is probable, I might have met with the worst of ruin, if my better fate had not thrown me into this safe and agreeable refuge.
ruinous - ruinös; verderblich
indiscretions - Indiskretionen; Indiskretion, Indiskretion
Here Louisa ended; and these little histories having brought the time for the girls to retire, and to prepare for the revels of the evening, I staid with Mrs. Cole, till Emily came, and told us the company was met, and waited for us.
revels - feiern, ausgelassen sein
Mrs. Cole on this, taking me by the hand, with a smile of encouragement, led me up stairs, preceded by Louisa, who was come to hasten us, and lighted us with two candles, one in each hand.
hasten - hasten, beeilen
On the landing-place of the first pair of stairs, we were met by a young gentleman, extremely well dressed, and a very pretty figure, to whom I was to be indebted for the first essay of the pleasures of the house.
He saluted me with great gallantry, and handed me into the drawing room, the floor of which was overspread with a Turkey carpet, and all its furniture voluptuously adapted to every demand of the most studied luxury; now too it was, by means of a profuse illumination, enlivened by a light scarce inferior, and perhaps more favourable to joy, more tenderly pleasing, than that of broad sunshine.
gallantry - Galanterie; Tapferkeit
overspread - verbreiten
turkey - Pute, Puter, Truthahn, Truthenne
profuse - übermäßig, enorm, reichlich, üppig
illumination - Beleuchtung
enlivened - belebt; beleben, ermuntern
sunshine - Sonnenschein
On my entrance into the room, I had the satisfaction! to hear a buzz of approbation run through the whole company, which now consisted of four gentlemen, including my particular (this was the cant term of the house for one's gallant for the time), the three young-women, in a neat flowing dishabille, the mistress of the academy, and myself.
buzz - Summen, Brummen, Gemurmel, Raunen, Surren
I was welcomed and saluted by a kiss all round, in which, however, it was easy to-discover, in the superior warmth of that of the men, the distinction of the sexes.
Awed, and confounded as I was, at seeing myself surrounded, caressed, and made court to by so many strangers, I could not immediately familiarize myself to all that air of gaiety and joy, which dictated their compliments, and animated their caresses.
caressed - gestreichelt; (care for) sich akk um jemanden/etwas kümmern
strangers - Fremde, Fremdling, Unbekannte
familiarize - vertraut machen; sich bekanntmachen
In the midst of all the frolic and wantonness, which this joyous band had presently, and all naturally, run into, an elegant supper was served in, and we sat down to it, my spark elect placing himself next to me, and the other couples without order or ceremony. The delicate cheer and good wine soon banished all reserve; the conversation grew as lively as could be wished, without taking too loose a turn: these professors of pleasure knew too well, how to stale impressions of it, or evaporate the imagination of words, before the time of action. Kisses however were snatched at times, or where a handkerchief round the neck interposed its feeble barrier, it was not extremely respected: the hands of the men went to work with their usual petulance, till the provocation on both sides rose to such a pitch, that my particulars's proposal for beginning the country dances was received with instant assent: for, as he laughingly added, he fancied the instruments were in tune.
banished - verbannt; verbannen, herauswerfen, vertreiben
stale - fad, abgestanden, altbacken
evaporate - verdampfen, verdunsten, evaporieren, dörren, ausdörren
feeble - kraftlos, schwach, dürftig
petulance - Gereiztheit, Launenhaftigkeit, Launigkeit
laughingly - lachende
This was a signal for preparation, that the complaisant Mrs. Cole, who understood life, took for her cue of disappearing; no longer so fit for personal service herself, and content with having settled the order of battle, she left us the field, to fight it out at discretion.
complaisant - selbstgefällig
As soon as she was gone, the table was removed from the middle, and became a side-board; a couch was brought into its place, of which when I whisperingly inquired the reason, of my particular, he told me, "that as it was chiefly on my account that his convention was met, the parties intended at once to humour their taste of variety in pleasures, and by an open public enjoyment, to see me broke of any taint of reserve or modesty, which they looked on as the poison of joy; that though they occasionally preached pleasure, and lived up to the text, they did not enthusiastically set up for missionaries, and only indulged themselves in the delights of a practical instruction of all the pretty women they liked well enough to bestow it upon, and who fell properly in the way of it; but that as such a proposal might be too violent, too shocking for a young beginner, the old standers were to set an example, which he hoped I would not be averse to follow, since it was to him I was devolved in favour of the first experiment; but that still I was perfectly at my liberty to refuse the party, which being in its nature one of pleasure, supposed an exclusion of all force or constraint.
whisperingly - flüsternd
inquired - nachgefragt; erkundigen
taint - beflecken; verderben
enthusiastically - enthusiastisch
missionaries - Missionare; Missionar, Missionarin, missionarisch
beginner - Anfänger, Anfängerin, Neuling
averse - abgeneigt
My countenance expressed, no doubt, my surprise as my silence did my acquiescence. I was now embarked, and thoroughly determined on any voyage the company would take me on.
acquiescence - Duldung, Einwilligung, Einverständnis, Fügung
The first that stood up, to open the ball, were a cornet of horse, and that sweetest of olive-beauties, the soft and amorous Louisa. He led her to the couch (nothing loth), on which he gave her the fall, and extended her at length with an air of roughness and vigour, relishing high of amorous eagerness and impatience. The girl, spreading herself to the best advantage, with her head upon the pillow, was so concentered in that she was about, that our presence was the least of her care and concern. Her petticoats, thrown up with her shift, discovered to the company the finest turned legs and thighs that could be imagined, and in broad display, that gave us a full view of that delicious cleft of flesh, into which the pleasing hair, grown mount over it, parted and presented a most inviting entrance, between two close hedges, delicately soft and pouting. Her gallant was now ready, having disencumbered himself from his clothes, overloaded with lace, and presently, his shirt removed, shewed us his forces at high plight, bandied and ready for action. But giving us no time to consider the dimensions, he threw himself instantly over his charming antagonist who received him as he pushed at once dead at mark, like a heroine, without flinching; for surely never was girl constitutionally truer to the taste of joy, or sincerer in the expressions of its sensations, than she was: we could observe pleasure lighten in her eyes, as he introduced his plenipotentiary instrument into her; till, at length, having indulged her to its utmost reach, its irritations grew so violent, and gave her the spurs so furiously, that collected within herself, and lost to every thing but the enjoyment of her favourite feelings, she retarded his thrusts with a just concert of spring heaves, keeping time so exactly with the most pathetic sighs, that one might have numbered the strokes in agitation by their distinct murmurs, whilst her active limbs kept wreathing and intertwisting with his, in convulsive folds: then the turtle-billing kisses, and the poignant painless lovebites, which they both exchanged, in a rage of delight, all conspiring towards the melting period.
cornet - Kornett; Horn, Spitztüte
roughness - Rauheit, Grobheit
hedges - Hecken; Hecke
disencumbered - entlastet; entlasten
plight - Notlage; sich verloben; Misere, schlimmer Zustand, Verlobung
bandied - verbreitete; verbreiten, wechseln
antagonist - Antagonist, Widersacher, Gegner
heroine - Heldin, Heroine
constitutionally - verfassungsrechtlich
plenipotentiary - Bevollmächtigter, Generalbevollmächtigter
spurs - Sporen; anspornen, ankurbeln (Wirtsch.), beflügeln; Ansporn
retarded - zurückgeblieben; Verzögerung, Verspätung, verhindern
wreathing - kränzen; Kranz, Gebinde
convulsive - krampfhaft
poignant - spitz, zugespitzt, treffend, zutreffend, relevant, ergreifend
painless - schmerzlos, schmerzfrei
It soon came on, when Louisa, in the ravings of her pleasure-frensy, impotent of all restraint, cried out: "Oh Sir!... Good Sir! pray do not spare me! ah! ah!..." All her accents now faultering into heart-fetched sighs, she closed her eyes in the sweet death, in the instant of which we could easily see the signs in the quiet, dying, languid posture of her late so furious driver, who was stopped of a sudden, breathing short, panting, and, for that time, giving up the spirit of pleasure. As soon as he was dismounted, Louisa sprung up, shook her petticoats, and running up to me, gave me a kiss, and drew me to the side-board, to which she was herself handed by her gallant, where they made me pledge them in a glass of wine, and toast a droll health of Louisa's proposal in high frolic.
ravings - Tobsuchtsanfälle; (rave) wüten, toben, rasen
impotent - impotent
By this time the second couple was ready to enter the lists: which were a young baronet, and that delicatest of charmers, the winning, tender Harriet. My gentle esquire came to acquaint me with it, and brought me back to the scene of action.
delicatest - delikateste
Charmers - Charmeure; Charmeur, Charmeurin
Esquire - Wohlgeboren
Harriet was then led to the vacant couch by her gallant, blushing as she looked at me, and with eyes made to justify any thing, tenderly bespeaking of me the most favourable construction of the step she was thus irresistibly drawn into.
vacant - unbesetzt; frei, vakant, leer, nichtssagend, ausdruckslos
Her lover, for such he was, sat her down at the foot of the couch, and passing his arm round her neck, preluded with a kiss fervently applied to her lips, that visibly gave her life and spirit to go through with the scene; and as he kissed, he gently inclined her head, till it fell back on a pillow disposed to receive it, and leaning himself down all the way with her, at once countenanced and endeared her fall to her. There, as if he had guessed our wishes, or meant to gratify at once his pleasure and his pride, in being the master, by the title of present possession, of beauties delicate beyond imagination, he discovered her breast to his own touch, and our common view; but oh!
preluded - vorweggenommen; Präludium
fervently - inbrünstig; leidenschaftlich, feurig, heiß
visibly - sichtbar
countenanced - gebilligt; Antlitz
gratify - befriedigen, erfreuen
what delicious manual of love devotion; how inimitable fine moulded! small, round, firm, and excellently white; then the grain of their skin, so soothing, so flattering to the touch! and of beauty. When he had feasted his eyes with the their nipples, that crowned them, the sweetest buds touch and perusal, feasted his lips with kisses of the highest relish, imprinted on those all delicious twin-orbs, he proceeded downwards.
manual - Leitfaden, manuell, Manual, Handbuch
inimitable - unnachahmlich
excellently - vorzüglich
nipples - Brustwarzen; Nippel, Brustwarze, Nippel, Stutzen
buds - Knospe, Knospen treiben
perusal - Durchsicht
orbs - Kugeln; Himmelskörper, Kugel
Her legs still kept the ground; and now, with the tenderest attention not to shock or alarm her too suddenly, he, by degrees, rather stole than rolled up her petticoats; at which, as if a signal had been given, Louisa and Emily took hold of her legs, in pure wantonness, and, in ease to her, kept them stretched wide abroad. Then lay exposed, or, to speak more properly, displayed the greatest parade in nature of female charms. The whole company, who, except myself, had often seen them, seemed as much dazzled, surprised and delighted, as any one could be who had now beheld them for the first time. Beauties so excessive could not but enjoy the privileges of eternal novelty.
beheld - gesehen; betrachten, sehen, schauen, anschauen, ansehen
Her thighs were so exquisitely fashioned, that either more in, or more out of flesh than they were, they would have declined from that point of perfection they presented. But what infinitely enriched and adorned them, was the sweet intersection formed, where they met, at the bottom of the smoothest, roundest, whitest belly, by that central furrow which nature had sunk there, between the soft relievo of two pouting ridges, and which, in this girl, was in perfect symmetry of delicacy and miniature with the rest of her frame. No! nothing in nature could be of a beautifuller cut; then, the dark umbrage of the downy spring moss that over-arched it, bestowed, on the luxury of the landscape, a touching warmth, a tender finishing, beyond the expression of words, or even the paint of thought.
perfection - Vollkommenheit, Perfektion
adorned - geschmückt; schmücken, zieren, verzieren
ridges - Grate; Grat, First, Bergrücken, Grat, Kamm, First, (3) de
umbrage - Anstoß, Schatten
arched - gewölbt; Bogen
Her truly enamoured gallant, who had stood absorbed and engrossed by the pleasure of the sight long enough to afford us time to feast ours (no fear of glutting!) addressed himself at length to the materials of enjoyment, and lifting the linen veil that hung between us and his master member of the revels, exhibited one whose eminent size proclaimed the owner a true woman's hero. He was, besides in every other respect, an accomplished gentleman, and in the bloom and vigour of youth. Standing then between Harriet's legs, which were supported by her two companions at their widest extension, with one hand he gently disclosed the lips of that luscious mouth of nature, whilst with the other, he stooped his mighty machine to its lure, from the height of his stiff stand-up towards his belly; the lips, kept open by his fingers, received its broad shelving head of coral hue: and when he had nestled it in, he hovered there a little, and the girls then delivered over to his hips the agreeable office of supporting her thighs; and now, as if he meant to spin out his pleasure, and give it the more play for its life, he passed up his instrument so slow that we lost sight of it inch by inch, till at length it was wholly taken into the soft laboratory of love, and the mossy mounts of each fairly met together. In the mean time, we could plainly mark the prodigious effect the progressions of this delightful energy wrought in this delicious girl, gradually heightening her beauty as they heightened her pleasure.
glutting - Überfüllung; Schwemme, Überfluss, Überschuss, auffüllen
veil - Vorhang; Schleier; verschleiern, verhüllen
stooped - gekrümmt; Buckel, sich beugen
lure - locken; ködern; Köder
shelving - Regale; Aufstellung, lagernd; (shelve) Regale; Aufstellung
coral - Korallen; Koralle
hovered - schwebte; rütteln, verweilen, zögern, bewegen
delightful - reizvoll, entzückend, angenehm
Her countenance and whole frame grew more animated; the faint blush of her cheeks, gaining ground on the white, deepened into a florid vivid vermillion glow, her naturally brilliant eyes now sparkled with ten-fold lustre; her languor was vanished, and she appeared quick, spirited and alive all over. He had now fixed, nailed, this tender creature, with his home-driven wedge, so that she lay passive by force, and unable to stir, till beginning to play a strain of arms against this vein of delicacy, as he urged the to-and-fro con-friction, he awakened, roused, and touched her so to the heart, that unable to contain herself, she could not but reply to his motions, as briskly as her nicety of frame would admit of, till the raging stings of the pleasure rising towards the point, made her wild with the intolerable sensations of it, and she now threw her legs and arms about at random, as she lay lost in the sweet transport; which on his side declared itself by quicker, eager thrusts, convulsive gasps, burning sighs, swift laborious breathing, eyes darting humid fires: all faithful tokens of the imminent approaches of the last gasp of joy. It came on at length: the baronet led the extasy, which she critically joined in, as she felt the melting symptoms from him, in the nick of which, gluing more ardently than ever his lips to hers, he shewed all the signs of that agony of bliss being strong upon him, in which he gave her the finishing titillation; inly thrilled with which, we saw plainly that she answered it down with all effusion of spirit and matter she was mistress of, whilst a general soft shudder ran through all her limbs, which she gave a stretch out, and lay motionless, breathless, dying with dear delight; and in the height of its expression, showing, through the nearly closed lids of her eyes, just the edges of their black, the rest being rolled strongly upwards in their extasy; then her sweet mouth appeared languish-ingly open, with the tip of her tongue leaning negligently towards the lower range of her white teeth, whilst natural ruby colour of her lips glowed with heightened life. Was not this a subject to dwell upon? And accordingly her lover still kept on her, with an abiding delectation, till compressed, squeezed and distilled to the last drop, he took leave with one fervent kiss, expressing satisfied desires, but unextinguished love.
vivid - lebendig, lebhaft, anschaulich
vermillion - Zinnoberrot
wedge - verkeilen, festklemmen, mit einem Keil spalten; keilen
con - Betrug; betrügen, verladen (für dumm verkaufen)
awakened - geweckt; aufwecken, wecken, aufwachen, erwachen, wach werden
admit of - zulassen
gasps - keucht; keuchen, japsen, prusten, keuchen, Atemzug, Luftholen
swift - Mauersegler; schnell; Segler; Garnwinde
darting - Pfeil, Satz
tokens - Wertmarken; Zeichen
nick - Kerbe; einschneiden
lids - Deckeln; Deckel
ingly - tig
negligently - fahrlässig
dwell - leben, verbleiben, wohnen, verweilen
abiding - dauernd, bleibend, beständig
delectation - Vergnügen; Ergötzen
compressed - komprimiert; komprimieren; Kompresse, Umschlag [med.]
distilled - destilliert; destillieren
unextinguished - ungelöscht
Her gallant began first, as she stood, to disengage, her breasts, and restore them to the liberty of nature, from the easy confinement of no more than a pair of jumps; but on their coming out to view, we thought a new light was added to the room, so superiourly shining was their whiteness; then they rose in so happy a swell as to compose her a well horned fullness of bosom, that had such an effect on the eye as to seem flash hardened into marble, of which it emulated the polished gloss, and far surpassed even the whitest, in the life and lustre of its colours, white weined with blue. Who could refrain from such provoking enticements in reach? he touched her breasts, first lightly, when the glossy smoothness of the skin eluded his hand, and made it slip along the surface; he pressed them, and the springy flesh that filled them, thus pitted by force, rose again reboundingly with his hand, and on the instant defaced the pressure: and alike indeed was the consistence of all those parts of her body throughout, where the fulness of flesh compacts and constitutes all that fine firmness which the touch is so highly attached to. When he had thus largely pleased himself with this branch of dalliance and delight, he trussed up her petticoat and shift, in a wisp to her waist, where being tucked in, she stood fairly naked on every side; a blush at this overspread her lovely face, and her eyes downcast to the ground, seemed to be for quarter, when she had so great a right to triumph in all the treasures of youth and beauty that she now so victoriously displayed. Her legs were perfectly well shaped and her thighs, which she kept pretty close, shewed so white, so round, so substantial and abounding in firm flesh, that nothing could afford a stronger recommendation to the luxury of the touch, which he accordingly did not fail to indulge in. Then gently removing her hand, which in the first emotion of natural modesty, she had carried thither, he gave us rather a glimpse than a view of that soft narrow chink running its little length downwards, and hiding the remains of it between her thighs; but plain was to be seen the fringe of light-brown curls, in beauteous growth over it, that with their silk gloss created a pleasing variety from the surrounding white, whose lustre too, their gentle embrowning shade, considerably raised. Her spark then endeavoured, as she stood, by disclosing her thighs, to gain us a completer sight of that central charm of attraction, but not obtaining it so conveniently in that attitude, he led her to the foot of the couch, and bringing it to one of the pillows gently inclined her head down, so that as she leaned with it over her crossed hands, straddling with her thighs wide spread, and jutting her body out, she presented a full back view of her person, naked to her waist. Her posteriors, plump, smooth, and prominent, formed luxuriant tracts of animated snow, that splendidly filled the eye, till it was commanded down the parting or separation of those exquisitely white cliffs, by their narrow vale, and was there stopt, and attracted by the embowered bottom-savity, that terminated this delightful vista and stood moderately gaping from the influence of her bended posture, so that the agreeable interior red of the sides of the orifice came into view, and with respect to the white that dazzled round it, gave somewhat the idea of a pink slash in the glossiest white satin.
superiourly - überdurchschnittlich
fullness - Fülle, Vollsein, Vollständigkeit, Füllungsstufe, Füllungsgrad
marble - Marmor; Murmel; marmorieren
emulated - nachgeahmt; nachahmen, emulieren
surpassed - übertroffen; übersteigen, übertreffen, überschreiten
weined - weinte
enticements - Verlockungen; Verlockung, Abwerben, Abspenstigmachen
eluded - entgangen; entziehen
reboundingly - Rebounding
defaced - verunstaltet; verunstalten, entstellen
consistence - Konsistenz (1; 2)
compacts - Kompaktanlagen; zusammengedrängt
tucked - gesteckt; zurückstreifen, einklemmen; Bundfalte
downcast - niedergeschlagen, geknickt, entmutigt
victoriously - siegreich
abounding - im Überfluss; in
chink - Schlitzauge; Spalte, Ritze, Spalt; klimpern, klirren
fringe - Fransen; Franse, Saum, Einfassung, Rand, Peripherie, Randgruppe
straddling - spreizend; grätschen, spreizen, breitbeinig stehen
jutting - vorspringend; herausragen, hervorragen
tracts - Traktate; Gebiet, Teil
splendidly - prächtig; großartig, herrlich, glanzvoll, in großartiger Weise
vale - Tal
stopt - gestoppt
vista - Aussicht
moderately - mäßig
bended - gebogen; (bend) Biegung, Krümmung, Kurve
glossiest - am glänzendsten; glänzend
satin - Satin, Satinstoff, Satintuch
Her gallant, who was a gentleman about thirty, somewhat inclined to a fatness that was in no sort displeasing, improving the hint thus tendered him of this mode of enjoyment, after setting her well in this posture, and encouraging her with kisses and caresses to stand him thro', drew out his affair ready erected, and whose extreme length, rather disproportioned to its breadth, was the more surprising, as that excess is not often the case with those of his corpulent habit; making then the right and direct application, he drove it up to the guard, whilst the round bulge of those Turkish beauties of her's, tallying with the hollow made with the bent of his belly and thighs, as he curved inwards, brought all those parts, surely not un-delightfully, into warm touch, and close conjunction; his hands he kept passing round her body, and employed in toying with her enchanting breasts. As soon too as she felt him at home as he could reach, she lifted her head a little from the pillow, and turning her neck, without much straining, but her cheeks glowing with the deepest scarlet, and a smile of the tenderest satisfaction, met the kiss he pressed forward to give her as they were thus close joined together: when leaving him to pursue his delights, she hid again her face and blushes with her hands and pillow, and thus stood passively and as favourably too as she could, whilst he kept laying at her with repeated thrusts and making the meeting flesh on both sides resound again with the violence of them; then ever as he backened from her, we could see between them part of his long white staff foamingly in motion, till, as he went on again and closed with her, the interposing hillocks took it out of sight. Sometimes he took his hands from the semi-globes of her bosom, and transferred the pressure of them to those large ones, the present subjects of his soft blockade, which he squeezed, grasped and played with, till at length in pursuit of driving, so hotly urged, brought on the height of the fit, with such overpowering pleasure, that his fair partner became now necessary to support him, panting, fainting and dying as he discharged; which she no sooner felt the killing sweetness of, than unable to keep her legs, and yielding to the mighty intoxication, she reeld, and falling forward on the couch, made it a necessity for him, if he would preserve the warm-pleasure hold, to fall upon her, where they perfected, in a continued conjunction of body and extatic flow, their scheme of joys for that time.
fatness - Fettheit; Dicke, Beleibtheit
displeasing - unangenehm; missfallen
disproportioned - unproportional; Missverhältnis
corpulent - korpulent
bulge - Ausbuchtung, Beule, Delle, Wölbung, hervorstechen
Turkish - Türkisch
tallying - Abrechnung; Zähler; übereinstimmen (Angaben)
conjunction - Verbindung; Zusammenhang; Konjunktion, Bindewort
enchanting - bezaubernd; verzaubern, verzaubern
pressed forward - vorgedrängt
passively - passiv
backened - backen
foamingly - schäumend
interposing - Zwischenrufe; zwischenschalten, dazwischenstellen
hillocks - Hügeln; kleiner Hügel, Ätzhügel, Hügelchen
semi - halb..
blockade - Blockade; blockieren, sperren
hotly - heiß; erregt, hitzig
overpowering - überwältigend; überwältigen, übermannen
intoxication - Rauschzustände; Vergiftung, Intoxikation, Trunkenheit, Rausch
extatic - extatisch
As soon as he had disengaged, the charming Emily got up, and we crowded round her with congratulations and other officious little services; for it is to be noted, that though all modesty and reserve were banished from the transaction of these pleasures, good manners and politeness were inviolably observed: there was no gross ribaldry, no offensive or rude behaviour, or ungenerous reproaches to the girls for their compliance With the humours and desires of the men. On the contrary, nothing was wanting to soothe, encourage, and soften the sense of their condition to them. Men know not in general how much they destroy of their own pleasure, when they break through the respect and tenderness due to our sex, and even to those of it who live only by pleasing them.
congratulations - Glückwünsche; Glückwunsch, Beglückwünschung, Gratulation
inviolably - unantastbar
ribaldry - Frechheit; Possenspiel, Zote, Kramanzen, Gaukelwerk
soothe - beruhigen, Wogen glätten, mildern, besänftigen
soften - erweichen; aufweichen
And this was a maxim perfectly well understood by these polite voluptuaries, these profound adepts in the great art and science of pleasure, who never shewed these votaries of theirs a more tender respect than at the time of those exercises of their complaisance, when they unlocked their treasures of concealed beauty, and shewed out in the pride of their native charms, ever more touching surely than when they parade it in the artificial ones of dress and ornament.
adepts - Adepten; geschickt, fähig, geübt, befähigt, erfahren, versiert
unlocked - freigeschaltet; aufschließen, entriegeln, entsperren (screen
ornament - Verzierung; musikalische Verzierung
The frolic was now come round to me, and it being my turn of subscription to the will and pleasure of my particular elect, as well as to that of the company, he came to me, and saluting me very tenderly, with a flattering eagerness, put me in mind of the compliances my presence there authorized the hopes of, and at the same time repeated to me, "that if all this force of example had not surmounted any repugnance I might have to concur with the humours and desires of the company, that though the play was bespoke for my benefit, and great as his own private disappointment might be, he would suffer any thing, sooner than be the instrument of imposing a disagreeable task.
surmounted - Überwunden; überwinden
concur - übereinstimmen, zustimmen, zusammentreffen, zusammenwirken
To this I answered, without the least hesitation, or mincing grimace, "that had I not even contracted a kind of engagement to be at his disposal without the least reserve, the example of such agreeable companions would alone determine me, and that I was in no pain about any thing but my appearing to so great a disadvantage after such superior beauties.
hesitation - Zögern
grimace - Grimasse; Grimassen schneiden
And take notice that I thought, as I spoke. The frankness of the answer pleased them all; my particular was complimented on his acquisition, and, by way of indirect flattery to me, openly envied me.
complimented - beglückwünscht; Kompliment
flattery - Schmeicheleien; Schmeichelei, Schöntuerei
Cole, by the way, could not have given me a greater mark of her regard than in managing for me the choice of this young gentleman for my master of the ceremonies: for, independent of his noble birth and the great fortune he was heir to, his person was even uncommonly pleasing, well shaped and tall; his face marked with the small-pox, but no more than what added a grace of more manliness to features rather turned to softness and delicacy, was marvellously enlivened by eyes which were of the clearest sparkling black; in short he was one whom any woman would, in the familiar style, ready call a very pretty fellow.
heir - Erbe, Erbin, Thronerbe
uncommonly - Ungewöhnlich
marvellously - fabelhaft
I was now handed by him to the cockpit of our match, where, as I was dressed in nothing but a white morning gown, he vouchsafed to play the male Abigail on this occasion, and spared me the confusion that would have attended the forwardness of undressing myself: my gown then was loosen'd in a trice, and I divested of it; my stays next offered an obstacle which readily gave way, Louisa very readily furnished a pair of scissors to cut the lace; off went that shell and dropping my uppercoat, I was reduced to my under one and my shift, the open bosom of which gave the hands and eyes all the liberty they could wish.
cockpit - Cockpit, Pilotenkanzel
Abigail - Zofe
loosen - lösen, lockern
divested - veräußert; berauben, entziehen
scissors - eine Schere; Schere
uppercoat - Obermantel
Here I imagined the stripping was to stop, but I reckon short; my spark, at the desire of the rest, tenderly begged, that I would not suffer the small remains of a covering to rob them of a full view of my whole person; and for me, who was too flexibly obsequious to dispute any point with them, and who considered the little more that remained as very immaterial, I readily assented to whatever he pleased-In an instant, then, my under petticoat was untied and at my feet, and my shift drawn over my head, so that my cap, slightly fastened, came off with it, and brought all my hair down (of which, be it again remembered without vanity, that I had a very fine head) in loose disorderly ringlets, over my neck and shoulders, to the no unfavourable set-off of my skin.
flexibly - flexibel
obsequious - unterwürfig
immaterial - immateriell
untied - ungebunden; losbinden, losmachen, aufklären, auflösen
unfavourable - ungünstig
I now stood before my judges in all the truth of nature, to whom I could not appear a very disagreeable figure, if you please to recollect what I have beforesaid of my person, which time, that at certain periods of life robs use every instant of our charms, had, at that of mine, then greatly improved into full and open, bloom, for I wanted some months of eighteen.
recollect - Erinnern Sie sich; sich erinnern an
beforesaid - vorher gesagt
My breasts, which in the state of nudity are ever capital points, now in no more than in graceful plenitude, maintained a firmness and steady independence of any stay or support, that dared and invited the test of the touch. Then I was as tall, as slim-shaped as could be consistent with all that juicy plumpness of flesh, ever the most grateful to the senses of sight and touch, which I owed to the health and youth of my constitution. I had not, however, so thoroughly renounced all innate shame, as not to suffer great confusion at the state I saw myself in; but the whole troop round me, men and women, relieved me with every mark of applause and satisfaction, even flattering attention to raise and inspire me with even sentiments of pride on the figure I made, which my friend gallantly protested, infinitely outshone all other birthday finery whatever; so that had I leave to set down, for sincere, all the compliments these connoisseurs overwhelmed me with upon this occasion, I might flatter myself with having passed my examination with the approbation of the learned.
nudity - Nacktheit
graceful - anmutig, ansprechend, elegant, graziös
plenitude - Fülle
slim - schlank, schmal, dünn
juicy - saftig
most grateful - erkenntlichste
renounced - aufgegeben; sich distanzieren, sich verleugnen
innate - angeboren, checkeigen, checkimmanent
applause - Applaus, Beifall
gallantly - galante
outshone - übertrumpft; überstrahlen, überleuchten, überstrahlen
connoisseurs - Kenner, Kennerin
But in this general survey, you may be sure, the most material spot of me was not excused the strictest visitation; nor was it but agreed, that I had not the least reason to be diffident of passing even for a maid, on occasion; so inconsiderable a flaw had my preceding adventures created there, and so soon had the blemish of an over-stretch been repaired and worn out at any age, and in my naturally small make in that part.
diffident - zurückhaltend
inconsiderable - unbedeutend
Now, whether my partner had exhausted all the modes of regaling the touch or sight, or whether he was now ungovernably wound up to strike, I know not; but briskly throwing off his clothes, the prodigious heat bred by a close room, a great fire, numerous candles, and even the inflammatory warmth of these scenes, induced him to lay aside his shirt too, when his breeches, before loosened, now gave up their contents to view, and shew'd in front the enemy I had to engage with, stiffly bearing up the port of its head imhooded, and glowing red. Then I plainly saw what I had to trust to: it was one of those just true-sized instruments, of which the masters have a better command than the more unwieldy, inordinate sized one are generally under. Straining me then close to his bosom, as he stood up foreright against me, and applying to the obvious niche its peculiar idol, he aimed at inserting it, which, as I forwardly favoured, he effected at once, by canting up my thighs over his naked hips, and made me receive every inch, and close home; so-that stuck upon the pleasure-pivot, add clinging round his neck, in which and in his hair I hid my face, burn-ingly flushing with present feeling as much as with shame, my bosom glued to him; he carried me once round the couch, on which he then, without quitting the middle-fastness, or dischannelling, laid me down, and began with pleasure-grist. But so provokingly predisposed and primed as we were, by all the moving sights of the night, our imagination was too much heated not to melt us of the soonest; and accordingly I no sooner felt the warm spray darted up my inwards-, from him, but I was punctually on flow, to share the momentary extasy; but I had yet greater reason to boast of our harmony: for finding that all the flames of desire were not yet quenched within me, but that rather, like wetted coals, I glowed the fiercer for this sprinkling, my hot-mettled spark, sympathizing with me, and loaded for a double fire, recontinued the sweet battery with undying vigour; greatly encouraged to accommodate all my motions to his best advantage and delight; kisses, squeezes, tender murmurs, all came into play, till our joys growing more turbulent and riotous, threw us into a fond disorder, and as they raged to a point, bore us far from our selves into an ocean of boundless pleasures, into which we both plunged together in a transport of taste. Now all the impressions of burning desire, from the lively scenes I had been spectatress of, ripened the heat of this exercise, and collecting to a head, throbbed and agitated me with insupportable irritations: I perfectly fevered and maddened with their excess.
exhausted - erschöpft; erschöpfen, dezimieren, erschöpfen, Auspuff, Abgas
regaling - erfreuen; ergötzen, festlich bewirten
ungovernably - unregierbar
inflammatory - aufrührerisch
lay aside - beiseite legen, weglegen
loosened - gelockert; lösen, lockern
Contents - Inhalt; (to be content with) sich mit etwas begnügen
inordinate - unangemessen
foreright - Vorrecht
forwardly - vorwärts; nach vorn, voreilig
pivot - schwenken; Drehpunkt, Angelpunkt, Zapfen, Drehpunkt
flushing - Wasserspülung (Vorgang); Spülung, durchflutend
fastness - Festigkeit; Feste, Festung
dischannelling - Entladen
grist - Schrot; Mahlgut
provokingly - provozieren
predisposed - prädisponiert; prädisponieren
spray - Sprühwasser, Gischt; bestäuben (bestäubt), sprühen, spritzen
punctually - pünktliche, pünktlich
quenched - abgeschreckt; stillen, löschen, löschen, ablöschen, verlöschen
sprinkling - Berieselung; berieselnd; (sprinkle); sprühen; besprühen; Nieselregen
sympathizing with - nachempfindend
undying - unsterblich
riotous - tumultuarisch, aufrührerisch, tobend
boundless - grenzenlos, unbegrenzt
agitated - aufgewühlt; aufwühlen, aufrühren, rühren, schütteln, umrühren
maddened - verärgert; rasend machen
I bid not now enjoy a calm of reason enough to perceive, but I extatically, indeed, felt the power of such rare and exquisite provocatives, as the examples of the night had proved towards thus exalting our pleasures: which, with great joy. I sensibly found my gallant shared in, by his nervous and home expressions of it: his eyes flashing eloquent flames, his action infuriated with the stings of it, all conspiring to raise my delight, by assuring me of his. Lifted then to the utmost pitch of joy that human life can bear, undestroyed by excess, I touched that sweetly critical point, whence scarce prevented by the injection from my partner, I dissolved, and breaking out into a deep drawn sigh, sent my whole sensitive soul down to that passage where escape was denied it, by its being so deliciously plugged and choked up. Thus we lay a few blissful instants, overpowered, still, and languid; till, as the sense of pleasure stagnated, we recovered from our trance, and he slipt out of me, not however before he had protested his extreme satisfaction by the tenderest kiss and embrace, as well as by the most cordial expressions.
extatically - extatisch
provocatives - Provokationsmittel; provokant
exalting - verherrlichend; ehren, erhöhen
infuriated - wütend machen, zur Weißglut bringen
undestroyed - unzerstört
choked - gewürgt; erwürgen, erdrosseln, ersticken, überwältigen
blissful - glückselig, beglückt
stagnated - stagniert; stagnieren
slipt - geschlüpft
most cordial - herzlichste
As it was an inviolable law for every gallant to keep to his partner, for the night especially, and even till he relinquished possession over to the community, in order to preserve a pleasing property, and to avoid the disgusts and indelicacy of another arrangement, the company, after a short refection of biscuits and wine, tea and chocolate, served in at now about one in the morning, broke up, and went off in pairs. Mrs. Cole had prepared my spark and me an occasion field-bed, to which we retired, and there ended the night in one continued strain of pleasure, sprightly and uncloyed enough for us not to have formed one wish for its ever knowing an end. In the morning, after a restorative breakfast in bed, he got up, and with very tender assurance of a particular regard for me, left me to the composure and refreshment of a sweet slumber; waking out of which, and getting up to dress before Mrs. Cole should come in, I found in one of my pockets a purse of guineas, which he had slipt there; and just as I was musing on a liberality I had certainly not expected, Mrs.
inviolable - unantastbar
relinquished - aufgegeben; verlassen, aufgeben, überlassen, abtreten
disgusts - abstößt; ekeln, Ekel
indelicacy - Unempfindlichkeit; Unanständigkeit
refection - Refektion; Erfrischung
sprightly - rüstig; lebhaft
uncloyed - arbeitslos
restorative - erholsam, stärkend, restaurativ, wiederherstellend
musing - sinnend, grübelnd, nachgrübelnd, nachsinnend; (mus); sinnend
liberality - Liberalität, Freizügigkeit
Cole came in, to whom I immediately communicated the present, and naturally offered her whatever share she pleased: but assuring me that the gentleman had very nobly rewarded her, she would on no terms, no entreaties, no shape I could put it in, receive any part of it. Her denial, she observed, was no affectation of grimace, and proceeded to read me such admirable lessons on the economy of my person and my purse, as I became amply paid for my general attention and conformity to in the course of my acquaintance with the town. After which, changing the discourse, she fell on the pleasures of the preceding night, where I learned, without much surprise, as I began to enter on her character, that she had seen every thing that had passed, from a convenient place managed solely for that purpose, and of which she readily made me the confidante.
admirable - bewundernswert
amply - reichlich
conformity - Konformität
confidante - Mitwisser; Vertraute
She had scarce finished this, when the little troop of love girls, my companions, broke in, and renewed their compliments and caresses.. I observed with pleasure, that the fatigues and exercises of the night had not usurped in the least on the life of their complexion, or the freshness of their bloom: this I found, by their confession, was owing to the management and advice of our rare directress.
usurped - usurpiert; usurpieren
directress - Direktorin, Leiterin, Regisseurin, Vorsteherin
They went down then to figure it, as usual, in the shop; whilst I repaired to my lodging, where I employed myself till I returned to dinner at Mrs. Cole's.
Here I staid in constant amusement, with one or other of these charming girls, till about five in the evening; when seized with a sudden drowsy fit, I was prevailed on to go up and doze it off on Harriet's bed, who left me on it to my repose. There then I laid down in my clothes, and fell fast asleep, and had now enjoyed, by guess, about an hour's rest, when I was pleasingly disturbed by my new and favourite gallant, who, enquiring for me, was readily directed where to find me. Coming then into my chamber, and seeing me lie alone, with my face turned from the light towards the inside of the bed, he, without more ado, just slipped off his breeches, for the greater ease and enjoyment of the naked touch; and softly turning up my petticoats and shift behind, opened the prospect of the back avenue to the genial seat of pleasure; where, as I lay at my side length, inclining rather face downward, I appeared full fair, and liable to be entered. Laying himself gently down by me, he invested me behind, and giving me to feel the warmth of his body, as he applied his thighs and belly close to me, and the endeavours of that machine, whose touch has something so exquisitely singular in it, to make its way good into me.
drowsy - schläfrig; einschläfernd; müde, langweilig, verschlafen, dösig
ado - Getue; Getöse, checkLärm, checkMühe
downward - abwärts, nach unten, runter, nach unten gehend, absteigend
singular - einzeln; einzigartig; ungewöhnlich; singularisch; singulär; Einzahl
I awaked pretty much startled at first, at seeing who it was, disposed myself to turn to him, when he gave me a kiss, and desiring me to keep my posture, just lifted up my upper thigh, and ascertaining the right opening, soon drove it up to the farthest: satisfied with which, and solacing himself with lying so close in those parts, he suspended motion, and thus steeped in pleasure, kept me lying on my side, into him, spoon-fashion, as he termed it, from the snug indent of the back part of my thighs, and all upwards, into the space of the bending between his thighs and belly; till, after some time, that restless and turbulent inmate, impatient by nature of longer quiet, urged him to action, which now prosecuting with all the usual train of toying, kissing, and the like, ended at length in the liquid proof on both sides, that we had not exhausted, or at less were quickly recruited of last night's draughts of pleasure in us.
ascertaining - feststellen
snug - wohlig; enganliegend; Hinterraum; gemütlicher Hinterraum; gemütliche Ecke; Separee
indent - Einzug; Vertiefung, Kerbe, Einbuchtung, Beschaffungsauftrag
With this noble and agreeable youth lived I in perfect joy and constancy. He was full bent on keeping me to himself, for the honey-month at least; but his stay in London was not even so long, his father, who had a post in Ireland, taking him abruptly with him, on his repairing thither.
constancy - Konstanz, Beständigkeit, Ausdauer
Ireland - Irland
abruptly - abrupt, plötzlich, unerwartet, abgerissen, abschüssig
Yet even then I was near keeping hold of his affection and person, as he had proposed, and I had consented to follow him in order to go to Ireland after him, as soon as he could be settled there; but meeting with an agreeable and advantageous match in that kingdom, he chose the wiser part, and forebore sending for me, but at the same time took care that I should receive a very magnificent present, which did not however compensate for all my deep regret on my loss of him.
forebore - Vorbohrung; Vorfahr, Ahn, Vorfahre
sending for - herbeirufend
This event also created a chasm in our little society, which Mrs. Cole, on the foot of her usual caution, was in no haste to fill up; but then it redoubled her attention to procure me, in the advantages of a traffic for a counterfeit maidenhead, some consolation for the sort of widowhood I had been left in; and this was a scheme she had never lost prospect of, and only waited for a proper person to bring it to bear with.
chasm - Abgrund, Kluft, Spalte
counterfeit - gefälscht, nachgemacht, unecht, Falsch-, Fälschung, fälschen
consolation - Trost; Trostpreis
widowhood - Witwenschaft, Witwentum, Witwenstand, Verwitwung
But I was, it seems, fated to be my own caterer in this, as I had been in my first trial of the market.
caterer - Speiselieferant, Partyservice, Catering-Service
I had now passed near a month in the enjoyment of all the pleasures of familiarity and society with my companions, whose particular favourites (the baronet excepted, who soon after took Harriet home) had all, on the terms of community established in the house, solicited the gratification of their taste for variety in my embraces; but I had with the utmost art and address, on various pretexts, eluded their pursuit, without giving them cause to complain; and this reserve I used neither out of dislike of them, nor disgust of the thing, but my true reason was my attachment to my own, and my tenderness of invading the choice of my companions, who outwardly exempt, as they seemed, from jealousy, could not but in secret like me the better for the regard I had for, without making a merit of it to them.
pretexts - Vorwände; Vorwand, Deckmantel, fadenscheinige Begründung
outwardly - nach außen hin; äußerlich
exempt - befreit, checkausgenommen, befreien, checkausnehmen
Thus easy, and beloved by the whole family, did I get on; when one day, that, about five in the afternoon, I stepped over to a fruit shop in Covent Garden, to pick some table fruit for myself and the young women, I met with the following adventure.
Whilst I was chaffering for the fruit I wanted, I observed myself followed by a young gentleman, whose rich dress first attracted my notice; for the rest, he had nothing remarkable in his person, except that he was pale, thin-made, and ventured himself upon legs rather of the slenderest. Easy was it to perceive, without seeming to perceive it, that it was me he wanted to be at; and keeping his eyes fixed on me, till he came to the same basket that I stood at, and cheapening, or rather giving the first price asked for the fruit, began his approaches. Now most certainly I was not at all out of figure to pass for a modest girl. I had neither the feathers, nor fumet of a taudry town-miss: a straw hat, a white gown, clean linen, and above all, a certain natural and easy air of modesty (which the appearances of never forsook me, even on those occasions that I most brouke in upon it, in practice) were all signs that gave him no opening to conjecture my condition. He spoke to me; and this address from a stranger throwing a blush into my cheeks, that still set him wider of the truth, I answered him, with an awkwardness and confusion the more apt to impose, as there really was a mixture of the genuine in them. But when proceeding, on the foot of having broken the ice, to join discourse, he went into other leading questions, I put so much innocence, simplicity, and even childishness, into my answers, that on no better foundation, liking my person as he did, I will not answer for it, he would have been sworn for my modesty. There is, in short, in the men, when once they are caught, by the eye especially, a fund of cullibility that their lordly wisdom little dreams of, and in virtue of which the most sagacious of them are seen so often our dupes. Amongst other queries he put to me, one was, whether I was married? I replied, that I was too young to think of that this many a year.
chaffering - Schmeicheleien; Feilschen
slenderest - am schlanksten; schlank
cheapening - Verbilligung; verbilligen
straw - Halm, Strohhalm, Stroh, strohfarben, strohgelb, Stroh-
forsook - aufgegeben; aufgeben
conjecture - Mutmaßungen; Vermutung, Verdacht, Mutmaßung, Hypothese
apt - passend; Hochgeschwindigkeitszug; geeignet, begabt
childishness - Kindereien; Kinderei
cullibility - Schuldhaftigkeit
lordly - herrschaftlich; fürstlich, adelig, einem Lord gemäß, vornehm
sagacious - klug
dupes - Duplikate; düpieren, einseifen, verladen (für dumm verkaufen)
To that of my age, I answered, and sunk a year upon him, passing myself for not above seventeen. As to my way of life, I told him I had served an apprenticeship to a milliner in Preston, and was come to town after a relation, that I had found, on my arrival, was dead, and now lived journey-woman to a milliner in town. That last article, indeed, was not much of the side of what I pretended to pass for; but it did pass, under favour of the growing passion I had inspired him with. After he had next got out of me, very dexterously as he thought, what I had no sort of design to make reserve of, my own, my mistress's name, and place of abode, he loaded me with fruit, all the rarest and dearest he could pick out and sent me home, pondering on what might be the consequence of this adventure.
apprenticeship - Ausbildungszeit, Lehre, Lehrzeit, Ausbildung
milliner - Modistin, Hutmacherin
dexterously - geschickterweise
abode - Aufenthalt, bleiben, Wohnsitz
pondering - grübeln, überlegen, nachdenken
As soon then as I came to Mrs.
Cole's, I related to her all that passed, on which she very judiciously concluded, that if he did not come after me there was no harm done, and that, if he did, as her presage suggested to her he would, his character and his views should be well sifted, so as to know whether the game was worth the springes; that in the mean time nothing was easier than my part in it, since no more rested on me than to follow her cue and promptership throughout, till the last act.
judiciously - vernünftig
presage - vorhersagen; Prophezeiung, Anzeichen; ahnen
sifted - gesichtet; sieben, sieben, sichten, durchgehen
The next morning, after an evening spent on his side, as we afterwards learnt, in perquisitions into Mrs. Cole's character in the neighbourhood (than which nothing could be more favourable to her designs upon him), my gentleman came in his chariot to the shop, where Mrs. Cole alone had an inkling of his errand. Asking then for her, he easily made a beginning of acquaintance by bespeaking some millinery ware; when, as I sat without lifting my eyes, and pursuing the hem of a ruffle with the utmost composure and simplicity of industry, Mrs. Cole took notice, that the first impressions I made on him ran no risk of being destroyed by those of Louisa and Emily, who were then sitting at work by me.
chariot - Streitwagen; Triumphwagen
inkling - Andeutung
hem - säumen, einfassen, einsäumen, einschließen [Mil.]; Saum
ruffle - kräuseln; Rüsche, Krause
After vainly endeavouring to catch my eyes in rencounter with him (I held my head down, affecting a kind of consciousness of guilt for having, by speaking to him given him encouragement and means of following me), and after giving Mrs. Cole direction when to bring the things home herself, and the time he should expect them, he went out, taking with him some goods, that he paid for liberally, for the better grace of his introduction.
rencounter - Wiederbegegnung
The girls all this time did not in the least smoak the mystery of this new customer; but Mrs. Cole, as soon as we were conveniently alone, insured me, in virtue of her long experience in these matters, "that for this bout my charms had not missed fire; for by his eagerness, his manner and looks, she was sure he had it: the only point now in doubt was his character and circumstances, which her knowledge of the town would soon gain her the sufficient acquaintance with, to take measure upon.
new customer - Neukunde
insured - versicherte; (insure); versichern
bout - Runde
And effectively, in a few hours, her intelligence served her so well, that she learned that this conquest of mine was no other than Mr.
conquest - Eroberung; Conquest-Modus, Conquestmodus
Norbert, a gentleman originally of great fortune, which, with a constitution naturally not the best, he had vastly impaired by his over-violent pursuit of the vices of the town; in the course of which, having worn out and staled all the more common modes of debauchery, he had fallen into a taste of maiden-hunting; in which chase he had ruined a number of girls, sparing no expense to compass his ends, and generally using them well till tired, or cooled by enjoying, or springing a new face, he could with more ease disembarrass himself of the old ones, and resign them to their fate, as his sphere of achievements of that sort lay only amongst such as he could proceed with by way of bargain and sale.
impaired - beeinträchtigt; beeinträchtigen, schädigen
staled - verstummt; fad, abgestanden, altbacken
disembarrass - entblößen
Concluding from these premises, Mrs. Cole observed, that a character of this sort was ever a lawful prize; that the sin would be, not to make the best of our market of him; and that she thought such a girl as I only too good for him at any rate, and on any terms.
lawful - rechtmäßig; gesetzlich, legal, rechtsmäßig
She went then, at the hour appointed, to his lodgings in one of our inns of court, which were furnished in a taste of grandeur that had a special eye to all the conveniences of luxury and pleasure. Here she found him in ready waiting; and after finishing her business of pretence, and a long conduit of discussions concerning her trade, which she said was very bad, the qualities of her servants, apprentices, journey-women, the discourse naturally landed at length on me, when Mrs. Cole, acting admirably the good old prating gossip, who lets every thing escape her when her tongue is set in motion, cooked him up a story so plausible of me, throwing in every now and then such strokes of art, with all the simplest air of nature, in praise of my person and temper, as finished him finely for her purpose, whilst nothing could be better counterfeited than her innocence of his.
grandeur - Erhabenheit; Herrlichkeit, Pracht, Hoheit
apprentices - Lehrlinge; Lehrling, Auszubildender, Auszubildende, Azubi
prating - schwatzhaft, schwätzend; (prat) schwatzhaft, schwätzend
gossip - Klatsch und Tratsch; Tratsche, Tratschtante, Klatschtante
counterfeited - gefälscht, nachgemacht, unecht, Falsch-, falsch, Fälschung
But when now fired and on edge, he proceeded to drop hints of his design and views upon me, after he had with much confusion and pains brought her to the point (she kept as long aloof from it as she thought proper) of understanding him, without now affecting to pass for a dragoness of virtue, by flying out into those violent and ever suspicious passions, she stuck with the better grace and effect to the character of a plain, good sort of woman, that knew no harm, and that getting her bread in an honest way, was made of stuff easy and flexible enough to be wrought to his ends, by his superior skill and address; but, however, she managed so artfully that three or four meetings took place, before he could obtain the least favourable hope of her assistance; without which, he had, by a number of fruitless messages, letters, and other direct trials of my disposition, convinced himself there was no coming at me, all which too raised at once my character and price with him.
aloof - unnahbar; (ein Stück) entfernt, auf (etwas) Abstand
dragoness - Drachin
Thus she led him through all the gradations of difficulty, and obstacles, necessary to enhance the value of the prize he aimed at; and in conclusion, he was so struck with the little beauty I was mistress of, and so eagerly bent on gaining his ends of me, that he left her no room to boast of her management in bringing him up to her mark, he drove so plump of himself into every thing tending to make him swallow the bait. Not but, in other respects, Mr. Norbert was not clear sighted enough, or that he did not perfectly know the town, and even by experience, the very branch of imposition now in practice upon him: but we had his passion our friend so much, he was so blinded and hurried on by it, that he would have thought any undeception a very ill office done to his pleasure. Thus concurring, even precipitately, to the point she wanted him at, Mrs.
clear sighted - hellsichtig
imposition - Auferlegung; Zumutung, Belästigung, Bürde, Handauflegen
undeception - Täuschung
concurring - übereinstimmen, zustimmen, übereinstimmen, zusammentreffen
precipitately - überstürzt
Cole brought him at last to hug himself on the cheap bargain he considered the purchase of my imaginary jewel was to him, at no more than three hundred guineas to myself, and a hundred to the brokers: being a slender recompense for all her pains, and all the scruples of conscience she had now sacrificed to him for this first time of her life; which sums were to be paid down on the nail, upon delivery of my person, exclusive of some no inconsiderable presents that had been made in the course of the negociation: during which I had occasionally, but sparingly been introduced into his company, at proper times and hours; in which it is incredible how little it seemed necessary to strain my natural disposition to modesty higher, in order to pass it upon him for that a very maid: all my looks and gestures ever breathing nothing but that innocence which the men so ardently require in us, for no other end than to feast themselves with the pleasure of destroying it, and which they are so grievously, with all their skill, subject to mistakes in.
hug - Umarmung; umarmen
brokers - Makler
recompense - Entschädigung; Rückerstattung; belohnen, zurückerstatten
scruples - Skrupel
negociation - Verhandlung
sparingly - sparsam
grievously - schwerwiegend; schmerzliche, kränkend
When the articles of the treaty had been fully agreed on, the stipulated payments duly secured, and nothing now remained but the execution of the main point, which centered in the surrender of my person up to his free disposal and use, Mrs. Cole managed her objections, especially to his lodgings, and insinuations so nicely, that it became his own mere notion and urgent request, that this copy of a wedding should be finished at her house: "At first, indeed, she did not care, not she, to have such doings in it.
stipulated - vorgeschrieben; vereinbaren
insinuations - Andeutungen; Einschmeicheln
. she would not for a thousand pounds have any of the servants or apprentices know it... her precious good name would be gone for ever...," with the like excuses. However, on superior objections to all other expedients, whilst she took care to start none but those which were most liable to them it came round at last to the necessity of her obliging'him in that conveniency, and of doing a little more where she had already done so much.
expedients - Hilfsmittel; angebracht, opportun, hilfreich, passend
Every thing then being disposed and fixed for Mr. Norbert's reception, he was, at the hour of eleven at night, with all the mysteries of silence and secrecy, let in by Mrs.
secrecy - Geheimhaltung; Geheimniskrämerei, Geheimnistuerei
Cole herself, and introduced into her bedchamber, where, in an old-fashioned bed of her's, I lay, fully undressed, and panting, if not with the fears of a real maid, at least with those perhaps greater of a dissembled one which gave me an air of confusion and bashfulness that maiden-modesty had all the honour of, and was indeed scarce distinguishable from it, even by less partial eyes than those of my lover: so let me call him, for I ever thought the term "cully" too cruel a reproach to the men, for their abused weakness for us.
distinguishable - unterscheidbar
As soon as Mrs. Cole, after the old gossipery, on these occasions, used to young women abandoned for the first time to the will of man, had left us alone in her room, which, by the bye was well lighted up, at his previous desire, that seemed to bode a stricter examination than he afterwards made, Mr. Norbert, still dressed, sprung towards the bed, where I got my head under the clothes, and defended them a good while before he could even get at my lips, to kiss them: so true it is, that a false virtue, on this occasion, even makes & greater rout and resistance than a true one.
gossipery - Klatsch und Tratsch
bode - prophezeien; (bide) prophezeien
sprung towards - zugesprungen
rout - Routine; Rotte
From thence he descended to my breasts, the feel I disputed tooth and nail with him till tired with my resistance, and thinking probable to give a better account to me, he hurried his clothes off in an instant, and came into bed.
Mean while by the glimpse I stole of him, I could easily discover a person far from promising any such doughty performances as the storming of maidenheads generally requires, and whose flimsy consumptive texture gave him more the air of an invalid that was pressed, than of a volunteer, on such hot service.
maidenheads - Jungfernköpfe; Jungfräulichkeit
flimsy - fadenscheinig; zart, schwach, leicht, zerbrechlich
consumptive - verbrauchend; schwindsüchtig
invalid - ungültig; zum Invaliden machen; Invalide, Kranken.., Kranke
As soon as he was in bed, he threw off the bedclothes, which I suffered him to force from my hold, and I now lay as exposed as he could wish, not only to his attacks, but his visitation of the sheets; where in the various agitations of the body, through my endeavours to defend myself, he could easily assure himself there was no preparation, though, to do him justice, he seemed a less strict examinant than I had apprehended from so experienced a practitioner. My shift then he fairly tore open, finding I made too much use of it to barricade my breasts, as well as the more important avenue: yet in every thing else he proceeded with all the marks of tenderness and regard to me, whilst the art of my play was to shew none for him, I acted them all the niceties, apprehensions, and terrors, supposable for a girl perfectly innocent to feel, at so great a novelty as a naked man in bed with her for the first time. He scarce even obtained a kiss but what he ravished; I put his hand away twenty times from my breasts, where he had satisfied himself of their hardness and consistence, with passing for hitherto unhandled goods. But when grown impatient upon the main point, he now threw himself upon me, and first trying to examine me with his finger, sought to make himself further way, I complained of his usage bitterly: "I thought he would not have served a body so... I was ruined... I did not know what I had done..., I would get up, so I would...;" and at the same time kept my thighs so fast locked, that it was not for strength like his to force them open, or do any good. Finding thus my advantages, and that I had both my own and his motions at command, the deceiving him came so easy, that it was perfectly playing upon velvet. In the mean time his machine, which was one of those sizes that slip in and out without being minded, kept pretty stiffly bearing against that part, which the shutting my thighs barred access to; but finding, at length he could do no good by mere dint of bodily strength, he resorted to entreaties and arguments: to which I only answered, with a tone of shame and timidity, "that I was afraid he would kill me... Lord!..., would not be served so... I was never so used in all my born days..., I wondered he was not ashamed of himself, so I did...," with such silly infantine moods of repulse and complaint as I judged best adapted to express the character of innocence, and affright. Pretending, however, to yield at length to the vehemence of his insistence, in action and words, I sparing disclosed my thighs, so that he could just touch the cloven inlet with the tip of his instrument: but as he fatigued and toiled to get in, a twist of my body, so as to receive it obliquely, not only thwarted his admission, but giving a scream, as if he had pierced me to the heart, I shook him off me, with such violence that he could not with all his might to it, keep the saddle: vexed indeed at this he seemed, but not in the style of displeasure with me for my skittishness; on the contrary, I dare swear he held me the dearer, and hugged himself for the difficulties that even hurt his instant pleasure. Fired, however, now beyond all bearance of delay, he remounts, and begged of me to have patience, stroking and soothing me to it by all the tenderest endearments and protestations of what he would moreover do for me; at which, feigning to be somewhat softened, and abating of the anger that I had shewn at his hurting me so prodigiously, I suffered him to lay my thighs aside, and make way for a new trial; but I watched the directions and management of his point so well, that no sooner was the orifice in the least open to it, but I gave such a timely jerk as seemed to proceed not from the evasion of his entry, but from the pain his efforts at it put me to: a circumstance too that I did not fail to accompany with proper gestures, sighs and cries of complaint, of which, "that he had hurt me... he killed me... I should die...," were the most frequent interjections. But now, after repeated attempts, in which he had not made the least impression towards gaining his point, at least for that time, the pleasure rose so fast upon him, that he could not check or delay it, and in the vigour and fury which the approaches of the height of it inspired him, he made one fierce-thrust, that had almost put me by my guard, and lodged it so far that I could feel the warm inspersion just within the exterior orifice, which I had the cruelty not to let him finish there, but threw him out again, not without a most piercing loud exclamation, as if the pain had put me beyond all regard of being overheard.
examinant - Prüfer
barricade - Barrikade; verbarrikadieren
niceties - Annehmlichkeiten; Feinheit
supposable - annehmbar
unhandled - unbearbeitet
deceiving - betrügen, täuschen
dint - oder nicht; Beule, Einbeulung
infantine - infantil
vehemence - Heftigkeit, Vehemenz
insistence - Beharren; Beharrlichkeit, Insistenz, Eindringlichkeit
fatigued - Ermüdet; Müdigkeit, Ermüdung, Schlappheit, Überdruss
toiled - geschuftet; Mühe, schuften, sich plagen, sich quälen, roboten
obliquely - schräg
thwarted - vereitelt; durchkreuzen, entgegenwirken, vereiteln
displeasure - Unzufriedenheit; Unmut, Missfallen, Verdruss
skittishness - Ungebärdigkeit
bearance - Toleranz
remounts - neu montiert; wieder einhängen
feigning - vortäuschen; heuchelnd, fingierend
abating - nachlassen; vermindern, verzehren (Rauch), verringern
evasion - Umgehung, Ausweichen, Hinterziehung, Vermeidung
interjections - Zwischenrufe; Interjektion, Ausrufewort
exterior - Außen-; Äußeres, Außenseite
exclamation - Ausruf; Exklamation
It was then easy to observe that he was more satisfied, more highly pleased with the supposed motives of his baulk of consummation, than he would have-been at the full attainment of it. It was on this foot that I solved to myself all the falsity I employed to procure him that blissful pleasure in it, which most certainly he would not have tasted in the truth of things. Eased, however, and relieved by one discharge, he now applied himself to sooth, encourage, and to put me into humour and patience to bear his next attempt, which he began to prepare and gather force for, from all the incentives of the touch and sight which he could think of, by examining every individual part of my whole body, which he declared his satisfaction with, in raptures of applause, kisses universally imprinted, and sparing no part of me, in all the eagerest wantonness of feeling, seeing, and toying. His vigour, however, did not return so soon, and I felt him more than once pushing at the door, but so little in a condition to break in, that I question whether he had the power to enter, had I held it ever so open; but this he then thought me too little acquainted with the nature of things, to have any regret or confusion about, and he-kept fatiguing himself and me for a long time, before he was in any state to resume his attacks with any prospect of success and then I breathed him so warmly, and kept him so at bay, that before he had made any sensible progress in point of penetration, he was deliciously sweated, and wearied out indeed: so that it was deep in the morning before he achieved his second let-go, about half way of entrance, I all the while crying and complaining of his prodigious vigour, and the immensity of what I appeared to suffer splitting up with. Tired, however, at length, with such athletic drudgery, my champion began now to give out, and to gladly embrace the refreshment of some rest. Kissing me then with much affection, and recommending me to my repose, he presently fell fast asleep, which, as soon as I had well satisfied myself of, I with much composure of body, so as not to wake him by any motion, with much ease and safety too, played of Mrs. Cole's device for perfecting the signs of my virginity. In each of the head bed-posts, just above where the bedsteads are inserted into them, there was a small drawer, so artfully adapted to the mouldings of the timber-work, that it might have escaped even the most curious search: which drawers were easily opened or shut by the touch of a spring, and were fitted each with a shallow glass tumbler, full of a prepared fluid blood, in which lay soaked, for ready use, a sponge, that required no more than gently reaching the hand to it, taking it out and properly squeezing between the thighs, when it yelded a great deal more of the red liquid than would save a girl's honour; after which, replacing it, and touching the spring, all possibility of discovery, or even of suspicion, was taken away; and this was not the work of the fourth part of a minute, and of which ever side one lay, the thing was equally easy and practicable, by the double care taken to have each bed-post provided alike. True it is, that had he waked and caught me in the act, it would at least have covered me with shame and confusion; but them, that he did not, was, with the precautions I took, a risk of a thousand to one in my favour.
consummation - Vollendung
attainment - Errungenschaften; Erlangen; Errungenschaft
falsity - Unwahrkeit, Unrichtigkeit, Falschheit
universally - universell
sweated - geschwitzt; schwitzen; Schweiß
immensity - Unermesslichkeit, Grenzenlosigkeit
athletic - athletisch, sportlich
gladly - gerne; gern
bedsteads - Bettgestelle; Bettgestell
mouldings - Formteile; Zierleiste, Profil, schimmelnd, gießend
most curious - neugierigste, kurioseste
drawers - Schubladen; Zeichner, Schublade, Aussteller
tumbler - Trinkglas, Tumbler, Glasbecher, Tümmler
sponge - Schwamm; Schnorrer; schnorren
yelded - geschweißt
practicable - durchführbar, ausführbar, praktikabel
At ease now, and out of all fear of any doubt or suspicion on his side, I addressed myself in good earnest to my repose, but could obtain none; and in about half an hour's time my gentleman waked again, and turning towards me, I feigned a sound sleep, which he did not long respect; but girding himself again to renew the onset, he began to kiss and caress me, when now making as if I just waked, I complained of the disturbance, and of the cruel pain that this little rest had stole my senses from. Eager, however, for the pleasure, as well of consummating an entire triumph over my virginity, he said every thing that could overcome my resistance, and bribe my patience to the end, which now I was ready to listen to, from being secure of the bloody proofs I had prepared of his victorious violence, though I still thought it good policy not to let him in yet a while. I answered then only to his importunities in sighs and moans, "that I was so hurt, I could not bear it... I was sure he had done me a mischief; that he had... he was such a bad man!" At this, turning down the clothes, and viewing the field of battle by the glimmer of a dying taper, he saw plainly my thighs, shift, and sheet, all stained with what he readily took for a virgin effusion, proceeding from his last half penetration: convinced, and transported at which, nothing could equal his joy and exultation. The illusion was complete, no other conception entered his head, but that of his having been at work upon an unopened mine; which idea, upon so strong an evidence, redoubled at once his tenderness for me, and his ardour for breaking it wholly up.
feigned - vorgetäuscht; vorgeben, vortäuschen, vormachen, fingieren
girding - umgürtend; (gird) umgürtend
disturbance - Störung; Störenfried, Geistesstörung
victorious - siegreich, obsiegend, triumphierend, triumphal, siegesstrahlend
importunities - Möglichkeiten; Aufdringlichkeit, ständiges Bedrängen
moans - stöhnt; Stöhnen
glimmer - Schimmern; Schimmer; glimmern
stained - gefärbt; Fleck, Schandfleck, Fleck, beflecken, beizen
unopened - ungeöffnet
Kissing me then with the utmost rapture, he comforted me, and begged my pardon for the pain he had put me to: observing withal, that it was only a thing in course; but the worst was certainly past, and that with a little courage and constancy, I should get it once well over, and never after experience any thing but the greatest pleasure. By little and little I suffered myself to be prevailed on, and giving, as it were, up to the point of him, I made my thighs, insensibly spreading them, yield him liberty of access, which improving, he got a little within me, when by a well managed reception I worked the female screw so nicely, that I kept him from the easy mid-channel direction, and by dexterous wreathing and contortions, creating an artificial difficulty of entrance, made him win it inch by inch, with the most laborious struggles, I all the while sorely complaining: till at length, with might and main, winding his way in, he got it completely home, and giving my virginity, as he thought, the coup le grace, furnished me with the cue of setting up a terrible outcry, whilst he, triumphant and like a cock clapping his wings over his down-trod mistress, pursued his pleasure: which presently rose, in virtue of this idea of a complete victory, to a pitch that made me soon sensible of his melting period; whilst I now lay acting the deep wounded, breathless, frightened, undone, no longer maid.
female screw - Schraubenmutter
dexterous - Geschicklichkeit; behänd, geschickt, fingerfertig, gewandt
wreathing - kränzen; winden
contortions - Verrenkungen; Kontorsion
winding - (wind) aufspulen, rollen, blasen, aufwickeln
outcry - Schrei; Aufschrei, Sturm der Entrüstung
triumphant - triumphieren
cock - Vogelmännchen; Gockel, Hahn; erigierter Penis (vulg.), Pimmel
clapping - Klatschen; (clap); Klatschen
trod - getreten; schritt, zertrat, trat; (tread) getreten; schritt
undone - ungeschehen machen; öffnen, aufmachen, etwas rückgängig machen
You would ask me, perhaps, whether all this time I enjoyed any perception of pleasure?
I assure you, little or none, till just towards the latter end, a faintish sense of it came on mechanically, from so long a struggle and frequent fret in that ever sensible part; but, in the first place, I had no taste for the person I was suffering the embraces of, on a pure mercenary account; and then, I was not entirely delighted with myself for the jade's part I was playing, whatever excuses I might plead for my being brought into it; but then this insensibility kept me so much the mistress of my mind and motions, that I could the better manage so close a counterfeit, through the whole scene of deception.
faintish - ohnmächtig
mechanically - mechanisch
fret - beunruhigen; sich grämen
plead for - flehen (um)
insensibility - Unempfindlichkeit; Gefühllosigkeit
deception - Betrug, Betrügerei, Täuschung
You may guess how a woman of her turn of address and experience humoured the jest, and played him off with mixed exclamations of shame, danger, compassion for me, and of her being pleased that all was so well over: in which last, I believe, she was certainly sincere. And now, as the objection which she had represented as an invincible one, to me lying the first night at his lodgings (which were studiously calculated for freedom of intrigues), on the account of my maiden fears and terrors, at the thought of going to a gentleman's chambers, and being alone with him in bed, was surmounted, she pretended to persuade me, in favour to him, that I should go there to him, whenever he pleased, and still keep up all the necessary appearances of working with her, that I might not lose, with my character, the prospect of getting a good husband, and at the same time her house would be kept safer from scandal.
studiously - fleißig; besonnen; geflissentlich
intrigues - Intrigen; Intrige, intrigieren, faszinieren
All this seemed so reasonable, so considerate to Mr. Norbert, that he never once perceived that she did not want him to resort to her house, lest he might in time discover certain inconsistencies with the character she had set out with to him: besides that this plan greatly flattered his own ease, and views of liberty.
considerate - rücksichtsvoll
inconsistencies - Ungereimtheiten; Unvereinbarkeit, Folgewidrigkeit
Leaving me then to my much wanted rest, he got up, and Mrs. Cole, after settling with him all points relating to me, got him undiscovered out of the house. After which, as I was awake, she came in, and gave me due praises for my success.
Behaving too with her usual moderation and disinterestedness, she refused any share of the sum I had thus earned, and put me into such a secure and easy way of disposing of my affairs, which now amounted to a kind of little fortune, that a child of ten years old might have kept the account and property of them safe in its hands.
moderation - Maßhalten; Mäßigung; Diskussionsleitung
disinterestedness - Desinteresse; Uneigennützigkeit
I was now restored again to my former state of a kept mistress, and used punctually to wait on Mr. Norbert at his chambers whenever he sent a messenger for me, which I constantly took care to be in the way of, and managed with so much caution, that he never once penetrated the nature of my connections with Mrs.
messenger - Kurier, Bote, Botschafter
Cole; but indolently given up to ease and the town dissipations, the perpetual hurry of them hindered him from looking into his own affairs, much less to mine.
dissipations - Ausschüttungen; Zerstreuung, Zersplitterung, Zerteilung
perpetual - unbefristet, ewig, immerwährend, unaufhörlich
hindered - behindert; behindern, aufhalten, hindern
Mr. Norbert, who was much in this ungracious case, though he professed to like me extremely, could but seldom consummate the main-joy itself with me, without such a length and variety of preparations, as were at once wearisome and inflammatory.
professed - bekennt; bekennen
consummate - perfekt, vollkommen, vollendet, unübertrefflich
wearisome - ermüdend, langweilig, lästig
Sometimes he would strip me stark naked on a carpet, by a good fire, when he would contemplate me almost by the hour, disposing me in all the figures and attitudes of body that it was susceptible of being viewed in; kissing me in every part, the most secret and critical one so far from excepted that it received most of that branch of homage. Then his touches were so exquisitely wanton, so luxuriously diffused and penetrative at times, that he had made me perfectly rage with titillating fires, when, after all, and much ado, he had gained a short-lived erection, he would perhaps melt it away in a washy sweat, or a premature abortive effusion, that provokingly mocked my eager desires: or, if carried home, how faultered and unnervous the execution!
most secret - geheimste
homage - Vasalleneid, Gefolgschaftsschwur, Vasallentreueschwur
luxuriously - luxuriös
penetrative - durchdringend
sweat - schwitzen; Schweiß
premature - frühreif; vorzeitig, verfrüht
abortive - abtreibend
mocked - verspottet; Nachahmung, Imitation, Parodie, Veralberung
unnervous - nervös
how insufficient the sprinkle of a few heat-drops to extinguish all the flames he had kindled!
sprinkle - bestreuen; sprühen; besprühen; Nieselregen
extinguish - löschen; auslöschen, abschalten
One evening, I cannot help remembering, that returning home from him, with a spirit he had raised in a circle his wand had proved too weak to lay, as I turned the corner of a street, I was overtaken by a young sailor, I was then in that spruce, neat, plain dress, which I ever affected and perhaps might have, in my trip, a certain air of restlessness unknown to the composure of cooler thoughts. However, he seized me as a prize, and without farther ceremony threw his arms round my neck, and kissed me boisterously and sweetly. I looked at him with a beginning of anger and indignation at his rudeness, that softened away into other sentiments as I viewed him: for he was tall, manly carriaged, handsome of body and face, so that I ended my stare, with asking him, in a tone turned to tenderness, what he meant; at which, with the same frankness and vivacity as he had begun with me, he proposed treating me with a glass of wine. Now, certain it is, that had I been in a calmer state of blood than I was, had I not been under the dominion of unappeased irritation; but I do not know how it was, my pressing calls, his figure, the occasion, and if you will, the powerful combination of all these, with a start of curiosity to see the end of an adventure, so novel too as being treated like a common street-plyer, made me give a silent consent; in short, it was not my head that I now obeyed, I suffered myself to be towed along as it were by this man-of-war, who took me under his arm as familialry as if he had known me all his lifetime, and led me into the next convenient tavern, where we were shown into a little room on one side of the passage. Here, scarce allowing himself patient till the drawer brought in the wine called for, he fell directly on board me: when, untucking my handkerchief, and giving me a snatching buss, he laid my breasts bare at once, which he handled with that keenness of gust that abridges a ceremonial evermore tiresome than pleasing on such pressing occasions; and now, hurrying towards the main point, we found no conveniency to our purpose, two or three disabled chairs, and a rickety table, composing the whole furniture of the room.
wand - Zauberstab; Stab
restlessness - Ruhelosigkeit, Unruhe
boisterously - ungestüm
rudeness - Grobheit, Unhöflichkeit, grobe Bemerkung, grobes Benehmen
carriaged - transportiert
unappeased - ungestillt
irritation - Ärger, Irritation, Verärgerung
plyer - (ply) Windung (Technik), Strähne, Kordlage
towed - abgeschleppt; Werg; abschleppen, schleppen
familialry - familiär
drawer - Zeichner, Schublade, Aussteller
buss - Bus; küssen
keenness - Eifer; Schärfe
abridges - verkürzt; verkürzen, kürzen, verkürzen
evermore - immer mehr
rickety - wackelig, wacklig, klapprig, gebrechlich, rachitisch
Without more ado, he plans me with my back standing against the wall, and my petticoats up; and coming out with a splitter indeed, made it shine, as he brandished it, in my eyes; and going to work with an impetuosity and eagerness, bred very likely by a long fast at seat, went to give me a taste of it. I straddled, I humoured my posture, and did my best in short to buckle to it; I took part of it in, but still things did not go to his thorough liking; changing them in a trice his system of battery, he leads me to the table and with a master-hand lays my head down on the edge of it, and, with the other canting up my petticoats and shift, bares my naked posteriors to his blind and furious guide; it forces its way between them, and I feeling pretty sensibly that it was not going by the right door, and knocking desperately at the wrong one, I told him of it:-"Pooh!" says he, "my dear, any port in a storm." Altering, however, directly his course, and lowering his point, he fixed it right, and driving it up with a delicious stiffness, made all foam again, and gave me the tout with such fire and spirit, that in the fine disposition I was in when I submitted to him and stirred up so fiercely as I was, I got the start of him, and went away into the melting swoon, and squeezing him, whilst in the convulsive grasp of it, drew from him such a plenteous bedewal, as pointed to my own effusion, perfectly floated those parts, and drowned in a deluge all my raging conflagration of desire.
splitter - Splitteinrichtung, Spaltkeil
brandished - gebrandmarkt; schwingen, schwenken, hantieren, führen
straddled - gegrätscht; grätschen, spreizen, breitbeinig stehen
buckle - zuschnallen; Delle, Schnalle, Spange
lowering - Senken; Abbau (von Kosten)
foam - Schaum; Schaumgummi; schäumen
tout - werben, aufdringlich ankündigen
plenteous - reichlich, voll
deluge - Überschwemmung; überschwemmen; starker Regenguss, Sintflut, Flut
conflagration - Feuersbrunst, Großbrand, Flächenbrand
When this was over, how to make my retreat was my concern; for, though I had been so extremely pleased with the difficult between this warm broadside, poured so briskly into me, and the tiresome pawing and toying to which I had owed the unappeased flames that had driven me into this step, now I was cooler, I began to apprehend the danger of contracting an acquaintance with this, however agreeable stranger; who, on his side, spoke of passing the evening with me and continuing our intimacy, with an air of determination that made me afraid of its being not so easy to get away from him as I could wish. In the mean time I carefully concealed my uneasiness, and readily pretended to consent to stay with him, telling him I should only step to my lodgings to leave a necessary direction, and then instantly return. This he very glibly swallowed, on the notion of my being one of those unhappy street-errants, who devote themselves to the pleasure of the first ruffian that will stoop to pick them up, and of course, that I would scarce bilk myself of the hire, by not returning make the most of the job.
broadside - Breitseite
pawing - betatschen; Tatze, Pfote, Pranke
apprehend - begreifen, verstehen, fangen, festnehmen
glibly - flüchtig; schlagfertige
errants - erranten; errant
ruffian - Grobian; Raubein
bilk - prellen
Thus he parted with me, not before, however, he had ordered in my hearing a supper, which I had the barbarity to disappoint him of my company too.
But when I got home, and told Mrs.
Cole my adventure, she represented so strongly to me the nature and dangerous consequences of my folly, particularly the risks to my health, in being so openlegged and free, that I not only took resolutions never to venture so rashly again, which I inviolably preserved, but passed a good many days in continual uneasiness, lest I should have met with other reasons, besides the pleasure of that rencounter, to remember it; but these fears wronged my pretty sailor, for which I gladly make him this reparation.
openlegged - mit offenen Beinen
rashly - voreilig; vorschnell
continual - fortlaufend
I had now lived with Mr.
Norbert near a quarter of a year, in which space I circulated my time very pleasantly, between my amusements at Mrs. Cole's, and a proper attendance on that gentleman, who paid me profusely for the unlimited complaisance with which I passively humoured every caprice of pleasure, and which had won upon him so greatly, that finding, as he said, all that variety in me alone, which he had sought for in a number of women, I had made him lose his taste for inconstancy, and new faces. But what was yet at least agreeable, as well as more nattering, the love I had inspired him with, bred a deference to me, that was of great service to his health: for having by degrees, and with much pathetic representations brought him to some husbandry of it, and to insure the duration of his pleasures by moderating their use, and correcting those excesses in them he was so addicted to, and which had shattered his constitution and destroyed his powers of life in the very point for which he seemed desirous to live, he was grown more delicate, more temperate, and in course more healthy; his gratitude for which was taking a turn very favourable for my fortune, when once more the caprice of it dashed the cup from my lips.
pleasantly - angenehme, angenehm
profusely - ausgiebig
unlimited - unbeschränkt, unbegrenzt
caprice - Launenhaftigkeit; Laune
inconstancy - Wankelmut; Unbeständigkeiten, Unbeständigkeit
nattering - Geplauder; plaudern
deference - Ehrerbietung, Respekt, Achtung
husbandry - Bewirtschaftung; Haltung, Landwirtschaft, Ackerbau und Viehzucht
insure - versichern
addicted - Süchtiger, Narkomane, süchtig machen
desirous - begehrt
temperate - gemäßigt; zurückhaltend
His sister, lady L..., for whom he had a great affection, desiring him to accompany her down to Bath for her health, he could not refuse her such a favour; and accordingly, though he counted on staying away from me no more than a week at farthest, he took his leave of me with an ominous heaviness of heart, and left me a sum far above the state of his fortune, and very inconsistent with the intended shortness of his journey; but it ended in the longest that can be, and is never but once taken: for, arrived at Bath, he was not there two days before he fell into a debauch of drinking with some gentlemen, that threw him into a high fever, and carried him off in four days'time, never once out of a delirium.
ominous - ominös
heaviness - Schwere
shortness - Knappheit; Kürze
Had he been in his senses to make a will, perhaps he might have made favourable mention of me in it. Thus, however, I lost him; and as no condition of life is more subject to revolutions than that of a woman of pleasure, I soon recovered my cheerfulness, and now beheld myself once more struck off the list of kept mistresses, and returned into the bosom of the community, from which I had been in some manner taken.
cheerfulness - Fröhlichkeit, Frohsinn, Freundlichkeit
Mrs. Cole still continued her friendship, and offered me her assistance and advice towards another choice; but I was now in ease and affluence enough to look about me at leisure; and as to any constitutional calls of pleasure, their pressure, or sensibility, was greatly lessened by a consciousness of the east with which they were to be satisfied at Mrs. Cole's house, where Louisa and Emily still continued in the old way; and my great favourite Harriet used often to come and see me, and entertain me, with her head and heart full of the happiness she enjoyed with her dear baronet, whom she loved with a tenderness and constancy, even though he was her keeper, and what is yet more, had made her independent, by a handsome provision for her and hers. I was then in this vacancy from any regular employ of my person in my way of business, when one day, Mrs. Cole, in the course of the constant confidence we lived in, acquainted me that there was one Mr. Barville, who used her house, just come to town, whom she was not a little perplexed about providing a suitable companion for; which was indeed a point of difficulty, as he was under the tyranny of a cruel taste: that of an ardent desire, not only of being unmercifully whipped himself, but of whipping others, in such sort, that though he paid extravagantly those who had the courage and complaisance to submit to his humour, there were few, delicate as he was in the choice of his subjects, who would exchange turns with him so terribly at the expense of their skin.
vacancy - Vakanz, freie Stelle, freies Zimmer, freier Platz
tyranny - Tyrannenherrschaft, Tyrannei
unmercifully - unbarmherzig
extravagantly - extravagant
But, what yet increased the oddity of this strange fancy was the gentleman being young; whereas it generally attacks, it seems, such as are, through age, obliged to have recourse to this experiment, for quickening the circulation of their sluggish juices, and determining a conflux of the spirits of pleasure towards those flagging shrivelly parts, that rise to life only by virtue of those titillating ardours created by the discipline of their opposites, with which they have so surprising a consent.
oddity - Kuriosität; Seltsamkeit
recourse - Regress, Rückgriff
quickening - Belebung; beschleunigend; (quicken) Belebung; beschleunigend
sluggish - träge; faul, schwach, inaktiv, lustlos
conflux - Zufluss
shrivelly - schrumpelig
This Mrs. Cole could not well acquaint me with, in any expectation of my offering for service: for, sufficiently easy as I was in my circumstances, it must have been the temptation of an immense interest indeed, that could have induced me to embrace such a job, neither had I ever expressed, nor indeed, felt the least impulse or curiosity to know more of a taste, that promised so much more pain than pleasure to those that stood in no need of such violent goads: what then should move me to subscribe myself voluntarily to a party of pain, foreknowing it such?
goads - anregt; Stachelstock, anstacheln, antreiben, anspornen
voluntarily - Freiwillig
foreknowing - vorhersehbar; voraussehen
Why, to tell the plain truth, it was a sudden caprice, a gust of fancy for trying a new experiment, mixed with the vanity of approving my personal courage to Mrs. Cole, that determined me, at all risks, to propose myself to her and relieve her from any farther lookout. Accordingly, I at once pleased and surprised her, with a frank and unreserved tender of my person to her and her friend's absolute disposal on this occasion.
lookout - Ausschau halten; Ausguck
frank - freimütig, offen
My good temporal mother was, however, so kind as to use all the arguments she could imagine to dissuade me: but, as I found they only turned on a motive of tenderness to me, I persisted in my resolution, and thereby acquitted my offer of any suspicion of its not having been sincerely made, or out of compliment only. Acquiescing then thankfully in it, Mrs. Cole assured me "that bating the pain I should be put to, she had no scruple to engage me to this party, which she assured me I should be liberally paid for, and which, the secrecy of the transaction preserved safe from the ridicule that otherwise vulgarly attended it; that for her part, she considered pleasure, of one sort or other, as the universal port of destination, and every wind that blew thither a good one, provided it blew nobody any harm; that she rather compassionated, than blamed those unhappy persons, who are under a subjection they cannot shake off, to those arbitrary tastes that rule their appetites of pleasures with an unaccountable control: tastes too, as infinitely diversified, as superior to, and independent of all reasoning as the different relishes or palates of mankind in their viands, some delicate stomach nauseating plain meats, and finding no savour but in highseasoned, luxurious dishes, whilst others again pique themselves upon detesting them.
temporal - zeitlich
dissuade - abschrecken; abbringen, abraten
sincerely - aufrichtig
Acquiescing - Einlenken; hinnehmen, einwilligen, dulden
ridicule - lächerlich machen; verhöhnen, verspotten; Spott
vulgarly - vulgär
port of destination - Ankunftshafen
compassionated - mitfühlend; mitleidig
diversified - diversifiziert; diversifizieren, variieren
relishes - Geschmacksrichtungen; Aroma
palates - Gaumen
nauseating - ekelerregend; verabscheuen
savour - schmecken; Geschmack; genießen, würdigen, recht genießen
highseasoned - hochgewürzt
detesting - verabscheuen
I stood now in no need of this preamble of encouragement, or justification: my word was given, and I was determined to fulfill my engagements. Accordingly the night was set, and I had all the necessary previous instructions how to act and conduct myself. The dining room was duly prepared and lighted up, and the young; gentleman posted there in waiting, for my introduction to him.
fulfill - erfüllen, einhalten
I was then, by Mrs. Cole, brought in, and presented to him, in a loose dishabille fitted, by her direction, to the exercise I was to go through, all in the finest linen and a thorough white uniform: gown, petticoat, stocking, and satin slippers, like a victim led to sacrifice; whilst my dark auburn hair, falling in drop-curls over my neck, created a pleasing distinction of colour from the rest of my dress.
slippers - Hausschuhe; Hausschuh, Latschen, Pantoffel, Patschen, Puschen
Auburn - Rotbraun, Kastanienbraun, rötlichbraun
As soon as Mr. Barville saw me, he got up, with a visible air of pleasure and surprise, and saluting me, asked Mrs. Cole, if so fine and delicate a creature would voluntarily submit to such sufferings and rigours, as were the subject of his assignation. She answered him properly, and now, reading in his eyes that she could not too soon leave us together, she went out, after recommending to him to use moderation with so tender a novice.
sufferings - leidend, Leiden
rigours - Härte, Strenge
assignation - Abtretung; Bestimmung, Anweisung, Verabredung
But whilst she was employing his attention, mine had been taken up with examining the figure and person of this unhappy young gentleman, who was thus unaccountably condemned to have his pleasure lashed into him, as boys have their learning.
unaccountably - unerklärlich
lashed - festgezurrt; Peitsche, Wimper; anbinden
He was exceedingly fair, and, smooth complexioned, and appeared to me no more than twenty at most, though he was three years older than what my conjectures gave him; but then he owed this favourable mistake to a habit of fatness, which spread through a short, squab stature; and a round, plump, fresh coloured face gave him greatly the look of a Bacchus, had not an air of austerity, not to say sternness, very unsuitable even to his shape of face, dashed that character of joy, necessary to complete the resemblance.
exceedingly - übermäßig; überaus, äußerst, außerordentlich, ungemein
complexioned - Teint, Gesichtsfarbe
squab - Jungvogel; Jungtaube, ungefiederte Jungtaube, Taubenküken
stature - Körpergröße, Statur
Bacchus - Bacchus
sternness - Strenge, Härte, Ernst, Strengheit
unsuitable - ungeeignet
His dress was extremely neat, but plain, and far inferior to the ample fortune he was in full possession of; this too was a taste in him, and not avarice.
ample - reichlich; groß, umfangreich, üppig
avarice - Geiz; Gier
After a competent preparation by apologies, and encouragement to go through my part with spirit and constancy, he stood up near the fire, whilst I went to fetch the instruments of discipline out of a closet hard by: these were several rods, made each of two or three strong twigs of birch tied together, which he took, handled, and viewed with as much pleasure, as I did with a kind of shuddering presage.
fetch - holen, einfangen, abrufen, apportieren
twigs - Zweige; Zweig
birch - Birke
shuddering - Schütteln; schaudernd; (shudder); Schauder; (wohliger) Schauder; schaudern; zittern
Stooping them to untie his garters, he gave them to me for the use of tying him down to the legs of the bench: a circumstance no farther necessary than, as I suppose, it made part of the humour of the thing, since he prescribed it to himself, amongst the rest of the ceremonial.
Untie - losbinden; losmachen; aufklären, auflösen, beschließen
I was however already so moved at the piteous sight, that I from my heart repented the undertaking, and would willing had given over, thinking he had full enough; but, he encouraging and beseeching me earnestly to proceed, I gave him ten more lashes; and then resting, surveyed the increase of bloody appearances. And at length, steeled to the height, by his stoutness in suffering, I continued the discipline, by intervals, till I observed him wreathing and twisting his body, in a way that I could plainly perceive was not the effect of pain, but of some new and powerful sensation: curious to dive into the meaning of which, in one of my pauses of intermission, I approached, as he still kept working, and grinding his belly against the cushion under him: and first stroking the untouched and unhurt side of the flesh-mount next me, then softly insinuating my hand under his thigh, felt the posture things were in forwards, which was indeed surprising: for that machine of him, which I had, by its appearance, taken for an impalpable, or at least a very diminutive subject, was now, in virtue of all that smart and havoc of his skin behind, grown not only to a prodigious stiffness of erection, but to a size that frighted even me: a non-pareil thickness indeed! the head of it alone filled the utmost capacity of my grasp.
piteous - Mitleid erregend, erbärmlich, herzzerreißend
lashes - Wimpern; Peitsche, Wimper; anbinden
stoutness - Beleibtheit; Beherztheit
intermission - Unterbrechung, Pause
cushion - Kissen; Puffer, Polster, Bande, polstern, abdämpfen, abfedern
unhurt - unverletzt
insinuating - angedeutet; andeuten, unterstellen, insinuieren, einschmeicheln
impalpable - ungreifbar
diminutive - winzig, diminutiv, verkleinernd, Diminutiv, Diminutivum
havoc - Zerstörung, Verwüstung, Chaos, Durcheinander
And when, as he heaved and wriggled to and fro, in the agitation of his strange pleasure, it came into view, it had something of the air of a round fillet of veal, and like its owner, squab, and short in proportion to its breadth; but when he felt my hand there, he begged I would go on briskly with my jerking, or he should never arrive at the last stage of pleasure.
heaved - geworfen; heben, hieven, werfen, wuchten, schleudern
wriggled - gezappelt; sich winden, schlängeln
fillet - Filet; Haarband, Haargummi, Stirnband, Streifen
veal - Kalbfleisch
jerking - Ruckeln; stoßweise, zusammenzuckend
Then I plainly perceived, on the cushion, the marks of a plenteous effusion, and already had his sluggard member run up to its old nestling-place, and enforced itself again, as if ashamed to shew its head; which nothing, it seems, could raise but stripes inflicted on its opposite neighbours, who were thus constantly obliged to suffer for his caprice.
sluggard - Faulpelz, Nichtstuer
nestling - kuschelnd, Nesthäkchen
stripes - gestreift; Streifen
My gentleman had now put on his clothes and recomposed himself, when giving me a kiss, and placing me by him, he sat himself down as gingerly as possible, with one side off the cushion, which was too sore for him to bear resting any part of his weight on.
recomposed - neu zusammengesetzt; wieder zusammen setzen, zusammensetzen
gingerly - behutsam, sanft, vorsichtig, zimperlich
Here he thanked me for the extreme pleasure I had procured him, and seeing, perhaps, some marks in my countenance of terror and apprehension of retaliation on my own skin, for what I had been the instrument of his suffering in his, he assured me, "he was ready to give up to me any engagement I might deem myself under to stand him, as he had done me, but that if I proceeding in my consent to it, he would consider the difference of my sex, its greater delicacy and incapacity to undergo pain.
incapacity - Unfähigkeit
Reheartened at which, and piqued in honour, as I thought, not to flinch so near the trial, especially as I well knew Mrs. Cole was an eye-witness, from her stand of espial, to the whole of our transaction, I was now less afraid of my skin, than of his not furnishing me with an opportunity of signalizing my resolution.
flinch - zusammenzucken; zurückweichen
furnishing - einrichten; Einrichtungsgegenstände
signalizing - signalisieren, auszeichnen, ankündigen
Consonant to this disposition was my answer, but my courage was still more in my head, than in my heart; and as cowards rush into danger they fear, in order to be the sooner rid of the pain of that sensation, I was entirely pleased with his hastening matters into execution.
Consonant - Konsonant, Mitlaut, konsonantisch
cowards - Feiglinge; Feigling, qualifier
He had then little to do, but to unloose the strings of my petticoats, and lift them, together with my shift, navel-high, where he just tucked them up loosely, and might be slipt up higher at pleasure. Then viewing me round with great seeming delight, he laid me at length on my face upon the bench, and when I expected he would tie me, as I had done him, and held out my hands, not without fear and a little trembling, he told me, "he would by no means terrify me unnecessarily with such a confinement; for that though he meant to put my constancy to a trial, the standing it was to be completely voluntary on my side, and therefore I might be at full liberty to get up whenever I found the pain too much for me.
unloose - loslassen; losmachen
unnecessarily - unnötigerweise
You cannot imagine how much I thought myself bound, by being thus allowed to remain loose, and how much spirit this confidence in me gave me, so that I was even from my heart careless how much my flesh might suffer in honour of it.
All my back parts, naked half way up, were now fully at his mercy: and first, he stood at a convenient distance, delighting himself with a gloating survey of the attitude I lay in, and of all the secret stores I thus exposed to him in fair display. Then, springing eagerly towards me, he covered all those naked parts with a fond profusion of kisses; and now, taking hold of the rod, rather wantoned with me, in gentle inflictions on those tender trembling masses of my flesh behind, than in any way hurt them, till by degrees, he began to tingle them with smarter lashes, so as to provoke a red colour into them, which I knew, as well by the flagrant glow I felt there, as by his telling me, they now emulated the native roses of my other cheeks. When he had thus amused himself with admiring, and toying with them, he went on to strike harder, and more hard, so that I needed all my patience not to cry out, or complain at least. At last, he twigged me so smartly as to fetch blood in more than one lash: at sight of which he flung down the rod, flew to me, kissed away the starting drops, and sucking the wounds eased a good deal of my pain. But now raising me on my knees, and making me kneel with them straddling wide, that tender part of me, naturally the province of pleasure, not of pain, came in for its share of suffering: for now, eyeing it wistfully, he directed the rod so that the sharp ends of the twigs lighted there, so sensibly, that I could not help wincing, and writhing my limbs with smart; so that my contortions of body must necessarily throw it into infinite variety of postures and points of view, fit to feast the luxury of the eye.
gloating - schadenfroh; hämisch freuen, sich weiden, sich diebisch freuen
inflictions - Zufügungen; Zufügung
tingle - kribbeln, prickeln, Prickeln
roses - Rosen; Rosa
twigged - verzweigt; Zweig
smartly - klug; schlau, elegant
lash - Peitsche, Wimper; anbinden
at sight - bei Vorlage
kneel - knien
wistfully - wehmütig
wincing - (wince) zurückschrecken, zusammenzucken
writhing - sich winden; gekrümmt; (writhe); winden, krümmen
infinite - unendlich, endlos, unzählige
postures - Haltungen; Haltung
But still I bore every thing without crying out: when presently giving me another pause, he rushed, as it were, on that part whose lips, and round about, had felt this cruelty, and by way of reparation, glued his own to them; then he opened, shut, squeezed them, plucked softly the overgrowing moss, and all this in a style of wild passionate rapture and enthusiasm, that expressed excess of pleasure; till betaking himself to the rod again, encouraged by my passiveness, and infuriated with this strange taste of delight, he made my poor posteriors pay for the ungovernableness of it; for now showing them no quarter, the traitor cut me so, that I wanted but little of fainting away, when he gave over. And yet I did not utter one groan, or angry expostulation; but in my heart I resolved nothing so seriously, as never to expose myself again to the like severities.
plucked - gerupft; pflücken, abrupfen, zupfen, schlagen, rupfen, ausrupfen
overgrowing - überwuchern
betaking - aufgeben; begeben sich
ungovernableness - Unregierbarkeit
traitor - Verräter, Verräterin, Vaterlandsverräter, Vaterlandsverräterin
severities - Schweregrade; Härte, Stärke, Gewichtung
You may guess then in what a curious pickle those soft flesh-cushions of mine were, all so red, raw, and in fine, terribly clawed off; but so far from feeling any pleasure in it, that the recent smart made me pout a little, and not with the greatest air of satisfaction receive the compliments, and after-caresses of the author of my pain.
pickle - einlegen; Essiggurke, Metallbeize; beizen
cushions - Kissen
clawed - zerkratzt; zerkratzen; Kralle, Fang (Vogelkralle), Klaue
As soon as my clothes were huddled on in a little decency, a supper was brought in by the discreet Mrs.
Cole herself, which might have piqued the sensuality of a cardinal, accompanied with a choice of the richest wines: all which she set before us, and went out again, without having, by a word or even by a smile, given us the least interruption or confusion, in those moments of secrecy, that we were not yet ripe to the admission of a third too.
I sat down then, still scarce in charity with my butcher, for such I could not help considering him, and was moreover not a little piqued at the gay, satisfied air of his countenance, which I thought myself insulted by.
butcher - niedermetzeln, niedermachen; Metzger, Schlächter
But when the now necessary refreshment to me of a glass of wine, and a little eating (all the time observing a profound silence) had somewhat cheered and restored me to spirits, and as the smart began to go off, my good humour returned accordingly: which alteration not escaping him, he said and did every thing that could confirm me in, and indeed exalt it.
alteration - Abänderung; Änderung, Veränderung
But scarce was supper well over, before a change so incredible was wrought in me, such violent, yet pleasingly irksome sensations took possession of me that I scarce knew how to contain myself; the smart of the lashes was now converted into such a prickly heat, such fiery tinglings, as made me sigh, squeeze my thighs together, shift and wriggle about my seat, with a furious restlessness; whilst these itching ardours, thus excited in those parts on which the storm of discipline had principally fallen, detached legions of burning, subtile, stimulating spirits, to their opposite spot and centre of assemblage, where their titillation raged so furiously, that I was even stinging made with them.
prickly - stachelig, dornig, Stachel
tinglings - Kribbeln
wriggle - sich winden, schlängeln
principally - grundsätzlich, im Prinzip, hauptsächlich
detached - losgelöst; entfernen, ablösen, lösen, loslösen, abtrennen
legions - Legionen; Legion, Legion
subtile - subtil
stinging - stechend; (sting) Stachel, brennender Schmerz
No wonder then that in such a taking, and devoured by flames that licked up all modesty and reserve, my eyes, now charged brimful of the most intense desire, fired on my companion very intelligible signal of distress: my companion, I say, who grew in them every instant more amiable, and more necessary to my urgent wishes and hopes of immediate ease.
licked - geleckt; schlecken, lecken; flitzen
brimful - randvoll; voll, übervoll
intelligible - Verständlich
more necessary - notwendigere
Mr. Barville, no stranger, by experience, to these situations, soon knew the pass I was brought to soon perceived my extreme disorder; in favour of which, removing the table out of the way, he began a prelude that flattered me with instant relief, to which I was not, however, so near as I imagined: for as he was unbuttoned to me, and tried to provoke and rouse to action his unactive torpid machine, he blushingly owned that no good was to be expected from it, unless I took it in hand to re-excite its languid loitering powers, by just refreshing the smart of the yet recent blood-raw cuts, seeing it could, no more than a boy's top, keep up without lashing. Sensible then that I should work as much for my own profit as his, I hurried my compliance with his desire, and abridging the ceremonial, whilst he leaned his head against the back of a chair, I had scarce gently made him feel the lash, before I saw the object of my wishes give signs of life, and presently, as it were with a magic touch, is started up into a noble size and distinction indeed. Hastening then to give me the benefit of it, he threw me down on the bench; but such was the refreshed soreness of those parts behind, on my leaning so hard on them, as became me to compass the admission of that stupendous head of his machine, that I could not possibly bear it. I got up then, and tried, by leaning forwards, and turning the crupper on my assailant, to let him at the back avenue: but here it was likewise impossible to stand his bearing so fiercely against me, in his agitations and endeavours to enter that way, whilst his belly battered directly against the recent sore. What should we do now? both intolerably heated: both in a fury; but pleasure is ever inventive for its own ends: he strips me in a trice stark naked, and placing a broad settee-cushion on the carpet before the fire, oversets me gently, topsy turvy, on it; and handling me only at the waist, whilst you may be sure I favoured all my dispositions, brought my legs round his neck; so that my head was kept from the floor only by my hands and the velvet cushion, which was now bespread with my flowing hair: thus I stood on my head and hands, supported by him in such manner, that whilst my thighs clung round him, so as to expose to his sight all my back figure, including the theatre of his bloody pleasure, the centre of my fore pair fairly bearded the ob-jest of its rage, that now stood in fine condition to give me satisfaction for the injuries of its neighbours.
rouse - aufrütteln; wachrufen, wecken
unactive - nicht aktiv
torpid - betäubt
blushingly - errötend
loitering - Herumlungern; trödelnd; (loiter); rumlungern, rumhängen
refreshing - erfrischend; erfrischen, erquicken, auffrischen, aktualisieren
lashing - Tauwerk, peitschend, Geißelung; (lash) Tauwerk, peitschend
abridging - Verkürzung; verkürzen, kürzen, verkürzen
soreness - Wunden; Schmerz, Wundsein
stupendous - überwältigend
crupper - Schweifriemen, Schwanzriemen
assailant - Angreifer
intolerably - unerträglich
inventive - erfinderisch
bearded - bärtig; Bart, Alibifreundin
But as this posture was certainly not the easiest, and our imaginations, wound up to the height, could suffer no delay, he first, with the utmost eagerness and effort, just lip-lodged that broad acorn-fashioned head of his instrument; and still befriended by the fury with which he had made that impression, he soon stuffed in the rest; when now, with a pursuit of thrusts, fiercely urged, he absolutely overpowered and absorbed all sense of pain and uneasiness, whether from my wounds behind, my most untoward posture, or the oversize of his stretcher, in an infinitely predominant delight; when now all my whole spirits of life and sensation rushing, impetuously to the cock-pit, where the prize of pleasure was hotly in dispute and clustering to a point there, I soon received the dear relief of nature from these over-violent strains and provocations of it; harmonizing with which, my gallant spouted into me such a potent overflow of the balsamic injection, as softened and unedged all those irritating stings of a new species of titillation, which I had been so intolerably maddened with, and restored the ferment of my senses to some degree of composure.
acorn - Eichel
befriended - befreundet; behilflich sein, freundlich sein
oversize - Übergröße; Ăśbergröße, übergroß, überdimensional
predominant - vorherrschend
impetuously - ungestüm
harmonizing - harmonieren, harmonieren, harmonisieren, harmonisieren
spouted - gespuckt; Tülle, Ausguss, Schnabel, Auslauf, Schnaupe, Schnauze
potent - Potente
overflow - überfließen, überlaufen, checküberfluten, überströmen
ferment - gären; stören, anstacheln, Gärmittel
I had now achieved this rare adventure ultimately much more to my satisfaction than I had bespoken the nature of it to turn out; nor was it much lessened, you may think, by spark's lavish praises of my constancy and complaisance, which he gave weight to by a present that greatly surpassed my utmost expectation, besides his gratification to Mrs. Cole.
bespoken - besprechen, diskutieren, mitteilen, vorbestellen, arrangieren
I was not, however, at any time re-enticed to renew with him, or resort again to the violent expedient of lashing nature into More haste than good speed: which, by the way, I conceive acts somewhat in the manner of a dose of Spanish flies; with more pain perhaps, but less danger; and might be necessary to him, but was nothing less so than to me, whose appetite wanted the bridle more than the spur.
enticed - angelockt; locken, verführen
More haste - Eile mit Weile
Spanish - spanisch; Spanisch; Spanier
Mrs. Cole, to whom this adventurous exploit had more and more endeared me, looked on me now as a girl after her own heart, afraid of nothing, and, on a good account, hardly enough to fight all the weapons of pleasure through.
adventurous - abenteuerlich
Attentive then, in consequence of these favourable conceptions, to promote either my profit or pleasure, she had special regard for the first, in a new gallant of a very singular turn, that she procured for and introduced to me.
attentive - Aufmerksam
Another peculiarity of taste he had, which was to present me with a dozen pairs of the whitest kid gloves at a time: these he would divert himself with drawing on me, and then biting off their finger ends; all which fooleries of a silly appetite, the old gentleman paid more liberally for, than most others did for more essential favours.
peculiarity - Singularität, Einzigartigkeit, Besonderheit
biting off - abbeißend
more essential - wesentlichere
This lasted till a violent cough, seizing and laying him up, delivered me from this most innocent and insipid trifler, for I never heard more of him after his first retreat.
cough - husten; Husten
most innocent - unschuldigste
trifler - Tändler
You may be sure a by-jod of this sort interfered with no other pursuit, or plan of life; which I led, in truth, with a modesty and reserve that was less the work of virtue than of exhausted novelty, a glut of pleasure, and easy circumstances, that made me indifferent to any engagements in which pleasure and profit were not eminently united; and such I could, with the less impatience, wait for at the hands of time and fortune, as I was satisfied I could never mend my pennyworths, having evidently been served at the top of the market, and even been pampered with dainties: besides that, in the sacrifice of a few momentary impulses, I found a secret satisfaction in respecting myself, as well as preserving the life and freshness of my complexion.
glut - Schwemme, Überfluss, Überschuss, auffüllen, sättigen
eminently - eminent
pennyworths - Pfennigbeträge; Pennyworth
evidently - offensichtlich
pampered - verhätschelt; verwöhnen, hätscheln
dainties - Leckereien; Delikatesse, fein, delikat, zart, zierlich
impulses - Impulsen; Impuls, Triebkraft, Drang, innerer Antrieb, Kraftstoß
Louisa and Emily did not carry indeed their reserve so high as I did; but still they were far from cheap or abandoned, though two of their adventures seemed to contradict this general character, which, for their singularity, I shall give you in course, beginning first with Emily's:
Singularity - Eigenheit; Singularität
Louisa and she went one night to a ball, the first in the habit of a shepherdess, Emily in that of a shepherd: I saw them in their dresses before they went, and nothing in nature could represent a prettier boy than this last did, being so fair and well limbed. They had kept together for some time, when Louisa, meeting an old acquaintance of hers, very cordially gives her companion the slip, and leaves her under the protection of her boy's habit, which was not much, and of her discretion, which was, it seems, still less. Emily, finding herself deserted, sauntered thoughtless about a while, and, as much for coolness and air as any thing else, at length pulled off her mask and went to the sideboard; where, eyed and marked out by a gentleman in a very handsome domino, she was accosted by, and fell into chat with him. The domino, after a little discourse, in which Emily doubtless distinguished her good nature and easiness more than her wit, began to make violent love to her, and drawing her insensibly to some benches at the lower end of the masquerade room, got her to sit by him, where he squeezed her hands, pinched her cheeks, praised and played with her fine hair, admired her complexion, and all in a style of courtship dashed with a certain oddity, that not comprehending the mystery of, poor Emily attributed to his falling in with the humour of her disguise; and being naturally not the cruellest of her profession, began to incline to a parley on those essentials. But here was the stress of the joke: he took her really for what she appeared to be, a smock-faced boy; and she, forgetting her dress, and of course ranging quite wide of his ideas, took all those address to be paid to herself as a woman, which she precisely owed to his not thinking her one. However, this double error was pushed to such a height on both sides, that Emily, who saw nothing in him but a gentleman of distinction by those points of dress to which his disguise did not extend, warmed too by the wine he had plyed her with, and the caresses he had lavished upon her, suffered herself to be persuaded to go to a bagnio with him; and thus, losing sight of Mrs. Cole's cautions, with a blind confidence, put herself into his hands, to be carried wherever he pleased. For his part, equally blinded by his wishes, whilst here gregious simplicity favoured his deception more than the most exquisite art could have done, he supposed, no doubt, that he had lighted on some soft simpleton, fit for his; purpose, or some kept minion broken to his hand, who understood him perfectly well, and entered into his designs.
shepherdess - Hirtin, Schäferin, Schafhirtin
cordially - herzlich
sauntered - schlenderte; erman: müßig umherschlendern
sideboard - Anrichte, Sideboard, Büfett
domino - Domino, Dominostein, Dominospiel
accosted - belästigt; ansprechen
insensibly to - gleichgültig gegen
masquerade - Maskenspiel, Maskerade
pinched - eingeklemmt; kneifen
comprehending - umfassen, verstehen, begreifen, erfassen, einsehen
parley - Unterredung, Verhandlungsgespräch
smock - Kittel
plyed - verlagert
blind confidence - Vertrauensseligkeit
gregious - gefräßig
But, be that as it would, he led her to a coach, went into it with her, and brought her to a very handsome apartment, with a bed in it; but whether it was a bagnio or not, she could not tell, having spoken to nobody but himself. But when they were alone together, and her inamorato began to proceed to those extremities which instantly discover the sex, she remarked, that no description could paint up to the life, the mixture of pique, confusion and disappointment, that appeared in his countenance, joined to the mournful exclamation: "By heavens, a woman!" This at once opened her eyes, which had been shut in downright stupidity. However, as if he had meant to retrieve that escape, he still continued to toy with and fondle her, but with so staring an alteration from extreme warmth into a chill and forced civility, that even Emily herself could not but take notice of it, and now began to wish she had paid more regard to Mrs. Cole's premonitions against ever engaging with a stranger. And now an excess of timidity succeeded to an excess of confidence, and she thought herself so much at his mercy and discretion, that she stood passive throughout the whole progress of his prelude: for now, whether the impressions of so great a beauty had even made him forgive her sex, or whether her appearance or figure in that dress still humoured his first illusion, he recovered by degrees a good part of his first warmth, and keeping Emily with her breeches still unbuttoned, stript them down to her knees, and gently impelling her to lean down, with her face against the bed-side, placed her so, that the double way, between the double rising behind, presented the choice fair to him, and he was so fairly set on a mis-direction, as to give the girl no small alarms for fear of losing a maidenhead she had not dreamt of. However, her complaints, and a resistance, gentle, but firm, checked and brought him to himself again; so that turning his steed's head, he drove him at length in the right road, in which his imagination having probably made the most of those resemblances that flattered his taste, he got, with much ado, to his journey's end: after which, he led her out himself, and walking with her two or three streets length, got her a chair, when making her a present not any thing inferior to what she could have expected, he left her, well recommended to the chairmen, who, on her directions, brought her home.
inamorato - Geliebte, Geliebter
mournful - schwermütig; traurig, melancholisch, trübsinnig
downright - ehrlich; geradezu
fondle - streicheln; liebkosen
chill - chillen; Mutlosigkeit, Frostgefühl
civility - Anstand, Höflichkeit, Verbindlichkeit
impelling - antreibend, treibend; (impel); antreiben, vorantreiben, nötigen
Mis - (miss) Frl. Fräulein; (MI) (miss) Frl. Fräulein
steed - ein Pferd; erman: Ross (see also Stute )
resemblances - Ähnlichkeiten; Ähnlichkeit
This she related to Mrs. Cole and me the same morning, not without the visible remains of the fear and confusion she had been in, still stamped on her countenance. Mrs. Cole's remark was, that her indiscretion proceeding from a constitutional facility, there were little hopes of any thing curing her of it, but repeated severe experience. Mine was, that I could not conceive how it was possible for mankind to run into a taste, not only universally odious, but absurd, and impossible to gratify; since, according to the notions and experience I had of things, it was not in nature to force such immense disproportions. Mrs.
disproportions - Unverhältnismäßigkeiten; Missverhältnis
Cole only smiled at my ignorance, and said nothing towards my undeception, which was not affected but by ocular demonstration, some months after, which a most singular accident furnished me, and which I will here set down, that I may not return again to so disagreeable a subject.
ocular - okulär; Auge
I had, on a visit intended to Harriet, who had taken lodgings at Hampton-court, hired a chariot to go out thither, Mrs. Cole having, promised to accompany me; but some indispensable business intervening, to detain her, I was obliged to set out alone; and scarce had I got a third of my way, before the axle-tree broke down, and I was well off to get out, safe and unhurt, into a public-house, of a tolerable handsome appearance, on the road.
axle - Achse, Welle, Radachse
Here the people told me that the stage would come by in a couple of hours at farthest, upon; which, determining to wait for it, sooner than lose the jaunt I had got so far forward on, I was carried into a very clean decent room, up one pair of stairs, which I took possession of for the time I had to stay, in right of calling for sufficient to do the house justice.
jaunt - Ausflugsfahrt; Ausflug, Vergnügungsfahrt, Spritztour
Here, whilst I was amusing myself with looking out of the window, a single horse-chaise stopt at the door, out of which lightly leaped two young'gentlemen, for so they seemed, who came in only as it were to bait and refresh a little, for they gave their horse to be held!
refresh - erfrischen, erquicken, auffrischen, aktualisieren, neu laden
in readiness against they came out. And presently I heard the door of the next room, where they were let in, and called about them briskly; and as soon as they were served, I could just hear that they shut and fastened the door on the inside.
readiness - Bereitschaft
A spirit of curiosity, far from sudden, since I do not know when I was without it, prompted me, without any particular suspicion, or other drift or view, to see what they were, and examine their persons and behaviour. The partition of our rooms was one of those moveable ones that, when taken down, served occasionally to lay them into one, for the conveniency of as larger company; and now, my nicest search could not shew me the shadow of a peep-hole, a circumstance which probably had not escaped the review of the parties on the other side, whom much it stood upon not to be deceived in it; but at length I observed a paper patch of the same colour as the wainscot, which I took to conceal some flaw; but then it was so high, that I was obliged to stand upon a chair to reach it, which I did as soft as possible, and, with a point of a bodkin, soon pierced it, and opened myself espial room sufficient.
moveable - beweglich
be deceived - sich täuschen lassen, sich irren (in)
wainscot - Vertäfelung; verkleiden
And now, applying my eye close, I commanded the room perfectly, and could see my two young sparks romping and pulling one another about, entirely, to my imagination, in frolic and innocent play.
romping - raufen, Balgerei, Tollerei, Toben
The eldes might be, on my nearest guess, towards nineteen, a tall comely young man, in a white fustian frock, with a green velvet cape, and cut bob-wig.
fustian - Barchent
Cape - Umhang, Kap
Bob - Troddel; tanzen (Boot); Bob (Frisur)
wig - Perücke
The youngest could not be above seventeen, fair, ruddy, completely well made, and to say the truth, a sweet pretty stripling: he was too, I fancy, a country lad, by his dress, which was a green plush frock, and breeches of the same, white waistcoat and stockings, a jockey cap, with his fellowish hair, long and loose, in natural curls.
plush - Plüsch
jockey - Jockey
fellowish - kameradschaftlich
But after a look of circumspection, which I saw the eldest cast every way round the room, probably in too much hurry and heat not to overlook the very small opening I was posted at, especially at the height it was, whilst my eye close to it kept the light from shining through and betraying it, he said something to his companion that presently changed the face of things.
circumspection - Vorsichtsmaßnahmen; Umsicht
shining through - durchleuchtend
For now the elder began to embrace, to press and kiss the younger, to put his hands into his bosom, and give him such manifest signs of an amorous intention, as made me conclude the other to be a girl in disguise: a mistake that nature kept me in countenance for, for she had certainly made one, when she gave him the made stamp.
In the rashness then of their age, and bent as they were to accomplish their project of preposterous pleasure, at the risk of the very worst of consequences, where a discovery was nothing less than improbable, they now proceeded to such lengths as soon satisfied me what they were.
rashness - Unbesonnenheit; Hast
preposterous - lächerlich
improbable - unwahrscheinlich
For presently the eldest unbuttoned the other's breeches, and removing the linen barrier, brought out to view a white shaft, middle sized, and scarce fledged, when after handling and playing with it a little, with other dalliance, all received by the boy without other opposition than certain wayward coyness, ten times-more alluring than repulsive, he got him so turned round, with his face from him, to a chair that stood hard by; when knowing, I suppose, his office, the Ganymede now obsequiously leaned his head against the back of it, and projecting his body, made a fair mark, still covered with his shirt.
wayward - eigenwillig, eigensinnig, launisch, widerspenstig
coyness - Schüchternheit; Scheuheit
alluring - verführerisch; verlocken
repulsive - abstoßend
Ganymede - Ganymed, Ganymed
obsequiously - unterwürfig
As he thus stood in a side view to me, but fronting his companion, who, presently unmasking his battery, produced an engine that certainly deserved to be put to a better use, and very fit to confirm me in my disbelief of the possibility of things; being pushed to odious extremities, which I had built on the disproportion of parts; but this disbelief I was now cured of, as by my consent all young men should likewise be, that their innocence may not be betrayed into such snares, for want of knowing the extent of their danger: for nothing is more certain than that ignorance of advice is by no means a guard against it.
unmasking - Demaskierung; entlarven
disbelief - Unglauben; Unglaube
disproportion - Unverhältnismäßigkeit; Missverhältnis
snares - Fallen; Schlinge, Falle
Slipping, then, aside the young lad's shirt, and tucking it up under his clothes behind, he shewed to the open air those globular fleshy eminences that compose the Mount Peasants of Rome, and which now, with all the narrow vale that intersects them, stood displayed and exposed to his attack; nor could I without a shudder behold the dispositions he made for it.
tucking - zurückstreifen, einklemmen; Bundfalte
Rome - Rom
intersects - überschneidet; erman: sich schneiden, erman: sich schneiden
First, then, moistening well with spittle his instrument, obviously to make it glib, he pointed, he introduced it, as I could plainly discern, not only from its direction and my losing sight of it, but by the writhing, twisting and soft murmured complaints of the young sufferer; but at length, the first straits of entrance being pretty well go through, every thing seemed to move and go pretty currently on, as on a carpet road, without much rub or resistance; and now, passing one hand round his minions'hips, he got hold of his red-topped ivory toy, that stood perfectly stiff, and shewed, that if he was like his mother behind, he was like his father before; this he diverted himself with, whilst, with the other he wantoned with his hair, and leaning forward over his back, drew his face, from which the boy shook the loose curls that fell over it, in the posture he stood him in, and brought him towards his, so as to receive a long breathed kiss; after which, renewing his driving, and thus continuing to harass his rear, the height of the fist came on with its usual symptoms, and dismissed the action.
moistening - Befeuchtung; anfeuchten, befeuchten, feucht werden
discern - erkennen, wahrnehmen, bemerken, feststellen
sufferer - leidet; Leider
straits - die Meerenge; Meerenge, Enge, Straße
hand round - herumreichen
minions - Ergebener, Untergebener, Lakai, Günstling, Kolonel, Colonel
harass - belästigen; quälen, verfolgen
The criminal scene they acted, I had the patience to see to an end, purely that I might gather more facts and certainty against them in my design to do their deserts instant justice; and accordingly, when they had re-adjusted themselves; and were preparing to go out, burning as I was with rage and indignation, I jumped down from the chair, in order to raise the house upon them, but with such an unlucky impetuosity, that some nail or ruggedness in the floor caught my foot, and flung me on my face with such violence, that I fell senseless on the ground, and lay there some time before any one came to my relief: so that they, alarmed, I suppose, by the noise of my fall, had more than the necessary time to make a safe retreat.
unlucky - Pech gehabt; unglücklich; unglückbringend; ''usually expressed verbally:'' es bringen
ruggedness - Schroffheit; Unempfindlichkeit
This they effected, as I learnt, with a precipitation nobody could account for, until, when come to myself, and composed enough to speak, I acquainted those of the house with the whole transaction I had been evidence to.
precipitation - Niederschlag; Präzipitation
When I came home again, and told Mrs. Cole this adventure, she very sensibly observed to me, that "there was no doubt of the due vengeance one time or other overtaking these miscreants, however they might escape for the present; and that, had I been the temporal instrument of it, I should have been put to a great deal more trouble and confusion than I imagined; that, as to the thing itself, the less said of it was the better; but that though she might be suspected of partiality, from its being the common cause of womankind, out of whose mouths this practice tended to take something more than bread, yet she protested against any mixture of passion, with a declaration extorted from her by pure regard to truth; which was, that whatever effect this infamous passion had in other ages and other countries, it seemed a peculiar blessing on our air and climate, that there was a plaguespot visibly imprinted on all that are tainted with it, in this nation at least, for that among numbers of that stamp whom she had known, or at least were universally under the scandalous suspicion of it, she would not name an exception hardly to one of them, whose character was not, in all other respects, the most worthless and despicable that could be; stript of all the manly virtues of their own sex, and filled up with only the worst vices and follies of ours; that, in fine, they were scarce less execrable than ridiculous in their monstrous inconsistence, of loathing and contemning women, and at the same time apeing all their manners, airs, lisps, scuttle, and, in general, all their little modes of affectation, which become them at least better, than they do these unsexed, male misses.
overtaking - überholen, aufholen, überholen
miscreants - Bösewichte; gewissenloser Mensch, Übeltäter, Schurke
partiality - Parteilichkeit, Befangenheit
womankind - Frauenzimmer; weibliches Geschlecht, Frauenwelt
extorted - erpresst; erpressen, erzwingen
plaguespot - Seuchenherd
tainted - verunreinigt; verderben
execrable - abscheulich
inconsistence - Inkonsistenz; Widerspruch
loathing - Hass, Ekel, Abscheu; (loathe); verabscheuen, ablehnen, hassen
contemning - nachdenklich; verachten
apeing - nachäffen
lisps - lispelt; Lispelei, lispeln, zuzeln
scuttle - versenken; ruinieren; Lüftungsblech (am Auto)
But here, washing my hands of them, I re-plunge into the stream of my history, which I may very properly ingraft a terrible sally of Louisa's, since I had some share in it myself, and have besides engaged myself to relate it, in point of countenance to poor Emily.
ingraft - einpfropfen
It will add, too, one more example to thousands, in confirmation of the maxim, that women get once out of compass, there are no lengths of licentiousness, that they are not capable of running.
One morning then, that both Mrs.
Cole and Emily were gone out for the day, and only Louisa and I (not to mention the house-maid) were left in charge of the house, whilst we were loitering away the time, in looking through the shop windows, the son of a poor woman, who earned very hard bread indeed by mending of stockings, in a stall in the neighbourhood, offered us some nosegays, ranged round a small basket; by selling of which the poor boy eked out his mother's maintenance of them both: nor was he fit for any other way of livelihood, since he was not only a perfect changeling, or idiot, but stammered so that there was no understanding even those sounds his half-dozen animals ideas, at most, prompted him to utter.
shop windows - Schaufenster
mending - Ausbessern; instandsetzend, reparierend
nosegays - Nasenstüber; Biedermeiersträußchen
Eked - ergänzen
livelihood - Lebensunterhalt, Lebensgrundlage, Auskommen, Existenzgrundlage
changeling - Dickkopf, Kielkropf, Wechselbalg, Wechselkind
stammered - gestottert; stammeln, stottern, Stottern
Louisa, at this, says: "Well, my lad, come up stairs with me, and I will give you your due," winking at the same time to me, and beckoning me to accompany her, which I did, securing first the street-door, that by this means, together with the shop, became wholly the care of the faithful house-maid.
winking - (wink) (mit einem) Augenzwinkern; (wink) (wink) (mit einem) Augenzwinkern
beckoning - heranwinken, herbeiwinken, winken, zuwinken, einladen
Consequently, soon as we came into Louisa's bed-chamber, whilst she was amusing him with picking out his nosegays, I undertook the lead, and began the attack. As it was not then very material to keep much measures with a mere natural, I made presently free with him, though at my first motion of meddling, his surprise and confusion made him receive my advances but awkwardly: nay, insomuch that he bashfully shied, and shied back a little; till encouraging him with my eyes, plucking him playfully by the hair, sleeking his cheeks, and forwarding my point by a number of little wantonnesses, I soon turned him familiar, and gave nature her sweetest alarm: so that aroused, and beginning to feel himself, we could, amidst all the innocent laugh and grin I had provoked him into, perceive the fire lighting in his eyes, and, diffusing over his cheeks, blend its glow with that of his blushes.
meddling - Einmischung; einmischen
bashfully - verschämte, schüchtern
plucking - pflücken, abrupfen, zupfen, schlagen, rupfen, ausrupfen
playfully - spielerisch
sleeking - glättend; (sleek); glatt; q
wantonnesses - Willkür; Ausgelassenheit, Unbeherrschtheit
aroused - erregt; reizen, aufreizen, anregen, erregen, entfachen
diffusing - verbreiten, diffundieren, sich vermischen; diffus (Licht)
The emotion in short of animal pleasure glared distinctly in the simpleton's countenance; yet struck with the novelty of the scene, he did not know which way to look or move; but tame, passive, simpering, with his mouth half open, in stupid rapture, stood and tractably suffered me to do what I pleased with him. His basket was dropt out of his hands, which Louisa took care of.
glared - geblendet; Blendung, entrüstetes Starren
simpering - Lächerlich machen; verschmitzt lachen
half open - halboffen
tractably - lenkbar, lenksame
I had now, through more than one rent, discovered and felt his thighs, the skin of which seemed the smoother and fairer for the coarseness, and even the dirt of his dress, as the teeth of negroes seem the whiter for the surrounded black; and poor indeed of habit, poor of understanding, he was, however, abundantly rich in personal treasures, such as flesh, firm, plump, and replete with the juices of youth, and robust well-knit limbs. My fingers too had now got within reach of the true, the genuine sensitive plant, which, instead of shrinking from the touch, joys to meet it, and swells and vegetates under it: mine pleasingly informed me that matters were so ripe for the discovery we meditated, that they were too mighty for the confinement they were ready to break. A waistband that I unskewered, and a rag of a shirt that I removed, and which could not have covered a quarter of it, revealed the whole of the idiot's standard of distinction, erect, in full pride and display: but such a one! it was positively of so tremendous a size, that prepared as we were to see something extraordinary, it still, out of measure, surpassed our expectation, and astonished even me, who had not been used to trade in trifles. In fine, it might have answered very well the making a skew of; its enormous head seemed, in hue and size, not unlike a common sheep's heart; then you might have trolled dice securely along the broad back of the body of it; the length of it too was prodigious; then the rich appendage of the treasure-bag beneath, large in proportion, gathered and crisped up round in shallow furrows, helped to fill the eye, and complete the proof of his being a natural, not quite in vain; since it was full manifest that he inherited, and largely too, the prerogative of majesty which distinguishes that otherwise most unfortunate condition, and gave rise to the vulgar saying "That a fool's bauble is a lady's playfellow.
coarseness - Grobheit; Unebenheit, Ungeschliffenheit
Negroes - schwarz, schwarz, schwarz, Neger
replete - satt
knit - stricken
swells - schwillt an; Schwellen
vegetates - vegetiert; vegetieren
meditated - meditiert; meditieren
unskewered - unbeantwortet
rag - Fummel, Lumpen, Putzlappen, Unfug
astonished - erstaunt; erstaunen
trolled - getrollt; Troll; trällern
dice - würfeln, in Würfel schneiden
securely - sicher
crisped - spröde, knackig, knusprig, forsch
furrows - Furchen; Furche
prerogative - Prärogative, Bevorrechtung, Privileg, Vorrecht
Majesty - Majestät
most unfortunate - unseligste
Not wholly without reason: for, generally speaking, it is in love as it is in war, where the longest weapon carries it. Nature, in short, had done so much for him in those parts, that she perhaps held herself acquitted in doing so little for his head.
Louisa, whose appetite was up, and who, like the industrious bee, was, it seems, not above gathering the sweet of so rare a flower, though she found it planted on a dunghill, was but too readily disposed to take the benefit of my cession. Urged then strongly by her own desires, and emboldened by me, she presently determined to risk a trial of parts with the idiot, who was by this time nobly inflamed for her purpose, by all the irritation we had used to put the principles of pleasure effectually into motion, and to wind up the springs of its organ to their supreme pitch; and it stood accordingly stiff and straining, ready to burst with the blood and spirits that swelled it..
dunghill - Misthaufen
cession - Zession, Abtretung
effectually - wirksam
swelled - angeschwollen; Schwellen
to a bulk! No! I shall never forget it.
Louisa then, taking and holding the fine handle that so invitingly offered itself, led the ductile youth, by that mastertool of his, as she stept backward towards the bed; which he joyfully gave way to, under the incitations of instinct, and palpably delivered up to the goad of desire.
ductile - dehnbar; duktil, formbar, verformbar, fügsam
stept - steppen
backward - zurück, nach hinten, rückwärts, zögerlich, gehemmt, rückständig
incitations - Anreize; Anregung
goad - Stachelstock; anstacheln, antreiben, anspornen, reizen
Stopped then by the bed, she took the fall she loved, and leaned to the most, gently backward upon it, still holding fast what she held, and taking care to give her clothes a convenient toss up, so that her thighs duly disclosed, and elevated, laid open all the outward prospect of the treasury of love: the rose-lipt overture presenting the cockpit so fair, that it was not in nature even for a natural to miss it. Nor did he: for Louisa, fully bent on grappling with it, and impatient of dalliance or delay, directed faithfully the point of the battering-piece, and bounded up with a rage of so varocious appetite, to meet and favour the thrust of insertion, that the fierce activity on both sides effected it with such pain of distention, that Louisa cried out violently, that she was hurt beyond bearing, that she was killed. But it was too late: the storm was up, and force was on her to give way to it; for now the man-machine, strongly worked upon by the sensual passion, felt so manfully his advantages and superiority, felt withal the sting of pleasure so intolerable, that maddening with it, his joys began to assume a character of furiousness, which made me tremble for the too tender Louisa. He seemed, at this juncture, greater than himself; his countenance, before so void of meaning, or expression, now grew big with the importance of the act he was upon. In short, it was not now that he was to be played the fool with. But, what is pleasant enough, I myself was awed into a sort of respect for him, by the comely terrors his motions dressed him in: his eyes shooting sparks of fire; his face glowing with ardours that gave another life to it; his teeth churning; his whole frame agitated with a raging ungovernable impetuosity: all sensibly betraying the formidable fierceness with which the genial instinct acted upon him.
grappling - herumschlagend, packend; (grapple); herumschlagend, packend
faithfully - brav, glaubend, vertrauend, treu
bounded - begrenzt; Sprung
varocious - varokant
distention - Pfändung
sensual - sinnlich, lustvoll
manfully - mannhaft, mannhafte
maddening - wahnsinnig machen; rasend machen
furiousness - Wut
juncture - Knotenpunkt; Verbindungspunkt, Verbindungsstelle, Junktur
void - nichtig
churning - durchschütteln; (churn) große Milchkanne [Br.]
Butting then and goring all before him, and mad and wild like an ower-driven steer, he ploughs up the tender furrow all insensible to Louisa's complaints; nothing can stop, nothing can keep out a fury like his: with which, having once got its head in, its blind rage soon made way for the rest, piercing, rending, and breaking open all obstruction. The torn, split, wounded girl cries, struggles, invokes me to her rescue, and endeavours to get from under the young savage, or shake him off, but alas! in vain: her breath, might as soon have strength to have quelled his rough assault, or put him out of his course. And indeed, all her efforts and struggles were managed with such disorder, that they served rather to entangle, and fold her the faster in the twine of his boisterous arms; so that she was tied to the stake, and obliged to fight the match out, if she died for it. For his part, instinct-ridden as he was, the expressions of his animal passion, partaking something of ferocity, were rather worrying than kisses, intermixed with ravenous love-bites on her cheeks and necks, the prints of which did not wear out for some days after.
Goring - aufspießend; (gor) aufspießend
ploughs - Pflug, pflügen, pflügen, ficken
breaking open - aufbrechend
obstruction - Hindernis; Obstruktion, Verhinderung, Blockierung, Störung
savage - Wilde; wild, wüst, unbebaut, unbändig, rasend
entangle - verwickeln
twine - zwirnen; Faden
boisterous - ungestüm, ausgelassen, lebendig, lebhaft
partaking - teilzunehmen; teilnehmend; (partake); teilnehmen, mitmachen
ferocity - Grausamkeit, Wildheit
intermixed - durchmischt; vermischen
ravenous - gefräßig
Poor Louisa, however, bore up at length better than could have been expected: and though she suffered, and greatly too, yet, ever true to the good old cause, she suffered with pleasure and enjoyed her pain.
And soon now, by dint of an enraged enforcement, the brute-machine, driven like a whirlwind, made all smoke again, and wedging its way up, to the utmost extremity, left her, in point of penetration, nothing to fear or to desire: and now,
enraged - wütend machen, in Wut versetzen, in Rage versetzen
whirlwind - Wirbelwind, Wirbelsturm
wedging - (wedge) verkeilen, festklemmen, mit einem Keil spalten; keilen
extremity - Extremität, äußerstes Ende, Äußerste, Extremste
"Gorged with the dearest morsel of the earth,"
Louisa lay, pleased to the heart, pleased to her utmost capacity of being so, with every fibre in those parts, stretched almost to breaking, on a rack of joy, whilst the instrument of all this over-fullness searched her senses with its sweet excess, till the pleasure gained upon her so, its point stung her so home, that catching at length the rage from her furious driver and sharing the riot of his wild rapture, she went wholly out of her mind into that favourite part of her body, the whole intenseness of which was so fervously filled, and employed: there alone she existed, all lost in those delirious transports, those extasies of the senses, which her winking eyes, the brightened vermilion of her lips and cheeks, and sighs of pleasure deeply fetched, so pathetically expressed.
rack - Folterbank, Zahnstange, Gestell
stung - gestochen; Stachel, brennender Schmerz
intenseness - Intensität
fervously - inbrünstig
brightened - aufgehellt; aufhellen, schönen, aufhellen, aufhellen
In short, she was now as mere a machine as much wrought on, and had her motions as little at her own command, as the natural himself, who, thus broke in upon her, made her feel with a vengeance his tempestuous mettle he battered with; their active loins quivered again with the violence of their conflict, till the surge of pleasure, foaming and raging to a height, drew down the pearly shower that was, to allay this hurricane. The purely sensitive idiot then first shed those tears of joy that attend its last moments, not without an agony of delight, and even almost a roar of rapture, as the gush escaped him; so sensibly too for Louisa, that she kept him faithful company, going off, in consent, with the old symptoms: a delicious delirium, a tremendous convulsive shudder, and the critical dying: Oh! And now, on his getting off she lay pleasure-drenched, and regorging its essential sweets; but quite spent, and gasping for breath, without other sensation of life than in those exquisite vibrations that trembled still on the strings of delight; which had been too intensively touched, and which nature had so ravishingly stirred with, for the senses to be quickly at peace from.
tempestuous - stürmisch
roar - brüllen; Tosen; Brüllen; Aufheulen
drenched - durchnässt; Regenguss
vibrations - Vibrationen; Vibration, Schwingung, Vibration, Schwingung
trembled - gezittert; zittern, Zittern
intensively - intensiv
Whether she ever returned to the attack I know not, and, to say truth, I believe not. She had had her freak out, and had pretty plentifully drowned her curiosity in a glut of pleasure, which, as it happened, had no other consequence than that the lad, who retained only a confused memory of the transaction, would, when he saw her, forget her in favour of the next woman, tempted, on the report of his parts, to take him in.
freak - ausflippen; Begeisterte, Missgeburt, irrer Typ
Louisa herself did not long outstay this adventure at Mrs. Cole's (to whom, by the bye, we took care not to boast of our exploit, till all fear of consequences were clearly over): for an occasion presenting itself of proving her passion for a young fellow, at the expense of her discretion, proceeding all in character, she packed up her toilet, at half a day's warning, and went with him abroad, since which I entirely lost sight of her, and it never fell in my way to hear what became of her.
outstay - überziehen
But a few days after she had left us, two very occasion, not to wrong our training at Mrs. Cole's, especially favourites, and free of her academy, easily obtained her consent for Emily's and my acceptance of a party of pleasure, at a little but agreeable house, belonging to one of them situated not far up the river Thames, on the Surrey side.
Thames - Die Themse; Themse
Surrey - Error
Emily, who never refused anything, and I, who ever delighted in bathing, and had no exception to the person who proposed it, or to those pleasure it was easy to guess it implied, took care, on this occasion, not to wrong our training at Mrs. Cole's, and agreed to it with as good a grace as we could. Upon which, without loss of time, we returned instantly to the pavilion, one door of which opened into a tent, pitched before it, that with its marquise, formed a pleasing defense again the sun, or the weather, and was besides as private as we could wish.
pavilion - Pavillon
The lining of it, embossed cloth, represented a wild forest foliage, from the top, down to the sides, which, in the same stuff, were figured with fluted pilasters, with their spaces between filled with flower vases, the whole having a pay effect croon the eye, wherever you turned it.
embossed - geprägt; prägen
foliage - Blätter, Laub, Laubwerk, Blätterwerk
fluted - geriffelt; Flöte, Kannelierung
pilasters - Pilaster
vases - Vasen; Vase
croon - summen, säuseln, gefühlsbetontes Lied, sentimentaler Schlager
Then it reached sufficiently into the water, yet contained convenient benches round it, on the dry ground, either to keep our clothes, or..., or..., in short for more uses than resting upon.
There was a side-table too, loaded with sweetmeats, jellies, and other eatables, and bottles of wine and cordials, by way of occasional relief from any rawness, or chill of the water, or from any faintness from whatever cause; and in fact, my gallant, who understood chere entiere perfectly, and who, for taste (even if you would not approve this specimen of it) might have been comptroller of pleasures to a Roman emperor, had left no requisite towards convenience or luxury unprovided.
sweetmeats - Bonbons; Süßigkeiten, Süßwaren, Süßspeisen
jellies - Gelees; Wackelpudding, Wackelpeter; Gelee, Gallert
eatables - Esswaren; essbar
cordials - Herzchen; herzlich, Sirup, Likör
rawness - Rohheit, Rauheit, Roheit
faintness - Ohnmacht; Schwäche, Mattigkeit, Mattheit, Verblasstheit
comptroller - Rechnungsprüfer
Emperor - Der Kaiser; Kaiser, Imperator
As soon as we had looked round this inviting spot, and every preliminary of privacy was duly settled, strip was the word: when the young gentlemen soon dispatched the undressing each his partner and reduced us to the naked confession of all those secrets of person which dress generally hides, and which the discovery of was, naturally speaking, not to our disadvantage.
Our hands, indeed, mechanically carried towards the most interesting part of us, screened, at first, all from the tufted cliff downwards, till we took them away at their desire, and employed them in doing them the same office, of helping off with their clothes; in the process of which, there passed all the little wantonnesses and frolics that you may easily imagine.
tufted - büschelig; Büschel
frolics - Vergnügungen; scherzen, Scherz
As for my spark, he was presently undressed, all to his shirt, the fore-lappet of which as he leaned languishingly on me, he smilingly pointed to me to observe, as it bellied out, or rose and fell, according to the unruly starts of the motion behind it; but it was soon fixed, for now taking off his shirt, and naked as a Cupid, he shewed it me at so upright a stand, as prepared me indeed for his application to me for instant ease; but, though the sight of its fine size was fit enough to fire me, the cooling air, as I stood in this state of nature, joined to the desire I had of bathing-first, enabled me to put him off, and tranquillize him, with the remark, that a little suspense would only set a keener edge on the pleasure.
lappet - lappt; Zipfel, Hautlappen
smilingly - lächelnde
bellied - bauchig; Bauch, Magen
unruly - unbändig, wild, widerspenstig, undiszipliniert
Cupid - Amor, Cupido
cooling air - Kühlluft
tranquillize - beschwichtigen; beruhigen
suspense - Hängen; Spannung, Anspannung
Leading them the way, and shewing our friends an example of continency, which they were giving signs of losing respect to, we went hand in hand into the stream, till it took us up to our necks, where the no more than grateful coolness of the wafer gave my senses a delicious refreshment from the sultriness of the season, and made more alive, more happy in myself, and, in course, more alert, and open to voluptuous impressions.
continency - Kontinuität
wafer - Oblate, Waffel, Hostie, Wafer, Halbleiterscheibe
more alert - wachere
Here I laved and wantoned with the water, or sportively played with my companion, leaving Emily to deal with hers at discretion. Mine, at length, not content with making me take the plunge over head and ears, kept splashing me, and provoking me with all the little playful tricks he could devise, and which I strove not to remain in his debt for.
laved - laviert; Klo
sportively - sportlich
playful - spielerisch; verspielt
We gave, in short, a loose to mirth; and now, nothing would serve him but giving his hand the regale of going over every part of me, neck, breast, belly, thighs, and all the et caetera, so dear to the imagination, under the pretext of washing and rubbing them; as we both stood in the water, no higher now than the pit of our stomachs, and which did not hinder him from feeling, and toying with that leak that distinguishes our sex, and it so wonderfully water-tight: for his fingers, in vain dilating and opening it, only let more flame than water into it, be it said without a figure. At the same time he made me feel his own engine, which was so well wound up, as to stand even the working in water, and he accordingly threw one arm round my neck, and was endeavouring to get the better of that harsher construction bred by the surrounding fluid; and had in effect one hiway so far as to make me sensible of the pleasing stretch of those nether lips, from the in-driving machine; when, independent of my not liking that awkward mode of enjoyment, I could not help interrupting him, in order to become joint spectators of a plan of joy, in hot operation between Emily and her partner; who impatient of the fooleries and dalliance of the bath, had led his nymph to one of the benches on the green bank, where he was very cordially proceeding to teach her the difference betwixt jest and earnest.
mirth - Fröhlichkeit, Belustigung, Freude
regale - verwöhnen; ergötzen; festlich bewirten
et - und
wonderfully - Wunderbar
dilating - dilatieren, weiten, vergrößern, erweitern, dehnen, sich weiten
hiway - Highway
nymph - Nymphe; Nymphomanin
Mean while, their emersion out of the cold water had caused a general glow, a tender suffusion of heightened carnation over their bodies; both equally white and smoothskinned; so that as their limbs were-thus amorously interwoven, in sweet confusion, it was scarce possible to distinguish who they respectively belonged to, but for the brawnier, bolder muscles of the stronger sex.
emersion - Auftauchen
carnation - Gartennelke, Nelke
smoothskinned - Glatthäutig
amorously - amourös
interwoven - verwoben; verweben, verflechten, durchweben, einweben
brawnier - muskulöser; muskulös, muskelbepackt
In a little time, however, the champion was fairly in with her, and had tied at all points the true lover's knot; when now, adieu all the little refinements of a finessed reluctance; adieu the friendly feint!
finessed - verfeinert; (fine) gut, Geldbuße, schön, zart, fein
She was presently driven forcibly out of the power of using any art; and indeed, what art must not give way, when nature, corresponding with her assailant, invaded in the heart of her capital and carried by storm, lay at the mercy of the proud conqueror, who had made his entry triumphantly and completely? Soon, however, to become a tributary: for the engagement growing hotter and hotter, at close quarters, she presently brought him to the pass of paying down the dear debt to nature; which she had no sooner collected in, but, like a duellist who has laid his antagonist at his feet, when he has himself received a mortal wound, Emily had scarce time to plume herself upon her victory, but, shot with the same discharge, she, in a loud expiring sigh, in the closure of her eyes, the stretch-out of her limbs, and a remission of her whole frame, gave manifest signs that all was as it should be.
tributary - Nebenfluss, Zufluss
duellist - Duellant
mortal wound - Todeswunde
plume - Schadstofffahne, Abwasserfahne
Accordingly we took a bench, whilst Emily and her spark, who belonged it seems to the sea, stood at the side-board, drinking to our good voyage: for, as the last observed, we were well under weigh, with a fair wind up channel, and full-freighted; nor indeed were we long before we finished our trip to Cythera, and unloaded in the old haven; but, as the circumstances-did not admit of much variation, I shall spare you the description.
freighted - verfrachtet; verfrachten; Fracht, Frachtgut
unloaded - entladen, ausladen
This too was Emily's last adventure in our way: for scarce a week after, she was, by an accident too trivial to detail to you the particulars, found out by her parents, who were in good circumstances, and who had been punished for their partiality to their son, in the loss of him, occasioned by a circumstance of their over indulgence to his appetite; upon which the so long engrossed stream of fondness, running violently in favour of this lost and inhumanly abandoned child whom if they had not neglected enquiry about, they might long before have recovered, they were now so over-joyed at the retrieval of her, that, I presume, it made them much less strict in examining the bottom of things: for they seemed very glad to take for granted, in the lump, every thing that the grave and decent Mrs.
indulgence - Ablasshandel; Nachgiebigkeit, Nachsicht, Milde, Nachsichtigkeit
inhumanly - unmenschlich
retrieval - Abruf; Zurückholen, Wiederherstellung
Cole was pleased to pass upon them; and soon afterwards sent her, from the country, handsome acknowledgment.
acknowledgment - Anerkennung, Bestätigung, Anerkenntnis, Danksagung, Quittung
But it was not so easy to replace to our community the loss of so sweet a member of it: for, not to mention her beauty, she was one of those mild, pliant characters, that if one does not entirely esteem, one can scarce help loving, which is not such a bad compensation neither. Owing all her weaknesses to good nature, and an indolent facility that kept her too much at the mercy of first impressions, she had just sense enough to know that she wanted leading strings, and thought herself so much obliged to any who would take the pains to think for her, and guide her, that with a very little management, she was capable of being made a most agreeable, nay a most virtuous wife: for vice, it is probable, had never been her choice, or her fate, if it had not been for occasion, or example, or had she not depended less upon herself than upon her circumstances.
most virtuous - tugendhafteste
This presumption her conduct afterwards verified: for presently meeting with a match, that was ready cut and dry for her, with a neighbour's son of her own rank, and a young man of sense and order, who took as the widow of one lost at sea (for so it seems one of her gallants, whose name she had made free with, really was), she naturally struck into all the duties of her domestic life, with as much simplicity of affection, with as much constancy and regularity, as if she had never swerved from a state of undebauched innocence from her youth.
presumption - Anmaßung; Annahme; Überheblichkeit; Vermutung
gallants - Kavaliere; Galan (galanter Mann), galant, Verehrer
swerved - ausgewichen; ausweichen, abschweifen, Schlenker
These desertions had, however, now so far thinned Mrs. Cole's cluck that she was left with only me, like a hen with one chicken; but though she was earnestly entreated and encouraged to recruit her crops, her growing infirmities, and, above all, the tortures, of a stubborn hip gout, which she found would yield to no remedy, determined her to break up her business, and retire with a decent pittance into the country, where I promised myself, nothing so sure, as my going down to live with her, as soon as I had seen a little more of life, and improved my small matters into a competency that would create in me an independence on the world: for I was now, thanks to Mrs.
desertions - Desertionen; Fahnenflucht, Desertion, Desertation
cluck - Gackern
hen - Vogelweibchen; Henne, Huhn
entreated - angefleht; ersuchen
infirmities - Gebrechen; Gebrechlichkeit
stubborn - starrköpfig; stur, dickköpfig
gout - Gicht
pittance - ein Almosen; Hungerlohn; Almosen
competency - Zuständigkeit; Befähigung
Cole, wise enough to keep that essential in view.
Thus was I then to lose my faithful preceptress, as did the philosophers of the town the white crow of her profession. For besides that she never ransacked her customers, whose tastes too she ever studiously consulted, she never racked her pupils with unconscionable extortions, nor ever put their hard earnings, as she called them, under the contribution of poundage. She was a severe enemy to the seduction for innocence, and confined her acquisitions solely to those unfortunate young women, who, having lost it, were but the juster objects of compassion: among these, indeed, she picked out such as suited her views and taking them under her protection, rescued them from the danger of the public sinks of ruin and misery, to place, or for them, well or ill, in the manner you have seen. Having then settled her affairs, she set out on her journey, after taking the most tender leave of me, and at the end of some excellent instructions, recommending me to myself, with an anxiety perfectly maternal.
preceptress - Lehrerin
crow - Krähe
ransacked - geplündert; plündern, durchwühlen
racked - gequält; Folterbank, Zahnstange, Gestell
unconscionable - skrupellos
extortions - Erpressungen; Erpressung, Wucher, Extorsion
poundage - Anteil pro Pfund
seduction - Verführung
maternal - mütterlich
In short, she affected me so much, that I was not presently reconciled to myself for suffering her at any rate to go without me; but fate had, it seems, otherwise disposed of me.
I had, on my separation from Mrs. Cole, taken a pleasant convenient house at Marylebone, but easy to rent and manage from its smallness, which I furnished neatly and modestly. There, with a reserve of eight hundred pounds, the fruit of my deference to Mrs.
smallness - Kleinheit
neatly - sauber, ordentlich, geschickt
modestly - bescheidene, züchtig, bescheiden
Cole's counsels, exclusive of clothes, some jewels, and some plate, I saw myself in purse for a long time, to wait without impatience for what the chapter of accidents might produce in my favour.
counsels - berät; Beratung, Rat, Ratschlag, Anwalt, Anwältin
Here, under the new character of a young gentlewoman whose husband was gone to sea, I had marked me out such lines of life and conduct, as leaving me a competent liberty to pursue my views either out of pleasure or fortune, bounded me nevertheless strictly within the rules of decency and discretion: a disposition, in which you cannot escape observing a true pupil of Mrs. Cole.
I was scarce, however, well warm in my new abode, when going out one morning pretty early to enjoy the freshness of it, in the pleasing outlet of the fields, accompanied only by a maid, whom I had newly hired, as we were carelessly walking among the trees, we were alarmed with the noise of a violent coughing: turning our heads towards which, we distinguished a plain well dressed elderly gentleman, who, attacked with a sudden fit, was so much overcome, as to be forced to give way to it and sit down at the foot of a tree, where he seemed suffocating with the severity of it, being perfectly black in the face; not less moved than frightened with which, I flew on the instant to his relief, and using the rote of practice I had observed on the like occasion, I loosened his cravat and clapped him on the back; but whether to any purpose, or whether the cough had had its course, I know not, but the fit immediately went off; and now recovered to his speech and legs, he returned me thanks with as much emphasis as if I had saved his life.
coughing - hustend; (cough); husten; Husten
suffocating - zu ersticken; erstickend; (suffocate); ersticken, würgen
severity - Schweregrad; Härte, Stärke, Gewichtung
rote - Auswendiglernen
cravat - Krawatte
This naturally engaging a conversation, he acquainted me where he lived, which was at a considerable distance from where I met him, and where he had strayed insensibly on the same intention of a morning walk.
He was, as I afterwards learned in the course of the intimacy which this little accident gave birth to, an old bachelor, turned of sixty, but of a fresh vigorous complexion, insomuch that he scarce marked five and forty, having never racked his constitution by permitting his desires to over-tax his ability.
bachelor - Junggeselle; Bachelor
As to his birth and conditions, his parents, honest and failed mechanics, had, by the best traces he could get of them, left him an infant orphan on the parish; so that it was from a charity-school, that, by honesty and industry, he made his way into a merchant's counting house, from whence, being sent to a house in Cadiz, he there, by his talents and activity, acquired not only a fortune, but an immense one, with which he returned to his native country; where he could not, however, fish out so much as one single relation out of the obscurity he was born in.
Cadiz - Cádiz; Cadiz
native country - Geburtsland , Vaterland
obscurity - Dunkelheit, Unklarheit
Taking then a taste for refinement, and pleased to enjoy life, like a mistress in the dark, he flowed his days in all the ease of opulence, without the least parade of it; and, rather studying the concealment than the shew of a fortune, looked down on a world he perfectly knew himself, to his wish, unknown and unmarked by.
refinement - Verfeinerung; Verbesserung, Veredelung, Veredeln
opulence - Opulenz; Reichtum, Wohlstand
But, as I propose to devote a letter entirely to the pleasure of retracing to you all the particulars of my acquaintance with this ever, to me, memorable friend, I shall, in this, transiently touch on no more than may serve, as mortar, to cement, or form the connection of my history, and to obviate your surprise that one of my blood and relish of life, should count a gallant of three score such a catch.
retracing - nachvollziehen, zurückverfolgen
transiently - vorübergehend
mortar - Mörtel; Mörser
obviate - verhindern; überflüssig machen, umgehen
Referring then to a more explicit narrative, to explain by what progressions our acquaintance, certainly innocent at first, insensibly changed nature, and run into unplatonic length, as might well be expected from one of my condition of life, and above all, from that principle of electricity that scarce ever fails of producing fire when the sexes meet.
unplatonic - unplatonisch
I shall only here acquaint you, that as age had not subdued his tenderness for our sex, neither had it robbed him of the power of pleasing, since whatever he wanted in the bewitching charms of youth, he atoned for, or supplemented with the advantages of experience, the sweetness of his manners, and above all, his flattering address in touching the heart, by an application to the understanding. From him it was I first learned, to any purpose, and not without infinite pleasure, that I had such a portion of me worth bestowing some regard on; from him I received my first essential encouragement, and instructions how to put it in that train of cultivation, which I have since pushed to the little degree of improvement you see it at; he it was, who first taught me to be sensible that the pleasures of the mind were superior to those of the body; at the same time, that they were so far from obnoxious to, or, incompatible with each other, that, besides the sweetness in the variety and transition, the one served to exalt and perfect the taste of the other, to a degree that the senses alone can never arrive at.
atoned - gesühnt; wiedergutmachen, kompensieren, gutmachen
bestowing - Verleihung; verstauen, einlagern, unterbringen, schenken
cultivation - Anbau; Bodenbearbeitung, Kultivierung, Bildung
obnoxious - unausstehlich
incompatible - inkompatibel, unvereinbar
Himself a rational pleasurist; as being much too wise to be ashamed of the pleasures of humanity, loved me indeed, but loved me with dignity; in a mean equally removed from the sourness, of forwardness, by which age is unpleasingly characterized, and from that childish silly dotage that so often disgraces it, and which he himself used to turn into ridicule, and compare to an old goat affecting the frisk of a young kid.
sourness - sauer; Herbheit, Säure
unpleasingly - unangenehm
dotage - Senilität, Altersschwäche
disgraces - Schandflecke; Ungnade, Schande, Schande, Schmach, Schande
frisk - scherzen; filzen
After acquitting myself of the duty towards my deceased benefactor, and paying him a tribute of un-feigned sorrow, which a little time changed into a most tender, graceful memory of him, which I shall ever retain, I grew somewhat comforted by the prospect that now opened to me, if not of happiness, at least of affluence and independence.
acquitting - freisprechend; freisprechen, für unschuldig erklären, befreien
deceased - verstorben; Ableben, Exitus, Hinschied, ableben, hinscheiden
benefactor - Wohltäter, Wohltäterin, Benefaktor
I saw myself then in the full bloom and pride of youth (for I was not yet nineteen), actually at the head of so large a fortune, as it would have been even the height of impudence in me to have raised my wishes, much more my hopes to; and that this unexpected elevation did not turn my head, I owed to the pains my benefactor had taken to form and prepare me for it, as I owed his opinion of my management of the vast possessions he left me, to what he had observed of the prudential economy I had learned under Mrs.
impudence - Unverfrorenheit; Flegelei, Frechheit, Unverschämtheit
prudential - aufsichtsführend; klüglich
Cole, the reserve of which he saw I had made, was a proof and encouragement to him.
But, alas! how easily in the enjoyment of the greatest sweets in life, in present possession, poisoned by the regret of an absent one! But my regret was a mighty and just one, since it had my only truly beloved Charles for its object.
Given him up I had, indeed, completely, having never once heard from him since our separation; which, as I found afterwards, had been my misfortune, and not his neglect, for he wrote me several letters which had all miscarried; but forgotten him I never had. And amidst all my personal infidelities, not one had made a pin's point impression on a heart impenetrable to the true love passion, but for him.
infidelities - Untreue
impenetrable - undurchdringlich; undurchlässig
As soon, however, as I was mistress of this unexpected fortune, I felt more than ever how dear he was to me, from its insufficiency to make me happy, whilst he was not to share it with me. My earliest care, consequently, was to endeavour at getting some account of him; but all my researches produced me no more light, than that his father had been dead for some time, not so well as even with the world; and that Charles had reached his port of destination in the South Seas, where, finding the estate he was sent to recover, dwindled to a trifle, by the loss of two ships in which the bulk of his uncle's fortune lay, he was come away with the small remainder, and might, perhaps, according to the best advice, in a few months return to England, from whence he had, at the time of this my inquiry, been absent two years and seven months.
insufficiency - Unzulänglichkeit; Insuffizienz
dwindled - geschrumpft; schwinden
inquiry - Anfrage, Erkundigung, Abfrage, Untersuchung, Erforschung
been absent - gefehlt
A little eternity in love!
You cannot conceive with what joy I embraced the hopes thus given me of seeing the delight of my heart again. But, as the term of months was assigned it, in order to divert and amuse my impatience for his return, after settling my affairs with much ease and security, I set out on a journey for Lancashire, with an equipage suitable to my fortune, and with a design purely to revisit my place of nativity, for which I could not help retaining a great tenderness; and might naturally not be sorry to shew myself there, to the advantage I was now in pass to do, after the report Esther Davis had spread of my being spirited away to the plantations; for on no other supposition could she account for the suppression of myself to her, since her leaving me so abruptly at the inn.
amuse - amüsieren, vergnügen, belustigen, erheitern
revisit - wieder besuchen
nativity - Krippe; Weihnachtsgeschichte
spirited away - weggezaubert
plantations - Plantagen; Plantage
suppression - Unterdrückung; Verdrängung
Another favourite intention I had, to look out for my relations, though I had none but distant ones, and prove a benefactress to them. Then Mrs. Cole's place of retirement lying in my way, was not amongst the least of the pleasures I had proposed to myself in this expedition.
I had taken nobody with me but a discreet decent woman, to figure it as my companion, besides my servants; and was scarce got into an inn, about twenty miles from London, where I was to sup and pass the night, when such a storm of wind and rain come on, as made me congratulate myself on having got under shelter before it began.
sup - Was ist los?; schlürfen
This had continued a good half an hour, when bethinking me of some directions to be given to the coachman, I sent for him, not caring that his shoes should soil the very clean parlour, in which the cloth was laid, I stept into the hall kitchen, where he was, and where, whilst I was talking to him, I slantingly observed two horsemen driven in by the weather, and both wringing wet; one of whom was asking if they could not be assisted with a change, while their clothes were dried. But, heavens! who can express what I felt at the sound of a voice, ever present to my heart, and that it now rebounded at! or when pointing my eyes towards the person it came from, they confirmed its information, in spite of so long an absence, and of a dress one would have studied for a disguise: a horseman's great coat, with a stamp-up cape, and his hat flapped..
bethinking - besinnen
slantingly - schräge
horsemen - Reitern; Reiter
wringing - auswringen; (wring) abbringen
rebounded - zurückgeworfen; zurückprallen; Abprall, Rückprall
horseman - Reiter
but what could escape the alertness of a sense truly guided by love? A transport then like mine was above all consideration, or schemes of surprise; and I, that instant, with the rapidity of the emotions that I felt the spur of, shot into his arms, crying out, as I threw mine round his neck: "My life!... my soul!... my Charles!.." and without further power of speech, swooned away, under the pressing agitation of joy and surprise.
alertness - Wachsamkeit
rapidity - Schnelligkeit
swooned - in Ohnmacht gefallen; Ohnmacht, schwinden
The first object then, that my eyes opened on, was their supreme idol, and my supreme wish, Charles, on one knee, holding me fast by the hand and gazing on me with a transport of fondness. Observing my recovery, he attempted to speak, and give vent to his patience of hearing my voice again, to satisfy him once more that it was I; but the mightiness and suddenness Of the surprise continuing to stun him, choked his utterance: he could only stammer out a few broken, half-formed, filtering accents, which my ears greedily drinking in, spelt, and put together, so as to make out their sense: "After so long!... so cruel an absence!... my dearest Fanny!... can it?... can it be you?..." stifling me at the time with kisses, that, stopping my opening mouth, at once prevented the answer that he panted for, and increased the delicious disorder in which all my senses were rapturously lost. However, amidst this crowd of ideas, and all blissful ones, there obtruded only one cruel doubt that poisoned nearly all the transcendant happiness: and what was it, but my dread of its being too excessive to be real? I trembled now with my fear of its being no more than a dream, and of waking out of it into the horrors of finding it one.
mightiness - Mächtigkeit
utterance - Äußerung
stifling - erstickend; (stifle) erstickend
rapturously - schwärmerisch
transcendant - transzendent
Under this fond apprehension, imagining I could not make too much of the present prodigious joy, before it would vanish and leave me in the desert again, nor verify its reality too strongly, I clung to him, I clasped him, as if to hinder him from escaping me again: "Where have you been?... how could you... could you leave me?... Say you are still mine... that you still love me... and thus! thus!" (kissing him as if I would consolidated lips with him) "I forgive you... forgive my hard fortune in favour of this restoration."
All these interjections breaking from me, in that wildness of expression that justly passes for eloquence in love, drew from him all the returns my fond heart could wish or require. Our caresses, our questions, our answers, for some time observed no order; all crossing, or interrupting one another in sweet confusion, whilst we exchanged hearts at our eyes, and renewed the ratifications of a love unabated by time or absence: not a breath, not a motion, not a gesture on either side, but what was strongly impressed with it.
justly - zu Recht; gerecht
eloquence - Redegewandtheit, Eloquenz, Sprachfertigkeit, Beredsamkeit
ratifications - Ratifizierungen; Bestätigung, Ratifikation, Ratifizierung
unabated - ungebremst
Our hands, locked in each other, repeated the most passionate squeezes, so that their fiery thrill went to the heart again.
most passionate - heißblütigste
There were still the requisite lineaments, still the same vivid vermillion and bloom reigning in his face; but now the roses were more fully blown; the tan of his travels, and a beard somewhat more distinguishable, had, at the expense of no more delicacy than what he could well spare, given it an air of becoming manliness and maturity, that symmetrized nobly with that air of distinction and empire with which nature had stamped it, in a rare mixture with the sweetness of it; still nothing had he lost of that smooth plumpness of flesh, which, glowing with freshness, blooms florid to the eye, and delicious to the touch; then his shoulders were grown more square, his shape more formed, more portly, but still free and airy.
lineaments - Züge; Zug, Charakterzug
tan - bräunen; gerben
beard - Bart; Alibifreundin
maturity - Reife
blooms - blüht; Blüte, Blütenpracht, Duft
portly - korpulent, vollschlank, beleibt, stattlich
airy - luftig; belüftet, gelüftet, zugig, umweht
In short, his figure showed riper, greater, and perfecter to the experienced eye, than in his tender youth; and now he was not much more than two and twenty.
In this interval, however, I picked out of the broken, often pleasingly interrupted account of himself, that he was, at that instant, actually on his road to London, in not a very paramount plight or condition, having been wrecked on the Irish coast for which he had prematurely embarked, and lost the little all he had brought with him from the South Seas: so that he had not till after great shifts and hardships, in the company of his fellow-traveller, the captain, got so far on his journey; that so it was (having heard of his father's death and circumstances,) he had now the world to begin again, on a new account: a situation, which he assured me, in a vein of sincerity, that flowing from his heart, penetrated mine, gave him to farther pain, than that he had not his power to make me as happy as he could wish.
paramount - hervorragend, höchst, überragend, vorrangig
wrecked - ruiniert; Wrack
Irish - Irisch
prematurely - verfrüht
hardships - Nöte; Härte, Not, Entbehrung, Mühsal, Elend
My fortune, you will please to observe, I had not entered upon any overture of, reserving, to feast myself with the surprise of it to him, in calmer instants. And, as to my dress, it could give him no idea of the truth, not only as it was mourning, but likewise in a style of plainness and simplicity that I had ever kept to with studied art. He pressed me indeed tenderly to satisfy his ardent curiosity, both with regard to my past and present state of life, since his being torn away from me: but I found means to elude his questions, by answers that shewing his satisfaction at no great distance, won upon him to waive his impatience, in favour of the thorough confidence he had in my not delaying it, but for respect I should in good time acquaint him with.
plainness - Einfachheit, Schlichtheit
torn away - weggerissen
elude - entziehen
waive - verzichten
Charles, however, thus returned to my longing arms, tender, faithful, and in health, was already a blessing too mighty for my conception: but Charles in distress!...
Charles reduced, and broken down to his naked personal merit, was such a circumstance, in favour of the sentiments I had for him, as exceeded my utmost desire; and accordingly I seemed so visibly charmed, so out of time and measure pleased at his mention of his ruined fortune, that he could account for it no way, but that the joy of seeing him again had swallowed up every other sense of concern.
In the mean time, my woman had taken, all possible care of Charles's travelling companion; and as supper was coming in, he was introduced to me, when I received him as became my regard for all of Charles's acquaintance or friends.
We four then supped together, in the style of joy, congratulation, and pleasing disorder that you may guess.
congratulation - Glückwunsch, Beglückwünschung, Gratulation
For my part, though all these agitations had left me not the least stomach, but for that uncloying feast, the sight of my adored youth, I endeavoured to force it, by way of example for him, who I conjectured must want such a recruit after riding; and, indeed, he; ate like a traveller, but gazed at, and addressed me all the time like a lover.
uncloying - unsympathisch
adored - verehrt; anbeten, verehren, anbeten, verehren
conjectured - vermutet; Vermutung, Verdacht, Mutmaßung, Vermutung, Hypothese
After the cloth was taken away, and the hour of repose came on, Charles and I were, without further ceremony, in quality of man and wife, shown up together to a very handsome apartment, and, all in course, the bed, they said, the best in the inn.
And here, Decency, forgive me! if once more I violate thy laws and keeping the curtains undrawn, sacrifice thee for the last time to that confidence, without reserve, with which I engaged to recount to you the most striking circumstances of my youthful disorders.
recount - nachzählen, erzählen
As soon, then, as we were in the room together, left to ourselves, the sight of the bed starving the remembrance of our first joys, and the thought of my being instantly to share it with the dear possessor of my virgin heart, moved me so strongly, that it was well I leaned upon him, or I must have fainted again under the overpowering sweet alarm.
Charles saw into my confusion, and forgot his own, that was scarce less, to apply himself to the removal of mine.
But now the true refining passion had regained throughout possession of me, with all its train of symptoms: a sweet sensibility, a tender timidity, love-sick yearnings tempered with diffidence and modesty, all held me in a subjection of soul, incomparably dearer to me than the liberty of heart which I had been long, too long! the mistress of, in the course of those grosser gallantries, the consciousness of which now made me sigh with a virtuous confusion and regret.
refining - Veredelung; verfeinernd; (refine); verfeinern
tempered - temperiert; Gereiztheit, Laune, Temperament
diffidence - Scheu; Zurückhaltung, Verlegenheit, Schüchternheit
incomparably - unvergleichlich
gallantries - Galanterien; Tapferkeit
No real virgin, in short, in view of the nuptial bed, could give more bashful blushes to unblemished innocence, than I did to a sense of guilt; and indeed I loved Charles too truly not to feel severely that I did not deserve him.
nuptial bed - Brautbett
unblemished - untadelig
Mean while, two candles lighted on a side-table near us, and a joyous wood fire, threw a light into the bed, that took from one sense, of great importance to our joys, all pretext for complaining of its being shut out of its share of them; and, indeed, the sight of my idolized youth was alone, from the ardour with which I had wished for it, without other circumstance, a pleasure to die of.
idolized - vergöttert; jemanden anhimmeln, umschwärmen, vergöttern
But as action was now a necessity to desires so much on edge as ours, Charles, after a very short prelusive dalliance, lifting up my linen and his own, laid the broad treasures of his manly chest close to my bosom, both beating with the tenderest alarms: when now, the sense of his glowing body, in naked touch with mine, took all power over my thoughts out of my own disposal, and delivered up every faculty of the soul to the sensiblest of joys, that affecting me infinitely more with my distinction of the person, than of the sex, now brought my heart deliriously into play: my heart, which, eternally constant to Charles, had never taken any part in my original sacrifices to the calls of constitution, complaisance, or interest.
prelusive - exklusiv
deliriously - im Delirium
But ah! what became of me, when as the powers of solid pleasure thickened upon me, I could not help feeling the stiff stake that had been adorned with the trophies of my despoiled virginity, bearing hard and inflexible against one of my thighs, which I had not yet opened, from a true principle of modesty, revived by a passion too sincere to suffer any aiming at the false merit of difficulty, or my putting on an impertinent mock coyness.
thickened - verdickt; verdicken
despoiled - beraubt; plündern, berauben
inflexible - unflexibel
impertinent - unverschämt, impertinent, irrelevant, unwichtig
I have, I believe, somewhere before remarked, that feel of that favourite piece of manhood has, in the very nature of it, something inimitably pathetic. Nothing can be dearer to the touch, nor can affect it with a more delirious sensation. Think then! as a love thinks, what must be the consummate transport of that quickest of our senses, in their central seat too! when, after so long a deprival, it felt itself re-inflamed under the pressure of that peculiar sceptre-member, which commands us all: but especially my darling, elect from the face of the whole earth. And now, at its mightiest point of stiffness, it felt to me something so subduing so active, so solid and agreeable, that I know not what name to give its singular impression: but the sentiment of consciousness of its belonging to my supremely beloved youth, gave me so pleasing an agitation, and worked so strongly on my soul, that it sent all its sensitive spirits to that organ of bliss in me, dedicated to its reception.
inimitably - unnachahmlich
deprival - Entbehrung
sceptre - Zepter
mightiest - mächtigste; gewaltig, mächtig
subduing - unterdrücken; unter Kontrolle bringen, unterwerfen, unterwerfen
supremely - überragend
There, concentering to a point, like rays in a burning glass, they glowed, they burnt with the intensest heat; the springs of pleasure were, in short, wound up to such a pitch, I panted now with so exquisitely keen an appetite for the eminent enjoyment, that I was even sick with desire, and unequal to support the combination of two distinct ideas, that delightfully distracted me: for all the thought I was capable of, was that I was now in touch, at once, with the instrument of pleasure, and the great seal of love. Ideas that, mingling streams, poured such an ocean of intoxicating bliss on a weak vessel, all too narrow to contain it, that I lay overwhelmed, absorbed, lost in an abyss of joy, and dying of nothing but immoderate delight.
unequal - ungleich
mingling - mischend, vermischend; (mingle); vermischen, vermengen
intoxicating - berauschend; berauschen, vergiften, berauschen
abyss - Abgrund, Hölle
immoderate - unangemessen
Charles then roused me somewhat out of this extatic distraction, with a complaint softly murmured, amidst a crowd of kisses, at the position, not so favourable to his desires, in which I received his urgent insistance for admission, where that insistance was alone so engrossing a pleasure, that it made me inconsistently suffer a much dearer one to be kept out; but how sweet to correct such a mistake! My thighs, now obedient to the intimations of love and nature, gladly disclose, and with a ready submission, resign up the soft gateway to the entrance of pleasure: I see, I feel the delicious velvet tip!... he enters me might and main, with.
insistance - Beharrlichkeit
engrossing - fesselnd; beschlagnahmen, beanspruchen
inconsistently - widersprüchlich
intimations - Andeutungen; Andeutung
gateway - Einfahrt, Tor, Zugang, Gateway, Protokollumsetzer
. oh! my pen drops from here in the extasy now present to my faithful memory! Description too deserts me, and delivers over a task, above its strength of wing, to the imagination: but it must be an imagination exalted by such a flame as mine that can do justice to that sweetest, noblest of all sensations, that hailed and accompanied the stiff insinuation all the way up, till it was at the end of its penetration, sending up, through my eyes, the sparks of the love-fire that ran all over me and blazed in every vein and every pore of me; a system incarnate of joy all over.
insinuation - Andeutung; Einschmeicheln, Anbiedern, Bauchpinseln
blazed - gebrannt; Lohe, Brand, Großbrand, brenne, Glut
pore - Pore
As we were giving them a few moments pause to the the delectations of the senses, in dwelling with the highest relish on this intimatest point of re-union, and chewing the cud of enjoyment, the impatience natural to the pleasure soon drove us into action. Then began the driving tumult on his side, and the responsive heaves on mine, which kept me up to him; whilst, as our joys grew too great for utterance, the organs of our voices, voluptuously intermixing, became organs of the touch.
delectations - Freuden; Ergötzen
dwelling - Wohnung, Behausung; (dwell); leben, verbleiben, wohnen
chewing - kauen
cud - wiederkäuen; wiedergekäutes Futter
responsive - ansprechbar
intermixing - Durchmischung; vermischen
. how delicious!... how poignantly luscious!... And now! now I felt, to the heart of me! I felt the prodigious keen edge, with which love, presiding over this act, points the pleasure: love! that may be styled the Attic salt of enjoyment; and indeed, without it, the joy, great as it is, is still a vulgar one, whether in a king or a beggar; for it is, undoubtedly, love alone that refines, ennobles, and exalts it.
poignantly - ergreifend; scharf, scharfe
attic - Dachgeschoss, Dachboden, Estrich
refines - verfeinert; verfeinern
ennobles - geadelt; adeln, veredeln
exalts - erhebt; ehren, erhöhen
Thus, happy, then, by the heart, happy by the senses, it was beyond all power, even of thought, to form the conception of a greater delight than what I now am consummating the fruition of.
fruition - Verwirklichung; Erfüllung
But all this pleasure tending, like life from its first instants, towards its own dissolution, lived too fast not to bring on upon the spur its delicious moment of mortality; for presently the approach of the tender agony discovered itself by its usual signals, that were quickly followed by my dear lover's emanation of himself, that spun out, and shot, feelingly indeed! up the ravished indraught: where the sweetly soothing balmy titillation opened all the juices of joy on my side, which extatic-ally in flow helped to allay the prurient glow, and drowned our pleasure for a while. Soon, however, to be on float again! for Charles, true to nature's laws, in one breath, expiring and ejaculating, languished not long in the dissolving trance, but recovering spirit again, soon gave me to feel that the true mettle spring! of his instrument of pleasure, were, by love, and perhaps, by a long vacation, wound up too high to be let down by a single explosion: his stiffnesss till stood my friend.
mortality - Sterblichkeit, Mortalität, Sterbeziffer, Mortalitätsziffer
emanation - Ausströmen, Emanation, Ausströmung, Ausstrahlung
feelingly - gefühlvoll
balmy - lauwarm; lindernd, mildernd, sanft
prurient - lüstern, lasziv
ejaculating - ejakulieren, ejakulieren, Ejakulat
stiffnesss - Steifheit
Resuming then the action afresh, without dislodging, or giving me the trouble of parting from my sweet tenant, we played over again the same opera, with the same harmony and concert: our ardours, like our love, knew no remission; and all the tide serving my lover, lavish of his stores, and pleasure-milked, he over-flowed me once more from the fulness of his oval reservoirs of the genial emulsion: whilst, on my side, a convulsive grasp, in the instant of my giving down the liquid contribution, rendered me sweetly subservient at once to the increase of joy, and to its effusions: moving me so, as to make me exert all those springs of the compressive exsuction, with which the sensitive mechanism of that part thirstily draws and drains the nipple of Love; with much such an instinctive eagerness and attachment, as to compare great with less, kind nature engages infants at the breasts, by the pleasure they find in the motion of their little mouths and cheeks, to extract the milky stream prepared for their nourishment.
oval - Oval
emulsion - Emulsion
subservient - unterwürfig; dienstbar
effusions - Ergüsse; Erguss
compressive - komprimierend
exsuction - Exsuktion
nipple - Nippel, Brustwarze, Stutzen, Verbindungsstück, Speichennippel
instinctive - instinktiv
Milky - milchig
nourishment - Ernährung; Nahrung
But still there was no end of his vigour: this double discharge had so far from extinguished his desires, for that time, that it had not even calmed them; and at his age, desires are power.
extinguished - ausgelöscht; löschen, auslöschen, auslöschen, abschalten
He was proceeding then amazingly to push it to a third triumph, still without uncasing, if a tenderness, natural to true love, had not inspired me with self-denial enough to spare, and not over-strain him: and accordingly, entreating him to give himself and me quarter, I obtained, at length, a short suspension of arms, but not before he had exult-ingly satisfied me that he gave out standing.
amazingly - Erstaunlich
uncasing - Entschalung; herausnehmen
Entreating - Bitten; ersuchen
exult - jubeln, jauchzen
The remainder of the night, with what we borrowed upon the day, we employed with unwearied fervour in celebrating thus the festival of our remeeting; and got up pretty late in the morning, gay, brisk and alert, though rest had been a stranger to us: but the pleasures of love had been to us, what the joy of victory is to an army: repose, refreshment, every thing.
unwearied - unermüdlich
The journey into the country being now entirely out of the question, and orders having been given overnight for turning the horses'heads towards London, we left the inn as soon as we had breakfasted, not without a liberal distribution of the tokens of my grateful sense of the happiness I had met with in it.
Charles and I were in my coach; the captain and my companion in a chaise hired purposely for them, to leave us the conveniency of a tete a tete.
Here, on the road, as the tumult of my senses was tolerably composed, I had command enough of head to break properly to his the course of life that the consequences of my separation from him had driven me into: which, at the same time that he tenderly deplored with me, he was the less shocked at; as, on reflecting how he had left me circumstances, he could not be entirely unprepared for it.
deplored - beklagt; bedauern
But when I opened the state of my fortune to him, and with that sincerity which, from me to him, was so much a nature in me, I beged of him his acceptance of it, on his own terms.
beged - gebettelt
I should appear to you perhaps too partial to my passion, were I to attempt the doing his delicacy justice, I shall content myself then with assuring you, that after his flatly refusing the unreserved, unconditional donation that I long persecuted him in vain to accept, it was at length, in obedience to his serious commands (for I stood out unaffectedly, till he exerted the sovereign authority which love had given him over me), that I yielded my consent to waive the remonstrance I did not fail of making strongly to him, against his degrading himself, and incurring the reflection, however unjust, of having, for respects of fortune, bartered his honour for infamy and prostitution, in making one his wife, who thought herself too much honoured in being but his mistress.
flatly - ganz einfach; kategorisch; ausdruckslos, emotionslos
refusing - Müll; abweisen, verweigern, abschlagen, ablehnen
unconditional - bedingungslos
Persecuted - Verfolgt; verfolgen, schikanieren, bedrängen, peinigen, plagen
remonstrance - Vorwürfe; Protest, Einspruch, Beschwerde
degrading - erniedrigend; degradieren, herabstufen, herunterstufen
unjust - ungerecht
bartered - verschachert; Tauschhandel, Tauschgeschäft
infamy - Berühmtheit; Schande
prostitution - Prostitution
The plea of love then over-ruling all objections, for him, which he could not but read the sincerity of in a heart ever open to him, obliged me to receive his hand, by which means I was in pass, among other innumerable blessings, to bestow a legal parentage on those fine children you have seen by this happiest of matches.
innumerable - Unzählige
blessings - Segnungen; Segen, Segnung, Segnen, Segen, Segnung, Segnen
Thus, at length, I got snug into port, where, in the bosom of virtue, I gathered the only uncorrupt sweets: where, looking back on the course of vice I had run, and comparing its infamous blandishments with the infinitely superior joys of innocence, I could not help pitying, even in point of taste, those who, immersed in gross sensuality, are insensible to the so delicate charms of VIRTUE, than which even PLEASURE has not a greater friend, nor VICE a greater enemy.
uncorrupt - unbestechlich
blandishments - Schmeicheleien; Schmeichelei
immersed - untergetaucht; eintauchen, vertiefen
Thus temperance makes men lords over those pleasures that intemperance enslaves them to: the one, parent of health, vigour fertility cheerfulness, and every other desirable good of life; the other, of diseases, debility, barrenness, self-loathing, with only every evil incident to human nature.
intemperance - Zügellosigkeit ?
enslaves - versklavt; versklaven
fertility - Fruchtbarkeit
debility - Schwächezustand
barrenness - Unfruchtbarkeit
You laugh, perhaps, at this tail-piece of morality, extracted from me by the force of truth, resulting from compared experiences: you think it, no doubt, out of character; possibly too you may look on it as the paultry finesse of one who seeks to mask a devotee to vice under a rag of a veil, impudently smuggled from the shrine of Virtue: just as if one was to fancy one's self completely disguised at a masquerade, with no other change of dress than turning one's shoes into slippers; or, as if a writer should think to shield a treasonable libel, by concluding it with a formal prayer for the King. But, independent of my flattering myself that you have a juster opinion of my sense and sincerity, give me leave to represent to you, that such a supposition is even more injurious to Virtue than to me: since, consistently with candour and good nature, it san have no foundation but in the falsest of fears, that its pleasures cannot stand in comparison with those of Vice; but let truth dare to hold it up in its most alluring light: then mark, how spurious, how low of taste, how comparatively inferior its joys are to those which Virtue gives sanction to, and whose sentiments are not above making even a sauce for the senses, but a sauce of the highest relish; whilst Vices are the harpies that infect and foul the feast.
finesse - Raffinesse, Geschick, Feinheit, ausarbeiten
shrine - Heiligtum; q
shield - Schild, abgeschirmt, Abschirmung; abschirmen
treasonable - verräterisch
libel - Verleumdung; (schriftlich) verleumden
injurious - schädlich
San - Speichernetzwerk
spurious - fälschlich; unecht, gefälscht, falsch, herumirrend, beiläufig
comparatively - vergleichsweise
harpies - Harpyien; Harpyie, Drachen
foul - schmutzig
The paths of Vice are sometimes strewed with roses, but then they are for ever infamous for many a thorn, for many a cankerworm: those of Virtue are strewed with roses purely, and those eternally unfading ones.
strewed - bestreut; streuen
thorn - Dornen; Dorn
cankerworm - Krebswurm
unfading - unvergänglich
If you do me then justice, you will esteem me perfectly consistent in the incense I burn to Virtue. If I have painted Vice in all its gayest colours, if I have decked it with flowers, it has been solely in order to make the worthier, the solemner sacrifice of it to Virtue.
incense - Weihrauch, Räuchwerk ''(archaic)'', empören, erzürnen
solemner - feierlicher; feierlich, ernst
You know Mr. C*** O***, you know his estate, his worth, and good sense: can you, will you pronounce it ill meant, at least of him, when anxious for his son's morals, with a view to form him to virtue, and inspire him with a fixed, a rational contempt for vice, he condescended to be his master of the ceremonies, and led him by the hand through the most noted bawdy-houses in town, where he took care he should be familiarized with all those scenes of debauchery, so fit to nauseate a good taste?
condescended to - geruhtest
bawdy - unzüchtig; unanständig
nauseate - anekeln; verabscheuen
The experiment, you will cry, is dangerous. True, on a fool: but are fools worth so much attention.
I shall see you soon, and in the mean time think candidly of me, and believe me ever,
candidly - aufrichtig; offen
MADAM, Yours, etc., etc., etc. X X X